This is on Toboe. Why must everyone make him a girl. I like him as a boy. It's kind of weird. But who I'm I to say what's weird, I'm a freak. On Toboe I might skip a lot of events, try not to get too mad. It's funny how Cheza's in everyone's life, how important she is. She's a major key in my life. It's also sad only Kiba never made it to Paradise, or even close to it. People saw he did but it's not what he wanted, but I don't believe it.
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If only I was strong as everyone else. Believe me I tried to keep up. Everyone always calling me a runt. But during my travels to Paradise I became stronger in my own ways. I've always been close to humans, which makes my heart soft. Can someone so small and so soft ever be good enough for Paradise.
I don't remember much of mother, I was just a pup when she died. All I remember is her holding me in her mouth. Us traveling in the rain, and she dropped me on a wodden porch, I guess after that she died. I know she loved me though, because when every timr I tried to think of her, all I felt was love.
In the morning an old lady opened a screen door, almosr tripping over me. Her warm arms came around me, wrapping me in a soft blanket. Becoming my new mother, Granny. She took care of me, having no children of her own. She named me Toboe, meaning howling. Granny gave me the best loving care in the whole wide world, which is how I became so attached to human care.
Everyday we would have a picnic in her garden, she would stroke my head, humming a little tune. On my first birthday she gave me half of her silver bracelts. She had some for herself, and the rest for me. Making us a family. The worst thing living with Granny was the fact that she was always so sick. Many times she would tell me to calm down, but I just wanted to play. And one day she was so sick that when I bounced on top of her, she fell. I wouldn't get off, and she died. I killed my Granny.
After that I left, living off the streets. Trying to be strong, able to survive on my own. But it was so hard, many times I went without food. I was still considered a puppy, who longed to be with a human. I was picked on by the crows of the city, always calling me name's. I found out I was a wolf by them, but I always knew. Especially when Granny died. One day while I searched for food in the garbadge, I girl came to where I was. She saw me in trouble, and offered me some food, her name was Leara.
I tried to be friends with her, showing her I was a wolf and a boy. Yet I scared her when I attacked her bird. I was only trying to play with it. But like Granny, I was too much for her. After wards I tried to become friends with another gray wolf named Tsume. I was always asking him questions, especially about his scar. But he would never tell me. Many times Tsume and I would get in fights, normally he would run away from me. Yet when I was in trouble, he was the first one to help. I met more wolves and we all decided to go to Paradise.
For a while we couldn't convince Tsume to go with us, and when he was with us he was grumpy. But for a while the flower maiden Cheza helped his mood alot. Cheza was leading us to Paradise. I was quite shy around her.You know her being a girl and all. But when I was around her I felt like I was with Granny again.Which made me twice as sad when she was taken away, I couldn't even protect Cheza. The other wolves were always calling me runt, waiting for me to catch up. I always promised not to whine,to run faster. I guess they didn't mind. Because they never left me behind.
On the journey to Paradise we were sometimes hunted down by a man named Quent. This man was different than the other humans. For some reason he didn't like wolves, he wished to kill us all. But when I saw him with Blue, I knew he wasn't too bad. Pop's, Blue would call him. Every chance I got I would help him. Once I even layed next to him in the snow, intill I thought his sickness was better.Saving his life.
Many times I didn't want to go to Paradise. I tried to stay with an indian tribe that almost worshiped the wolf. But I changed my mind, I'm kind of glad I did. Because in small ways I proved I was a great wolf. Like the time we were attacked by a giant warlaus. Everyone tried to bring him down. But I was the one who did it. That day was the first day I felt like one of the pack.
Trying to get Cheza back we came to Jaguara's keep, where all Hell broke loose. Hige and I was seperated. Kiba and Cheza taken. Tsume and I were eventually thrown into a jail. Where we were suppose to be killed. But we wouldn't be taken,we kept banging on the cage. Trying to break free. The lights going off the man in the next cage named Hubb relizes were wolves, and tries to help. Fianlly Hige comes and we break free. Tsume and I went following him into the heart of Jaguara's keep.
Kiba and Hige attacked Lady Jaguara, and we finally got Cheza back. The world was beginning to freeze over. And we had more than just the wolves traveling with us. Cher, Hubb, Blue, and even Quent. Quent finally found out wolves were not the reason of his families death. But he still did not trust us. Blue could see I too loved Quent, and she had me promise if anything happened to her I would watch over her Pop's.
And that's just what I did. Quent had ran off, still afraid of us wolves. And I followed trying to get him back. And than Darcia came, pointing a gun at Quent. But I promised Blue I would protect him, and I got in the way of the bullet. I don't know who's bullet hit me, but it might of been Quent's. Because I had bit Darcia's hand, trying to fight him. But he threw me away like a piece of garbadge. I could hear Darcia's voice in the background, glad I a lonely wolf was finally killed. Quent ran to my side, and he too was shot down.
He crawled to me, us both dieing. I finally saw the true side of this man. The side I saw the whole time. He showed me the love he often showed for Blue. He layed next to me stroking me the way Granny once did. As I passed into darkness, I whispered Pop's into his ear. I was glad I could die next to a human I loved. Someone I had finally protected, if only for a minute.
Looking down on the world, I found Tsume standing over my body. The first and last time I saw him shed a tear. He spoke to me with such kindness. Explaning how he got his scar. My dear friend Tsume. Let's meet next time in Paradise.
I wake once again in Granny's garden. On another picnic. She stroking my head, humming a little tune. Her eyes sparkling with pride.She didn't look as old and sick as before. She had energy and she was very playful. Her garden was greener and more beautiful than I had remembered. This was my Paradise. And I could think of nothing better.