(A/n Ok it's been along time since I've updated but I've been seriously busy, but I'm on holiday now so I will update more often)

What is this feeling now?

"Lily? Are you ok?" Dorcas looked at her with caution

"How could he? HOW COULD HE? When I even said no don't go he always has to prove me wrong for God sake Sirius Black!" Lily said with such anger

"You knew where Sirius was? When I've been worried out of my mind sick thinking he could have done something stupid, and you knew where he was! I thought we were friends and friends tell people things lily!"

Simon entered the room "Dorcas I don't what you like for breakfast so you're getting what you're given!" Simon looked at the two women worriedly, "is everything ok?"

"Simon can we do this tomorrow?" Lily said as calmly as she could achieve as she was seriously pissed off.

"I doubt lily will want to see you tomorrow. As she will be probably with her fiancé arranging wedding dates, that's right isn't lily? You like two timing guys don't you and you think I'm the whore of this friendship"

"I never said that you were a whore, and don't you dare call me one! You no nothing about how feel at this moment in time, how much it has hurt me over the last 9 months so don't you dare bring Simon in to this."

"I think I'm going to go" said Simon quickly apparating out

"I'm going to try and see Sirius, to see if he is ok after him actually doing something for James. Unlike other people not even giving him a second thought while they shagged other men!"

Lily just sat there she couldn't believe Dorcas was pissed about this! She was being so mean to lily. She couldn't help it if Sirius went to get James and not tell Dorcas! She was wasting her time trying to see Sirius he was probably in St Mungos and she would need an Auror's pass to even get near his room let alone see him. Lily suddenly thought she had an Auror's pass as she was mad eyes assistant. She threw on some clothes started looking for her pass.

Before she aparated out of the flat she wanted to see if Dorcas had gone or not. She knocked on her bedroom door and there was no answer. She woke up feeling as if nothing could go wrong, seconds later it did.

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She arrived at St. Mungos and the waiting area was packed full of reporters and those who were actually injured. She saw Zack talking to a crowd of reporters.

"I'm sorry but Mr James Potter is giving an interview to his superior about his kidnap. Please leave your name and contact details and you will be invited to ministry official press conference"

"Hey!"

"Lily if you haven't a got a pass I'm sorry I can't let you in –"Lily cut off Zack quick by giving him her pass.

"Oh right I'm not sure if Mad eye will let you speak to James that long"

"Don't worry this isn't going to take long" lily said

He let her pass "he is in room 209, 4th floor. Good luck!"

She entered the lift and began to think what on earth was she going to say to him! Was she going to go in there pretend nothing is wrong like it was before and dump Simon or dump James for Simon? What was she going to do it was all too hard.

She exited the lift the room straight in front of her had a plaque reading "room. 209"

She placed her hand on the door handle pulled and pushed it open. There sat the minister of magic herself, mad eye moody and James, who was sitting up in his bed. He had badges around his ribs and scratches and bruises all over his arms and face. Lily also noticed long narrow scar running from his shoulder to his chest, he gave her the biggest smile possible.

"I need a break for a bit. You don't mind do you minister?" James gave the minister was of his boyish smile which would melt any woman at the knees. Lily smiled at this.

"Not at all I'm sure you two need a bit of a talk, we will be back won't we Alastor (sp)" she said turning to give mad eye a dirty look.

"Yeh we will be back soon" mad eye gave lily a dirty look and left.

"God I thought he would never leave and I also thought I would never see you again!" he continued to smile at her

"James" lily said a pained voice "Stop talking like that, it's over now your home, everything is alright again"

"But it was close, I mean really close if Sirius hadn't come I would never be sitting here admiring you" James looked at Lily who now crying "Don't cry lils like you said I'm home now and we can go continue as if nothing ever happened"

"But we can't be how we used to, a lot has changed."

"Like what? Your favourite colour has changed or something?" James laughed

"No, my relationship status!" Lily was not impressed by James at all "like I'm not seeing you any more, I'm seeing some one else" Lily said with such spite then she realised what she had said but it was too late.

"What? Who? I thought?" James's smile had faded and he looked quite confused

"That was so not the way that was supposed to come out like! I thought you were dead and people keep on telling me to put my self out there so I did, I'm sorry." Lily said looking at James who now looked as though he had been hit by a tuna fish.

"No wonder you didn't answer my calls for help! You were probably with him."

"It wasn't like that I had to take sleeping potion to even get a good night sleep. James I love you!"

"You have a funny way of showing "James was cut off my Lily's sweet kiss

"It's over I'm so sorry! James I love you I really do but I can't pretend none of this has happened. I jus need some space away from all from it all"

"Lily when you decide to love me again I'm here waiting"

"That's the thing I do love you but I need to clear my head" Lily said through the tears gushing down her face. She left the room and ran as far away from her life as she could.

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"Are you sure that a mudblood will carry the one who is meant to have the power to defeat me?"

"yes my lord" replied a man named peter Pettigrew

"do we have any idea who she might be?" asked a lucius(SP) malfoy

"we know who the father is, that idiot James potter but who is the mother?" bellatrix (SP) put on her thinking face.

"peter any ideas?"

Lord Voldemort suddenly rounded on peter and held his wand to Peter's heart. Peter gulped and started to sweat profusely.

(a/n ok not as good as I thought it would be but hey now at least James is back so please review good or bad I just want to know if ppl like it not, cos if no one does I might not continue. I'm not sure yet)