A/N: Well, I was bored and I decided that it would be cool to write a Chris oneshot with the lyrics from the song "Emotionless" I absolutely adore this song and I think that before he changed the future, this might be how Chris felt.

I don't own Charmed or Good Charlotte…blah blah blah… you know the drill.

Emotionless Chris

Hey dad
I'm writing to you
not to tell you, that I still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart

Chris sat in his room, the day after his Nineteenth birthday, staring at a picture of his family, together. The picture had been taken when he was only five. That was the last time he had remembered seeing his dad. Even though he secretly missed his dad, outwardly he resented him with every ounce of blood that ran through his veins.


Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we're all right?
but we're all right
we're all right

His dad had always been there for everyone else in his family. He had been there for Wyatt, he had been there for Piper, and he had been there for Patience. He had been there for everyone except for Chris. Pate had begun to resent her dad after she noticed what he was doing to Chris. She asked him one day why he treated Chris the way he did and he simply told her that Chris wasn't his son.


it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,
but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

That was the day. The day that Chris decided that he would never ask his father for anything. As far as he was concerned, he knew no Leo Wyatt. Everyday that Leo was at the Manor, Chris wasn't. It had always bothered him that Leo had told his own daughter that her brother wasn't his son. Chris had lost it that day. He had cried for one of the first times in his entire life that day.


the days I spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
I was so angry
the scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there's things I'll take, to my grave
but I'm okay
I'm okay

Chris decided that the next time he would see his father was when he clocked him, until then, Chris would avoid him at all costs. Leo had simply let Wyatt grow up and be evil. He had nothing in his power to stop it. He hadn't helped Chris when he tried to stop his brother. Leo did nothing.


it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,
but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
yeah, I'm still alive

But the day that drove Chris insane was the day that Leo joined forces with his brother. Evil. How could he do it when he claimed to stand for all that was good and just? How was it possible that the once Elder, Leo Wyatt was now the second hand to the source of all evil.


sometimes
I forgive
yeah and this time
I'll admit
that I miss you, said I miss you

No. Never would Chris forgive Leo. Never. It was so hard just to think about him let alone have him back in his life. All the things that he had done and Chris had never given up on him until he himself finally gave in to the power. He could have stayed and regained faith in Chris and fought the evil that grew inside his eldest son. Did he not see what he was doing to his daughter, his wife? He was destroying them


it's been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother's heart
you broke your children for life
it's not ok,
but we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive

And he didn't care. It didn't matter to him anymore.


and sometimes
I forgive
and this time
I'll admit, that I miss you, I miss you
hey dad

Wow… I feel much better now that I have that out… well, now I must go and write some more.