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Author's Note: avoids the large number of rotten items "Yes I admit that I have been the neglectful individual and my excuse is my schedules and lethargy yet punishment is truly the needed device here please forgive my insolent metabolisms and let us proceed."
Love Is A Distant Dream
Chapter Eleven
" Truly You "
' Let my be at peace with you mother, truth will not be lost. I hate you – that's the peace you will receive. In this world of earth and flesh you have so destroyed all movements of existence of mine so I wish you would suffer the similar effects. You will never derive mercy from me…' so was her heart in judgment, never was coldness leaving as statements were spoken. Resolution was the vast article in her. Was it perceived in before? Yes but tedious was it to argue as reasons bore with causes strong for talks this harsh.
Her Point Of View
In stance of expectancy did he sight me.
Yet as one unconcerned did he turn to other direction. Infuriated was heart of mine, what crime committed now by me could cause afflictions as such? Bound to question I was as bonded to inquiry was soul, ' Where have you roamed?' as sly tones are so crafted as he the keen as cat could climb deepest heights for pleasure or mischief yet then if by definition was the occasion – the mischief and pleasure all were the similar satisfaction so thin lines and petty difference where they to contain.
' I ask you not of your wanderings – nor do I wish to as you are extensively promiscuous – so leave my affairs be and so will I yours.' Was the reply in cool as expected of behaviorism of his as I was to be the one in this cruel condition yet why so my perplexed head offers inquiry: The woman Sakura earns love yet leaves me with beast side of human possession: Am I to see dark visage forever? Am I not life to be sufficed? Was I not tempted now to give tantrums? Yes to all yet no to actions.
' I slept with a boy today…he was fine in muscles and deep in eyes. Will name interest you?' I was to annoy, to entertain danger but to walk away with mindless sway from me was to be prohibited. My clutches yearned him and him was I to possess. All Admiration are devoted: All Affections are implied.
' What name? Yuji, Sano, Alex, Saito – the multitudes frustrate me so I depart from the interest to ask. After all it is your bed they occupy not mine.' He was the negligent and my anger the flame so to breathe into that ignorance and profusely kill its influence.
' I believe it was Avalon – the family connection – Torii must be the first: interest is really extended – isn't your girlfriend's name related to that. Hmm…I believe so would you know –' my slyness is awarded with hand in motion of ferocious dictation. Yes, slap me he did and for first time it is as Sakura will hold dear all his love though she is hurt with regular cycle I am envious so now my envy dissipates.
' You are the coquettishly, shredded girl of all liaisons is it but my girlfriend's brother you so cradle in bed! You are callous and you are the impish bitch I perceived you to be! What is your matter? What is your motivation? Why you fail so incredulously at all actions? Why? Why! WHY!' he was the screamer so with mouth in fiery capture – it is passion of anger yet I delight in the fervor of others – affection is main upon the wishes.
Cheek did burn as slap's hardness is so the reception of fury. Yet smile did I show for now the possession of proximity was not the singular Sakura to be satisfied at: it is mine as well. Relaxation was his now desired effect though apologetic did he look – so, even after duels and jealousies his heart pined the innocence so the inner sleeper, oh joy, my Eli, you are my fruit so I taste you no matter the acid too thick or the sweet so the thin. Yes Eli my love is but endless song and I the hideous poet who devises the verses for you without part in life of mine results heinous existence without lungs or organs whole wither physical and the essential spiritual. Gazed now in confusion was blankness in descent. Poor Eli, the malignant tool only incarcerates you in wild whiles yet with innocence you are gifted. In Conclusive test I remember you the tear-shedder even after violent tasks of Sakura being done. How you so pray your envy's health deprived? Dear, if Sakura was the pleasant than I am the saint. Yet time did lie where the cherub roamed in me now the child is deceased and in her grace there are but bitter weeds bearing flowers with the nectars of poison.
' Do you pine to hit me more?' I was the brutal seducer of the sadistic arts; never was there a more sinister mistress to the demon. With lips in licking gesture and affection so thrown in directions accurate I make my dark passion breathe, ' Then do as your touch weakens me to submit to all your domains.'
' What monster are you?' Eli was the man to question: yes, dear, question me my love for my speech digests me horribly, what girl was I? What creature so spawns at the hour – I had spoken with the tongue of a harlot – I am truly conscience forsaken, ' What blood did you spill from my noble sibling to convert her to the architecture of perversion – answer me wench! – no answer me sweet, you are still sweet you are a dry orchid begging to be watered and water you I shall yet name your woes so I might delete them from you.' Was his demand and though in fury he began his hail transformed to snow. The tempestuous soul of my love fascinates me with ethereal eternity.
Was I the mad? The patient fit of asylum?
Yes.
Yes.
Oh, Yes.
But my lover was not the blamed one. I am the scarred victim of concentrated depression and it is summoned automatically as the thunder calls the storm. Pointed are eyes of his as if answers of apologetic means are to be given so then scarlet confessions so the blood flavored will be announced. His expectancies are to be denied for my woes he sure knows the prime yet he deprives me of affection – I am so the desert pleading for the ardent rain. Cannot he grasp such talk, such telepathy he possessed: Could mind not be read? Why not yearning heart answered? Oh Eli those lips so with the trembling desire of heartache I wish but to adjoin it with mine so music sweet may blossom. My Love denies such pleasure so plausibly the cause for my skills in dark seductions.
' You are quiet?' was he the one so with worried face that got me the depressed excessively, my heart so ease quickly shattered with soul of his in such states. Why cancel attraction? Why deduct passion? As child all love even nonsensical bickering in infantile struggles were known in better now love so the high is perceived as nonexistent fabrication! Dare he toy with a heart of a one smitten with love! By consequence he will know mine fury and so turmoil be prepared for entry. ' What ills you Ruby? Why you now the one begging for the affairs of physique disloyal and untrusting? Once you were poetic in beliefs of love: my hours of infancy so mundane from your impressions in inked descriptions – now, as older form takes me I am but surprised – No, shocked with lifting vision of you prancing in the dress of a harlot profession.'
' You told me to leave you from your business.' Was I with warning voice, I am impudent for he was the rude in prior and still now its continual mocks the soul in me to squall as breathing is but now under cascaded lungs. How can blindness tempt him? He was innocent and much strength lies in the angelic than the wicked so why such shutters against truth. My affections are but wingless birds to the skies in which he roams. ' These are owned secrets: you are but the phantom unwanted.'
' Dammit Ruby! Damn You! What treacherous slyness is this!' the temper was my premonition and so with blanked eyes was I stare at fury in fleeting action, ' You are the one who has disgraced our family name! Now you sleep with people so certain of your identity! What tragedy do you wish to write!'
' You are speaking with artistic façade of a saint's' my temper quarreled though he was the one never to be corrected as his errors were to be secret but mine were not candid as they are but flamboyant, ' You have performed street crimes with your nemesis Saitou and that is truth dear brother.'
' Brother, yes, I am your brother Ruby despite you the elder I believe you have hallucinated that our relationship is similar to before – as child you were kinder, more genteel, more the perceiver – now you flaunt madness as a desired showpiece. Where is Ruby? The girl so passionate in professions of hers not this massed perplexed woman who is drowning in the liquor of wrong propensities.' Was the speech thrown at direction of mine and inner weeping prevailed. His Ruby was here living the existence of undead – you are meant to be knight of hers, protection was the needed quilt here and you with opened love could so provide the sustenance to the dream that my wishes yearn to live.
Yes, but fool have you become under petals of faint lies whispered as honey by the lips so rotten of a Cherry- Blossom snake. Her neck I wish to snap! Her Heart I yearn to boil! Her Spirit I desire to rip! Her soul to punish repetitively for eons endless even as time sees the last illuminant stride of his days! My love she has thieved her life I will crush! I must! I must! But…how can I extract revenge when I possess such weak tools to continue my heart beat – still my devising mind could formulate a plot deviously sufficient for Eli to exit his numbness and feel poisons from that wretched snake! Yes, a plan I must carry and its birthing will be in my secret quarters of mind. But that could not really be the effective one but my efforts will reveal the extent of result.
' Eli, I beg you to stop the coldness and in words let us dwell – our bonds should not be skinned despite strife we encounter.' The pleading lips were to quiver as friendship was to be renewed and it is I who gives the announcement. Without Eli my existence is but dried as the fruit deceased.
' No.' one answer in coldness capable to assassinate the gleaming account of a thousand promises in heart of dreams that could be risen, bewildered my eyes – decapitated my heart's rising fume of sweet flavor. What reason will you give in present my love? With same coldness he but accentuates with stony hold, ' For that would mean to adore you as lover as you desire me as your half but I am promised to the side of Sakura and that vow I wish never to wither.' His promise was the solemn, its chords the accentuated element. Rage of mine would see more bitter fuel as love so stabbed is the one to suffer in anger's arms.
' You impudent strained male courtesan!' was the chide he so deserved to be reception off for illness he so bought forth in deeper core that flogged was I at his answer so treacherous that it was stained ale to the throat of ever-feeding soul, ' For a girl so negative of you! You strip me of my asset that is privileged by heart! You dirty poor philanderer! In Hell you will situated for the crime you ever so commit!' was my heart in the ailing fixture, was he not one for me? Could chemistry not be seen? Was our proximities so disguised? NO! It is but he who travels there in dark corners where loving amour cannot burn. He wishes the epilogue of my stay, so I ponder for die I wish at such negligent engagements.
Eli was the silent student of observation's speeches. His examinations were upon me and so the discomfort was approached. What now will he speak? What true statements will be heard? Love he did and only I knew that I am perfect individual for his love's share: Sakura with her thin pores in that emotion may keep her flimsy heart to the contentment of her own private luxuries whilst I play the suitor to the dark night who will soon accept the position of knight for me. What answer he gave bruised the soul so extensively that tears were shielded in hardest attempts, ' I do not love you as that you can't expect. Love you I do but with the romanticism that differs from your choice. So stop blatant anger as my heart's love is collected by the angel who sits in the empire of Cherry-blossoms.' With that speech of departing he departed to the quarters of his with heart of this one plagued strictly of all happiness's destruction and all sadness' craned presence.
Wrong did I do? Was error done by me? Was I the unbeautiful? The grotesque being to forlorn was I? In chambers encased of secrecy the lovers of physical interactions all called me the shining beauty for hair and other treasures of physique responded finely never dislocated in rhythm, yet now true love shunned me as an article so passé that it so lingers as both effects of loathing and sorrow as result. What movement did I so wrongly profuse? What was the subtracted in me that so shone in the demonic façade of the falsified beauty Sakura? Why treasures did she hold that are diamond gleams for Eli yet I the rusted iron even in my whole performance to attain his passion? Was I the dark seduction's mistress? Was the one not coy and innocent-abandoned? Biased I cannot be, deny I never could do. I am the rogue from light yet manage devilish debauchery its exit yet I am the fraud so cheapened by exchange of my private materials.
I Am The Harlot.
And It is the Harlot he so sees.
So I weep.
Weep endlessly in negligent night's mask.
Her Point Of View
' Li, Li!' was my scream that hard inaudible device? For hours it felt the squall never departed yet he managed to be the one unheard to my requested calls or avoided with skill so he possessed inwardly as I know of it. He is but a perfect mechanical and spiritual instrument and the other people are blinded by envy to not see such glory in active performance. Oh Li where have you departed, is your position somewhere that is near. Oh the mind hurts for your careless steps, so I thought in utter confused pondering for Li had exited more than the number singular whence he saw I who am calling. Hate for me is profuse I realize so sometimes in distance I endure. For how can I alter obstinate mind of perfected being as he? Yes attempts will be made and a day unforeseen will hold reward's kiss but now attempts are hardest for that stretch is yet to announce itself and so before the appearance work laden deposits will be the sternest. ' Li!' I called in the voice again so the perplexed and a bit bothered with the capture of annoyance within. Where does he leave? No pity upon this form shall he give I see so my tries are to be tempestuous.
Meiling Ray is not one of the quits.
Where has that boy traveled? Hmm…the possibilities of questioning friends are to be limited as my beauty was loner and others ignorant of his fascination. Well there lies a healthy fact for my reward – the less competitive ones the ease will be given for me to hold my darling close in passion most lovely that loneliness will ebb for eternal encounters. Dear, was I to seek love for long? No exhaustion lies here except nagging love pining for the beloved. What tragic hour will love be found? For minutes delay brings but the dreaded emotion of end so in proximity that my heart sickens, cries in frustration so beyond extents. But manage I will all woes for Li's heart is the treasure my spirit value as it carries eons' passions in the folds of the beauty yet after bond is transmitted within souls of ours I am but mere watcher of his glory in distance where I shall dote in secrecy this amusing dragon who quenches my pleasures and gives riddance to my qualms.
' He's not here in fact for an hour his presence has been gone.' Spoken was the one I knew little information for interactive friendships were not aroused with the boy who had given light to my disease of search so gratitude I must give yet a bit uncertain from the norm.
' What is your name?' was my generosity revealed as I must know individual who so rescued me from seeking one who left yet anger was there not for beloved but for me as I have been hapless to follow error's pondering and still attempt to discover him here.
' I'm Zachary – I know you as Meiling, Li's sister or shall I say stepsister. Sorry if that was a comment of rude factors but I know not if you are well in being called his sister as most half-siblings aren't fond of there relations who are extended by such means. I think you must know me – my cousin Chelsea sits right opposite of you in Chemistry.' The information given made clear to me all logic misshapen in prior and so smile I was for I knew much of boy despite the opportune sight of seeing visage was quite escaped.
' Oh you're that Zachary – you're right your cousin really is fond of you and Thank-you extremely for ridding me of such a fruitless search,' the words were appreciative and though casualness presented in it my formality was extinguished not for he was still stranger to me and usually I do not connect with individuals with agility. I analyzed them as I wish to engage with those whose views are certainly in heart of mine as well.
' Its alright,' was he cheerfully in smiles, one could easily manage him as the breed of optimistic aspects though I like the breed not so fondly as cynically do I portray most incidences. Pessimistic was surely my heart except that love-dot in inner shining cores reserved only for the one I sought. He was one to continue so I am the attentive, ' But I'm sorry I believe I do not have clue to where his whereabouts are now. I believe you must do that by your own navigation.' Was the confirming speech, oddly was he cheerful yet hidden intelligence I do sense for I am framed in a fashion same of it.
' That's alright.' I am to be kind, candor is best result for a veiled formal conversation though Zachary seemed too optimistic not to accept formalities, ' I'll head over to class and get my belongings then will I surely search him.' Responding I was as his candidly drawn emotional aspects were not to be discarded. Uncomfortable I am – trust easily I do not – I am always analytical and I expect the behavior similar of all I interact with such bindings.
' I have to meet Chelsea, I know we will meet again.' The mysterious premonition I did like; how certainty develops in him of our early or the every coming of meetings? Hmm…Chelsea jested not when she spoke Zachary as the strange.
I do not like oddities yet suffer their multitudes most efficiently – as now, I am to be ignored by my half-sibling despite our attractions. In Plain I am to rip or shred my anger on anything possessing my catalyst to do so. Was that choice the wise? Better thinking I must acquire surely, Let this pain just halt its throbbing disease and end its cycle, I motioned in the mind and temples soothed by hands so difficult in calm position, my heart trembles yet loved one is not there to comfort, one hour this method will surely be reversed. I am now in reminiscence of Li's coldness so the anticipated For I acted in sameness when my mother asked of new engagements – pity her I was to as she was the foolish frolicking in games of love that are obliviously façades – my soul is only the possession to Li, his singular being was to sensually accept its beat: no other will bear the tempest that so is my heart. Funny, when young such ponderings were the alien and the ones repulsive yet now as love is so defined, its poetry and prose so engulfs me and in it I am drown endless and never cease. Witness to my passions may call me obsessive yet love is obsessive with his binds so gentle yet never the shown or so envisioned – it is but security with walls no one can acquire sight of – for its is pure and kind and generosities are never fierce in presentation yet inner ways they are to perform their flaming activities.
Hmmm, wonder if Li passionately wonders in the manners of the same. Surely such attraction is not for the one so poor in comprehensive studies yet Li was the intelligent and it is hard to perceive him the ignorant. Or a factor influences him for the behavior of such? Such factor must be destroyed as my gate it tarnishes excessively. I am to enter class to gather belongings for exit I cannot without mine apparel still wonderings on Li's position are to be analyzed. Homeward he will not journal as monotonous loathing is given to the titled mother of new and the father. He avoids me for reasons not understood yet the decency really doesn't abandon though now the factor not fruitful annoys me with most accomplished state. Why has Li so coolly disappeared? What meaning his disappearance carry? Where are his lodgings of interest? Such an idiot am I not knowing my lover's other ardencies. Typically I am suited for the dunce cap yet now with basic objects I must seek my beloved, funny how agile love is to approach, my love for years will deny not my offer of passion for I will permit no tragedies here. I will present Li the elation he is fit for as he is alluring and I share his fervor of heart with all intents of being the one loved.
I wonder if Li thought of me and so continues now…why all suddenness to depart? What causes present yet blind I am to it? Hmm, the more perturbing the topic converts to as thinking I so do… I must complete my search for I like not to travel to home without my side accompanied by him… I was to think with profuseness as Li so left the side of mine. What avoidance is there to fancy? What pleasure is there to receive? Has heart of this chest been blunt to access the feelings of all for him? Owww! Such ponderings are to halt the circulation of normalcy to the brain and so the path is but like weeds and thorns so giving me aches. Despise everything I shall for no kind mood roams in me and so beware my fangs as I can pierce…even to myself I say so, curious truly. Raving mad I have become without my beloved, truly he was mine heart's blood. Such romanticism is a new friend for I have never been the experienced of his aiding measures of soothing muses before, I do love it with most passion as allow it does me to wander in heart's most valued centre to mind's deepest passage and Li is my years-lengthy love. Years have died to birth the memories yet love faded not now heart is more extreme yet coy perhaps as Li is seen. The handsomeness too alluring for the mortal and so divine for the angel; yes, he was the rebellious youth but the desert fruit who challenges sun and cultures itself in barren grounds tastes sweetest as he is the pure victor to the birthplace so impossible. To a man who is his father he is prized gem as his guardian is too thinly impressive but he the marvelous model hours of stare could be granted to.
Such disappointment from kin, tsk-tsk, the shame of it the massive pang. Both parents of ours are so the upsetting factors to our hearts; yet fate so cruel makes them cling to our forms with a success so vast that sickens us with extremity. His father the philanderer, my mother the coquettish – both are well in the alliance and so Li and I should produce the partnership of own where our heart hurt could rejuvenate without the luggage of annoyance (our parents surely) will gain no dominance in the toy of theirs: our lives. Yes manipulated is poor Li for the bastard father is ill in refinement and ponders him as great, please, spare the pompousness meant only as nausea for the reward: finer men are in existence like the son you possess Mr. Shyaron and only you may not the stupidity actions of yours are yet mine eyes dart not at opposite directions, I am not to see illusions were truly gives a face blatant to observe. My mother's views are similar yet pity I do her more than the father of new for coarseness was her marriage of prior and silly was her presumed affections. If with ease people tend to the choice of mistake than the intellect within is but to remain asleept, my mother's charm not the deceased yet so profusely scatters that terms as "cheap" are frequent details of it. Is dignity too hard to possess? How so our innocence bears such weight then why is the mind's maturation such evolving sadness? We are but mortals yet use we must our choice for it is the treasure so thoroughly needed. Like mine choice to earn the love of Li is the choice most precious.
' Hmmm, what are you I must ask?' talking to myself the most odd action and directed it was to a paper's piece. I am seated beside my darling and he had forgotten his possession. The paper's piece was the folded yet short as one of studies, the presumption of course was scribbles. Wonder what toys in mind of his…creative my love is I know for hours at home he produces sentences in a journal so well in keeping, I am proud of my lover's intellectual pace, I am the one keen to do reading as moments in this category are blissful to the heart.
It is a line or two as it seemed but prominence it must have and so I was to scan it with passion and focus for it would grant details of my lovber's heart and learning more of the gentle piece is longed by me. The scripture so elegantly cursive, so not wavering in adequacy and my soul's tempest so not stopping as such perfection so high for the mortal heart. I am to scan thoroughly so words were read:-
' Please gentle friend view me so with delight and not repulsion: I am the one desolate of elation without your eyes on mine face, smiles so with sweetened lips that are but the strawberry to my heart. Friend, you taught me companionship; friend, teach me you did of isolation and both are appreciated. What ails you now sweet friend? What question you wish to be made? Ask me all: Suspect me: Blame me: Beat me: but my passion will contain loyalty and never sever it will, your love gave these eyes of blindness so the formula of love and hope endless – such lights were lost and were lingered for the affectionate soul of yours. Never shall I taint for the Angel's Halo is Truly You.'
What statement? What heart's golden gate so flooded? Do mine eyes deceive? This could be love's confession? A romantic monologue: to the passion of heart? What meaning is so possessed by this? Li is so the fused here with core, what wonders roam in heart that whispers so yet in audibility so the silent? Investigation is the creature meant to be ally and so use it I will for favor for heart is to be required. But the verse is the priority and its owner a top one of option. Li is to be sought and no fortification must feel tolerance, as I note with carefulness, love sees no fortified wall yet poisons it to destruction. I am not fell fear or anxiety in closeness for the power so given in love's attire extinguishes all those obscenities.
' The poem is a nice one, is it of your formulations – or is it a poem of another's?' voice of known so presented let thoughts go to hide as private were their mannerism and to scan I was as surprised I was – had one read this poetic statement of a feeling aside mine eyes, yes, yet why he? What was his bother? Could he stop the annoyance for now I am irked at the obtrusive interloping so performed: but with silent quizzicality I stared with question so answer he could but then I was to speak as sentences were to be there.
' Huh, I – I don't know what you speak of Zachary, I'm truly perplexed.' I am confused with irksome attributes, never was the interloper expecting true kindness from me yet for façade was I to behave delicately but I loathed the boy in presence. My personal artifact not his to investigate – his daring nerves must be snipped and his mouth so sewn.
' Well It's a nice confession of feelings do you know of The Lady Of Shalott, of a knight's secret admiration and a Lady's life so destroyed of her love or so it seems.' Zachary talked of a poem known with healthy knowledge yet I denied the love's negativity so said, for what love he knew off I know it as rubbish wit devised by mind's envy at other fortunate beings who love even with singularity. My irksome eyes were not shown so continue he was to of his nonsensical things, ' Yes, Yes, poor she was the beautiful seamstress whose heart so trapped in the illusion. But as life was lived short vengeance was to be made on that knight yet her clutches has not been the keen even in present so she wanders now at present seeing boys of fancy as her knight and sewing a dagger to their silhouettes so in reality they are to stabbed profusely for her love they had acquired, her life she had lost. So the witch when realizing her error seeks her knight not knowing of his death and so blinded by the revenging tools and is administered by them. So young boys are forbidden by aged relatives to escape the use of a park with pond at night, for the scenario of Shalott holds similar presence or else the dagger will be their deaths. Owww!'
Ear was caught by hand and inward smile was given for Chelsea abused the bastard interloper with the punishment most worthy of the action he so was executing and squeak was she appalled at his tasks, ' Zachary! You idiot! What lies are the spawn of fantasies now! You insane boy with love on fiction so intense! If ridiculous occurrences were to be the demonstrated actions of need you would surely hold lead! Meiling – oh, Meiling please forgive such treacherous ploys written in unconscious by a boy of such passionate influences! Surely you must be rescued as he scares all with tales illusion from mind so penchant for a believer. The Lady Shalott is but a poetic endearment and not a ghost so keen to see the perishing the lives of men unless Zachary might wish to be such sacrifice then only a kill of one will follow and I might play as the Shalott witch so waiting to give the end to the persistent, nonsensical boy. Now Zachary come with me you shall come for fate recommends safety in which devilish glows may not reside (yours in the particular statement), so we leave now before the wielding of another tale of fictional pieces.'
As dragging was to be done Zachary looked the keen in the continual though yearning to make the jaw shatter was mine desire. How dare eyes of his so scan my article in possession? Was he not to know candid manners? Yes, once in life mannerisms will convert as I am not to lose this involvement of treachery and keep it in the memories of all wretched things. I am now to look for love as Heart must ache with the annoyance of the vanishing climate in which Li's spirit dwells. Him in place where my soul flourished not gave bruises so with deepest effect that death is but felt in the halves for how one can be blind to the affections of one so with the proximity beneficial? He the observer quick in the practice of scrutiny in high missing my love, something in environment feels hard in the chill, investigate I must, figuring in full all motives for ignorance must be accomplished as love will not be in losing factors. So with such resolution exit the school I was to and seek Li.
My love pines for him whence another could ever perceive. Why? Why? Was he never to sight passions of mine for him? Conversion of such incident must be given fully as experience of solitude not mine desires for life of now. He must be the one knowing of passions deep within and with wholeness answer will be granted as I frail not in speaking heart's strongest wish to be with individual so perfect for the love heavenly… Now destination of his must be sought with the profuseness but not now will confession be made though heart dares it at the present of the situation, appropriate measures are the required assets for the words should be in constant rhythm as expressions are so done. Yet promise of the love to be gained must be with effect of forever…Defeat will not be the grant of mine as Li will be the possessor of the heart beating within and so his I will contain…
His Point Of View
' Do you wish to go to the world of the window?' I ask so to not see the unease gather in more for not resting is her heart as their drums I hear even being the other form. I feel the way of the manner as she is the individual worried and I pray frustrations are to depart with quickness as me they so concern with same effects. She was near window to gaze with pining; the evidence so called from the orbs that are beauties. I shall ask her with utter property of her desires will not be hindered as I am the one to accomplish the yearnings of them.
' No, I believe my confinement is the best for all fools are to be incarcerated and never to see joy-lights of day or night.' She was the one answering with icy combinations that I believed not in her spoken statements. What Incarcerations should one receive? A fool she is not but why so called?
' Sakura.' I am to do the beginning to placate, I fear her heart with beasts savage with no rays of merciful thoughts so to be owned and fear I was with tremendous expression as her heart the concern fort of time ageless may be in the crumbling death if she so speaks as such, ' Sakura, please –'
' No Li.' She was to be risen in the tone of softness she so possesses, was the she the angry one to me? Was disappointed tasks done by I? Was I the one to ail with intenseness? Then so I will accept all punishments in any favor so she desires. Then she looks one worried with strengthened perceptions and continues as explanatory gives force, ' No, Sorry Li you had done no error in which I must be yelling so with passion at you. I am the tired fool so with acts tarnished – I believe my friends and the family so in tortures for me. Eli is not empty in warnings, he will but abuse to heart's gratified extensions whilst I am motive of such! I fear my friends and family will abandon so after their agony! Who will rest with mine demonic trace as I deplete all joys for the horrors' play! I am so frightened that I gaze at window wishing for escape so needed!'
' Sakura, no, think not in the way that so plagues…you have risen no longer the phoenix of ash yet but fiery strength! Let no longer envious' gray deprive you of crimson treasures you so needed in prior! Bear not the tragedies of the failing soul yet soar with the heart renewed with flesh not drained from blood! I plead you Sakura that your worries you must forsake!' I was the yelling one for I did not wish the joy of hers to be the lost precious jewel so wanted and I wished her to know of the consequences so escaped. Why is it she pines for others' life then own? Was she the blind stared one who so limped in manageable sight? Was the plundering torrent of sadness not for leave? Questions were not the spared calamities as in frequencies vast were they to attach.
' I'm sorry for the troubles I bring so in the many. I am confused and confusion is bitter bile's cousin and the mental harbinger to misused logic. I cannot stray to say that hardships are in fancy with me and so I do not toy always the hope light as disappointments are ambushers to the wish so brightened.' She spoke with quietness not in faltered grips as one sad cannot with ease so exit that incarcerated demon's hypnosis yet attempts of long will give the fruits to taste with satisfied tongue.
' Yes, this spirit should be the best suit worn and not the sorrow for it is but shredded and ugly to the eye even ignorant and so smile frequently with light genuine as it is but happiness to me as well.' With chest clutched by hand was statements injected and eyes soon were so closed in thoughts fanciful to the words. How was I the satisfied in misery of hers, never would that occur even if mine heart beat ceases the devilish content never will shut my affection. So in love, Yes, Love – Sakura I love you so with massive proportion that eons couldn't count her name and so she (my love) continues so in journeys unlimited to give birth to the honest fervor I feel so with constancy. Yes, but confession? Will love so be confessed? Never! Never! Such Love will be the pet of secret not the one seduced by audibility in his armoring shines to exit the confession! Love shall be secret and it is with secret she will mate! That so is the decided thought…
Foolish is the one who speaks this, so count me as the one foolish. With heart throb so violent how can concealment conquer such a tempest wild in cycle? Effort I may but if I confess? Will the confession be prime for prologue of the soulful attachment so the doted and so the wanted? Amorous are never my passions yet I confess that darkness at times did show his blatant cape of such and repulsed was I of musing with blackness as the manner but reject I cannot the passion so in heart I love my beloved if she wounds of physical fascination (though never wanting her to be the hurt individual) still my love will seek her companionship. At first in youth my efforts to forget love where practicing lines of telling " I am the victim Of Hormonal changes." Yet belief: of the lines mentioned so were tarnished as heart's every wish desired her sight with the perpetual chances in motion. Sakura, so is my love yet I fear my love is the only in the solo path and not the one mutual. What if the confession made give the rejection with instance? Or after with moment yet with rejection a strong asset involved? Will she be repulsed in confession or the person pitiful? Can angles of expressions of the manner be tolerated? Will heart give permission to the chaotic eyes to gaze me for the shattering spell? Will I not be happy if another aside Eli give her the happy smile so needed? The answer to the question will be a yes as happiness for Sakura is primary affection for mine desire; yet, sadness will escape at moments for the one chosen as special by the heaven hand of God was not I. Yes, the sorrow will elope with the audibility in moments of any unspecified event in motion yet happiness is primary to the mood always. Sakura elated is my heart in leaping activity as the sheep of sleep. I do know if love is so answered by her in mutual displays yet love for her as spoken will be denied not. Her love is of forever ripening and not the temporary radiance with affectionate blood in flow.
' I wonder If Khushi and Madison are not in problematic times,' thoughts were in interrupted means as beauty breaks the silence so the undesired pet, ' I had concluded scenarios to them and pleased they were in most paths to see triumph over, as they title so, the "Pseudo Love's Tyrant".' The smile so the illuminant that love so grandeur is but in heart inner in settlement.
' I am to give hand for their authentic performance of admiration as you are the bird strong in feathers and claws, you are not meant not for the feeble objects and so I praise you strongly so as the resistance to it is but the sin to me.' I confess in partial voice the feelings so clandestine and crimson is the opening to activities of sorted arrangements of the mentioned present, so scarlet were cheeks so of beauty that spirits are to whisper jealousies.
' Arigatou Li,' was she to mention the one blushing in profuseness so the sudden managed task that I took catch the scarlet, ' You are the valiant soul kind to all and admiration of you is but appropriate in means of ways extended from the typical fancy. I so admire you with strengthened eyes in heart as you are the courageous to me for all moments.'
Scarlet is now in but deeper gripping as loved one so speaks the compliment. If tomatoes were to envy mine face perceive my organic foes I so would with ease as now the crimson is so with proximity and none knows of embarrassment in inner cores of invisible paths never to be viewed. Sakura was to stare as face so with blushes does the cause yet manage I did steering of another direction for question if asked may have confession rich as answer. Weak to passionate love I am and none knows the aspect expect God who gives but the implant encoded in prior. I am but to recover after while so slides and give smile for the assured progress despite inner musings of blushes of before. She but smiles in innocence never to be the device so tainted and smile is returned as love is inner whispering of action such. I am but the merry one now to gaze love in special candor and so with expressions were the conversing meant for enjoyable moments. I contemplate in deep as Eli will not be the idle one to the blow so received: a plan is a friend so assured to appear in dark heart unknown of his – preparations I will do for I wish not demise of smile of angel who perpetual is to flow with the tone ceaseless. Would he attack with open eyes not meant for clandestine operations? Or strike he will with sinister blooms of etched black not knowing as prime object? Hmmm, I will muse deep the drawing for Sakura must be the princess preserved and I as friend must see through the impeding confines and bring forth the independent road needed so with abundant yearnings. Eli may seek the throat of mine with the deceptive route as challenge him I did and so as foe my rank eternal flares – fear I do not the cowardice man with love fickle even ant's strength tears with ease and so my devices of plan may prove the healthy fruits in battles so foreseen. Sakura's mind worries still as she knows the cry of such accounts in proximities and yearn she does the violence not appearing yet her knowledge never devises the illusion for Eli must be encountered and knowing the coming of events mentioned she too strengthened mental aspects with physical traits as survive she must. Yet her side is not in emptiness ever as I stand the ground where feet are to be placed.
I could promise stars in all the closeness of protection eternal, my efforts never misplaced in activities of sorts various either than the Cherry Blossom princess's needs in whole.
Never was I to be in the leaving steps as Sakura's heart so clutched, in spiritual messages were not the one in dismissal. I shall be protector as long body serves the task of life and so in all progressions I am to try to be the one fruitful in action determined. The reward is closeness unlimited as Sakura will be in nearness but the dream is not one of perverted attachments as assured I am: that love of passionate romanticism will not be asked as reward for the candor service of protection of always.
There will be love always even in the steps of unrequited plains.
Author's Note: " Well that is the end of chapter eleven. Li is the person thoughtful and analytical so descriptive I was of his thoughts. It seems the love in Li is endless and even if the love is the unrequited in result he will always be the one engaged to Sakura in any little or gargantuan path, will this be just for a boy as him? Will Ruby ever attain the love of Eli? Will Meiling be treacherous for her affections? Only the passing chapters possess the answers – (yes, if there is any perplexed itches to the scenarios of Eli and Ruby please consult the Author's Note of the chapter three to regain knowledge of the episode) – I'll update as soon the permission of the routine is attained and so Please tell me of your opinions!