Why Does It Hurt So Much?
Disclaimer: I do not own the teen titans because if I did then robin and raven would be together. Once again I don't own the teen titans not yet anyways. Or the songs
I would like to thank all of those who reviewed my story. I am very thankful that you did. It was my first fan fiction
Tecna – I would like to thank you because you were the first one to review my story. But now it's not a one-shot I've been convinced for it to be multi chaptered
Ravenslair-I would like to thank you for reviewing my story. You were the second one to do it. And you are also the one to convince me to right another chapter. Once again thanks
The Komodo Dragon Phoenix-thanks for the comment. I'm glad you thought it was a masterpiece, but really it wasn't that great. So thank you for reviewing my story
On with the story
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Why Does It Hurt So Much? Chapter 2- my way to express myself
I wonder if the titans think about me. I especially want to know if he thinks about me. Like where I am, if I'm getting by, what kind of job do I have, or if I've found love. The answer to those questions I don't have. I wish I did though. It would make my life easier. I think about them all the time. I try not to but they keep coming. I even have flash backs about them, about what we did. I remember the good times and the bad times. The good times keep me relaxed, while the bad ones make me turn colder by the day. I've become so numb. I don't feel anything anymore. The only emotions I do feel are pain and sorrow. He is the reason why I am this way. He is also the reason to my success. My songs are mainly of him. My fans know I loved or still love a boy. They don't know whom though, they know because one of my album's names is called "Songs Of Him". I get fan letters everyday asking me who's the mystery guy. I don't reply to any of my fan letters. Its not because I don't care it's because I shouldn't. I don't feel worthy enough to have them as my fans. I think of my self as a burden and a person beneath everyone else. I don't know why I think this way. Maybe it's because I wasn't good enough for his love or I couldn't please him. I always try so hard to tell myself that he's gone. But he was still with me maybe not physically but in my memories that I try so hard to erase.
I express all of my pain in my music. It's like my escape. Like cutting, drinking, or doing drugs. Before I became a singer I use to cut myself to escape the pain. I don't have any scars though, because of my healing powers. I quit cutting myself. One day I looked at my reflection and was sick to my stomach and I looked at my fresh wounds and then to my cutting blade. I thought about how it was useless to cut myself it didn't solve anything so I quit. But that was years ago. I don't even get the urges. I'm happy with my music. It's safer that way.
A few days ago I was shocked and utterly surprised. Those emotions I haven't felt in a long time. I was reading the newspaper. The headline was everything I needed to see. It said the titans disbanded. I read the first paragraph and it said Robin and Star fire got divorced. I was happy. Another emotion I haven't felt in a long time. Then, again I felt sorry the titans disbanded and that Robin wasn't happy. That was the one thing that leaded me to him. I'll tell you right now I did get my happy ending. I use to think that I wouldn't but I did.
Well that was chapter 2. I know that was short but I tried. See I don't want to put in all of ideas. Because up there is the whole story is plotted out.
Yeah I sound crazy but anyways. I don't think it was all that great.
Well please review. Tell me what you think. I don't care if its constructive criticism. Wait the only reviews I don't want are flames. So please review my chapter
-Melissa