Disclaimer: Fushigi Yuugi doesn't belong to me!……..wish it did……..but it doesn't.

Authors Note: hello everyone, sorry this chapter took 4 months to be posted. I blame school, and writers block. I promise to try and write more in the future.

Warning: there is talk of rape in this chapter, as well as sex, just to warn people who might not want to read about it.

Now on with the fic, enjoy!….

Ch. 5: Betrayed

He stood upon the moonlit building, staring up at the pitch dark, star scattered sky. The soft wind blew his golden blond hair behind him. Looking at him the first thing that came to mind would be 'devishlly handsome,' but then you would look into his eyes and you feel a shiver going up and down your spin. Those beautiful blue eyes don't even look at you, they look right through you. No matter who you were, there is nothing but hatred there. It hadn't always been like that, there'd been a flame for life and happiness before.

Before her.

Closing his eyes, he remembered her, the way she used to look up at him and smile, her eyes full of trust and happiness. The way she would smile when she saw him after they'd been apart for a while. The way she would blush shyly when he showed any kind of affection in front of others. Everything about her had fascinated him, but there had always been some part of herself she would keep hidden from him and the others. And this had angered him, he wanted it all, and what he wanted he got, no matter the price.

Visions of their time together flashed before his closed eyes. The last few months had been the roughest. He had pushed and pushed but she wouldn't be swayed, she just pushed right back. They had argued, that night, that was what had started it. He had argued that it was time, she loved him didn't she. She had argued right back that loving someone didn't mean that she was willing to give herself to him like that yet, she need more time, and she wanted to wait.

This had been the last straw, he had cracked. He could feel it now, all the anger and frustration that had rushed through him. Before he knew it she was under him, fighting him, begging him to stop. He had lost all control.

Ripping her clothes off, he had taken her right there on the floor of her apartment, like a savaged beast. She had cried and begged for him to stop the whole time. When it had ended she had laid there, tears streaming down her face, her eyes full of hatred and broken trust as she stared at him. This is what had brought him back, the look in her broken eyes.

He had tried to apologize, as he had been filled with self-repulsion. Before he could have gone any further, she had spoken. In a broken, hardly heard voice, she had told him to leave, leave and never come back. She would never forgive him for what he just done to her. Before he had closed the door behind himself, he had looked back at her, what he had seen had made him want to kill himself, she lay there on the floor, curled up in the fetal position, crying her heart out.

As he'd walked home, he had noticed the change. At first he had tried to ignore it, but it wouldn't leave him alone. It was almost like a voice in his head. It kept telling him to admit it and accept it because it was the truth. No matter how hard he had tried it, he finally admitted it to himself, he had enjoyed what he'd just done, he enjoyed the power he had held over her, no matter how short it had been, he had enjoyed. It had sickened him for a while, but then the voice took over again, telling him that it was for the best, before he'd blacked out. When he'd come to, he was at home, in his bed, with no idea how he'd gotten there.

But that didn't matter any more, it was all different now.

They had come all at once, all the memories of the past life. All the fighting, pain, and anger. What had surprised him was that all his friends had been there as well. Kaen (Soi), Chuin (Tomo), Koutoku (Amiboshi), and Shunkaku (Suboshi). And himself, Ayuru, the leader of the Seiryuu Seven, Nakago. There where two missing, but they would be found in due time.

The biggest surprised was the fact that she had been there as well, and they'd been enemies.

Before he could confront her about this though she had disappeared, he hadn't bothered looking for her, he would find her when it was time. He'd used that time to restore Kaen's and Chuin's memories. Chuin wasn't being as cooperative as he should but they working on it. The other two had disappeared as well, but they would be found and punished for their treachery, past and future.

Sensing movement behind him, he turned to find Kaen standing behind him. Her eye as cold and hateful as his, she too wanted to get back to those for what had been done to them in the past.

"All is ready," Kaen's cold voice broke the silence. "When do we begin?"

"You've found the traitors?"

"Yes, I believe they went after….her."

Ayuru smirked at the look Kaen's face when she was mentioned; they never said her name anymore. There was also the fact that the feelings she had harboured in the past had been pasted on to this life time.

It mattered not, he thought, looking back across the city, everything was ready.

Soon, Willow, soon you will me mine again………

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Moon light spilled into the darkened room, fighting off the shadows of the night, bathing the couple in the bed.

They lay fast asleep, at least the blond man was. He lies on his stomach, the blankets drawn up to his waist to hide his nudity, his arm thrown over the woman beside him. His soft breathing the only testament of his slumber. His eye lids flutter as he dreams.

The auburn haired woman lay on her back, face turned to the side as she watched her lover sleep. She watched as a ghost of a smile crossed his face and he sighed the name she had come to hate.

Willow

Kean sighed and hugged the blankets to her chest; she turned away from Ayuru and gazed up at the ceiling. So, she thought. You still yarn for her. At this point she was glaring at the ceiling.

It was a few about a month or two now that she and Ayuru were 'involved.' After Willow had disappeared one thing had lead to another and they had ended up in bed. From then on a day didn't pass that they didn't end up sleeping together.

At times something deep down told her that it was wrong but she just brushed it aside.

Sighing in frustration, she got out of bed, not bothering to take a blanket with her. Nude, she walked across the room and picked up Ayuru's shirt. Putting it one, she buttoned two of the buttons and pulled on her underwear. Making her way to the balcony door, she smirked. A few months ago she would have been mortified with her behaviour and attire, but since she had gotten back the memories from the book she liked to wear cloths that showed off her "figure."

Stepping out into the cool air, she rolled her eyes at herself, that part of her was gone. She no longer acted or dressed like the nice and proper woman she was before, she like this change she had gone through, she felt more open with herself. Any one who dared to call her slut would suffer at her hands. Kean Haku was no slut, she belonged to Ayuru alone.

Gazing out at all the city lights she frowned. She may belong to Ayuru but he did not belong to her. He still long for…her, and she hated it.

Before the memories they had been friend, they had been so close they could have been sisters. But things had changed. Sometimes she caught herself wanting that bond back, she would miss her. She didn't let herself dwell in this thoughts, with them came many questions that confused her.

Kean remembered the day that had changed everything………

(Flashback)

Kean hummed as she made her way to Willow's apartment. She was going to pick her up and they were going to spend the day together just the two of them. She felt a stab of jealousy as she thought about all the time Willow spend with Ayuru, but she quickly banished the thought. Ayuru and Willow were two of her best friends and they were happy together, that was all that mattered. With that thought in her head she quickly continued on to Willow's.

Standing in front of Willow's door, she knocked and waited……and knocked again, and again. After about five minutes of knocking and calling for Willow to open the door, she started to panic. Opening her hand bag and searched for the spear key Willow had given her in case of an emergency. Finding it she quickly opened the door and went in.

She frowned as she looked around the living room, Willow's cloths were scattered all over the place, this wasn't like her. Calling her name, she made her way to the bedroom. As she neared she could hear the water running in the bathroom. She knocked on the door and called for Willow again, waiting a few minutes and still not getting any answer, she opened the door and stepped in.

The minute she stepped in she could feel that something was wrong. She called out Willows name and was answered by a heart wrenching sob. Walking over to the shower, she lifted a trembling hand and pulled back the curtain to find a distraught Willow sitting under the spray, trying to scrub herself clean. Looking at her eyes, Kean saw that they were glazed over and panicked.

Kean placed a hand on her shoulder, "Willow?" This only caused Willow to flinch away from her and whimper. This confirmed that something was wrong. She quickly turned off the ice cold water and went in search of a towel.

Finding one, she returned to find Willow crying her heart out. This scared her, never in all the time that they had known each other had she seen Willow so broken. Draping the towel over Willow's shoulders, she helped her out of the tub and took her to the bedroom. Sitting her on the bed, she dried her off and put on her warmest PJ's, and wrapped her with the blankets. All through this Willow sat there, with tears running down her face.

Kneeling in front of Willow, Kean took her best friends face in her hands and tried to calm her down. "Willow? Willow tell me what wrong," Kean was frightened; she didn't know what to do. At this point she herself had tears running down her face. "Please tell me so I can help you. Please, I can't do anything if you don't tell me…."

Then as if finally noticing that it was Kean in front of her, Willow flung herself into her arms and sobbed into her shirt. Kean, not knowing what to do, held the girl she had come to think of as her sister and tried to

calm her down.

After a few minutes, Willow finally stopped crying. Taking this for a good sign, Kean started to question her again.

"Willow, please, tell me what happened. Everything was fine the last time I saw you yesterday. What happened?"

Willow pulled back from the embrace and sat on the bed again. "I…I can't," she responded, not meeting Kean's eyes.

Taking a sit beside her friend, Kean reached over and turned her face so that she was looking at her. "Yes you can. We're like sisters; we keep no secrets from each other. I'll always be here for you, you can trust me."

This seemed to encourage Willow, taking a deep breath; she said the words that would change everything between them. "Last night….Ayuru….he forced himself on me….."

The minutes those words registered themselves in Kean's mind, something snapped inside her. Instead of being enraged with Ayuru for hurting her friend, instead of feeling sorry with her friend, who undeniably hadn't wanted it to happen, she felt anger, red hot anger toward said friend. In her mind all she could think was that Willow had stolen Ayuru from her. He belonged to her and her alone.

Before she could stop to think about this, she lifted her hand and slapped Willow as hard as she could. Getting off the bed, she glared down at Willow.

Willow not knowing what was happening brought a shaking and to her throbbing cheek, she looked up at Kean in horror. She had just slapped her, her best friend…..

Before Willow could say anything, Kean screamed at the top of her lungs, "I HATE YOU!"

"What…..Kean what are you…"

"Shut up! I hate you! How could you do this to me! He's mine, you hear me, stay away from him if you know what's good for you!"

With that, Kean turned and stormed out of the apartment, steaming mad. Some how she had made her way to Ayuru's apartment. Once there she had blacked out. She had come to, to find herself in Ayuru's bed, with him sitting beside her, waiting for her to wake up.

She had been confused, how had she gotten here? Then it came back to her. Finding Willow in the shower. Calming her down, her telling her that Ayuru had raped her….

She turned to Ayuru, tears in her eyes, "How could you! How could you do that to her!" then the rest come. "God, what have I done? I slapped her!" she tried to get out of the bed, she had to go back, she had to make things right.

Before she could get up, Ayuru had her pinned to the bed. "Where do you think your going?"

His voice, his voice was so cold. Looking into his eyes, Kean gasped. This wasn't that Ayuru she knew. His eyes were as cold as ice. But some how it seemed right, how was that possible? Then she felt it, something deep within her straining to get out.

"Let her out," said Ayuru, noticing her confusion. "Let her out, its time."

"What are you talking about?"

"I know you feel it. Something deep inside telling you that it's right, all the anger, all the hate. Its right, so just let go, one way or another it's going to win, just give in," and with that he kissed her. It wasn't a soft, tender loving kiss, it was a demanding kiss. That's all it took, with that one kiss her defences had crumpled and Soi, warrior of Seiryuu had emerged.

(End Flashback)

After that, Kean had never seen Willow again. Thinking about her brought tears to her eyes, she missed her. As quickly as she could she pushed the thought back, along with the voice that kept telling her that all of this wrong. That was in the past, all that mattered was that Ayuru was hers now. She would do everything in her power to keep it that way.

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A.N.: okay that was Ch. 5. I have Ch. 6 half way done so I'll try and finish soon. I have about 8 pages done so far, so it's going to be a long one. And now thanks to all the people who reviewed.

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