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Chapter 7-Wow.

Lorelai sat waiting for the phone to be answered. Three more rings till Rory answered.

"Hello?"

"Rory?" Lorelai could hear Oliver crying in the background.

"Yeah. Hey. Where are you? I went to Luke's and he said you ran off." Rory said struggling to calm the screaming child in her arms.

Lorelai was trying to find an answer for her daughter's question.

"Hey mom, I gotta go Oliver is screaming. Uh I'll call you when I get him to stop."

"Uh alright babe. Call me." Lorelai said, relieved she didn't have to come up with an answer to where she was just then.

"Bye mom."

"Bye hun." They hung up their phones.

Lorelai let out a sigh and turned to Jess, who was asleep on the couch in his apartment.

She glanced at her cell phone's clock; '7:39.' She thought.

She looked around again. She felt like doing something, but there was nothing to do. She would have cleaned, but the apartment was spotless. She would have turned on the TV, if she wasn't afraid of waking Jess up. She ran through a list of things she could do and a list of reasons she couldn't do them.

She had one final thought; 'I could snoop.' There was no problem with this in her head, so she did what every logical Gilmore would do; she snooped.

She walked into what she assumed was Jess' room, judging by the posters and the collection of books, band tee shirts, and CDs that were strewn about the room.

She went in, taking in the surroundings. She stood next to his closet looking at his calendar. It was mainly blank, save for the marks of his AA meetings.

"Jess going to AA meetings. Jess standing up and saying 'I'm Jess and I have a drinking problem.' He was trying to change, by the looks of things here he has. At least until today." Lorelai said quietly to herself as she walked over to his desk.

She sat down and shuffled some papers around. This was the one place in the whole apartment that seemed mildly chaotic. She accidentally hit a button on his open laptop. The screen clicked on, letting a brilliant light wash over Lorelai.

She decided it was best to snoop in here as well. There was already a program running. Word Pro.

She read the title; "Article for 3rd issue."

She clicked the file button. It dropped down and reveled other recent documents. One in particular caught her eye. It was simply titled, 'book'. Curiosity took over and she clicked it. And began to read.

The beginning- An over view

My name is Jess, and I am writing this book with no unreal expectations of publication or any sort of recognition. I am writing this simply to just get it out. It's all been inside of me for so long the entire time after, after I left my girlfriend. I left for good reason, let me tell you that first. We had dated for three years, we lived together for two years. We went to the same college, Yale, doesn't get more prestigious than that. I had been failing three classes, and I could never bring myself to tell her. Because then I would be her failure, and I couldn't handle that. She was to perfect to have any piece of her life be a failure. I didn't want to bring her down with me. On most nights I would stay out late and get drunk, stupid choice I know. I would come home and I know she hated when I was drunk, I wasn't an angry drunk or even a happy on, I was a rare subdivision of drunk; The realistic drunk. It doesn't sound like it makes sense but it does, I knew what would happen when I would come home drunk. She wouldn't say two words to me, she would roll over and then be gone before I woke up. She would be gone, she would always leave a note. It was never to scold me for getting drunk, it would only say; I went out for breakfast with Lane. I'll be back at about noon and then we'll go to class. Eat something. I love you, Rory. It would always be sweet and never one mention about me drinking, she would never say how much it hurt her to see me that way, but I knew it killed a little part of her each time I came home drunk.

I loved her, there was no doubt about that. I had even planned on marrying her, I bought a ring. I always had it with me, I could never leave it in the apartment, because my girlfriend and her mother, Lorelai, liked to snoop, a lot. Nothing was ever safe, they'd find it in the most obscure hiding places, they would make you go, 'Why did you even think to look in there?'. It was something they both shared, along with so many other things. I would never let it get out, but I always admired Lorelai.

She had Rory when she was only sixteen. She was strong, stronger than anyone I know. She raised a perfect daughter all by herself. She created an amazing relationship with her daughter. They shared everything, clothes, taste in music, taste in the wrong guys, they're crazy obsession with movies, and the one thing every noticed, they both had the shockingly beautiful blue eyes. I always thought that maybe there was some hidden power within them, the power to make any man fumble and fall in love. I think I might be right. Lorelai worked so hard to give Rory everything, she did a damn good job of it to. I know that there was one thing Lorelai was always scared of, she didn't want her daughter to turn out like she did. She didn't want her to get pregnant at 16 and run away. I think that's why she hated me so much, I was the bad boy who would corrupt her daughter and get her pregnant. I didn't, but I understand why she was so worried that I would.

She came to accept me after she realized I wasn't going anywhere. She shouldn't have taken her eyes off me though. I wish she would have forbade Rory to date me, because then I wouldn't have been able to hurt her the way I did.

In the end I did hurt her. I came home drunk and did something that I can never erase, I raped my girlfriend.

So now after I have started my life over again I realized; In all the time I was so worried about telling her why I got drunk, afraid of being her failure, that I never realized that getting drunk was so much worse.

"Wow." Lorelai said eyes still fixed on the screen.

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Newtie