Thank you to the following people:
thank you elysia, for making me read harry potter!(which i didnt)
thank you nicola for making mi continue...(i have otherthings to say but i dont wanna spoil it 4 u)
queen of whatever - i know where you live!
Dramaticangel - i was actually wondering wot it should have put it under...but angst and comedy just seemed so wierd and impossible..it just depends on how you look at it
lady rose 05 - thank you! you are soo nice! truth is i was expecting alot of flames...i rote the second chapter coz i didnt wanna completly dissapoint you...
hahukum konn - you did 2 reviews! thank you ! glad you liked it...i hate jason by the way...he goes to our school. never been friends and never will be...let the pain begin!
d mystery - i HATE your guts! what the fuck is your problem man? god dude, get a grip...and no, i wont be your friend!
may i ask...are there any other guys on this site?
okay here we go again!
Chapter 3 – we are equal
Ponyboy's POV
I started washing myself, it burns its soo hot but I need it too. She got me dirty, I can't be dirty! I'm going all red! I HATE to do this but I have to…
This is Soda's fault Pony, you know that. HE said you should go to the movies…
No its not! He just suggested it! Besides, I went alo-
Then it's Darry's fault! He basically shooed you out and didn't give you anytime to even ask for anyone to come!
He was angry!
He's ALWAYS angry at you! Think about it Pony! HE HATES YOU! He PUNISHES you because HE'S sad! Well Stuff him! Make Him pay Pony, make him PAY! Kill him! He doesn't deserve to live!
I'm looking at the blade on the sink…if only Mr. Platypus would shut up…
I've heard of cutting from school, they say you don't feel anything cause you're soo numb and filled with emotion, it helps bring you back to the world.
I'm in the world now, and when it rips your skin, it HURTS!
Why wont Mr. Platypus just shut up? If he doesn't stop I'm gonna have to hurt him
I guess you're right, god I hate Darry!
Now you're getting it! You can't forgive him...
Wait, what about black bunny? He hasn't done anything; it wouldn't be fair to hurt him too…
…Kill him, kill him Pony!
Well maybe..
- Don't pony! You know it's you that deserves to die!-
I've had enough
I bang my head against the wall, and hard.
I repeat it again and again, I can hear them screaming, it hurts my head to hear them scream.
I don't stop until I hear a meow.
I slowly lift the curtain on the window and look out, there's a multicolored cat (D-mystery says: stoopid people, it is not purple, it is black brown and white)
" I-I, wasn't h-hurting anyone.." I said to her.
She stares back, a hard look on her face.
"It was me, I was hurting me…"
She doesn't believe me… I knew this would happen... but it's true! I did hurt myself!
I have proof!
"No, please! I swear! Don't hate me! Everyone hates me! Even I hate me!"
- That's right pony, everybody HATES you -
I'm at the brink of tears, but I won't cry. Not in front of eve. I want her friendship, she is the closest thing to a friend I have, but I'm losing her.
"Look! Wait, look! I have proof!"
I stick my head out of the window, rub my hand softly over the part I had been hitting and show her the blood. It stings.
"see, I didn't lie, I didn't!"
But when I look out she is long gone.
I just want to cry! I just want to…
Kill somebody
No, I don't intend on killing ANYONE
I'm going mad, I need to calm down, I really need someone to talk to, anyone who will listen, but I know I cant tell anyone what I've done, what I've become. For once, Soda will not understand.
I take the blade Soda uses for shaving from the drawer and go the bath.
I hold my arm out and run the blade up and down, not even scratching it.
I bring it up to my wrist and pause; it's strange how people can be scared of other people. After all, we are only made of fluids, muscle; bone… all material, nothing scary about that. So what is scary about the socs? How do materials have such power over us? Why can we all be intimidated by such a waste of material? Like us… we are all equal combinations…
"Pony! Get out! You're taking too long! You're not the only one in this house!"
I'm not intimidated by Darry he's just a bunch of blood bone and muscle as am I. We ARE equal, what I can do to me, I can do to him.
I drag the knife down and rip my skin. It hurts like hell.
What I can do to me, I can do to him.