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Hey this is just something I'm trying.. This is the prologue as if you couldn't get that from the title..It is set around where season five was taking place. Jess graduated and he stayed in Stars Hollow with Rory afterwards. Read on and Please review...

Prologue

He stumbled in at two am. He was drenched and unknowing of what was about to happen, what he was about to do.

"Rory." He slurred his words as he woke her.

"Jess?" She asked softly as he kissed her.

She could smell the alcohol on his breath, she hated when he drank. He got on top of her and pulled at her sweats.

"Jess, no."

She tried to stop his actions. She didn't want to have sex with him when he was like this. He kissed her sloppily and pulled down her sweats.

"Jess stop it. I don't want to."

He ignored her and began removing his own clothes.

"Jess stop!"

He had come home drunk before, he came home drunk and wanted sex before, and she sometimes gave in, but she didn't want this now. He went on and ignored all her pleas for him to stop. It didn't hurt her physically but it hurt mentally, to know that he was doing this, that he wouldn't stop when she told him to. He stopped finally, Rory rolled over tears in her eyes. She just stared at the wall parallel to the bed.

He left, he left for California, every now and then she would get a letter form him, he would try and explain why he couldn't come home, he would tell her how sorry he was for doing what he did, he never called it what it was, rape.

Honestly she never considered it rape, she knew he was drunk and didn't know what he was doing, she understood how much crap he was dealing with at that point. She had forgiven him a long time ago, she just never told him.

The letters always had a return address and she would write, she would write a thousand letters but she would never send them, she mostly just took comfort in the fact that she knew where he was and that he was okay.

The letters stopped coming a while ago and she had worried, she discovered that she didn't have time to worry when she found out she was pregnant. That night her boyfriend raped her, her son was conceived, out of that horrible experience came her son.

When Oliver was born she cried for days, unable to even look at her son, he was a part of the man she loved, and lost. She couldn't hold him till Lorelai forced her to look the baby in the eyes and see that he was just as much a part of her as he was of Jess.

Jess didn't even know he had a child, something she always felt guilty about. When the letters had stopped coming, when she found out she was pregnant, she never had the heart to go through all the trouble of finding him, she didn't even know where to start.

But every night she kissed her son's forehead as she put him to bed she felt a twinge of guilt course through her body, for Jess, that he didn't know his son and for her son who didn't know his father.

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