a.k.a- 2nd part to Ch. 13
as told by Joanne Jefferson
the day after last chapter
I could hear the guitar from the moment I had reach the middle of the first set of stairs on the way to the only two lofts in the building I ever wish to visit.
I assummed the guitar was Roger, but it wasn't him I was here to see.
Ever since last night, I had been...dwelling on Cade's visit. I knew she wanted to talk, she had obviously wanted to say something, but like both Mark and Maureen, Cade has trouble with words when emotion is involved.
As I approached the door I could now tell the guitar was not coming from Roger, but Cade. I knocked on the door. The "music" stopped as I knocked again.
"It's open! Come on in." I heard a shout, and the noise started up again.
I walked into place to see the loft was spotlessly clean, which was in great contrast to how I normally find it. At first I don't see any one but as I turn towards to the kitchen Ican seeCade draped somewhat up side down over the "kitchen table", guitar in hand, and eyes closed as she absentmindedly strummed.
"Cade, Cade...CADE."
"Sorry,"
"What are you doing, honey?"
She gave it a moment,
"You know how some people eat their emotions? Well, that's basically what I'm doing...without the food."
"Where's Matty and Scott?"
"They're out with Roger, Noah, Mark and Benny...some good ol' male bonding shit."
"How much lon--"
"Four and a half days and thirty-six minutes." she answers immediatley.
And I can tell I've hit something.
"Corrine says she's ready..."
"But you're not so sure?"
"I just didn't think I would get so attached so quickly."
She sits up and faces me.
There's quiet for a few moments, she inhales,
"But I quess that's just life for you, right? Having to let go when you really want to hold on? You think you've got it planned, what you're going to do, who you want to be with, everthing and every little detail; then ten years later looking back and going 'That's not the way I saw it going in my head'. Knowing somewhere it's what you want but still you're always second guessing..."
She laughed lightly, "I'm sorry, Joanne, you probably couldn't care less about my crap...is there something you need?"
"Let's go for a walk." I suggest and as she grabbed her coat, "You seemed pretty shaken yesterday, and I thought you might just want to talk."
She smiled and we made our way out of the door.
I didn't even need to prompt her she just went,
"It's just I thought for the longest time that I would finish high school, go to college, marry Micah, and then have kids and all that basic crap. I never planned on my parents dying, or Matty or Maureen and Mark. I didn't want find them, then I found out about Mark and for a moment I felt stupid for not wanting to look..."
"But?"
"But now they hate each other and it just doesn't seem worth it."
"Honey, Mark and Maureen...well I don't how else to describe it...they love each so much that they hate each other, and vice versa. And that love is only there because of you...the only reason they still act semi-civial, but of the bond."
She nodded, "I think I understand...it's just weird."
"That is life, honey. That is life."
Author's Notes.
Okay, sorry it took so long. This is part two of what was last chapter.
I'll give warning though, I am still a bit "under the weather" so updates might be few and far between...thank you all for your patience.
BwayDiva: Thank you for the compliment. It should be explained in the next chapter...if all goes well.
Carsonheir: Thanks. And to answer your question...my right side went numb and weak and weird, pluse a three month headache...and yeah slowly, getting there (good) again.
Lils: Yeah, depends on talking I guess...did you see Sherie Renee Scott (my best friend got to see her in the tour of Aida she headed) also got nominated for a Tony also for Dirty Rotten Scoundrels ( which oddly as it is Idina Menzel was a replacement for the role of Amneris in Aida; and Sherie Renee Scott played opposite Adam Pascal who was in Rent with Idina Menzel and Taye Diggs (who was a replacement for Norbert Leo Butz in Wicked) also Norbertwas(according to the RENT book) an original replacements, specifically for Roger/Adam Pascal andin a even weirder twist Sherie Renee Scott was a replacementfor Maureen Johnson/Idina Menzel)...and now I probably sound like a lunatic...any how, going on...Glad I made your day.
Kelby: So what do you think? I could use some suggestions if you have any up your sleeve.
auamarine19: Glad you found it...hope to see a review from you again...what do you mean a little shocking?
IluvPaulWalker6688: Thanks...and I think I might have mentioned it an earlier AN but Noah is based off my cousin, so that I really can't take credit for, but thanks anyway
oh..as for my "hospital drugged induced" story...(I have never done this before) but I need some help with it...I think a beta is the word (and person) I'm looking for...if any one is willing it would be greatly appreciated...just let me know (via review) THANKs
until next time this is me...signing out