The next few days passed smoothly without any major interruptions. Her any Lily were now inseparable and hung out as much as possible. The infamous marauders were usually around planning their latest prank or on their way to the kitchen for a late night snack even though it may have been mid afternoon. Selena often asked for James's cloak for either sneaking of to the Room of Requirement or just one of her old timely walks around the lake. She was sitting in the common room with the others, finishing her Care of Magical Creatures essay, when she felt she couldn't take it any more. She closed the book and looked at James. When he caught questioning look he sighed.

"You know where it is," he said with a laugh.

Selena smiled and bounced up the stairs. She made her way through their dorm and over to his trunk. She rummaged through it and found the cloak.

When she reached the lake she drew in a deep breath and looked around at the beauty surrounding her. She looked across the lake noticing the beauty, but not the disgrace that hunted the world.

After another hour or so of singing and walking and occasional dancing around the lake she decided to head back to the castle. She walked quietly towards the tower. She thoughts had lately been on Remus. There was something about him she didn't understand. She felt so open to him, like she could tell him everything and he wouldn't care. But she knew that wasn't true. Her life was a disaster and she would never tell anyone about her home life, well personally. It wasn't exactly her fault what he had heard in the hospital that day after the transformation. No one would ever… As she turned the corner she ran into something…no someone. Her back and head collided with the stone floor. She tried to ignore the splitting headache, which wasn't working very well, and trying to stand up at the same time. 'Who would be out this late', she thought pushing herself up.

"Well now look who we have here," said a piercing voice.

Selena pushed herself up the rest of the way and there she stood facing a very happy looking Lucius Malfoy. There were two other Slytherns with him.

"What do you say we have some fun," he said to the others.

Selena was in trouble and she knew it. The others probably went to sleep knowing she would return as always. Her stomach churned as she thought fast about what to do. She knew she wasn't going to call for help and she knew she wouldn't lose, but other then that she was lost. Lucius approached her and turned to his two followers, but in mid sentence he turned unexpectedly back to her and punched her in the jaw. Selena winced and cradled her face. She was never good at fighting but she was good at taking it and she was so mad at herself for that. She was mad at herself for everything. She just wished they would kill her and get her life over with, but then she thought of leaving Remus and she couldn't do that she cared about him to much. She received another fist to the head and she blacked out.

When she started to come to she knew it was early morning. Probably three or four. She tried to sit up, but gave up after moving her arms. They hurt so bad, so did her head and neck, but what hurt most of all she noticed was her inner thighs. Her eyes flew open and she shot into a sitting position. Tears came to her eyes at the sight in front of her. Her thighs were covered in dried blood and her clothes were thrown about the corridor. She cried and cried before picking herself and what was left of her broken spirit off the floor. She gathered her clothes not bothering to put them on she just wrapped her cloak around her and headed off to the tower hoping it was all a dream. The tears blurred her vision so she had to trust her memory. When she reached the Fat Lady Selena starred at the floor barely able to get the password out of her cracking voice. She scrambled through the hole and was happy to find the common room empty. She stumbled to the couch and sat down thinking about what had happened. Lucius Malfoy had raped her. It wasn't a dream it had happened. She thought about what she use to do. What she use to do after her dad hit her.

Flashback

She tried to stop the tears and finally when they did she threw open her dresser and searched through it finally finding the bag. She opened it to revel a collector's knife. On the handle it had a wolf carved on it. She pulled it out of the case and inspected it. The blade was clean and sharp. She placed it on her inner arm and pushed the blade into her flesh. The blood warm and free flowed down her arm. She removed the blade and walked to her bathroom letting the blood drip to the hardwood floor and then onto the bathroom linoleum. She took a towel and wrapped it around her arm while she cleaned the knife, preparing it for the next occasion.

End Flashback

When she had first attended Hogwarts she made a promise to herself that she would never cut again, but now she was deeply considering breaking this promise. A creak broke her from her trance. She hugged the cloak, covering her body and then she jerked around to find a worried looking Remus Lupin standing at the top of the stairs.