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Summary: These are basically a few missing moments from Half-Blood Prince. The reason I am doing this is because I am incredibly dissatisfied with most of the ones milling about there, featuring a completely obsessed Ginny. If anyone read the now famous interview J.K. shared with Mugglenet creator Emerson and Leaky Cauldron founder Melissa, they would have realized that she basically said that Ginny had to get over Harry for him to notice her. I have decided to keep up that notion in my own ficlet. Will probably not be longer than 4 chapters

This is Ginny Weasley's journal, but I am not dating it, because no one reads the dates anyways. The entry numbers are random, because I am not going to even try and pretend that I entered all of them, I just wanted to insert the ones that I felt showed a change in her relationship with Harry or events that are particularly important to each other.

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Now, on with the story!

Entry #100

My 100th Entry! Whoo! Well, as exciting as that is, I have far less exciting news to report, Hogsmeade has been cancelled. I know what you are thinking; how could they? It's an outrage. Now where am I going to get some alone time with Dean? Well, I suppose it's because of Katie Bell. I mean, she was sent a cursed necklace. Actually, she wasn't sent it, she was just imperiused into being the messenger. That's pretty terrifying; she was such a nice person. She was always really helping me out when I joined the quidditch team last year. She was a great quidditch chaser. It makes me sad really, to think about how much pain she must be in. And she must be really confused and sad, because the person may not have cared if she lived or died, and that's a terrible thought. I dunno, I used to think my life didn't matter, that was back in my first year, with the Chamber of Secrets. I thought no one would notice if I went missing or anything. Of course, then Ron nearly got squashed in an avalanche and Harry almost died getting bitten by a basilisk, he would have died in fact, if the phoenix hadn't healed his wound. And so both my brother and his best friend nearly died saving my life, so after that I have known that at least two people cared whether I lived or died, and that's a rather nice feeling.

I wonder who did curse Katie though. Harry swears to God it was Draco Malfoy. I dunno, I think the fact that he was in detention when the whole thing happened pretty much rules him out though. It doesn't matter to Harry though, when Ron, Hermione, or I say something about this, he tries to focus on finding the loophole around it. I think that it was most likely a death eater, probably female, since it happened right outside the girls bathrooms. In fact, I would be rather unsurprised to find out that the culprit was Bellatrix Lestrange. I mean, besides the fact that she is a female death eater, she's possibly the most insane of all of them. I know that you might wonder how exactly I have come to that conclusion. Well if you were with me in the department of mysteries last June you would probably agree whole heartedly with me. I mean the way she was taunting Harry, it was just creepy. Far more so than Malfoy's sneering. Actually, Harry was pretty unfazed by most of what they were saying; he was more focused on getting us out of there, so I suppose there's something to be said for that. None the less, she didn't seem to think that we would be able to fight her because we were all still at Hogwarts. Ha, we showed that punk ass bitch which way was up. So that's my theory, it was probably Bellatrix Lestrange who came into The Three Broomsticks and decided to bump off innocent students.

I think the more foolproof way to figure out who gave Katie the necklace is to figure out who it was supposed to get to. The one thing the entire school is agreed on is that it probably wasn't Katie who was supposed to receive the necklace. If we start at the top and work our way down, we will be more likely to find the culprit. Hmm… I suppose the top would be Harry and Dumbledore, those two being you-know-who's number one enemies. Then It would be Snape, McGonagall, and Hagrid, all three of those people being in the order. Then it gets a bit trickier. I suppose that the next might be me, Hermione, or Ron, because we all spent the summer before last at the order's headquarters, and it could be said that even though we are kids we all know too much about the enemy for our own good. Also, Ron and I are the only members of our family NOT in the order. (I wholeheartedly believe that Fred and George will be accepted in any day now, if they haven't been already.) Then there's also Luna and Neville, both of them having been at the department of mysteries last year. I suppose that about makes up who would want to be killed here at Hogwarts. I'm sure there are others of course, but these are the only people that I know about. I think I'll ask Hermione.

Hermione says that I am taking a much more sensible approach to this whole thing than anybody else, which is a really big compliment coming from her. She reckons that I am right but she can already say that Harry, Ron, and herself are okay because they were about 15 feet behind Katie when it happened, so if it was for one of them Katie would have just turned around and handed it to them. She really seems partial to both the ideas of the necklace being sent for Snape or Dumbledore though, so if Hermione thinks I did right, then I am pretty sure I did right.

Also, this morning, when I was angry about not going to Hogsmeade with Dean, tonight I am thinking that might not be such a bad thing. While I remain uninclined to have heavy snogging sessions in the entrance hall, Dean seems to like that idea more and more. I suppose I will have to talk about that with him tomorrow.

I have decided that muggles are both nutters and geniuses, and that the two go hand in hand.

Entry #107a

Today is Ron's Birthday! Stupid git comes of age. Lucky him. I got him a book on the history of the Chudley Cannons. This one is like one that he already has, except it's the new edition, so it also has the last five years included, as well as much better pictures. I think he'll like it. Hold on one second someone's yelling my name really loudly, I wonder who it could be….

Entry #107b

Ron got poisoned. Not with some stupid little thing that made him throw up or something either. He almost died. He would have died too, if Harry hadn't been there. Let me start from the beginning though. I went down to the common room to see who had been shouting my name. It turned out it was Colin Creevey. I think I should have realized sooner something was wrong. But now I was all happy and cheerful and even when I saw his face at first. The conversation was something like this:

Me: Hey Colin what's up?

Colin: Ginny, Harry sent me. You have to go to the hospital wing.

Me: What, why? What's wrong? What happened? Is Harry okay?

Colin: Yeah Harry's fine. It's Ron.

Me: WHAT? RON! What's wrong with him?

Colin: I dunno, you have to go.

Me: yeah, yeah

Then I sort of stumbled off to the hospital wing. I remember all of thinking all of these terrible things. I kept flashing back to the Chamber of Secrets. When I think of death my mind automatically goes there. Finally, I got to the hospital wing where Harry pulled me into a huge hug. He just whispered words of comfort in my ear. He was saying how he was sure Ron was going to be okay because Madame Pomfrey had never failed yet. He said that the Bezoar worked on almost all poisons so chances were that Ron was safe. I don't think he would've let go if Hermione hadn't come running up the hall. She had tears in her eyes and practically tackled Harry. She said she was so happy, and that if he hadn't been there she would never have gotten to see Ron again. It wasn't until she said this that I finally came back into my senses and asked Harry what happened. He told me the whole story.

Apparently, Ron had accidentally swallowed some of the love potion that had been sent to Harry. (Sidebar: How fucking hilarious is that?) When Harry brought him to see Slughorn for the antidote and Ron got it, he seemed really depressed all of a sudden. I would too if I had been acting like such a prat, even if it was only for a few minutes. Also, I suppose the feeling of love wearing off all of a sudden like that must be sort of terrible. Slughorn had decided that they should all have a drink to calm their nerves. Apparently Ron swallowed his whole glass before Harry and Ron could even touch theirs. Harry noticed something was wrong almost immediately and jumped up to find a bezoar and when he got one he shoved it down Ron's throat. If it had been even a few seconds later Ron might not have made it.

Then Fred and George showed up and Harry told them the story again while I just sat there and thought about who would want to poison Ron. When Harry finished telling them the story we all talked about this and came to the agreement that the poison was not meant for Ron, unless, as Fred said, someone was trying to bump off the quidditch team. Hagrid showed up and was completely shaken. I have never seen Hagrid look so terrible except for the time he returned from Azkaban. It was incredible. Not incredible in the whoopee sense, but incredible in the, holy shit this has even Hagrid scared sense. I didn't think anything could scare Hagrid. It was so terrible.

Later mum rushed in and thanked Harry for saving Ron's life. She said that half of the family owed him their lives and I realized it was true. Harry has saved me, Ron, and dad. Which is a little odd when you think about it. It's made even more odd when you think that Sirius, Peter Pettigrew, and everyone that would have been murdered if Harry hadn't been born and made you-know-who disappear also owed him their lives, (the first two a little bit more directly though.) Oh and I suppose his cousin, Snape, and Hermione also owe him their lives, because they had all been saved by Harry from dementors at various times. It's thinking about this that kind of makes you realize that you really haven't done too much with your life at this point, because the kid next to you has saved the wizarding world… several times.

When mum had stopped thanking Harry; he, Hermione and Hagrid got up to leave and I was actually kind of sad to see him go. We all just sat around and watched Ron sleep for awhile, and while no one said anything, we all knew we were thinking the same thing; who put the poison in the drink, and who was it meant for?

On the lighter side of things, Ron called out exactly one thing while he was poisoned, it was a name actually. For all the hours that he was unconscious, all the time he was passed out, he said one name; Hermione. Good God, could those two BE any more obvious? They are so desperately in love with each other it makes me wanna hurl. Note to Self: come up with plan to lock them together in a closet later.

I went back up to the common room and sat around when Dean came up to me and gave me huge hug. I had to mentally kick myself for thinking that I had a better one earlier that day. He told me everything was going to be okay, but that doesn't really make sense. I mean, he barely knew what happened, let alone whether or not everything was going to be okay. He seemed a little taken aback and just walked away. I suppose I shouldn't have snapped at Dean, but my nerves are stretched as far as they can reach. Also, I am really annoyed with myself for thinking that Harry gave me a much better hug than Dean. I am sure it is just because I am not thinking straight. Harry's hug was good, but I am sure in a normal state of mind I would say that Dean's was better. I mean, it must've been.

Entry #110

Dean and I got into a huge fight today. I don't really know how it happened. He was over reacting a little bit if you ask me. Well, basically, it all started because I wanted to wear my dark green shirt today, and Dean's necklace clashes horribly with it. Well, I was debating whether or not to wear the necklace, and I decided against it, because I have worn it every day since I got it, and me taking it off ONE day is not going to change the way I feel about Dean. We were in the middle of breakfast when he noticed I wasn't wearing the necklace. He was incredibly rude when I told him it didn't go with my shirt, and he told me that I shouldn't have worn this shirt today then. Well, I'm sorry but I am not going to let some guy tell me what to do. Finally, he apologized but the rest of the morning was rather awkward after that. At lunch, it was quieter than usual but we would have been fine if I hadn't been wearing Harry's bracelet. Can I help it if it matches perfectly with my favorite shirt? NO! But when Dean asked me where the bracelet came from and I told him he got all bug eyed and angry. He seemed to think that Harry had no right to give me the bracelet. Those were his words too, "what does that git think he means? Giving my girlfriend jewelry. Who gave him the right to look at you, let alone give you JEWELRY?"

Well there was now way I was going to stand for that. I mean would you? So I just shouted right back, "first of all, anyone who wants to give a Christmas present can, and I will decide for myself whether or not I am uncomfortable with the gift giver. And who gives Harry the right to look at me? I GIVE HARRY THE RIGHT TO LOOK AT ME! That 'git' saved my life 4 years ago! He can look at me all he wants."

Well Dean really didn't like that, so he shouts back at me, "Oh! So you LIKE having other guys stare at you! What, is one man just not good enough for you?"

At this point, I am really, really angry. And I am not going to hold back anymore. So I screamed, "I am not going to defend my relationship with Harry to you Dean! We are friends! Friends give each other Christmas gifts! That's what they do!"

And that's when Dean basically said the unforgivable, "JUST FRIENDS! Everyone knows about your obsession Ginny. You were always completely at the mercy of Potter. If he said 'jump' you were already ten feet in the air! You still have that crazy little school girl obsession don't you! You still think that the great Harry Potter will come and save you don't you?"

That's when I slapped him and ran back here. What a FUCKING IDIOT! Who does he think he is? He has no right to tell me how I feel!

I, Ginerva Molly Weasley, would like to state for the record. That I no longer have an obsessive fixation with Harry Potter. I no longer believe that I am in love with him. I do not have an obsession with Harry Potter. He is no longer a story book character to me; he is my brother's best friend, and my good friend.

Author's Note

Thanks for the reviews!

LittleTom45: I know the entries were weird; it was pissing me off too. I uploaded the wrong file, but later that night I uploaded the correct one. I hope that this new version is a bit easier to read.

Machiavelli Jr: Thanks for the review! I am so glad to hear that you like my story. I also absolutely adore the fic "Hear my Voice" (It's by Roxy Black everyone, check it out!) Her work was actually a big part of the reason that I actually started to write this one. I had read all of these terrible fics, but when I saw hers I realized it was possible to do a quality Ginny story also.