A woman aged around 20 was walking home one rainy night. She was about 5ft7 shoulder length red hair and brilliant green eyes that you could see in the dark. Her name was Lily Evans. She was walking home from work usually she would just apparate home but Lily liked walking in the rain, she was strange like that, it was something couldn't explain why she liked it, she just did.

She was so tired it was unbelievable, whoever said an office job was easy! She was Mad eyes Moody's personal assistant and lets just say he wasn't the most easiest guy to work for. She had to run from department to department getting certain case files about death eaters, remind moody of all press conferences and run to the coffee shop and fetch beverages for the Aurors. Fun!

She used to love working with the Aurors they were always nice and chatty to her, they always managed to have a laugh. They even gave her a nick name "red". But since the incident they can't look her in the eye, she supposed most of them felt guilty about it really as they were there when it happened, they witnessed it. Even Moody laid off her for a bit.

James Potter was out on an emergency call when some deatheaters were attacking a muggle building. From what they told Lily, James was a hero he saved loads of muggles and risked his life for a muggle boy who was stuck under some bricks. Just before the whole building collapsed James went rushing in to save more victims being tortured by the deatheaters. When the whole thing came down. When the fighting had stopped, the search for the remaining deatheaters bodies, but no bodies were found they searched for James, but his body was gone. At first they thought he apparated off to some safe house but everywhere James would go he wasn't. After 2 months of James's name on the missing list they pronounced him to be dead. Everyone gave up on him. They held a memorial service for him but Lily did not attend.

The day that building came tumbling down, so did Lily's world. James had been there for her when her parents had disowned her for wanting to carry on being a witch. He caught her when she fell, he guided her if she was confused, he held her when she cried, but she didn't cry any more. The day she lost James she found a new pain, for some reason she didn't cry she couldn't she found it too hard to cry, she found it hard to speak even breathe.

She came to her apartment, she suddenly realised what day it was. It was hers and James's 3 year anniversary how could she forget. Well it wasn't as though they were married but she couldn't believe she forgot. She suddenly heard someone call out for her name. It was Dorcas Meadows, her best friend and flat mate

"Lily is that you?"

"Yes Dor it's me don't worry I'm not some deatheater coming to rape you!" Lily laughed

"Not funny Lily!"

Lily laughed and opened the door and went inside.

Dorcas was all dressed up she was wearing a very revealing top that left nothing to the imagination.

"ooooooo who are you trying to impress Dorcas? Not Sirius again because he is just not worth it anymore!" Lily exclaimed

"No I'm not! I'm going to out on a date with some guy from the from the Charms department. He is nice, really nice if you get what I mean." Dorcas said with a very cheeky smile on her face.

"So in other words you want to fuck his brains out!"

"Not on the first date! Well maybe if I can't control myself" Dorcas giggled

"Your such a tart sometimes but as long your not keeping me up, if you two come back here put a silencing charm on the room, because Mad eye wants me in early for some Auror thing so sound proof the room if u have to ok?"

"Yes mother! Oh wait!" Dorcas was just about leave "Saw Sirius today and he said he wants to see you sometime soon so owl him ok? Cya!"

As the door slammed Lily felt sick feeling in her stomach she didn't want to be alone she wanted Dorcas to come back because when ever she was left alone the hole in heart where james was would grow bigger as she would think about him more with no one to take her mind off of him.

Lily reached for the cupboard and took out some sleeping tablets she took one of them and swallowed. She had been on these for the last 5 months and she found she had recurring nightmares about James. Lily felt drowsy and she wondered to her room, she got to her bed and she just collapsed asleep.