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Summary: These are basically a few missing moments from Half-Blood Prince. The reason I am doing this is because I am incredibly dissatisfied with most of the ones milling about there, featuring a completely obsessed Ginny. If anyone read the now famous interview J.K. shared with Mugglenet creator Emerson and Leaky Cauldron founder Melissa, they would have realized that she basically said that Ginny had to get over Harry for him to notice her. I have decided to keep up that notion in my own ficlet.
This is Ginny Weasley's journal, but I am not dating it, because no one reads the dates anyways. The entry numbers are random, because I am not going to even try and pretend that I entered all of them, I just wanted to insert the ones that I felt showed a change in her relationship with Harry or events that are particularly important to each other.
Now, on with the story
Entry #170
Harry, Ron, Hermione and I were all sitting under our favorite beech tree today when I got to thinking, what would everyone's boggart, patronus, and animagus form be? A boggart is the representation of your worst fear, a patronus is something that you view as a protector or a guardian, it's almost something you view as pure but it's more like what gives you strength and is your inner resistance. Your animagus form is the animal version of yourself; it takes your most prominent characteristics and puts them into animal formation. This is something I used to think about when I was in my second year and I was suffering from sleep loss because whenever I closed my eyes I would remember Tom Riddle, and the chamber. Anyways, this is the game I would play when I couldn't get to sleep.
Hmmm… well I suppose I should start with the easiest.
Harry – Well Harry's patronus is a stag and his boggart is a dementor, he's known about both of these things since he was thirteen and I found out last year during the D.A. These are actually two things that show how completely unique Harry is. First of all, it really is saying something when your biggest fear is fear itself. It shows that he will face all the hurt, the pain, the loss, and it is still the fear that bothers him the most. I mean, you really can't get braver than that. It's actually the closest anyone could ever hope to get to being fearless. Also, the fact that his patronus is a stag says something about him to. His dad was an illegal animagus, and his animagus form was a stag. Harry views his father as his protector. Actually I asked him about all this once and he confided in me that when a dementor gets near him he can hear, among other things, you-know-who murdering his parents. He says that his dad told his mum to run, while he held off you-know-who to give them time to run. I guess this is really a lot like Harry. He would willingly give his life for any of his friends; he doesn't worry about his own life half as much as he worries about everyone else's. I bet Harry must be quite a bit like his dad; brave, loyal, trustworthy, and I would also give money to bet that his arrogant little smirk is genetic also. I guess Harry sees a lot of his father in himself, and this is why his patronus is his father. His animagus from is pretty easy also, he would be a lion. Is there any question about this really? I mean, he is pretty much the bravest person I have ever known. Stupidly, recklessly brave sometimes, but brave none the less. Harry's a lion, it's not really a matter of what I think or don't think, this is something I know.
Hermione – Hermione's patronus is an otter. I know this because she finally managed to conjure one in the D.A. last year. I think it might be an otter because she's always so uptight and rigid, but she can break the rules, when it matters. Like she did with the troll in her first year. An otter is kind of like that part about her, small, but it's fun and cute and can definitely be a force to be reckoned with. I don't really know what her boggart would be specifically, but I think it would be along the lines of Professor Dumbledore telling her that she was expelled because she just wasn't good enough and that she was a failure. Hermione hates to fail, and part of this is because she doesn't really know what will happen to her if she does fail. Since people tend to fear what they don't know, she would almost definitely fear be told that despite everything, she still wasn't good enough. Hmmm, I wonder what her animagus would be. I think it would be a very wise creature, someone that uses her head to think things through before acting, and something that has an excellent memory. I suppose this would be an owl. Owls are particularly wise creatures, they are trustworthy, they are both fun and useful, and they are just nice overall. Yes, I think that Hermione is most definitely an owl.
Ron – Ron's boggart is a spider. He has feared spiders above all else since he was little and Fred turned his teddy bear into a spider while Ron was holding it. Ron's patronus is a little dog, like a terrier. I think this is because he is deeply loyal, a good companion, but acts without thinking sometimes. Also Ron is the randiest kid at Hogwarts and terriers seem to enjoy humping people's legs. Like, Jack Russell Terriers, those are the randiest goddamn dogs I have ever seen. Eeew, this is getting incredibly weird and disturbing. ANYWAYS, moving on from this bit of disgusting segment, what would Ron's animagus form be? Well, it would be something that was incredibly loyal, a great strategist, not the brightest bloke but by no means dumb, a little careless, and incredibly fun loving. This is really something to think about. Well, I suppose I should start with a bunch of deeply loyal animals. Dolphins, lobsters, dogs, wolves, and parakeets to name a few. Well, he's definitely not a lobster, because even though they mate for life (coughhack HERMIONE!), they aren't really terrifically smart, and while Ron's not the best in his year or anything, he did get seven OWLS, so that must say something about him. Ron's not a dog either, because they tend to have blind loyalty, and while he is deeply loyal to Harry and Hermione, he doesn't go along with whatever they say just because they are his friends or whatever other reason dogs might have, so he is definitely not a dog. He isn't a parakeet because he couldn't sing to save the world and he isn't TOO arrogant, so I don't think that it really fits Ron. A dolphin might, unfortunately, be a bit too bright for Ron, which is unfortunate, because he really would be funny to look at as a dolphin. I think Ron is definitely a wolf, he is loyal, but he makes sure that he gets his say in too. He is perpetually hungry, and he will work to fill his stomach. A wolf can be both brilliant and stupid at the same time, something that Ron has tenfold. And wolves love to play with one another, so I think Ron would be a wolf.
Snape – I am not exactly sure what to say about Snape. For about two years now, Ron seems to think that Snape can turn into a bat. I am not exactly sure about whether or not he actually can, but I think that a bat seems fitting as an animagus for Snape. He certainly does seem to swoop down on students at the most inconvenient of times, as Harry and I discovered much to our displeasure. He also is deeply fond of the color black, and then he spends tons of time in the dungeons, which is about as close to caves as you can come within the castle. He can sense things that others can't, like how he knows to always show up at the other side of the room at the exact wrong time. Also, bats are completely unhygienic, and Snape is about as dirty as they come. I wonder what his deepest fear is. Snape is probably the most emotionally guarded person in this school, the only emotion he ever seems to show is anger, and it can most certainly be said he has that in spades. Well, it could certainly be you-know-who, because he is stronger than Snape and can kill him just like that. Snape will almost certainly be killed, if you-know-who ever discovers that Snape is a double agent for the order. So I think that Snape's boggart would be you-know-who. I wonder what his patronus would be though. What, or who, does Snape value as a protector. I suppose it would be something that is completely guarded, and doesn't really give anything away. I think Snape's patronus might actually be a maggot or something, because truth be told, what kind of emotions does a maggot show?
Dean – I think Dean's patronus, which is a possum, is because of his family. Dean has a large family, the only person I have ever met who has a family that is almost as large as mine. I think that they are a source of pride and strength for him, because he values his family very deeply. He loves them all very much, and when we were going out I noticed that he sent letters to his sisters every day, which I thought was very sweet of him. Of course, it could also be a possum because they eat garbage, and one of the last things I said to Dean was, "eat shit." Anyways, I think his animagus would be an eagle. He, as I just mentioned, has a big family, and he is deeply fond of them. Also, he is a little too arrogant for his own good. Overprotective is a bit of an understatement when it comes to Dean, and I heard that eagles will poke your eyes out if you mess with their young or something. I think Dean's boggart is a severed hand, which is a little weird. I guess he doesn't like the idea of parts of his anatomy getting cut off. I dunno, a severed hand would be creppy and everything, but not nearly as terrifying as that brain that attacked Ron last spring. So, way to have a shallow sense of self Dean!
Tonks – Tonk's patronus is a werewolf. I don't actually know this for a fact, but it's just a couple of things that I have put together. She is totally into Lupin. She stares at him over the dinner table, she blushes when he is around, and mom tried getting them together over the summer. Harry said her patronus was something big and furry, I think he thinks its Sirius, but I happen to know otherwise. So Tonks has apparently fallen hard for Lupin, and now her patronus is him. That's just… weird. Her boggart would probably be being alone. She is such a social person, and Lupin rejecting her is practically killing her inside out. I can honestly say that I have had similar feelings before, and it is not a fun time. I can see her boggart turning into Lupin and then all of her friends, and telling her that she is terrible, and that they don't love her anymore. Poor Tonks. Her animagus form would be something social, bright, fun, and cheerful. Oh, she would probably be a puffskein. They are such happy little fuzz balls, always playing and laughing. They are a perfect Tonks.
I dunno journal, these are just the kinds of things I think about when I can't get to sleep.
Entry #172
I think that Harry is not having a very good affect on my grades. Oh sure, it's all well and good when he's actually helping me with the work, but most of the time he seems to be more interested in other things. Like seeing how many times he can kiss me on the neck before I finally turn around and return the favor. Or if tickling me somehow manages to get me to memorize my transfiguration notes.
Today I finally gave in and was snogging Harry on one of the couches in the Gryffindor common room when who should come running in but Hermione. I suppose it could have been worse, it could have been Ron. But none the less, Hermione felt it was her duty to give us lectures anyways.
"Ginny," she said turning to me. "You should know better. I thought you had much more sense than that. You are supposed to be working hard for your examinations. How exactly does snogging Harry help you learn to vanish kittens, which I notice, you still have problems with. Or memorizing the 12 uses of dragons' blood? Do you think that this is going to engrain it in your memory? You should be using more common sense Ginny. You need to work. I cannot stress enough how important these are. Your future careers can be completely changed by how well you do. If I had known how I was going to do on my Defense Against the Dark Arts OWL do you think I would have studied harder? I most certainly would have! This is incredibly important Ginny. You need to understand that. WORK WORK WORK WORK!"
"Hermione," Harry cut in, "what do you mean, 'study harder'? You got an 'E' on the Defense Against the Dark Arts OWL, you did incredibly well. What was wrong with your grade as it was? Also, you sound like a drill sergeant." (I don't know what this is, so I assume it was some sort of muggle term)
Which prompted Hermione to turn on Harry instead, "Right, like you would understand. You got the top grade of the year in the DADA OWL. You just can't possibly understand how that felt Harry. Besides, how can you be bothering Ginny at a time like this. You took the OWLS. You know how much studying you need to do in order to properly prepare. How can you even think about distracting Ginny at a time like this? She needs to work. You could be a help instead of a hindrance by actually working with her, instead of snogging her. I am properly ashamed of you. I cannot believe that you would be foolish enough to do something like this instead of working. You probably haven't even considered that our NEWTS are coming up next year have you? I would think that even if you weren't concerned with Ginny's grades, you might be mildly concerned with your own. The two of you should be studying, not snogging. AND I DO NOT SOUND LIKE A DRILL SERGEANT!" After she screamed this she stormed back out of the common room almost as suddenly as she had come in.
Much to my displeasure Harry yawned and told me that she was probably right. It was getting late and I should get back to my studying. I did have a lot of work to do before the end of term, but it didn't lessen my disappointment any. Although, Harry, even though he was clearly exhausted, didn't leave to go up to bed. He summoned a book to his side and just read while I finished working, occasionally asking me if I needed any help. Its things like this that make me fall harder for Harry every day. Things like him not going to bed so that I won't be in the common room working by myself. He's so adorable sometimes I don't think he even realizes it.
Note to Self: find out what "drill sergeant" is.
Entry #173a
You want to know one of the reasons I like Harry more than Dean? (Not that I want to compare boyfriends or anything) It's because I am currently writing, right now, right next to Harry. I am leaning on him, and his arm is around my waist, but the thing is, he's not trying to read what I am writing. Dean always tried to sneak peeks at you little journal, and it was so annoying. It was like he couldn't stand the thought of me keeping secrets from him. I couldn't even bring you out of my dorm for awhile, because he would try and steal you from me.
Which is what's so different from Harry. He asked me a few days ago what I was always writing about, and when I told him it was private, he just shrugged his shoulders and went back to eating his toast. He's not deeply concerned about things that I write in here. He knows most of my big secrets, and then he really doesn't seem to care too much whether I write about how I got a stain on my new sweater or something. Honestly, most of the time, I wouldn't care about whether or not Harry read this journal anyways. Except for a few entries, like the one where I talked about him walking around The Burrow shirtless. Or when I was watching him bend over. Or when I was trying to survey the hugs he gave me. Or when I called him a giant teddy bear. You know, on second thought, I would rather he never did read this journal.
It's just that I never could have done this with Dean. If I sat right next to him writing, he would have been looking over my shoulder at every little thing that I was putting down. But Harry's just sitting there reading his own book, not even attempting to read this. Look I can even write, in really big letters…
HARRY POTTER I WANT TO SHAG YOU SO BAD I DON'T KNOW HOW I CAN CONTROL IT! I WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU IN SUCH EXTREME WAYS THAT YOU WILL NOT EVEN BE ABLE TO WALK IN THE MORNING! I WANT TO MAKE YOU MY SEX SLAVE! I WANT YOU TO RIP OFF MY CLOTHES AND THROW ME ONTO YOUR BED AND HAVE YOUR WAY WITH ME!
Oh God, now I am laughing so hard I can barely control what I am doing.
Entry #173b
Well unfortunately for me, I was laughing so hard that I accidentally flung the book onto Harry's lap, and he read the last part of what I had written. I swear that I have never seen him look so cocky in his whole life. When I finally managed to get control of my laughter, Harry just lifts me up and sets me on his lap so that I am straddling him. Then he says, "Here I am Gin, you can take advantage of me all you want." And of course, he was looking so arrogant and happy and amused that I couldn't decide whether to slap him or snog him. I went with the latter. So I may have not made Harry my sex slave, yet, and no clothes were ripped off, but it was a rather nice way to spend the afternoon anyways.
When we finally pulled apart Harry asked me if I normally wrote things like that in my journal, and I told him that they were normally a lot dirtier. So of course he just grins like a maniac and then tackles me as he's trying to grab the book. But in a joking and cute way, not an obnoxious way like Dean would. So of course to get him to stop I had to start snogging him again. I wonder how it must've looked to anyone who saw. Harry Potter was lying on top of Ginny Weasley, snogging her, outside, underneath the beech tree. They probably think we're sex fiends or whatever, so I have those awkward conversations with Ron to look forward to. Hip hip Hooray!
Entry #175
Harry and I got caught snogging in a broom closet, this time by Professor Dumbledore. I KNOW! Professor Dumbledore, the greatest wizard of the age, the only one you-know-who ever feared, (except for Harry, whom I think you-know-who also fears now, though I haven't brought this up with anyone) caught me snogging. In a closet. With Harry Potter. Harry Potter, Dumbledore's all time favorite student. His personal disciple. The closest thing he has ever had to a son. Oh yeah, it was a great scene all right. Actually in retrospect it was rather funny how it all happened.
Harry and I were snogging when he suddenly the closet door opened. There stood Dumbledore, looking as wise and wizardly as ever. Finally, after what felt like ages, but was probably only a second or two, Harry and I seemed to come to our senses. We pulled apart and just stood there blushing furiously. Harry kept running his hand through his hair, which he does when he is embarrassed, and I spent most of the time enjoying the lovely dirt on my shoes. Finally I look up to see Dumbledore just grinning, really broadly too, and not in the least bit mad. He just chuckled and said, "I seem to have chosen the wrong closet," while starting to close the door. "Although Harry, I do not think the furious pink your cheeks are turning really suits you." Then he just closed the door and walked away whistling. In all honesty, what kind of headmaster does that? I mean, if he was a proper enforcer of the rules Harry and I probably would've lost Gryffindor loads of points. Instead Dumbledore tells Harry not to be so embarrassed. He really is rather odd.
I asked Harry if we should go back up to the common room but he told me, get this; that he didn't think we were going to be disturbed for a very long time. I asked him what he meant by that, and he said that if wasn't mistaken Dumbledore probably put some charm or something on the door. When I asked him how he knew, he just pulled me back into his arms and told me that "it was a hunch." Whatever that means. In any case, Harry and I did seem to be completely ignored the rest of the time we spent in that closet, so maybe he was right.
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Queenlover: Thanks for the review! I am glad you liked the chapter. Yes, it seems to me that Harry and Ginny will be back together in book seven. If anyone has any doubt about this, I think they should go watch the movie Spiderman 2. Just a suggestion, but I think it might enlighten them.
Acciobook: Wow, that was by far one of the nicest reviews I have ever received. Thank you so much. I am glad you enjoyed the Dumbledore/Harry scene. I know I will be receiving criticism for it, but honestly, as someone who has two brothers, I always see him and his friends doing these sorts of things when they hang out. And while my brother's friends are not Albus Dumbledore and Harry Potter, two of them DO go to law school, another one goes to Duke, and yet, they still love to sit around and talk about the most idiotic things. Even my own father, who went to Harvard Law School, laughs every time someone farts. So to be frank, no matter the level of education they have, no matter how wise or old they are, all men seem to love flatulence. It's the great equalizer. Also, I am so glad that you see Ginny the way I do. I imagine her to be a strong character who has a lot of backbone and a very open heart. I am glad you read my story the way I want it to be read, as a tribute to J.K.R. It is her absolutely astounding work that has completely changed the way I read all literature, as well as giving me back something I thought I had lost a long time ago, my imagination. So thank you for the review, and I hope that you enjoyed this chapter as well.
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