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Summary: These are basically a few missing moments from Half-Blood Prince. The reason I am doing this is because I am incredibly dissatisfied with most of the ones milling about there, featuring a completely obsessed Ginny. If anyone read the now famous interview J.K. shared with Mugglenet creator Emerson and Leaky Cauldron founder Melissa, they would have realized that she basically said that Ginny had to get over Harry for him to notice her. I have decided to keep up that notion in my own ficlet.

This is Ginny Weasley's journal, but I am not dating it, because no one reads the dates anyways. The entry numbers are random, because I am not going to even try and pretend that I entered all of them, I just wanted to insert the ones that I felt showed a change in her relationship with Harry or events that are particularly important to each other.

Author's Note: for the purpose of this chapter, I had to give Harry another meeting with Dumbledore. However, because I most certainly do not want to change the canon plotline of Half-Blood Prince, this will be a minor meeting. It is just Dumbledore telling Harry that he should not be surprised if Scrimgeour were to turn up at Privet Drive over the summer and other such nonsense. This way, it not only suits the purpose of both my story, but it does not contradict the works of JK Rowling.

Now, on with the story

Entry #158

Harry and I are still the number one source of gossip in the school. I would have thought that now that it has been a few days it would have died down, but instead it seems to be picking up steam. Harry doesn't even seem to notice it, as he has been the number one source of gossip in this school since he came. None the less, it is slightly annoying. Not that I particularly mind either, but there are more important things going on in the world. Such as you-know-who, and the death eaters, and the dementors, and OWLS.

Yeah, that's right, you did not misunderstand me. OWLS are coming up. Fortunately, I have Hermione and Harry to help me study, and between the two of them they got eleven outstandings. Hermione is drawing my up a study schedule, because that's one of her favorite past times. I asked Harry how he and Ron could stand it, and he just said it was far easier to ignore her and let her get on with it. He also told me that they can come in handy, but not to live by it, because then I would have almost no free time. Of course, when Harry says free time, he means time that we can spend together in a broom closet snogging, but you know, that sounds a bit more crude.

I also have to start thinking about what career I would like to get into. I would love to do something like an auror, but that's the elite. A healer would be really great also, but at the same time, I would also be saying good-bye to my life for like, the next four years. That's the problem with both those careers, once you get out of Hogwarts, you still have more school to go to. It's like a never ending education wheel. Hermione's making remarkably unsubtle hints that I help her take SPEW professionally once I get out of Hogwarts, but that's not really up there on careers I would like to partake in. My best class is charms, so I suppose I could work in the ministry in the department of experimental charms or something. Or I could work in the law enforcement squad... hmmm. Those guys are actually a lot like aurors, except on a slightly smaller scale. It's like; they don't go after the uber-badies, just the ones that make daily life a pain in the arse. That actually sounds like something I would really like to do. Especially cause I could go after the people that are hurting muggle-borns in slightly less illegal ways. I mean, the aurors don't usually get involved unless it seems like an unforgivable curse has been used.

I wrote to a bunch of different people asking for their advice. Tonks says that I should play to my strengths and choose a career that would interest me the most. She thinks that I should make sure to stick clear of careers that make a big point in involving my least favorite subject. "Work can be great if you like it, and even if you are there at almost all hours of the day, you won't mind it. But if you have to spend only two hours a day on a career you hate, it can seem like both of those hours stretch into an eternity." That's actually pretty good advice.

Fred and George seem to think I should go work for them. I don't think I would make a career out of it, but maybe as a summer job that's not such a bad idea… I'll have to remember to ask mum and dad what they think about that.

Mum seems determined to keep me out of danger. She also suggested I become a teaching assistant, and eventually a professor, at Hogwarts. This wouldn't be a terrible idea, except I have absolutely no patience for stubborn little ass wipes like Malfoy. I'd probably get fired my first day on the job for hexing the students.

Dad wants me to go work in muggle relations like he does. I think dad is more than muggle obsessed enough for the entire Weasley clan. So that's out.

Bill and Charlie both seem to think that if I like Charms so much, doing something similar to what Bill does would not be a bad idea. That's actually a really good thought; he's a curse breaker for Gringotts. It's dangerous, so I would never get bored, the pay is pretty good, and it really does take a lot of skill. I am definitely putting that idea in the 'consider' list.

I started to ask Hermione, but she kept alluding to how sad it was that house elves never got to choose what sort of work they wanted, so I just gave up on that.

Ron agrees with Bill and Charlie, and that doing something like what Bill is doing now would not be a terrible idea. He also really liked my idea of going into the magical law enforcement squad. He likes the idea of me fining a bunch of slimy gits for being well, slimy.

This is the first time since Percy left that I have actually been sad that he did. This is one thing that Percy probably would have given me great advice at. He was studying potential career opportunities since he was about 8, so he knows just about every type of wizarding job out there. It kind of saddens me to think that Percy isn't there to give me advice. I mean, most of the time, my first year being a prime example, his advice isn't always that great. But then other times, he really knows what he is talking about. I started crying today because I couldn't even ask Percy what he thought was a good career for me. I mean, he is a prat and everything, and I think that he really needs a good walloping over the head for everything he said and did last year, but the fact remains that he is still my brother, and he did try and take care of me when he thought I was sick. Then I started remembering all the good things about Percy, like how when I was six and the boy down the road told me I was ugly, he yelled at him and then gave me an ice cream cone. Or how, when I was really scared to see Bill leave for Egypt, he just hugged me and told me that Bill could take care of himself, and that I didn't have to worry because he would always be there for me when I needed him. I was crying so hard that I didn't even realize that Harry had come back into the common rooms and was holding me until all the tears ran out. Finally once I calmed down enough to talk, I told him everything that I just told you. He was really sweet about the whole thing and told me that Percy was going to come around, and it was just hard for him to admit he was wrong. I think I might have cried into Harry's shoulder for well over an hour before I stopped.

By that time it was almost 1:00 in the morning. Harry lay down on the couch and I just lay down next to him, my head on his chest. It was the most comfort I have felt in a really long time. Harry was staring into the fire again, which I suddenly realized he does a lot. When I asked him why he told me that last year Sirius had come to talk to him in that very fire twice. I didn't really know what to say. I mean, Harry lost the only parent he had ever really known. I just laid my head back on his chest, because that's what he needed me to do. I dunno why I knew to do that, I just did. I am pretty sure Harry's breath was more ragged and harsh after that, and I think I felt a couple tears. We both seemed to lie there for ages. It was comforting to know that in the midst of all the turmoil we could both just lie there and take comfort from each other just by being there.

When we finally went to our dorms last night… err I guess technically this morning, I slept more peacefully than I had in a really long time.

Entry #159

Well, I had my meeting with McGonagall today about what my potential careers could be. She thinks that everything I had thought about so far was really rather perfectly suited for me. If that couldn't have made me happy enough, she told me that if I worked extra hard on charms, I might even be considered for an unspeakable. I asked her what that meant, and she told me that she didn't know exactly, only that the work they were doing was incredibly important, as well as incredibly mysterious. Hmm… this idea really appeals to me, far more so than any of the others I have thought of before.

I was so happy with my decision that when I got back to the common room I basically pulled Harry out of his seat, dragged him across half the castle, until we found an empty broom closet. The only thing he said to me was, "good day?" He knows me all too well. I would describe the events of the broom cupboard, but I think if I even start to write any of it down, I might be forced to drag Harry off again and experience the whole thing all over again. Let me just say that I haven't had a snog that good in, well, ever. Mmmmmm…

Entry #161

Today Harry and I got caught snogging in our now favorite broom cupboard. We were in the midst of playing a rousing game of tonsil hockey, my team was winning of course, when who should open the door but Filch, with Snape standing right behind him. I think that they were disgusted at what they were seeing, and gleeful at the idea of punishing Harry. I am sure that they have caught millions of students snogging in broom cupboards before, and normally they would only take 20 points off of the house or something. Of course, Harry is in fact Harry, so Snape assigned us both detentions. Separate detentions mind you. I got off relatively easy; apparently McGonagall needs someone to help her clear out the old transfiguration cupboards, so that won't be so bad. It'll be somewhat like the cleaning we did at Grimmauld Place, except less life threatening. (Man that place was nasty.)Harry on the other hand will be forced to wash the entire fourth floor with a rag. The entire floor! Walls included! You always know Snape hates him, but every now and then something like this seems to remind you how much so. Harry didn't seem to be too miffed about it though. Apparently he could've gotten worse. He just seems vaguely annoyed that now we won't be able to spend the evening together.

Of course, when I told Ron why I was so put out, he seemed to be incredibly disgusted and vaguely annoyed. I think that if he would just give Hermione a good snog, he wouldn't mind so much that Harry and I do it.

Also, I suppose we are going to have to find another broom cupboard. Harry says that Snape will be looking twice as hard for students out past curfew. He also said that by students, he means us. Oh well, I suppose this is the price you have to pay for dating Snape's least favorite student.

I still get chills every time I say that Harry and I are dating. I mean I had an obsession with him for so long, and now it's like I am living a completely different life. I think I almost am living a different life now. I am definitely not the scared little girl who was too afraid to tell anybody that I knew something about the chamber of secrets. I kind of wonder when I became the girl I am now. Truthfully a lot of it does have to do with Harry, I think when my obsession ended, I grew up quite a bit too. I would say it was waning at the beginning of my fourth year, as I was dating Michael, and really stopped when I joined the D.A. This is weird, because most of the girls in the D.A. started to like Harry at that time, and I stopped obsessing. I guess that the D.A. really gave me a chance to see Harry as a person, and he was no longer some fictional character to me. He was really someone that existed, and having him act as my teacher kind of hit that home. Oh well, it worked out in my favor now didn't it?

Entry #163a

Oh my God Harry gets out of everything. You will not believe this, he got out of detention. How unfair is that. I was stuck listening to McGonagall lecture me about responsibility and taking caution and not acting rashly while he gets to sit around with Dumbledore, probably knocking back firewhiskeys and laughing and burping and whatever guys do.

I can just see the scene now…

"So Harry," Dumbledore says as he reaches for the whiskey bottle, "I hear you got yourself into a spot of trouble over a little lady the other day."

"Yeah," Harry responds as he pours himself another glass, "dames can really give you some trouble if they want to."

Dumbledore, looking at Harry in a sickeningly sympathetic way, just nods his head and says "yeah, they can at that mate, they can at that."

"I mean, they drive you crazy what with their looks and they way they swing their hips as they walk, and you KNOW they just do it to drive us crazy and then when we act on it WE'RE the ones who get treated like pigs!" Harry starts to rant.

So of course Dumbledore just HAS to reach over and pat Harry on the back and say, "she's not worth all that. You could find yourself another pretty young thing for a lot less trouble. I hear that Romilda Vane has been eyeing you."

And then Harry nods his head thoughtfully and says, "You know, maybe you are right. Plus that Romilda Vane has legs that are out to here," at which point he would gesture emphatically.

Then Dumbledore and Harry would start laughing at nothing. Finally Harry says "I bet I can fart louder than you!" and they have a farting contest.

Now some people might think it is a little ridiculous that the most powerful wizard of the age and the chosen one have farting contests, but let me tell you something little journal, I grew up with SIX brothers. SIX! So I know that this is what guys do. I am not joking you, they sit around and have dumb testosterone driven contests. Such as, who can fart the loudest, or burp the longest, or snog the most girls in one month (this was a Fred and George competition.) So I can also say that I am in a position of utmost authority to determine that Dumbledore and Harry are getting drunk and having a farting contest right now.

Oh my God, this is terrible. What if Snape takes advantage of Harry in his drunken state and tries to do him in and make it look like an accident? What if Romilda Vane corners Harry and tries to get him to choose her over me? WHAT IF HE DOES CHOOSE ROMILDA VANE OVER ME? OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD!

So now Harry is up there getting pissed and having a fantastic time and I am stuck down here, feeling paranoid that my boyfriend is going to dump me, and disgusted because McGonagall gave me a sort of half-assed version of "the talk," and stressed because OWLS are coming up. This is great. What sort of boyfriend does this to his girlfriend? I can't believe this.

OK Ginny, calm down, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe. All right, I am breathing, I am calm, I am one with the couch on which I am sitting. I will focus on the small little things around me. Like Hermione getting up to go to bed, and the sound of feet outside the tower, and the crackling of the fireplace, and the portrait hole opening, and the weight of someone sitting next to me, and the arm that's snaking its way across my waist and…

Oh… Harry's back.

Entry #163b

Well after I welcomed Harry back from his time away from the tower, I showed him the bit of my journal that has the conversation I pictured him having with Dumbledore. Get this, he laughed. I thought he was going to have a heart attack he was laughing so hard. Finally he managed to choke out that it wasn't anything like that. I was debating whether or not to hit him with a jinx to get him to stop laughing, but of course he saw my wand and was immediately able to get it together. There really is no way to get anything past him. Anyways, he just took me in his arms and, rather unexpectedly might I add, told me that I was the most adorable thing he had ever seen. Well, at first I was flattered, then I was a little annoyed, then really annoyed, because I wanted some answers as to what had been going on with him and Dumbledore. So I tried to pull my best angry face, which of course was a miserable failure because when Harry saw me attempting to get angry with him he gave me that obnoxious little arrogant grin that makes me melt every time I see it. Then of course, he has to be the adorable one and go, "Aw Gin, c'mon now. You know you drive me crazy when you are upset with me." So finally I stopped trying to get all sulky and mad, when I was practically ready to jump him then and there. Instead I snogged him.

However, I did want some answer so I finally managed to get enough self-control to pull away and ask him what exactly he was doing in Dumbledore's office. After all that, all that worrying, all that attempting to be mad, all that complete paranoia, the answer was actually rather dull. Apparently Dumbledore just wanted to make sure that Harry was prepared to face Scrimgeour again over the summer, as he was almost certainly going to do.

"Of course," Harry did add, "Dumbledore was incredibly amused about what landed me in detention in the first place."

He gave me that arrogant little grin again, so I was forced to snog him senseless. What can I say; a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do.

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