Love Is A Distant Dream
Chapter: 3
Painful Memories
Eli's P.O.V.
Memories.
Memories.
Painful Memories.
I thought memories were something you were suppose to cherish but all my memories were painful but to my surprise I did learn to cherish those memories because they were the only memories I have.
"Eli, This is your 'new' mother." I heard my father say.
I was five then and I was confused for I did not understand what father meant by 'new' mother but I looked at the so-called 'new' mother and there was something that disturbed me. She had a cold and reserve look that brought back memories of 'old' mother. I looked at her as she was producing a fake smile and then I saw the young girl clinging to the material of her dress. She looked about my sister's age but a little younger I suppose. She had long blue hair and blackish-grey eyes. She looked upset and terrified. I looked at 'new' mother again, she was a real beauty with her raven black hair and sensuous green eyes but appearances were deceiving, were they not?
"I don't like 'new' mother." I answered plainly, I turned around and started to leave.
"Eli!" I heard my father's furious roar but I just kept on walking upstairs, "I'm sorry Hannah I can ex."
"There's nothing to say Makoto, You're son is just a snotty, brat like that bitchy daughter of yours. I just hope they treat my daughter alright." She yelled like my 'old' mother.
I went upstairs to my room but then I decided to go to her room. I left my room and went into the room several meters away from my room and I opened the door. The room was dim-lighted and a she was reading a book of Francine Pascal 'Sweet Valley Twins And Friends Elizabeth's First Kiss.' She turned her face to look at me, "What ya want brat?"
"Hello to you too Ruby." I answered, she just shrugged and went on reading.
"I presume you met 'new' mother." I said but I got my answer when I saw her angry face.
"Humph, you mean Hannah don't you, well I bet she is a bitch like mother." Ruby growled angrily.
"I understand." I remember saying, "She called me a brat for saying I didn't like her."
"Well you are a brat but only I can call you that." She smiled, "You're my brat."
I blushed a little I knew that Ruby sometimes cared for me more than a brother and her pet name to me was Brat. It felt funny but it was ok I guess.
Ruby smiled more as she saw me blush, her brown hair was tied in a braid and her pink eyes were seeing through me and she knew at that moment that I was feeling slightly uncomfortable for her talking to me like that.
"So," she was changing the subject, "Does she have a piece of her past?"
I instantly knew what she meant, "She has a daughter Ruby."
"That's nice, I feel bad for the poor thing." She was talking as though the little girl was some sort of abandoned animal who was suffering in the depths of the wilderness.
"She is downstairs." I softly spoke. Piece of her past clearly meant that if she had children with her ex or just children in general and when I said 'new' mother had a daughter, Ruby wasn't surprised cause she had told me 'new' mother was a s*** just like 'old' mother.
Ruby's head instantly shot up, "What do you mean she is downstairs?" her voice was harsh and cold.
"Yes, her daughter is downstairs with her." I replied.
Ruby chuckled, "So, dad bought a extra piece with the package." Her voice full of hatred as she spoke the insult.
"Well she looked nice." I muttered, "Maybe, maybe, we should be nice to her."
"Forget it!" Ruby yelled, "You want me to socialize with her forget it, maybe you can cause I think you like her better than you like me."
"How could you say something like that? She's my step and you are my sister."
She gave me a look and I knew I had said something to upset her.
'Old' mother was never nice to Ruby or me especially not nice to me. I tried my hardest to please her but it was always done in vain for she would be like an annoying child who would brag, nag and always complain. I didn't know why daddy married her but then I felt ashamed for uttering such nonsense for she was my mother. But sometimes her attitude made me secretly swear at her.
My mother.
I always use to tell nice things about her to my kindergarten schoolteacher. I made her sound angelic, a lovely saint who was there for us, cared for us and gave us the things I wanted. I lied, who would ever believe that it was like a miracle if I saw mother's good side and I didn't see much of her either. She was out shopping or with friends and whenever I use to see her she was screaming at the servants for not moving their 'lazy' asses and help her with her handful of bags.
She was always angry with my dad and all the conversations were yells of anger exchanged between them, "You told me you were going out on a meeting in Naples not to have a wonderful time with Jennah, your secretary!"
"Listen you bitch!" he screamed, "Jennah is my secretary! I took her along for the meeting! Not to have a great time kinda think of it I should have done that rather than spend my f**king time on a w***e like you!"
"You selfish bastard! Why do I give a damn about you anyway!" she would scream back.
"That's right Haruna," my father would say, "Scream all you want you stupid bitch!"
This was a normal scene in my household and everyone in the house was aware of the animosity between my parents but no one spoke a word, they either secretly discussed it in whispers when none of them was around.
Why didn't my parents get along?
Why?
Why couldn't they get along?
Why?
Why did they marry each other for?
Why did they give birth to us when they didn't give a f**k about us?
Why didn't mom love us?
Why didn't mom love me?
These were the questions that were always appearing in my mind and my mind got strange and confused answers for it leading me nowhere near reality.
My thoughts broke. My body tensed and my eyes grew extremely wide.
I was not expecting this at all.
I felt the hands drawing my face and those tender, warm lips embracing mine.
Ruby.
She must have noticed my body in a trance and so she must quietly put down her book and crept towards me, she was bending down on the floor for she was a bit taller than me. I was crimson, my first kiss: My first real kiss. It felt good. Once, 'old' mother had kissed me but that was a silent command from father to stop me from crying and someone else kissed me a couple of times. Someone who truly cared for me.
I clung to the staircase for support I was bleeding, yes I was bleeding. 'Old' mother had an intense fight with dad so she took it out on me. I had covered my face with my hands while she angrily flung the ashtray at me, "You are just like your father!". It hit my head and I instantly fell down and my body felt paralyzed. She gave an angry grunt and left me to bleed in the living room. My eyes were practically bulging out of my sockets. I commanded my hand to lift itself and see if the blood was real. My hand rubbed through a liquid type substance and I brought my hand near my eyes.
Crimson.
Thick crimson.
The red blood that flowed through my veins was showing its color.
My hand dropped itself in utter shock. She had always hit me harshly for not obeying her or was simply taking her anger out on me but this was the first time she had made me bleed. I cried for reasons I didn't fully understand. I was upset that my mother would do such a thing and this was just a horrific nightmare and when all this time my life was entrapped in this reality which was actually a dream all along, when I open eyes everything will be alright and my mom and dad, especially mom, will be just as beautiful as I fantasized them to be. But the other part of me knew the truth that this was no dream this was life, my life and this all has happened and I was crying for I was scared, helpless, knowing she will do this sinful act again. I felt my body numb to the pain because at that moment I was trying to forget the pain tearing through my forehead. I thought that I was soon going to taste death and free myself from cruel reality and reach the sanctuary called heaven. Oh, how deeply wrong I was.
My mind was slipping away and I felt myself falling when someone grabbed me and was yelling if I was alright or not but I had started to black out.
The soft voice of my father had woken me up and I looked at my surroundings. A hospital, so I was hurt pretty bad, I guess I was so engulfed in my mother's handy work that I had forgotten about pain.
"Son," my father said, "Evita, told me everything."
"She.She has?" I had a feeling Evita was around when mother had beaten me but had she report it.
"Yes, Eli you crashed into a wall while going down the stairs its horrible but you will recover soon." He said.
I looked at 'old' mother and realized she was showing daggers to Evita who was also in the room. Evita shielded herself from the daggers by looking away. The next look that mother gave me stabbed my heart. The reason for the look was unknown but it said clearly, 'you should have died.'
Evita was one of our housemaids and she was the only provider of love to Ruby and me. While father and mother were away she would act as both parents giving us what we need, fulfilling the duty of our neglectful parents. She would do everything for us even to buying us things from her own salary. Once Ruby had stole money from Mom's purse if it wasn't for Evita I think that was the last day Ruby was still breathing. Whenever we needed someone she was there and we thanked God for sending us a guardian angel. One day something happened. Something that had answered all my questions. Something that will scar me for the rest of my life.
The noises that wakened me in the middle of the night were not pleasant nor was it gentle. They were harsh but strong cries who would Take anything except to plead or ask mercy. I crept out of my room and went to see where it was coming from and what was happening and that's when I saw something that would change my life forever.
Distant roars of thunder and lightning were striking in the distance. I felt a cold, harsh and heavy wind sweeping across my face, which was being washed by a blanket of tears. The winds of time have changed in my life, Haruna was gone, Hannah was gone, Suppi was gone and most of all Evita was gone.
Why did the person I care about most leave me?
My life is like a deep ocean, an untamed, unknown world that is yet to be discovered. I wish I could have a happy life like my princess Sakura, she is doing great even with her stepmother, Keiko, but I guess God had made other plans for me. Sometimes I wish I could make things right but it is far too late to do anything. I miss all of them, except Haruna, but most of all Evita. She had to leave when I was finally getting a good life. I guess they all left their footprints in the sands of time and most of all my heart.
Ok that's the finish of this chapter oh about that Ruby kissing Eli part don't think this is like Angel Sanctuary (No Offense, I don't hate AS infact I like it very much it's a great anime in my P.O.V.) it'll be explained in the later chaps so plz don't get offended by it.
Chapter: 3
Painful Memories
Eli's P.O.V.
Memories.
Memories.
Painful Memories.
I thought memories were something you were suppose to cherish but all my memories were painful but to my surprise I did learn to cherish those memories because they were the only memories I have.
"Eli, This is your 'new' mother." I heard my father say.
I was five then and I was confused for I did not understand what father meant by 'new' mother but I looked at the so-called 'new' mother and there was something that disturbed me. She had a cold and reserve look that brought back memories of 'old' mother. I looked at her as she was producing a fake smile and then I saw the young girl clinging to the material of her dress. She looked about my sister's age but a little younger I suppose. She had long blue hair and blackish-grey eyes. She looked upset and terrified. I looked at 'new' mother again, she was a real beauty with her raven black hair and sensuous green eyes but appearances were deceiving, were they not?
"I don't like 'new' mother." I answered plainly, I turned around and started to leave.
"Eli!" I heard my father's furious roar but I just kept on walking upstairs, "I'm sorry Hannah I can ex."
"There's nothing to say Makoto, You're son is just a snotty, brat like that bitchy daughter of yours. I just hope they treat my daughter alright." She yelled like my 'old' mother.
I went upstairs to my room but then I decided to go to her room. I left my room and went into the room several meters away from my room and I opened the door. The room was dim-lighted and a she was reading a book of Francine Pascal 'Sweet Valley Twins And Friends Elizabeth's First Kiss.' She turned her face to look at me, "What ya want brat?"
"Hello to you too Ruby." I answered, she just shrugged and went on reading.
"I presume you met 'new' mother." I said but I got my answer when I saw her angry face.
"Humph, you mean Hannah don't you, well I bet she is a bitch like mother." Ruby growled angrily.
"I understand." I remember saying, "She called me a brat for saying I didn't like her."
"Well you are a brat but only I can call you that." She smiled, "You're my brat."
I blushed a little I knew that Ruby sometimes cared for me more than a brother and her pet name to me was Brat. It felt funny but it was ok I guess.
Ruby smiled more as she saw me blush, her brown hair was tied in a braid and her pink eyes were seeing through me and she knew at that moment that I was feeling slightly uncomfortable for her talking to me like that.
"So," she was changing the subject, "Does she have a piece of her past?"
I instantly knew what she meant, "She has a daughter Ruby."
"That's nice, I feel bad for the poor thing." She was talking as though the little girl was some sort of abandoned animal who was suffering in the depths of the wilderness.
"She is downstairs." I softly spoke. Piece of her past clearly meant that if she had children with her ex or just children in general and when I said 'new' mother had a daughter, Ruby wasn't surprised cause she had told me 'new' mother was a s*** just like 'old' mother.
Ruby's head instantly shot up, "What do you mean she is downstairs?" her voice was harsh and cold.
"Yes, her daughter is downstairs with her." I replied.
Ruby chuckled, "So, dad bought a extra piece with the package." Her voice full of hatred as she spoke the insult.
"Well she looked nice." I muttered, "Maybe, maybe, we should be nice to her."
"Forget it!" Ruby yelled, "You want me to socialize with her forget it, maybe you can cause I think you like her better than you like me."
"How could you say something like that? She's my step and you are my sister."
She gave me a look and I knew I had said something to upset her.
'Old' mother was never nice to Ruby or me especially not nice to me. I tried my hardest to please her but it was always done in vain for she would be like an annoying child who would brag, nag and always complain. I didn't know why daddy married her but then I felt ashamed for uttering such nonsense for she was my mother. But sometimes her attitude made me secretly swear at her.
My mother.
I always use to tell nice things about her to my kindergarten schoolteacher. I made her sound angelic, a lovely saint who was there for us, cared for us and gave us the things I wanted. I lied, who would ever believe that it was like a miracle if I saw mother's good side and I didn't see much of her either. She was out shopping or with friends and whenever I use to see her she was screaming at the servants for not moving their 'lazy' asses and help her with her handful of bags.
She was always angry with my dad and all the conversations were yells of anger exchanged between them, "You told me you were going out on a meeting in Naples not to have a wonderful time with Jennah, your secretary!"
"Listen you bitch!" he screamed, "Jennah is my secretary! I took her along for the meeting! Not to have a great time kinda think of it I should have done that rather than spend my f**king time on a w***e like you!"
"You selfish bastard! Why do I give a damn about you anyway!" she would scream back.
"That's right Haruna," my father would say, "Scream all you want you stupid bitch!"
This was a normal scene in my household and everyone in the house was aware of the animosity between my parents but no one spoke a word, they either secretly discussed it in whispers when none of them was around.
Why didn't my parents get along?
Why?
Why couldn't they get along?
Why?
Why did they marry each other for?
Why did they give birth to us when they didn't give a f**k about us?
Why didn't mom love us?
Why didn't mom love me?
These were the questions that were always appearing in my mind and my mind got strange and confused answers for it leading me nowhere near reality.
My thoughts broke. My body tensed and my eyes grew extremely wide.
I was not expecting this at all.
I felt the hands drawing my face and those tender, warm lips embracing mine.
Ruby.
She must have noticed my body in a trance and so she must quietly put down her book and crept towards me, she was bending down on the floor for she was a bit taller than me. I was crimson, my first kiss: My first real kiss. It felt good. Once, 'old' mother had kissed me but that was a silent command from father to stop me from crying and someone else kissed me a couple of times. Someone who truly cared for me.
I clung to the staircase for support I was bleeding, yes I was bleeding. 'Old' mother had an intense fight with dad so she took it out on me. I had covered my face with my hands while she angrily flung the ashtray at me, "You are just like your father!". It hit my head and I instantly fell down and my body felt paralyzed. She gave an angry grunt and left me to bleed in the living room. My eyes were practically bulging out of my sockets. I commanded my hand to lift itself and see if the blood was real. My hand rubbed through a liquid type substance and I brought my hand near my eyes.
Crimson.
Thick crimson.
The red blood that flowed through my veins was showing its color.
My hand dropped itself in utter shock. She had always hit me harshly for not obeying her or was simply taking her anger out on me but this was the first time she had made me bleed. I cried for reasons I didn't fully understand. I was upset that my mother would do such a thing and this was just a horrific nightmare and when all this time my life was entrapped in this reality which was actually a dream all along, when I open eyes everything will be alright and my mom and dad, especially mom, will be just as beautiful as I fantasized them to be. But the other part of me knew the truth that this was no dream this was life, my life and this all has happened and I was crying for I was scared, helpless, knowing she will do this sinful act again. I felt my body numb to the pain because at that moment I was trying to forget the pain tearing through my forehead. I thought that I was soon going to taste death and free myself from cruel reality and reach the sanctuary called heaven. Oh, how deeply wrong I was.
My mind was slipping away and I felt myself falling when someone grabbed me and was yelling if I was alright or not but I had started to black out.
The soft voice of my father had woken me up and I looked at my surroundings. A hospital, so I was hurt pretty bad, I guess I was so engulfed in my mother's handy work that I had forgotten about pain.
"Son," my father said, "Evita, told me everything."
"She.She has?" I had a feeling Evita was around when mother had beaten me but had she report it.
"Yes, Eli you crashed into a wall while going down the stairs its horrible but you will recover soon." He said.
I looked at 'old' mother and realized she was showing daggers to Evita who was also in the room. Evita shielded herself from the daggers by looking away. The next look that mother gave me stabbed my heart. The reason for the look was unknown but it said clearly, 'you should have died.'
Evita was one of our housemaids and she was the only provider of love to Ruby and me. While father and mother were away she would act as both parents giving us what we need, fulfilling the duty of our neglectful parents. She would do everything for us even to buying us things from her own salary. Once Ruby had stole money from Mom's purse if it wasn't for Evita I think that was the last day Ruby was still breathing. Whenever we needed someone she was there and we thanked God for sending us a guardian angel. One day something happened. Something that had answered all my questions. Something that will scar me for the rest of my life.
The noises that wakened me in the middle of the night were not pleasant nor was it gentle. They were harsh but strong cries who would Take anything except to plead or ask mercy. I crept out of my room and went to see where it was coming from and what was happening and that's when I saw something that would change my life forever.
Distant roars of thunder and lightning were striking in the distance. I felt a cold, harsh and heavy wind sweeping across my face, which was being washed by a blanket of tears. The winds of time have changed in my life, Haruna was gone, Hannah was gone, Suppi was gone and most of all Evita was gone.
Why did the person I care about most leave me?
My life is like a deep ocean, an untamed, unknown world that is yet to be discovered. I wish I could have a happy life like my princess Sakura, she is doing great even with her stepmother, Keiko, but I guess God had made other plans for me. Sometimes I wish I could make things right but it is far too late to do anything. I miss all of them, except Haruna, but most of all Evita. She had to leave when I was finally getting a good life. I guess they all left their footprints in the sands of time and most of all my heart.
Ok that's the finish of this chapter oh about that Ruby kissing Eli part don't think this is like Angel Sanctuary (No Offense, I don't hate AS infact I like it very much it's a great anime in my P.O.V.) it'll be explained in the later chaps so plz don't get offended by it.