A/N- This is what I like to call my free time story. I'm writing this at school in seventh period when I have a lot of free time (which I quite often do). I can't promise you it'll be the best, but I think it is decent.

Disclaimer-I don't own Inuyasha, the amazing Rumiko Takahashi does. If I did…..well….chaos….evil grin

Warnings-This deals with some controversial issues….sort of. And some of the characters are a little OOC, especially Sesshomaru. I'll be the first to admit it. So if you put that in your review I may have to laugh at you….a lot. Because I warned you and you need to point it out to me? Can you say fired?

Am I okay?

Chapter 1- Lied?

His eyelids slid open slowly, ever so slowly. Reaching up his hand, he groped for something to hold onto. How did he get himself into this mess, into all this…pain? This wasn't how it was supposed to turn out. He was not meant to fall into this….trap. Could he even call it that? Was that was it was from the beginning, just some ploy to humiliate him and hurt him? Hurt him in more ways than just physically and emotionally? He didn't want to believe it, but the groups jeers all pointed to the fact that it had to be true. Their voices rang loudly in his head, calling him names and pointing out what should have been obvious. 'You thought she was actually around you because she liked you?'

'Baka! She would never lower herself to the level of associating with a hanyou by choice!' 'She did it to help us get to you, get you to trust her so we could take you down.' He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block out the memories. It couldn't be true, she wouldn't have done that. Or would she? Did he even really know her? He felt his heart break as realization finally took hold. He pulled his legs up to his chest, trying to keep in what little body heat he had left as the snow continues to fall on his battered body. 'Maybe if I'm out here long enough, I'll just die.' He let out a weak laugh that barely reached even his ears. 'Look at me, I'm right back to where I started: Suicidal and all alone.' His thoughts drifted back to the past and he felt his own tears freeze on his cheeks. If only he had listened to her. If only he had done what he knew deep down was right. If only…..

Kagome Higurashi knew something was wrong when nine o'clock rolled around and her very best friend, Inuyasha Takahashi, had not called her yet. Not to mention, she had a forewarning feeling in the pit of her stomach, she had since that morning. Kagome had known Inuyasha pretty much her whole life. She'd been there when his parents died, when he ran away from his foster home and lived on the streets for two and half years because the police wanted to take him back and the family was so horrid to him, even when he had to be rushed to the hospital-a homeless teen near death-because he had felt life was just too hard and he was to weak. Her best friend had gone through a lot. His older brother had gone missing for three and a half years, a period of time when all the police thought he was dead. Inuyasha had been abused, neglected, and shunned because of what he was, what Kagome loved most about him. You see, Inuyasha was a hanyou. Sei Takahashi had been a very noble inu youkai and everyone knew it. His first son had been born due to an arranged marriage and he and his first wife both decided it just wasn't working and it'd be best for their only child if she left. So, Sei raised his little boy, Sesshomaru, by himself in his large house on one of the Ryukyu Islands. On Sesshomaru's fifth birthday, Sei took him to Tokyo and that's where he first laid eyes on his love. She was a mortal working at one of the Takahashi businesses, Sakura. They got to talking and both quickly fell in love, and they weren't the only ones. Setsuki (which was the women's name) fell in love immediately with the younger of the two as Sesshomaru shyly introduced himself and timidly shared some of his interests. Exactly six months after they met, Sei and Setsuki were married and relocated to Sapporo. There they began a family and Inuyasha was born shortly after. Seems like a fairy tale but so very far from it. Setsuki knew the Higurashi's from her long time friendship with Kagome's father. While Sesshomaru cared more for being inside and occasionally going out to play, Inuyasha and Kagome became very good friends. Because Inuyasha was a hanyou, he was tormented at school and a lot of the time Sesshomaru and Kagome were protecting and defending him. Even when he got himself into stupid fist fights. Kagome smiled nostalgically at her memories before she was jumped out of her revere by the ringing of the telephone.

"Moshi moshi!" She greeted.

"Moshi moshi Kagome-chan. It's Sesshomaru, is Inuyasha over there?" the usually monotone voice was wavering slightly with anxiety. Kagome furrowed her eyebrows.

"Iie, is there something the matter?" she heard Sesshomaru curse under his breath.

"Hai, there may be. I haven't heard from him in a while and he always calls home if he's going to be out later. The last time something like this happened, well I'm sure you remember." Kagome didn't need Sesshomaru to go on any further to know what he was talking about. Six years ago when Kagome had been but fifteen and Inuyasha was still living on the streets, she knew he had gone through a period of self mutilation. He would take broken pieces of glass and tear at the skin of his arms and sometimes his legs. If the cut was really bad, he would pull pieces of string from clothing he found and would search for a needle. His only form of sterilization was a lighter. He regretted that more than anything in his life now, his arms covered in reminders of the past. On Kagome's fifteenth birthday, she got a phone call from Inuyasha. His voice had been weak and she had barely been able to hear him. He wished her a happy birthday and that by tomorrow, the letter would make sense. She hadn't understood but knew something was wrong. She quickly contacted her friend, Ayame who also knew Inuyasha well, and the two went searching for him. Because Ayame was a youkai, she was able to pick up on his scent quickly and found him near death in an alley. He had sliced open his arms so badly, they were afraid he wouldn't make it. Luckily, Ayame's close friend, Kouga, happened to drive by and was able to make an incredibly fast trip to the hospital. Inuyasha had actually died that night, but the doctors were able to revive him, not allowing a boy so young to loose his life. It was soon after that they found Sesshomaru and the brothers were united once again. When Sesshomaru had found out about the incident, he had cried for only the second time in his life. He had been heart broken to learn that he had not been there when his younger brother was in so much hurt. Kagome clucked her tongue disapprovingly.

"We can't always dwell on what Inuyasha has done wrong. He regrets that night so much now. You've seen how badly his arms are scared, like a constant reminder. Besides, he has no reason to be so depressed. I mean, he took his medication today, I saw him take all of his pills. We shouldn't be worried about him doing anything like that again." She tried to reassure, it didn't seem to be working.

"I want to believe he wouldn't do it again, but when he left so early this morning, before even I was up, and he still is not back yet. I'm just so scared Kagome, I'll admit it. You know very well that I'm not one to get scared easily and I'm terrified. I don't want to loose my baby brother, I can't." Kagome had never heard Sesshomaru talk to affectionately about his brother, even when his parents were alive. It really worried her, even if she was trying to stay calm. Having Sesshomaru talking to her in a voice of a child that was scared of the dark did not reassure her.

"I'll check outside the dorms ok. I think he was going to see Kikyou later on today and maybe they just got caught up with whatever they were doing. I'll go see if he's anywhere around the campus and if not, I'll get Ayame and Kouga to help look for him." She heard Sesshomaru let out a breathe of relief and he seemed to relax.

"Arigoto, Kagome. I know you don't like Kikyou, and you're better for my brother anyways." It made Kagome's heart flutter slightly to know that the ever judgmental Sesshomaru thought her better than that….that….women. Shaking her head to rid it of negative thoughts, she said good-bye to Sesshomaru and stood up. Sighing, she grabbed her coat, scarf, gloves, and hat and slid on her snow shoes. 'The things I do for those Takahashi's, honestly' she thought to herself with a smile.

"Ayame! I'm going to look for Inuyasha, mkay? No one can find him." She yelled to her room mate. Ayame appeared out of her bedroom clad in a black camisole and red pajama pants, with Kouga following behind her, still dressed in his heavy sweatshirt he had come in.

"What do you mean no one can find him? I thought he and Kikyou had some sort of date thing planed today. Hasn't he called yet?" When saying Kikyou's name, Ayame had made a gagging noise in the back of her throat. Kagome smiled slightly and shook her head.

"Iie, he hasn't called and no one has seen him. Fluffy's really worried so I'm going to go look around campus. If I don't find him in about an hour, I'm calling back here and you two need to help me look for him." She answered.

"Can't we just call his cell?" Ayame asked confused.

"Inuyasha didn't take it this morning. I saw it on the kitchen table when I left." Kouga responded. 'Odd,' Kagome thought 'Inu-kun doesn't go anywhere with out it.' Shrugging her shoulders she headed towards the door.

"I'll call if anything happens, or in about an hour. Ja, mata ne?" she called as she left, shutting the heavy door behind her.

forty minutes later

Kagome shivered in the cold wind as she walked through the deep snow. She tried to keep herself warm by rubbing her hands up and down her arms but it wasn't helping. She was nearing the woods at the back part of the college campus, and still no sign of her best friend. She was really starting to worry now. Where was he? Shivering again, she thought she saw something up ahead in the snow. A black lump was just lying there near the God Tree. Squinting her eyes, she tried to see what is was and when she could finally make out the shape, her heart stopped.

"Inuyasha?" She whispered to herself before taking off as fast as she could through the snow. There was not mistaking those ears, no possible way. It was Inuyasha and he didn't look like he was moving. As she got closer, she noticed that some of the snow around him was red-blood. Fear struck her ever nerve as she finally came up next to him. He was curled up as if to preserve heat and his lips were blue. He didn't seem to be conscious but he shivered like crazy and his teeth were chattering. Kagome felt tears come to her eyes as she quickly pried his hands away from his knees and pulled his head into her lap. She threw off her coat and covered him with it, trying to give him any heat she could. She grabbed her cell phone and quickly called Ayame.

"Hai, Kagome, have you found him yet?" Ayame's chipper voice asked.

"Oh, Ayame! Call Sesshomaru and get an ambulance to the woods behind the cafeteria right now, Inuyasha's nearly frozen." Kagome cried desperately. Ayame gasped but quickly complied, hanging up on Kagome. Kagome hugged Inuyasha's frozen body to her own.

"Inuyasha please be alright. You can not die on me again." She sobbed. She felt him stir slightly and looked down to see his amber eyes opening slightly.

"Ka….Kagome?" he barely got the words out his teeth were chattering so badly.

"Hai, Inuyasha I'm here. An ambulance and your brother are on the way, just stay with me a little long ne?" He slightly nodded. Reaching up with one of his shaking clawed hands, he wiped away one of the tears from her cheek.

"I…I should have listened t…to...you." His voice was quiet and seemed strained. Kagome bit back a sob and brought his shivering body closer to hers. 'I have to be strong for him; I have to keep him alive so we can find out what happened.' She thought to herself. Something had got him. She didn't know what but she knew that it had not been himself who caused blood to stain the snow around him. She bit her lip and soon heard the sound of sirens blaring as the ambulances neared. Kagome squeezed her eyes shut as a car pulled near her, its headlights hurting her eyes. Sesshomaru jumped from the car and ran over to them, engulfing them both.

"Oh gosh….Kagome is he dead?" He asked, shedding his coat and wrapping it around the girl who held his little brother so close to her own frail body. She shook her head and continued trying to keep the hanyou in her arms as warm as possible. The ambulances pulled up right next to them only a few minutes later, allowing only one person to ride with Inuyasha. Sesshomaru nearly pushed Kagome in, saying he had to drive his car, but she saw he wanted to. Refusing to get in, Sesshomaru literally lifted her in. She saw the workers covering Inuyasha with blankets and before they shut the doors, Sesshomaru gave her a reassuring smile, both worry and relief shinning in his amber eyes.

The ride to the hospital was chaos. The workers kept yelling at each other and putting more blankets on the hanyou. Kagome tried not to listen to them, Inuyasha really just looked like he was sleeping, aside from the blue lips and oxygen mask.

"Miss, will you please help up remove his shirt and jacket, they're much too wet and cold for him to stay in them." One of the workers said, addressing her. You'd think it would be a problem for her to take Inuyasha's shirt off of him, but it wasn't. She had seen him topless so many times before it didn't bother her at all. They'd known each other for such a long period of time, the two of them used to bathe together. She held the wet t-shirt and jacket in her arms as they continued to the hospital. 'Please be alright Yash.' She thought to herself, squeezing his hand tightly in her own 'Please, please be alright.'

A/N-well that was oodles of fun. Shorter than I would have liked but don't worry, I'll update soon. I hope at least, I can't promise you much. Although, if seventh period ever does start to pick up, I'll e-mail this to myself and work on it at home mkay? Fantastic! Hope you enjoyed, leave me oodles of comments! Ja mata ne?