Gothic Black Panther96: I really appreciate your reviews and everything you said. People can suck, but there are good reviewers out there. Your one of them, and I'm one of them. See! There's two already. I am glad that you think that the second chapter is better than the first. Hopefully that will continue to be true throughout this story.

Tammy: You! You guessed it. She will grow 3 years in three days. That was in my notes for this story, and you figured it out already. Man, can't keep anything from you these days. Looking forward to reading your new story.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

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Alright, day one and I have indeed grown some. I did the old "mark your height against the wall thing" and I've grown an entire 2 inches! Ha, its scoff worthy. Two inches is so minor compared to my power increase that its not even worth registering.

My plans for today are simple and pretty straight forward. I need to apologize to everyone about the whole Slade thing. It was 3 years ago for them, but just yesterday for me.

I figure that I should start with Cyborg. He did heal me somehow and it might be best to start off with a positive person.

As I make my way out of my room, it suddenly dawns on me that I'm not sure where Cyborg's room is anymore. A lot can happen in three years. So I just headed in the way that his room was three years ago and guess what? Its still there! So I guess things don't change that much after all. This has to be a good sign that everything might just turn out okay. I knock and wait for him to get to the door.

A few minutes later I'm agitated as I hear him moving around in there.

"Open the door already!" And I can hear him muttering under his breath on the other side of the door. When the door opens he looks pissed and edgy. So much for starting the day off on the right foot.

"Its 4am Terra!" he yells at me. Dang, I forgot about the time. I get the feeling that I want to disappear again, but I watch out and make sure I don't start sinking into the floor as I shuffle my feet into his room.

"Sorry, I forgot. I didn't sleep." I apologize immediately thinking this might be a little ironic. I come to apologize and end up apologizing for something else already.

"Yeah, well, I guess you wouldn't be all that tired after resting for three years." He says as he closes his door and walks over to his bed to sit down.

"You would think that, but I am really tired. I just had a lot to do last night." I say as I walk into his room taking all of it in. His room is awesome. A green light is cast over everything and it has an edgy artistic vibe coming from his appliances and lighting design. It looks so…rich. Like you would expect really rich people to have all of this stuff but never the time to use it. I bet he designed it himself. Some of these appliances look custom made. And the green lighting is wicked because its not so green. Its like normal sunlight with a slight green filter.

"Like what?" he says raising his eyebrow suspiciously. He notices my amazement of his room but just smiles about it instead of bringing it up. Okay, he's even cooler than I remembered. The old Cyborg would have mentioned all of his great stuff twice already.

"Well I played catch up on you guys last night on the internet, and also found tons of new music to listen to. Thanks for the computer by the way, really brightens up the room." I say sarcastically.

"No problem, so how much music did you get?" Cy says as he gives me a chair to sit in.

"12 gigs so far, it'll take me 6 and half days to get through it all, but from what I've heard, it'll take more. I keep listening to the same songs over and over again." Nice, this conversation isn't bad. Now to get to reason I visited.

"So Cy…we're cool right? I mean, you forgive me and everything right?" Damn, that came out the wrong way and way too fast. This is just a little akward.

He brightens with a huge smile on his face. "Of course Terra, you sacrificed yourself to save us. If I didn't forgive you then I just would have left you as a statue."

"I thank you so much for that!" I say as I fumble with my thumbs looking at the ground. Should I hug him or what? I'll just keep looking at the floor until this feeling passes.

"It would have been worse than dying if you hadn't gotten me out. I probably would have lived for a ripe old age without actually "living" you know?" I tell him face to face.

"So, how do you think the others feel about me and what I did?" Please let him say that they forgive me.

"Well Raven, completely hates you and would rather sacrifice her sanity than forgive you, so that will be a tough battle to win. I don't know what to say. Its been three years so time isn't really a factor. Your on your own there. As for Robin and Starfire, well I think they will forgive you pretty easily, and BB forgave you the moment he saw you."

I can tell he's not sugar coating anything, and I hate him and love him for it at the same time.

We continue in polite conversation for a few minutes. We mostly talk about what I've missed that I wouldn't be able to find on the internet and popular movies I should see. Me and Cy are in unspoken agreement that we aren't going to talk about BB and Raven. The minutes fly by until we realize that those minutes were hours and its now noon. I exit, exhaustion finally catching up with me, and make my way to my room.

Three people are in the common room. I freeze, its insane. Like a statement, like someone just told me this and its fact. I have no reason to doubt it. One person is in the kitchen. Again, this is fact and I can't quite figure out how I know this standing in the hallway twenty feet away from my room and two hundred feet away from the kitchen and common room. I just feel it. I can feel connected to this people. I shrug it off and finally make it to my bed. I fall asleep so quickly that the sunlight shining into my room doesn't even bother me.

"Terra…Terra…Terra?" I hear my name being called and I try to ignore. Its so peaceful and soft and warm in this bed. I don't want to move until I wake myself up. I ignore the voice, but it persists for 30 more seconds and now the illusion of sleep is completely broken. If I can't get back to sleep within thirty seconds of being wakened, then I will not get back to sleep. I mutter to myself as I kick the blanket off me. Now I'm pissed, that was the best I had felt since I got back and it was cut short. I calm myself down before answering the door. Its Starfire and I hear her say something about a movie. They rented a movie or something. I stop and wipe the sleep from my eyes so that I can pay attention to what she is saying.

"We rented a movie and we were hoping that you would watch it with us." Starfire says with a smile on her face. I can't stay mad at Starfire. I cover my mouth as I yawn, and agree to watch the movie as I wipe tears of sleep from my eyes and follow her out of my room and into the common room. I notice that its dark outside and wonder how long I've been asleep, but then I lose interest in such trivial matters because its not like I have any plans for tomorrow. Following behind Starfire, she seems closer to eye level than the last time I saw her so I think I grew some more, or it might just be those two inches finally coming in handy. When we get to the room, I see that Raven is asleep, laying her head on Beastboy's shoulder and Cyborg is in the middle of the couch. Starfire takes a seat near Robin and I start to sit in between Cyborg and Raven when Raven shifts in her sleep pullng her legs where I was going to sit. I shake it off and start to fetch a chair from the kitchen table when I see Raven looking at me from slits under her eyes.

Nice Raven. Nice. I smile to myself and continue to fetch that chair from the kitchen when I trip over something and land hard on my knees. I look for whatever it is that I tripped over and can't find anything. I may be paranoid, but I can't help but feel that it was Raven, but I'm not pointing any fingers. I just stop looking for a chair and decide to confront Raven about what happened.

"Raven, I'm… I just want to say that.."

"What is it Terra?" Raven says.

I look at the television screen because it's a lot easier to admit when you were wrong to someone when you don't actually have to look at them.

I'm really sorry about betraying you and everyone else." I notice Starfire and Robin also turn to look at me. Cyborg and BB take a minute and then look at me.

I try to play it off like I've lost interest with whats on the television as I look over to Robin and Starfire.

"I am sorry Robin. I am sorry Starfire. I hope that one day you can forgive me. I can wait until you are ready to forgive me."

"I forgive you Terra, but I want know what made you do it?" Robin asks me. I can't read him at all.

"Yes, I thought we were…" Starfire says looking for the right word or wondering if she had given the word she had in mind the wrong definition. "friends?" Stafire says without smiling and a pain in her voice that echoes out beneath her. I could handle Robin, because he asked me with a straight face like he just wanted to know out of curiosity, where as Star was breaking me. She had this look on her face that made it seem like I was causing her soul pain with just this question. I knew it was more than the question, I had given her reason to feel that pain. I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to say anything, so I just looked at the ground ashamed of myself and searching for the right words. We all seem to be searching for the right words and they never come.

"Did you think we would forget Terra?" Raven says, no longer pretending to be asleep, but still not looking at me as she rests her head on BB's shoulder.

"Whats taking you so long? Its been three years for us, but it was just yesterday for you. The least you could do is tell us what made you betray us." She said. Even though she was facing the other way, I could feel ice coming out of her mouth, freezing the room. Why was it just effecting me though? I could feel myself shaking, but no one else took notice of it. I still didn't know what to say.

"Its okay, you don't have to answer. You have no idea what friendship is." Raven said to me.

"I did consider you all my friends, its just that…" Damn my lack of the right words, or any words for that matter.

"That what? Your so weak, you can't even form a complete sentence without Slade around can you?" She said to me.

No way…No way she just said that to me. Okay, calm down Terra, don't burn any bridges. She's been holding this in for three years so don't hold it against her. Just let her say everything that she feels like she needs to say.

"Your so pathetic Terra that you don't even realize how badly you hurt everyone here."

I don't realize! Who the…wait, remain calm Terra. Remain calm. Just let it go.

"Your were always hiding behind someone. First it was Beast Boy, and then it was Slade, and now all of the sudden you want us to forgive you! Why should we?"

This hurts. Do I have to sit here and take all of this? Is she done yet?

"Raven, I'm sorry. I---"

"Save it! I don't want to hear your excuses." She cuts me off and I completely give up defending myself. You can't talk to a person who is unloading all their passion on you. I know I made her resent me, and that I put her and everyone else in pain.

She continues to talk, but I'm not hearing her anymore. I can turn her off.. I feel that I can turn her off. Just shut her down completely.

"Terra, did you ever have a family? Do you know what loyalty is?" Raven says to me.

Oh this won't end well. Anger begins to make its presence known inside of me. I can feel my eyes squint as I look at Raven. My vision becomes hazy from my eyelashes and the sides are dimmed considerably as I focus intently on Raven. Why is she doing this? Why is she having this effect on me? I just want to throw my fist through her face. The least she could do was look at me.

Raven sits up and then stands up as she turns and looks at me for the first time all night.

"Its like I said before, you have no idea what it means to be a friend." She says as she walks through me. Not past me, but roughly into me, and through me. As I fall down, one thought becomes obviously clear in my head. I'm going to have to own her. Then I just lay there, on the warm carpeted floor looking up at the fluorescent lights.

I am going to have to kick her ass.

Its no solution, but I've never wanted to hurt someone so badly. She shouldn't have said that. It hurt…

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TBC

Just so you know, there will be a battle between Raven and Terra. I say battle not fight, because my mind has been set to make it epic. Now if only I can write it as great as my imagination has it played out. I have had the fight scene in my head for weeks. Dialogue and specific moves have been sketched and written on little pieces of papers all over the place. Sorry for the long absence, but the good news is school is almost over. Till next chapter, later.