Title: Living A Lie
Author: Kiran
Fandom: StarTrek: TNG
Pairing: R/Surprise
Rating: This chapter T, overall M
Spoilers:
Warnings: AU, OOC, Slash more to come…
Summary: Riker is slowly falling apart and his lover will do anything to bring him back.
Notes: This is my first ST:TNG fic, and it doesn't follow cannon at all. It is very AU. I haven't seen this pairing, and believe me I have looked, so I decided to write one. Go figure. Any questions or comments please feel free to let me know.
Disclaimer: I don't own ST:TNG. Never claimed I did or will I ever.
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Living A Lie
Prologue
The stars were beautiful tonight. The glistening, little specks of light flashing to and fro as far as the eye could see were truly a magnificent sight to behold.
Unfortunately, Commander William T. Riker didn't see any of it.
His mind was currently elsewhere.
Inner turmoil coiled deep within his belly, darkening his soul, and making the young man nauseous. Thought after torturous thought ran rampant through his disarrayed mind, blinding him from anything and anyone around him.
Walls were crumbling, his emotions shifting in and out of control.
Above all, he was tired.
Tired of living a lie, of being the perfect Commander that everyone seemed to look up too. Tired of trying to live up to everyone's expectations except his own. Tired of wearing a mask so thick that no one seemed to be able to crack let alone see through. Tired of not being himself…
Sighing dejectedly, Will rubbed both his palms roughly across his face in a vain attempt to wake up from his never-ending nightmare and limply fell back onto the cold, hard hull of the Enterprise.
"Is it D or E?" He laughed humorously to no one in particular before a pair of warm, strong arms lovingly circled his middle, pulled him up and gently cradled him against a broad chest.
"What's wrong my love?" The rough yet concern filled voice sent welcoming shivers down the Commanders spine while knowing fingers danced across tense flesh in soothing strokes.
Turning in his lover's arms and hugging the man tightly, never wanting to let go, Will stared into the most intense, knowing, and expressive brown eyes with his own watery, sad blue. They stood there chest-to-chest, eye-to-eye silently basking in the others presence before Riker quickly turned away and snuggled into his love's chest.
Never once loosening his grip on the other man, in actuality he tightened it, Riker finally felt safe and at peace.
"I want to go home…with you…" Will Riker breathed softly into his lover's chest as the tears he had so desperately tried to hold back came in floods.
"I want to be me…" Was his whispered admission before fully breaking into heart wrenching sobs that shock his whole body.
Staring down at his depressed, weeping lover, anger violently flashing in his eyes Q vowed then and there that whomever hurt his baby was going to pay.
No matter who, what, where or when, they would all be taken care of.
TBC…