AN: Quick RR, oneshot, Ep. 3,17.

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I tried to be perfect, But nothing was worth it, I don't believe it makes me real. I thought i'd be easy, But no one believes me, I meant all the things that I said.

I glanced at him, screwing up my eyes, trying to find a way of forgiving him. But I didn't see anything, looking into his eyes. And that told me everything I needed to know. We were over, there was nothing more to say.

"Rach, I -"

I knew he was trying his hardest to make me forgive him, to get through to me. But I couldn't hear a word he was saying, and whatever he was saying meant nothing to me. I couldn't quite understand why he was even trying explain. Nothing he could ever say would make any difference to the way I felt.

"Why don't you just go?" I said dryly, indicating the door.

If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.

"I'm not going, I just want to talk."

I almost burst out laughing.

Talk?

What about, though?

"There's nothing to talk about," I snapped, flaring up. I desperatedly wanted him to leave, if he didn't I would be forced to throw myself at him.

"You don't understand ..."

There he went again. Trying to get through to me.

It was an accident ...

She made me do it ...

I didn't mean to ...

She was just so good looking and stuff, so I just decided to ...

I shook my head.

This place is so empty, My thoughts are so tempting, I don't know how it got so bad, Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me, But it's the only thing that I have.

I was suddenly angry.

"You know what? Get out!" I shrieked, hitting him violently. He grabbed hold of my wrists, and I felt my hands shaking. I tried to wriggle free, but he wouldn't let go.

"Rach, just listen to me."

"No."

"Why not?"

"You know why!"

We glared at eachother.

"I can't do this."

"Sure you can."

"No Ross, I really can't."

If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.

Ross looked as though he was going to throw up.

"W - What? S - So, what?"

"I'm sorry."

He didn't say anything. He just stared at me. Then he began to cry. So did I.

I tried to be perfect, It just wasn't worth it, Nothing could ever be so wrong, It's hard to believe me, It never gets easy, I guess I knew that all along.

"I guess it's over." I said flatly, after a short while.

I knew the others were in the next room listening, I'd heard them. But I didn't care. All I cared about then was getting him out of my hair.

Ross said nothing.

He just gaped at me, hardly daring to believe me.

I could hardly believe it myself.

But it was true.

We were over.

If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.