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Chapter 5-Unwanted Yet, Wanted

He was hurt. Torn. Broken. Only a few words from Kagome had done this to him. Lord knows what he would be going threw if he would have let Kagome finish what she was going to say. Her had only left because he didn't believe that this was coming from the Kagome he knew, the very Kagome who had always forgiven him for anything he had done.

But now he thought that she would never forgive him. But she had to, unless she would just leave and not come back. But would she really do this?

Kagome tried to keep herself from falling back to sleep. She felt as if she did she wouldn't be waking up ever again. But that hadn't worked. In only a few seconds she had fallen back to sleep. Sango had been sitting over in the corner of the room watching her making sure she was going to make it threw the night.

Inuyasha came to a stop in front of a river. He looked down at his reflection and noticed he was still bloody from not long ago. He scooped some water into his hands and splashed it on his face. Then his arms, and every where else that might had have blood on him.

"Kagome…" he whispered softly to himself and looking up at the sky. "just hold in there please…even if you don't ever want to see me again. Just don't leave…please…" Inuyasha just kept looking up at the stars as if something major was about to happen. But nothing was going to happen and he knew this.

Everything had been going perfect. Until something happened to him and he just changed. It wasn't even something he could explain because he hadn't known what had happened to him. One moment he was fine and happy, then the next he got a strong smell of Kagome's scent, and he had changed. So did this mean that it was her scent in which made him like this?

Kagome awoke at the sound of water. She forced her eyes to open and then looked to her side. Kaede had been pouring some water into a small bucket looking thing. She had turned just in time to see Kagome's eyes slowly forcing themselves to stay open.

"Ye made it threw the night," Kaede said happily.

Sango's-who had been resting in the corner- head shot up and she smiled when she could see Kagome's eyes somewhat opened. She stood to her feet and walked over to her, only to sit back down.

"Sango…" Kagome said.

"Yeah, its me…"

"Thank you for watching over me…but I think I can manage from here…" she said weakly, and forcing a very weak smile onto her face that didn't convince Sango.

"Listen Kagome, I'm not going anywhere…got it!"

Kagome just smiled at her friend. Then she turned her head, and looked around. Inuyasha….where was Inuyasha? He had to be gone from what she had said to him. She looked up at the ceiling before trying to stand. She had only been stopped by Sango, who told her to lay back down. Kagome only fought back with Sango on how she was fine, though pain was shooting threw her body so unbelievably badly. And she really did just want to rest. But Inuyasha. She had to see him. Tell him she was sorry. That she didn't know what she was saying. He could understand….wouldn't he? He would do it to her all the time. So he would just have to understand her.

Finally Kagome gave into Sango's plead for her to lay back down and rest. And after doing this she had fallen asleep.

Day after day Kagome had just slept. She would be awoken by Kaede and Sango so she could eat something. But usually she wouldn't even eat. It had been almost two weeks now and Kagome was now active and up. But she still hurt. Not only the wound she had, but her heart. She hadn't seen Inuyasha once this whole time. And now she just wanted to see him more then anything.

"I'm going for a walk…" Kagome said as she left Kaede's hut.

"Do you want me to come with you?" Sango asked politely.

"no…I'm going to go and look for him…" she said, and after that she didn't get another answer from Sango.

She came to the beginning of the woods and entered. It was day time, so she should have been safe. Unless her wound decided it wanted to start bleeding again. The first place she was going to go and check was the god tree. But when she got there, Inuyasha hadn't been in the tree. This was a surprise to Kagome, but the next place she would go and check was the small river that she had bathed in the first time she was ever here.

But when she got there Inuyasha hadn't been there either. Then as she went to go and turn around she saw something from the corner of her eye. It was him, Inuyasha. She could tell from all the red and silver she had seen. He was sitting on a rock, just sitting there staring at her with sadness.

"Inuyasha…" she said softly.

Inuyasha's ears perked up like a dogs when its owner his calling him.

"I'm sorry Inuyasha!" she blurted out, not even waiting to see what he was going to do. "I should have said any of that stuff I said to you a while ago. I knew it wasn't your fault…but I just didn't want you to be near me… and if you do-" before Kagome could finish Inuyasha had jumped in front of her and pulled her into a tight embrace. Kagome's eyes widened, but then closed when she heard Inuyasha's voice.

"Its ok…I know. As long as your fine Kagome…that's all I wanted…I know you didn't mean those things…just stop crying ok…please?"

Inuyasha pulled Kagome away from his body and looked down at her. She smiled slightly and nodded.

Both Inuyasha and Kagome stood there silent. Not knowing what to say to one another. Kagome looked down at the floor, and Inuyasha looked the other way.

"I hope she is okay if she finds him…" Sango said to herself.

"You have to be worried about Inuyasha as well…" Miroku stood next to Sango, scaring as he said something being that she hadn't known he was there. She looked at him and smiled. He was right. It wasn't just Kagome that she had to worry about know. But Inuyasha because what Kagome had said to him a while ago.

Miroku looked at Sango closely, sadness was in her eyes and his only guess was because of Kagome and Inuyasha.

"Hey…I think they'll come back just fine…and there both going to be happy again…"Miroku said trying to reassure Sango. She just nodded and looked ahead of herself. Miroku smiled before grabbing Sango's hand.

"C'mon…lets go for a walk…we can even go and get Shippo and Kirara if you really want…"he said smoothly.

Sango looked down at her hand being covered by Miroku's and could feel the red in her face steaming into her cheeks. Making them a nice rosy red.

"No…" she said to him now making eye contact with him. "Let it just be me and you…it will be…um…more peaceful with out Shippo and Kirara…" she said, still blushing.

Miroku's smile became wider as they started to walk. Only Sango had pulled her hand away from Miroku's after a while, and said sorry she had forgot they were holding hands. But really she was just embarrassed, something the dumb monk couldn't see.

Kagome looked back to Inuyasha, who was now looking at her. She blushed a little and grabbed his hand.

"C'mon, lets go back…" Kagome said.

"No!" Inuyasha stopped her, surprising Kagome a bit.

She looked back at him, waiting for an answer. Inuyasha, being able to sense this, just looked away quickly and then pulled his hand away from Kagome's. Kagome smiled slightly and walked next to Inuyasha.

"Fine, we can stay here for a while…" she said softly. Inuyasha looked at Kagome and smiled. He looked away to hide his smile from her, but she had already seen it.

Inuyasha and Kagome had just stood there for an hour before Kagome felt how tired she had become. Inuyasha only nodded when she told him this and made her get on his back, and he quickly brought her back to Kaede's hut. When everyone had seen Inuyasha and Kagome walk in together, they only smiled now knowing that they were finally talking again.

Two Hours Later-

Kagome was sleeping in the far back of the hut as the others slept more up to the front. And Inuyasha was once again in the corner of the room like he usually was. And of course he wasn't sleeping. Something was keeping him up. But what? He looked over at Kagome, and smiled. It was her. She was the reason he was still up.

"Kagome…" he whispered to himself.

I love her, I love her so much. But then my mind just wont wonder away from Kikyo. Why cant I forget about her? Why? She's tried to kill me so many times, and yet I still wont forget about her. She just looms around in my mind all day without leaving. And when I sense her I cant help but run to her. She…she wont ever leave my mind, will she? No, she has to. I cant keep thinking about her. She is what's holding me back from telling Kagome how I feel about her. I'm afraid if I do, that then I will never see Kikyo again. Which I shouldn't be aloud to if I were to tell Kagome I loved her. But…I know that I would want to see her. Kikyo…why do you still haunt my mind in a good way unexplainable….?

Inuyasha sighed and blocked out his own thoughts. He couldn't think of Kikyo anymore. She was dead, and the only way to be with her was if he let her drag him down to the depths of hell with him. Which in some cases he had always thought about letting her do this. But then it was from that very day when Kagome had told Inuyasha she couldn't compete against Kikyo, he knew that what she had said was wrong. (from the episode…back to the place were we first met!) Kagome could compete against Kikyo. Inuyasha had told her that when ever he was around Kagome he was always happy and carefree. And he was, that he couldn't deny. No matter how hard he used to want to be able to deny it, he never could. Kagome was just like his little light in his dark world.

And you would never want to loose your little light. It would always guide you in the right paths. And that was Kagome. She was someone every guy would want to have. But Inuyasha was being spiteful and wanted Kikyo as well. But why?

Just then, he got a smell of her scent. It was her again. She was nearby trying to drag Inuyasha away from the others and towards her, he could just tell by the way her scent was flowing around the air. He didn't want to get up. Not again. Not so Kagome could see him, or here him leaving and follow him like she would usually do. But there was something wrong with Kikyo, he could just tell. He stood to his feet, and looked from Kagome to the hut door and back to Kagome. It was now, he had to make his decision now.

Kikyo wanted Inuyasha to go to hell with her this very night. He was able to sense this. But then Kagome. What was he supposed to do without his light in his life guiding him the right way. She had to of known how he felt for her, and she had to of felt the same way for him. Other wise she would have left a long time ago and not of came back. But still, telling himself this now didn't really help him with the choice he had to make.

Now what? What was he going to do? How was he going to make his choice?

YAY! i got this chapter in the same day i got my fruits basket on in...now thats some fast typing...dont ya think? lol..ok hope everyone enjoyed this chapter...please r.r thanks!