Disclaimer: I don't own CCS its owned by Clamp so don't sue me.
Summary: Sakura is a 16-year-old girl and she has a boyfriend called Eli.
Eli is very abusive and hurts Sakura when she displeases him and Sakura
can't confide in anyone. Syaron is the outcast of the class with a great
crush on Sakura. Will Sakura except Syaron or will she be trapped with Eli
forever?
This story has swearing and some suggestive material but nothing explicit.
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Love Is a Distant Dream
Chapter: 1
Pain
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Sakura's POV: -
I waited for him to give me another blow. And- Slap
His hand hit across my face and I thought my neck would snap for the way my head turned due to the impact. I fell to the floor and clutched my face. The pain was still there gripping my whole being. I could feel the red imprint of his fingers glowing on my face. 'Don't cry,' I told myself, 'Don't cry. Don't give him the satisfaction of hitting you.'
I used to tell myself this every time he started to beat me but sometimes I felt weak and would start crying or shed some silent tears but he still didn't show me any mercy. He thought I was his slave and he could treat me the way he wanted to but I'm not. But is that true? I do not know the answer myself anymore. I take his beatings his abuse and his threats but why? Is it because I love him? NO! NO! NO! NO! I cannot love such a monster who plays with my every emotion like his puppet. His little doll. But I cannot escape him either. I feel trapped in a shell and I'm suffocating. I really did forget how to breathe. I heard his footsteps nearing me. He was the lion and I was the prey.
He grabbed a handful of my hair and got me up. I winced in pain and struggled to get free but was rewarded with another slap and my face met the floor again. I tried to get up but he kicked me down and I felt the sharp blow of his foot like it was a cannon ball. He grabbed my hair again and got me up. I didn't struggle it was futile gesture which would lead to more abuse.
He smiled as he saw my tears and he bought his face towards mine. I could feel his hot breath and it send shivers down my spine. He smiled some more as he smelled my fear and caressed my cheek and then he gave me a punishing kiss. I tried to get free but he kept sinking his lips into mine. More years rolled down my face and I prayed to God that the nightmare would be over. My prayers were answered. He broke his kiss and gave another slap and turned to leave.
I started to sob. My body felt numb with all his beating. He grabbed his jacket and opened the door to my house. He turned to see me, "I don't wanna see you talking to Brian anymore- he looked at me, crying and said- baby you brought this on yourself. I told you not to talk to Brian, he's a person in my rival clan but you wouldn't listen. I did the right thing. This will teach you to obey me."
He slammed the door and I heard the sound of his motorbike speeding off and I lay on the floor in the darkness of my house. I lay there for some moments and I finally got up to my room. I opened the door and saw my cat, Kero, sleeping on my bed all curled like a ball.
I entered my bathroom and turned on the tap. I was ready to take a hot bath to soothe my bruises and aching body. I saw if the bath was ready and then I took of my clothes and put them in the laundry shoot. The warm water tingled against my skin as I stepped inside. I lay down on the tub and closed my eyes. The bathroom was dark as I hadn't turned on the night and it was turning dusk. I could hear the birds chirping as they made their way back to the shelter of their homes as if they were trying to escape the night. But I had no shelter. Not even my home could protect me from him. I was a lonely bird who couldn't escape the night and my night was he. Dark, cold and so misunderstanding. More tears rolled down my face. How could I make such a mistake? How could I? Now, my whole life is messed up. If I could only turn the clocks of time and go back to when I had sinned then my life would be ordinary now. I remember it so clearly, how I met him, How he tricked me with his fake promises of love and understanding, how he told me that they was no other like me. I will never forget how he turned my life into a nightmare, I will never forget his abusive attitude, and I will never forget him. I HATE YOU Eli Moon.
It was two years ago in autumn when I met him. He was a transfer student in my school. At first I treated him very kindly and nicely for he was new. The teacher assigned me to help him out as he was new and he came in the middle of the school term. I was glad to help him as he seemed nice and he was good looking too. Now, I get angered and shocked at my own stupidity. We started out as friends and he really was very friendly and nice to talk to. Even though me and friends didn't know him for long we all agreed to make him our friend and so he started hanging around with us.
Eli was extremely friendly. He used to drop Nikki home after her mother's operation. He remembered Chelsea's birthday and he presented her with a decoration piece of a swan, Chelsea liked it a lot as she was found of birds. He willingly stayed behind after school to help Rita for a Biology quiz and volunteered to do the decorations with Madison at the Valentines Day dance. Valentines Day I'll never forget that day.
Before the day of the dance, Eli had asked me to come over to his house for lunch. As my brother Torii and my father would be out I had to make my own lunch that day. I was not in the mood for cooking so I accepted his offer.
Eli picked me up with his limousine. Eli and his family were financially successful and very brilliant. His sister had passed out of high school with all A's and she was currently studying at the same College my brother went to, she was the top of the class there. His father is one of the most important men in the world and he owned the multinational company 'Luna' which was an expert in invented and selling new types of electronics. His father was always giving donations to other people and helped the needy. In front of the public they sounded like a wonderful and wealthy family but their private world was an enigma full of terrible rumors.
People said that Mr. Alex Moon's life was a web of murder and vandalism. He had affairs with numerous women and some pressed charges against him for abandoning them after making them pregnant or having relationships with their teenage daughters as well. He was related to the Mafia and they took down anyone who he did not like or was poking where they shouldn't. The local police was very cozy with him and the trials he had were said never to have happened. His wife left him saying that he was beast and a monster.
His sister was another case that people talked about. She was a very easy girl as the boys commented and she was almost expelled when she was in high school for having serious relationships with boys and girls . She was said to be a very horrible girl. She was a preying mantis that fed of the misfortune of others. She was always trying to be the center of attention and would try to do anything to achieve that. She was like the person her father was rumored to be with her own share of secret trials.
Eli was also in the web of these horrible rumors. This was why the majority of the student body avoided him. They even told me to keep away from him but I didn't listen to their advises, right now, I wish I had kept my distance. Eli was said to be a gangster. A gangster! At first I thought it was a horrible joke played by the people who hated him or was seemly jealous because he was smart and wealthy. First of all, he dressed like a decent guy and he spoke in a very nice manner, which, to my knowing, a gangster would never do and second, he was always nice and helping, so why did people think he was a gangster? He was said to have a gang in London and was always getting locked up in jail. He caused many violence and mayhem in the streets and was also rumored to have assaulted and raped a girl.
I didn't care of what people thought of Eli and his family. From my point of view they were a great family. I didn't know how wrong my P.O.V. was wrong.
While we were having lunch Eli asked, "Are you going to the dance with anyone?"
"No." I was not planning to go because I didn't like the boys who asked me out and I didn't wanna be a third person so I decided to stay behind, " So, are you going with someone?"
Eli smiled and said, "Yes, I am. She is a very nice girl."
"That's great." I said with mixed feelings of happiness for him and sight jealousy, "So who is she?"
"Guess." He had a smirk on his face.
"Is it Chelsea?"
"Chelsea is going with Zakuri."
"Oh right I forgot." I put a finger on my lips as I thought.
"Is it Nikki?"
"She is going out Mark."
"Is it Madison then?"
"No, she was asked weeks ago by Tom."
I asked names of other girls but I was wrong. Finally, I was getting fed up and annoyed. I had probably said all the names of the girls of my school and it was getting late, "Eli, is she from another school?"
"Maybe." He said smiling broadly, obvious liking the fact that I wasn't wt all close.
"I'll take that as a yes." I said getting up, "Thanks for the lunch Eli, I've got to get goin."
"Please, let Edison drop you." He offered.
"Thanks."
I was watching T.V. at the night of the dance. They were showing some great romantic flicks and I was watching them with Kero on my lap. Torii had already left some minutes ago with his date and my dad had made dinner reservations with Keiko earlier I was sitting around normally when the sound of a car honking disturbed my concentration. Just then someone rang the doorbell of my house and I was surprised cause I wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door and it was Eli!
"Eli what are you doing here?" I asked confused. He had a bouquet of red roses in his hands and he was wearing a black suit with a blue unbuttoned shirt. He was looking very good.
"These are for you." He gave me the flowers and kissed me.
I was taken back by the kiss. I wasn't expecting this from him.
He broke the kiss and presented me with a parcel. I was too shocked after the kiss to even ask him why was he here and why was he giving me a parcel. I just unwrapped it and was surprised with one of the most beautiful gowns in the world. It was white with pink and silver embroideries and it was shimmering with glitters, it exposed the shoulders.
"I love you Sakura Avalon. I always have, please be my date in this special night." He spoke in a soft, loving voice.
I looked at the dress with tears in my eyes. Nobody had ever done something like this.
"You don't have to go if you don't what to." He said nervously as he awaited my answer.
I looked at him with a radiant smile on my face and he was surprised that I was crying but was more surprised when I suddenly flung myself around him and kissed him.
He has been my boyfriend since that night.
I didn't know what caused it. Even until today I didn't get an answer to it. I guess I'll never found out why he started to change. He started to lose his regular shirts and pants to leather jackets and rugged jeans. He replaced his friendly and nice manner to a rude and insolent one. He started to be very over bearing and misunderstanding.
It was when I hugged Makoto Shizu that he got all angry. I explained to him that he was one of my friends and that it meant nothing but he called me a cheap girl who is always is flirting with boys. At the end of the argument, I told him I was breaking up with him and that was when I was giving a taste of his abusive nature. The next day, Eli and his newly formed gang had beaten up Makoto so badly they had to send him to the hospital. Eli threatened me that if I didn't obey him he would do the same to me and my friends.
At first I was scared to tell this to anyone seeing what he had done to Makoto so I decided to take care of him myself. I had made a great mistake. Whenever I didn't obey he would hurt me or the ones I love. He eventually broke my spirit and I had to listen to him so that the people close to my hurt did not get hurt. He even tried to isolate me from my friends by taking most of my time but I managed to have some strength left to defeat him in that area.
I got out of the water. My body was aching less now and most of my bruises felt less sore. I looked at my reflection on the mirror. My hair was in a mess and my eyes were puffy for the constant tears I had shed. I removed my locks and found a blueish-grey mark on my forehead. It was a slight bruise. I decided to clean it up in the morning before anyone sees it.
I entered my room and put on my pajamas. It was barely eight but I was too tired and pained to keep standing. I drop into my bed and slide the covers over my aching and bruised body. I started to drift into sleep and I only hoped that I don't see him in my dreamland. My last place of peace and shelter.
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Well that was the first chapter, please review to tell me how you think of the story so far and I will introduce the person Keiko in the second chapter. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -
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Love Is a Distant Dream
Chapter: 1
Pain
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Sakura's POV: -
I waited for him to give me another blow. And- Slap
His hand hit across my face and I thought my neck would snap for the way my head turned due to the impact. I fell to the floor and clutched my face. The pain was still there gripping my whole being. I could feel the red imprint of his fingers glowing on my face. 'Don't cry,' I told myself, 'Don't cry. Don't give him the satisfaction of hitting you.'
I used to tell myself this every time he started to beat me but sometimes I felt weak and would start crying or shed some silent tears but he still didn't show me any mercy. He thought I was his slave and he could treat me the way he wanted to but I'm not. But is that true? I do not know the answer myself anymore. I take his beatings his abuse and his threats but why? Is it because I love him? NO! NO! NO! NO! I cannot love such a monster who plays with my every emotion like his puppet. His little doll. But I cannot escape him either. I feel trapped in a shell and I'm suffocating. I really did forget how to breathe. I heard his footsteps nearing me. He was the lion and I was the prey.
He grabbed a handful of my hair and got me up. I winced in pain and struggled to get free but was rewarded with another slap and my face met the floor again. I tried to get up but he kicked me down and I felt the sharp blow of his foot like it was a cannon ball. He grabbed my hair again and got me up. I didn't struggle it was futile gesture which would lead to more abuse.
He smiled as he saw my tears and he bought his face towards mine. I could feel his hot breath and it send shivers down my spine. He smiled some more as he smelled my fear and caressed my cheek and then he gave me a punishing kiss. I tried to get free but he kept sinking his lips into mine. More years rolled down my face and I prayed to God that the nightmare would be over. My prayers were answered. He broke his kiss and gave another slap and turned to leave.
I started to sob. My body felt numb with all his beating. He grabbed his jacket and opened the door to my house. He turned to see me, "I don't wanna see you talking to Brian anymore- he looked at me, crying and said- baby you brought this on yourself. I told you not to talk to Brian, he's a person in my rival clan but you wouldn't listen. I did the right thing. This will teach you to obey me."
He slammed the door and I heard the sound of his motorbike speeding off and I lay on the floor in the darkness of my house. I lay there for some moments and I finally got up to my room. I opened the door and saw my cat, Kero, sleeping on my bed all curled like a ball.
I entered my bathroom and turned on the tap. I was ready to take a hot bath to soothe my bruises and aching body. I saw if the bath was ready and then I took of my clothes and put them in the laundry shoot. The warm water tingled against my skin as I stepped inside. I lay down on the tub and closed my eyes. The bathroom was dark as I hadn't turned on the night and it was turning dusk. I could hear the birds chirping as they made their way back to the shelter of their homes as if they were trying to escape the night. But I had no shelter. Not even my home could protect me from him. I was a lonely bird who couldn't escape the night and my night was he. Dark, cold and so misunderstanding. More tears rolled down my face. How could I make such a mistake? How could I? Now, my whole life is messed up. If I could only turn the clocks of time and go back to when I had sinned then my life would be ordinary now. I remember it so clearly, how I met him, How he tricked me with his fake promises of love and understanding, how he told me that they was no other like me. I will never forget how he turned my life into a nightmare, I will never forget his abusive attitude, and I will never forget him. I HATE YOU Eli Moon.
It was two years ago in autumn when I met him. He was a transfer student in my school. At first I treated him very kindly and nicely for he was new. The teacher assigned me to help him out as he was new and he came in the middle of the school term. I was glad to help him as he seemed nice and he was good looking too. Now, I get angered and shocked at my own stupidity. We started out as friends and he really was very friendly and nice to talk to. Even though me and friends didn't know him for long we all agreed to make him our friend and so he started hanging around with us.
Eli was extremely friendly. He used to drop Nikki home after her mother's operation. He remembered Chelsea's birthday and he presented her with a decoration piece of a swan, Chelsea liked it a lot as she was found of birds. He willingly stayed behind after school to help Rita for a Biology quiz and volunteered to do the decorations with Madison at the Valentines Day dance. Valentines Day I'll never forget that day.
Before the day of the dance, Eli had asked me to come over to his house for lunch. As my brother Torii and my father would be out I had to make my own lunch that day. I was not in the mood for cooking so I accepted his offer.
Eli picked me up with his limousine. Eli and his family were financially successful and very brilliant. His sister had passed out of high school with all A's and she was currently studying at the same College my brother went to, she was the top of the class there. His father is one of the most important men in the world and he owned the multinational company 'Luna' which was an expert in invented and selling new types of electronics. His father was always giving donations to other people and helped the needy. In front of the public they sounded like a wonderful and wealthy family but their private world was an enigma full of terrible rumors.
People said that Mr. Alex Moon's life was a web of murder and vandalism. He had affairs with numerous women and some pressed charges against him for abandoning them after making them pregnant or having relationships with their teenage daughters as well. He was related to the Mafia and they took down anyone who he did not like or was poking where they shouldn't. The local police was very cozy with him and the trials he had were said never to have happened. His wife left him saying that he was beast and a monster.
His sister was another case that people talked about. She was a very easy girl as the boys commented and she was almost expelled when she was in high school for having serious relationships with boys and girls . She was said to be a very horrible girl. She was a preying mantis that fed of the misfortune of others. She was always trying to be the center of attention and would try to do anything to achieve that. She was like the person her father was rumored to be with her own share of secret trials.
Eli was also in the web of these horrible rumors. This was why the majority of the student body avoided him. They even told me to keep away from him but I didn't listen to their advises, right now, I wish I had kept my distance. Eli was said to be a gangster. A gangster! At first I thought it was a horrible joke played by the people who hated him or was seemly jealous because he was smart and wealthy. First of all, he dressed like a decent guy and he spoke in a very nice manner, which, to my knowing, a gangster would never do and second, he was always nice and helping, so why did people think he was a gangster? He was said to have a gang in London and was always getting locked up in jail. He caused many violence and mayhem in the streets and was also rumored to have assaulted and raped a girl.
I didn't care of what people thought of Eli and his family. From my point of view they were a great family. I didn't know how wrong my P.O.V. was wrong.
While we were having lunch Eli asked, "Are you going to the dance with anyone?"
"No." I was not planning to go because I didn't like the boys who asked me out and I didn't wanna be a third person so I decided to stay behind, " So, are you going with someone?"
Eli smiled and said, "Yes, I am. She is a very nice girl."
"That's great." I said with mixed feelings of happiness for him and sight jealousy, "So who is she?"
"Guess." He had a smirk on his face.
"Is it Chelsea?"
"Chelsea is going with Zakuri."
"Oh right I forgot." I put a finger on my lips as I thought.
"Is it Nikki?"
"She is going out Mark."
"Is it Madison then?"
"No, she was asked weeks ago by Tom."
I asked names of other girls but I was wrong. Finally, I was getting fed up and annoyed. I had probably said all the names of the girls of my school and it was getting late, "Eli, is she from another school?"
"Maybe." He said smiling broadly, obvious liking the fact that I wasn't wt all close.
"I'll take that as a yes." I said getting up, "Thanks for the lunch Eli, I've got to get goin."
"Please, let Edison drop you." He offered.
"Thanks."
I was watching T.V. at the night of the dance. They were showing some great romantic flicks and I was watching them with Kero on my lap. Torii had already left some minutes ago with his date and my dad had made dinner reservations with Keiko earlier I was sitting around normally when the sound of a car honking disturbed my concentration. Just then someone rang the doorbell of my house and I was surprised cause I wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door and it was Eli!
"Eli what are you doing here?" I asked confused. He had a bouquet of red roses in his hands and he was wearing a black suit with a blue unbuttoned shirt. He was looking very good.
"These are for you." He gave me the flowers and kissed me.
I was taken back by the kiss. I wasn't expecting this from him.
He broke the kiss and presented me with a parcel. I was too shocked after the kiss to even ask him why was he here and why was he giving me a parcel. I just unwrapped it and was surprised with one of the most beautiful gowns in the world. It was white with pink and silver embroideries and it was shimmering with glitters, it exposed the shoulders.
"I love you Sakura Avalon. I always have, please be my date in this special night." He spoke in a soft, loving voice.
I looked at the dress with tears in my eyes. Nobody had ever done something like this.
"You don't have to go if you don't what to." He said nervously as he awaited my answer.
I looked at him with a radiant smile on my face and he was surprised that I was crying but was more surprised when I suddenly flung myself around him and kissed him.
He has been my boyfriend since that night.
I didn't know what caused it. Even until today I didn't get an answer to it. I guess I'll never found out why he started to change. He started to lose his regular shirts and pants to leather jackets and rugged jeans. He replaced his friendly and nice manner to a rude and insolent one. He started to be very over bearing and misunderstanding.
It was when I hugged Makoto Shizu that he got all angry. I explained to him that he was one of my friends and that it meant nothing but he called me a cheap girl who is always is flirting with boys. At the end of the argument, I told him I was breaking up with him and that was when I was giving a taste of his abusive nature. The next day, Eli and his newly formed gang had beaten up Makoto so badly they had to send him to the hospital. Eli threatened me that if I didn't obey him he would do the same to me and my friends.
At first I was scared to tell this to anyone seeing what he had done to Makoto so I decided to take care of him myself. I had made a great mistake. Whenever I didn't obey he would hurt me or the ones I love. He eventually broke my spirit and I had to listen to him so that the people close to my hurt did not get hurt. He even tried to isolate me from my friends by taking most of my time but I managed to have some strength left to defeat him in that area.
I got out of the water. My body was aching less now and most of my bruises felt less sore. I looked at my reflection on the mirror. My hair was in a mess and my eyes were puffy for the constant tears I had shed. I removed my locks and found a blueish-grey mark on my forehead. It was a slight bruise. I decided to clean it up in the morning before anyone sees it.
I entered my room and put on my pajamas. It was barely eight but I was too tired and pained to keep standing. I drop into my bed and slide the covers over my aching and bruised body. I started to drift into sleep and I only hoped that I don't see him in my dreamland. My last place of peace and shelter.
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Well that was the first chapter, please review to tell me how you think of the story so far and I will introduce the person Keiko in the second chapter. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -