raex18: Your right! Never mess with a vampire! LoL
A/N: Yah I know that the lana being killed part was fast, but shes not the main part in the story...more problems will be coming Clark and Victorias way!

A/N: Its 1:13 and I have a WHOLE day to write! Ill try to get another chapter in today. It depends how I write this one. I know how impatient I get waiting for the chapters to come in, so I'll try o update a lot. :D Thanks everyone for reading! And dont forget to R&R!

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"What have you do..done?" He stutters out.

I sigh.

What have I done?

"I...I..." I start but Clark interupts.

"You killed her right in front of me!" He starts. "She was one of my closest friends!" He says.

"Clark! She tried to kill ME first!" I manage to say. I dont want Clark to hate me.

What if he doesnt love me anymore?

"Victoria, she just needed HELP!" He lets out a sob. "She could have gotten better!" He says as he picks Lana up in his arms.

I cant beleive the way he is reacting.

He loves ME not HER!

He should be seeing if IM okay.

"I...I...dont know what to say..." I sputter out. My long black hair is tangled. My low-cut top is in peices and you can see my bra.

Right now I just want to get out of here. Go home. But I dont have a home. I have no home to go to.

Clark is my home.

I move toward Clark and kneel beside him.

Lana's body is growing whiter by the second.

I move my hand onto Clarks shoulder.

"I...Im sorry." I say. Clark has stopped crying.

"I...made a mistake."

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I dont know what to do.

I dont know what I am feeling.

Do I still love Victoria?

I cant say I dont.

Cause I do.

But I have just witnissed something.

I know this is what she has done her whole life on earth.

Kill.

But she cant help it. She told me so.

I know how hard it is for her. And If I leave her now, I will fail her.

Im the one who is keeping her sain these days. I know this beacause she told me.

We are lying in her bed right now.

She is holding my hand tight.

As she falls asleep she tells me shes sorry and that she loves me to much to lose me.

I cant sleep.

Im wide awake.

I cant stop thinking of what I have done.

No one will find her body.

Victoria helped me bury her deeper than 6 feet in the ground, thanks to my super speed and strength.

I am a accomplice to my first loves death.

I am disgusted with myself.

But I couldnt tell the police, If I did Victoria would have to leave Smallville, and if she went, I would too.

No, I do love Victoria.

A lot.

I think she keeps me sain these days too.

But I cant help but thinking of Lana.

Her once rosy skin turning a dreaded white.

Lana.

My first love.

But I love Victoria now.

More than anything.

But the thought of Lana will always be there.

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Are hands are together.

I know Clark is awake.

I can hear his soul crying inside.

"Will you ever forgive me?" I ask.

He squeezes my hand and moves his head to stare at me.

His green eyes are haunting me.

I want to cry.

He isnt speaking.

"I dont know."

I move my gaze to the ceiling.

A soft tear rolls down my cheek.

Clark looks away from me.

He hates me doesnt he?

"Clark?"

"Yes?"

"Do you hate me?" I ask.

He pauses.

Oh no.

"Clark?" I ask worried.

"Victoria." He says and sits up straight.

His hand is gone and I feel empty.

He puts his arm over my waist and sighs.

"I will always love you Victoria...Its just...different now..." He says.

"Oh." I say hurt.

"Is everything off then?" I ask refering to the 'taking over the world' thing.

"I dont know."

"Oh." I say.

My one shot for making the world a better place is gone too.

I dont know what to say.

I stand up.

"Tell me when its not different." I say and walk too the door.

"Victoria, wait!" He calls after me.

I stop, not turning to look at him. My hand is grazing the door knob.

Its so painfull to be in love.

Is it even worth it?

"Lana knew my secret Clark... and I know that she would not be able to keep it." I say.

I open the door and walk out, but first I say this:

"She knew yours too." I say and take a breath.

"I was protecting the both of us."

I leave my house.

I dont know where to go.

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A/N: Im losing my grip on this story. I just had a wonderful idea! ooooo! get your tissues ready!

A/N: I feel bad about what I am going to do to this story. :'(

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