Title: El Bimbo
Author: sky75rk
Standard disclaimers apply.
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Fifteenth Channel: Ephemeral Breakaway
Breath of everlasting
Dark eyes watched. Watched in piercing agony as Naruto continued to talk to everyone else but him. Watched as those unconcealed happiness was delivered about—leaving him out. Watched with sickening anger burning his guts, hostile intentions clawing through his mind, his inner evil. Watched as he could do nothing else but.
Nothing else.
He followed his every move, every action, every word that came out from his mouth was taken into his memory, jotted down and saved like some electrical computer that automatically does. He remembered his acts, those smiles and to whom it was directed. And those who were at the receiving end of his smiles he loathed, reviled, abhorred. It was his consistent action, hatred.
He hadn't spoken his name. Not even once and it was his fifth day back in Konoha. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? The start of a million 'why's' and the start of the endless silence that accompanied no answer. Yes, he didn't know anything, and even a million why's that he kept on throwing himself would not give him any reply.
Paradise of opulence
What did it matter? To him, nothing else mattered, only to have those blue eyes staring at him once more. His wealth, his status, his vengeance, they were nothing. Nothing.
Nothing.
His mind reeled, his inner self that he sealed before was leaking out, trying to take over. He forgot everything. Threw away the chance to have the most power one could ever desire to return to…
Return…
…to whom?
Perhaps it was only a castle in the sky that he built. Were they spurious? Those words… words preached by him, promises he made, promises he promised to keep… return, return, return…
…to whom now that…
His home was…
Gone.
Gone.
Gone.
You… liar.
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Iruka glanced with worried eyes as his former student came walking towards him with those eyes.
Eyes that were not supposed to hold such grief.
"Iruka-sensei," his student started, and he found himself drowning in that endless pool of regret. The emotion magnified as he saw his student's entire semblance. Dejected, crumpled.
Thrashed.
"Are you alright, Sasuke?" Iruka put his hand on Sasuke's shoulder, wanting to now what was wrong with him or why the Uchiha prodigy suddenly wanted to talk to him. He was not the same. No. Nothing was the same ever since…
Naruto came back.
"Sasuke?" he called out again, still, the dark-haired boy kept the silence stretching for a while longer before he started speaking.
"Is it… Is it possible for someone who always risked his life for you to… forget you... that… easily?" The brush of their shoulders when they would pass each other's way on the streets. The muttered sorry that was said afterwards, a polite apology that was supposedly said only to strangers…
Strangers…
It… hurt.
More than the hurt he felt after his family's massacre.
"I… I don't know," the final reply.
Winter came and swept him absent. Sasuke stood still.
Spring was so far away.
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The loom of destruction
"Fuck you! What the hell did you do to him!" an anger ablaze, razing into new heights. Neji was not fazed, keeping his calm and collected outer appearance as Sasuke's slipped into the infernal abyss. Shattered.
A broken glass awaiting their resurrection.
So where was his savior?
"What are you talking about?"
A punch that was nearly an inch away from the head of the Hyuuga. Cement cracking and getting smashed. "What. Did. You. Do. To. Him!" Sasuke demanded. It was the only thing he could do. The only thing he knew he could do. Demand.
A hand snaked to Neji's neck, squeezing. Sasuke could feel it. His inner evil. A numerous rolling thunder struck. He was losing himself. He could see red.
All because of him.
Neji focused his chakra to his fingers, byakugan activated, in a whisper chanted his chakra sealing technique and then began closing off the chakra holes. Sasuke drew back. Neji massaged his neck calmly. "What makes you think I did anything to him? If there is something I want to do to Naruto, I won't do it. Not without his consent,"
Clenched fists.
Grinding teeth.
"Stay away from him, Uchiha. You won't do him any good," a firm command.
Revulsion. Extreme dislike.
Bottled up inside.
Shameful creations
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Sasuke watched intently, not taking his eyes off of Naruto. He knew he was stalking. He knew that he was probably sending off vibes that weren't exactly something you would look forward to. He knew that Naruto could feel him.
So why wasn't he doing anything about it?
A glare. Notice me. Notice me. Notice me. Notice me. A mantra. Green eyes suddenly looked at him. A smile was presented as the said person walked towards him.
"Sasuke-kun! There you are! Come on, Naruto and I were just talking," dark-eyes were past Sakura's chatting figure, directly staring at Naruto. The blonde smiled gently and he stiffened.
Not like that. It's different. Not like that.
Naruto bowed and greeted Sasuke. "Konnichiwa, Uchiha-san,"
Pink head tilted to the side in confusion. "Uchiha-san? Naruto, whenever did you address Sasuke as 'Uchiha-san'?" the kunoichi asked and Naruto removed his eyes from him.
He was so far.
"Why? Did I address him as something else?" the blonde asked innocently. Sakura was now thoroughly confused.
She touched his forehead and in dismay, found no fever. "You always called him a bastard, Naruto. Don't tell me you've forgotten? Or are you simply joking?"
A joke. It would have been simple if everything was just a joke.
Incredulous eyes returning their gaze to Sasuke who was now immobile. "I did? Gomen!" another bow.
So formal.
Sakura bit her lower lip. "Why are you apologizing? Naruto? Is there something you should tell me?"
Naruto went over his mind and recalled that he did not remember anything about the Uchiha. But he couldn't tell her that. Not when it was obvious she cared a great deal out of him. "No, not that I know of,"
Sasuke gazed at him, his words replaying in his mind. This is not Naruto. This is not Naruto. This is not Naruto…
Forgotten.
From his…
…memories.
Float of the wounds
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"Stop that! Uchiha Sasuke!" a loud command. It carried the force of authority, one he should obey. Yet, he didn't heed.
A powered chidori on his left arm. He ran blindly towards their opponents. "Stop! We have orders not to kill them!" Again, those orders. They were wasted on him. He wouldn't heed them.
He wouldn't.
His chidori crashed with the missing-nin's body with a nauseating explosion. Blood smeared his face. It wasn't enough. He needed more.
Insanity was his visitor this night.
Ye portrait of sin
Three pairs of arms from nowhere suddenly held him back. He struggled, his strength increasing a multitude as his curse seal was now free. He wanted to hurt. He didn't care who it was. He wanted to breakaway.
From this.
He threw another jounin over, a good fifteen meters away. His powerful fist landed on another member of his squad and one by one, they were distancing themselves from him. They were helpless.
The demon was out now.
Cave of the sinister
He smirked, his sharingan spinning wildly and he chased after the missing nins who ran away. Why are they even trying? It was useless to run away from him. Not when he could smell them.
Smell their fear.
Could he breakaway?
Will he be able to forget about him?
Just his once…
He wanted to be free.
To disregard…
These emotions...
And pretend…
That he was nothing.
Nothing.
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"What were you thinking Uchiha Sasuke! You just blatantly disobeyed my orders! I told you that you should bring them alive, not in pieces!" Tsunade shouted. She was tired. This was the second time he had received a complaint about Sasuke's behavior. It was not natural.
Tsunade groaned. She did not know what to do anymore. Sasuke's silence was unnerving her, and even if he was silent before… this one, it was deafening.
Black eyes were distant, in a land faraway. He was fighting a losing battle, and he would lose himself. He knew he would. He knew that he needed liberation.
Murky shadows engulfed him and he was trapped. He would shed no tears.
None.
Kiss of the dimming light
The hard ground.
Tsunade yelled for Kakashi and in a minute he arrived. An order to get Sasuke to the hospital was said and Kakashi immediately complied. Gingerly, the jounin teacher picked up the Uchiha's lithe body and disappeared. Tsunade called for Shizune before following.
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A pale-skinned boy jumped from the sixth floor of the hospital building and ran back to his house.
Bitter solitude. Should he be thankful for the peace?
Peace in Konoha, but a raging war within him.
Pale forthcoming impend
"Sasuke," a curt tone. Another one of them.
Sasuke did not respond, nor did the trespassing visitor say anything after that. He reached out for the drawer of his bedside table and took out a worn out piece of notebook. Sasuke traced every edge of it, brought it near his heart and embraced it for all its worth, taking the warmth it had and can radiate.
Then, he scowled, his hand closing harder and harder on the inanimate material. The sharingan wielder raised his hand.
The notebook flew and collided with the wall.
Soon, footsteps were heard. Each step was distinctively closing in on him. Sasuke remained in his position. "Give me release," Sasuke's hoarse voice resonated through the bedroom and the moving figure stopped.
"Liberate me," the Konoha nin said once again. "Even just for tonight,"
From the darkness, the person made himself known. Walking towards the spilling light of the moon, his red hair stood out and green eyes stared at Sasuke's lying position. Gaara did not say anything, only moved closer until he was hovering above Sasuke who stared at him, empty.
"He had me trapped in his world," it seemed that the longer he talked, his sentences made only little sense. "Break me away from it,"
Yet, Gaara understood.
The selfish provoke
The Sand nin put his gourd down and Sasuke stood up slowly. As green eyes studied Sasuke's black ones, Gaara could see nothing but emptiness. Is this what he caused you? What I caused you for being the one who made him forget you? The childhood Gaara wanted to forget, he all at once remembered. The solitude, the pain, the confusion of not knowing anything. The hunger of wanting to love and to be loved back. He wished for that and he knew Sasuke did too.
But I took it away from you.
They moved together under the scrutiny of the quiet moon, and their bodies melded together. They could hear nothing as both of them were lost in their own worlds; their thoughts consuming them.
Sasuke knew this was wrong. To be calling the blonde's name when he was not there. When it was Gaara who was with him. When Gaara was cheating himself just to give him what he wanted.
He was selfish.
Yes, he was selfish, and what he wanted, he wouldn't give to anyone.
So why was he here when instead he should be fighting to get Naruto back?
They both reached their release at the same time and Sasuke felt the bottled emotions bursting out of him. He could think clearly now, could see clearly, could act clearly. He faced Gaara, whose face was turned away from him. He had hurt him.
And Gaara let himself be hurt.
Why did it have to come to this?
Evil's enthralled pain;
Thy colorful remorse
-Continued-
A/N: The words placed within brackets are actually a three stanza poem entitled "Malevolence". It is mainly about the Story of Creation and the Plight of Adam and Eve. The writer is my friend, Zaide.
Okay, the channel is too short but I liked it. But I can't bear to read it myself again, so please by lenient about the grammatical errors. It's not that I didn't like the channel that I couldn't read it. It was that, there was too much angst in only 1000+ words. It breaks my heart.
I hope that you get the essence and importance of this chapter. Gaara changed a great deal, and so did Sasuke. If you have any questions…. Any at all, just ask them and I will answer on the next chapter. /sigh/ I do hope that I would reach at least 200+ reviews… There are only a few channels left… I won't exceed 20 channels. After this, the story would be fast-paced as we're already nearing the end. So, as early as now, I would like to thank all those who supported this story and hopefully, support my other stories as well.
To my reviewers:
Momochi Zabuza: I'm sorry if this channel is not that long, but I do hope that you were entertained even for only a short while. A NejiNaru lemon? Sorry, I don't do lemons… not after 'Black Heaven' anyway (it's my one and only HunterXHunter fic that was made for a friend). I can't find myself writing lemons again. It feels… well, just weird, especially when you read what you just wrote. Heh, I'm babbling again. Sorry.
Strawberries and Napkins: uhm… I don't really know what to say. I can't understand your reviews… heh. But thanks for reviewing either way.
Uzamaki Liliana: I can't figure out whether Naruto would remember Sasuke again or just remain the way he is now. I haven't completely thought of the ending yet… heh…
Angel winged Meroko: Thanks for saying that my story isn't lame at all. But, I'm not really saying that this fic sucks… it's just that I've made enough blunders to make me feel embarrassed about this.
ChiKoiDoji: hmm… I can't decide whether this would turn out to be a NaruSasu or NejiNaru. You just have to wait and see to know…
Jena: Did you see how much Sasuke changed/points at the channel above/
Sizzle: You liked the last two channels? Thanks! I hope you'll like this one too…
Catc10: Know what? Even in a serious kind of way, I can't seem to see anything funny. Weird… I'll re-read again. Maybe there is something funny, in a serious kind of way. Funny Sasuke? Do you think I should try writing humors?
Princess Kitana: Yes, this channel, Sasuke's reaction.
Mkh2: Hey, I'd just like to thank you for taking the time to review this story event though you're so tired. I'm really touched.
Kisu: Oh! You're back! I was wondering when you'd show up and review again… anyway, I just thought that Neji cooking would be something sweet he would do for Naruto. Glad you liked it.
Bhodi li: the people around has no idea of what's going on inside Naruto's head. In this channel, Sakura might have a very confused and jumbled idea… you'll know soon enough!
Sansty-san: Can you really taste this story?
Amethyst Blossom: I don't write much about Gaara since I don't know how to keep him in-character all of the time. Which is why I only write about him when Sasuke is there or if he is talking to Neji. Do you want him to be out more often?
MsDbzMedabots: WHAT! You want Neji out of the picture? Bad... if there's no Neji... then there's no story... /sniff/
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