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This chapter was kinda hard to write. I don't think its to great and I'm fairly certain in makes no semblance of sense, but just read it.
Chapter 11- Right that makes much more sense.
Rory paced slowly in the living room, biting her nails as she went. Lorelai's eyes went back and forth.
"Rory, I think you should talk to him." She offered.
"Yeah. But he's in New York. I cant go now."
"He's not in New York."
"Then where is he?" Rory questioned.
"Room three at the Dragonfly." Lorelai admitted.
"He's here? In Stars Hollow?"
"Yeah." Lorelai nodded.
Rory shook her head. "Watch Oliver for me." She said as she left, before Lorelai could say anything.
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How many times can a person fail and still be offered a second, third, or fourth chance? How many times can some one screw up so badly and still be accepted and loved? How many chances do I have now? Am I out? Are they all gone? Was this the last time? She said she forgave me, but can she ever love me again? Will I ever wake up from this endless nightmare?
A moment of weakness can never be revoked. I've learned my lesson. I cant take it back and there's nothing I can do to make it better.
And there was a knock on his door. He expected Sookie, again. He went to the door and opened it fully. He saw her staring at him, he was staring back. She looked sad and slightly defeated.
"Why?" She asked simply.
A simple question, one word. It had so many possible meanings, he didn't know which one she wanted. Why he was here? Why he left? Why he cant be a father? Why he started drinking? Why?
"Why did you start drinking?" She clarified.
"I." Jess was thinking of what to tell her, the truth was always a good option. "I was failing Yale." He finally said.
Rory nodded, a solemn look graced her features. "Can I come in?" She asked showing that she trusted him.
Jess nodded, stepping out of the way so she could get in.
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Lorelai walked, holding Oliver, to the diner. She had a worried look on her face. Half way there she turned the other way and walked to the Dragonfly.
When she got there she put Oliver in his play area asked Michel to watch him and went up to room three with Sookie.
The sat there, and with ears to the door listened to the conversation.
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There they stood, six feet and a bag of clothes separating them. Neither of them moved, or said anything. They simply stood there studying each other.
"You know I thought I could do this," Rory began to speak, "I thought I could come here and say words and you would say them too and then everything would be better. But its not working and I don't know how to make it work."
"I don't either. I don't know how to fix things."
"The toaster."
Jess smiled weakly, but sincerely. The toaster that he fixed after Rory had told him how much of a hard time the town was giving Luke because of his stunts.
"This is different."
"I know that." She told him.
It was silent again.
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Sookie and Lorelai strained to hear what was being said.
"I heard, 'I float Easter. I coat flow now you spinach beans.' What did you get?' Lorelai asked her partner in crime.
"I got 'I slow hat.'"
"Ugh damn these old walls. Can't hear anything."
They went back to trying to hear what was being said.
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"I'm sorry." Jess said, head down wards.
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"I got that." Lorelai said, looking like she was trying to become one with the wall.
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"I'm sorry for all the things I've done to you. For all the pain I've caused you. For all the things I should have done and for all the things I shouldn't have. For never telling you how much I really loved you, I'm sorry." He recited from the depths of his mind.
Rory just watched him.
"Please say something." He begged her.
"I. I wish you would have told me why."
"But I couldn't."
"Why, why couldn't you tell me? Why couldn't you just talk to me?"
"Because."
"Because why? You know in all the years we dated, lived together, had sex, I cant remember even one time that you talked to me. I mean really talked to me." Rory said not trying to make him feel bad, but just getting it out there.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry, just change it. Why couldn't you tell me?"
"Because I was afraid." He admitted.
"Of what?"
"Of bringing you down. You were so perfect. I would have failed you. And no part of your life can be a failure." Jess explained his mind set.
"You were afraid I would leave you?"
"Yes."
"Jess I love you. You were my best friend. There is no way I would leave you because of a few failed classes."
He couldn't help be notice the tense of 'love'.
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"Aww." Sookie and Lorelai said in unison.
Oliver started crying.
"Uh oh. Crying baby. We gotta go deal with him." Lorelai said standing up.
Sookie followed.
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The room had fallen silent again. Rory moved to sit down on the bed.
"I love you." She said more to her self than to him. "I never stopped loving you. I think you should know that."
Jess was silent, not knowing what to say, and not knowing what she wanted to hear.
"I hated your drinking. It, it changed you into someone I didn't know. Someone that scared me. It hurt, because I didn't want to be afraid of you. I loved you and it killed me."
Rory took a deep breath, "It didn't kill me to love you, it killed me to see you drunk."
"I know. I know."
"Then why did you do it? If you knew it hurt me?" She thought that she sounded amazingly self centered but she didn't care.
"Because it was easier than facing my problems."
Rory nodded.
"I get it."
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Sookie and Lorelai snuck back up to the door of room three. They sat there listening.
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"I get it." She repeated after a beat.
Jess smiled a little as she patted the bed next to her, motioning for him to sit down. He complied hesitantly.
She looked at him for a moment before taking his hand in hers. Lacing their fingers together.
"I trust you." She said, looking at their hands. "I know that you never meant to hurt me. I know that you would never do anything to intentionally hurt me. And I trust you."
"I love you." Was all he could find to say.
"I love you too." She smiled as everything suddenly felt right again.
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"Oh my god. Did you hear it?" Lorelai asked in a loud whisper.
"He said 'I love glue.' And she said it back." Sookie said.
"I'm pretty sure he said 'I love you.'" Lorelai told her.
"Right that makes much more sense."
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