(a/n : yay I got reviews and everything seems to be ok with the story so far so lets hope this chapter won't be crap)
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James was fit enough to go home after 4 weeks of being that stupid hospital and tomorrow he would got to work and he would have to see Lily. He wasn't looking forward to it. His mother had begged mad eye to drop him from the Auror ranks, but mad eye refused. It was 8.30 he thought he might as well be early on his first day back.
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"I can't believe you're moving out, just because I'm getting married!"
Dorcas and Lily were having another argument.
"Well you can hardly expect me to bring Sirius round here while you're cavorting with that man!"
"May I remind you that you slept with him first!"
"Exactly you might go after Sirius next for all I know!"
Lily didn't even dignify that with an answer.
"I got to go to work, I'm late." Lily apparated out
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As James walked into the conference it was like all eyes were on him. It cheeks began to go red in embarrassment; he didn't know whether these men and woman were admired by him or just shocked or maybe angry he survived and many others who they may have been closer to didn't.
"Potter! Glad you're here we are discussing are new assignment, about protecting the Italian ambassador when he comes to visit the minister. As you might not know –"
"I know Voldemort wants the Italy ministry on his side and also to back him financially." James then felt all the eyes in the room just concentrate on him.
"Very good Potter now take a seat" Moody said
James didn't know where to sit it was like being the new kid in class no one would even bother with you but they would all stare at you. Then as luck would have Frank Longbottom and as far as James knew his girlfriend walked in with him.
"James" Frank came over and slapped him on the back " how are –" mad eye gave a very fake cough.
"Anyway let's catch up after this yeh?" Frank said as mad eye threw them both a dirty look.
"Yeh," James said in relief he didn't feel alone or the out cast any more
"Where is my coffee did any of you idiots take it?" mad eye said angry looking at them as if they were going to confess they had taken it
"No sir none of us got ours today either, it seems lily is late again" replied mousey looking blonde woman
"Yeh she is nearly always late these days ever since she met that Simon." replied another Auror to whom James didn't know their name.
"Hey lay off her, everyone is allowed a bit of fun!" James knew the name of the Auror it was Zach, James had always thought he had something for Lily when he and her were going out. At that moment Lily walked in with her hands full of hot coffee for everyone.
"Evans, where have you been and why are you late again?"
"Well if hadn't noticed from all the coffees on the table I have been at the coffee shop and there was a big queue. That's why I was late not because of Simon, Rebecca. I'll go get the files? Shall I?" lily walked out and slammed the door behind her. She was so angry first of all with Dorcas, then that room full of people talking about her. How dare they talk about her private life, like that!
There was only one thing to do about it. Leave London.
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That had possibly been the longest day in James's life but at least he was going for a drink with Sirius, Remus and Peter after work. James wanted to speak to Lily she had said her piece now he wanted to say his.
There was a lamp on and she was wearing her reading glasses. James smiled there was a time where she would rather squint then admit to wearing glasses. He guessed a lot of things had changed since he had been gone.
"James are you going to stand there and watch me or are you going to actually talk to me?" lily was not having the bests of days any one could tell that by the sound of her voice
"I just wanted to say we are going to have to work together so let's at least talk. I mean we are on the same side no matter what has happened between us. O.k.?" James hadn't wanted to say this Lily he had wanted a massive fight to tell her that he had hated her and all sorts of things but the truth is he didn't hate her no he loved her. He loved her some much he couldn't stand not to see a smile on her face and looking at her at this very moment was killing him.
"There might not be any need for politeness, I'm writing my resignation. I'm leaving London." Lily couldn't bear to tell James this she knew how much this would hurt him.
"Why is this because of this Simon guy cause if so I think he will find a lot of people disagreeing with him on you leaving London? I mean come on lily loads of people would miss you and Lily I know you and you hate going holiday cause you miss London." James couldn't believe what he saying this girl had cheated on him, well not technically but sort of.
"James, Dorcas wants to not live with me because I'm not with you, people now talk about me and bitch about what a whore I am and James if you knew me you would know I can stand for people to hate for Christ sake. I can't even stand for deatheaters not to like me! James I'm suffocating here it's either leave London or kill myself again!" lily out her hand to her mouth she couldn't believe she let that slip the only person who knew that was Dorcas as she had found lily.
"You have never tried to do that – oh god it was when I went missing wasn't it?" James was in disbelief this was his sweet Lily, she had wanted to, to. He couldn't bring himself to even think it.
Lily burst into tears "I'm sorry." She needed to speak to someone about it Dorcas had dismissed it completely. "It was when they had held your memorial, I didn't go I couldn't it just wasn't fair I had lost the two most important people to me."
"Two people?" James looked up as his face was in his hands.
"My dad had died from a heart attack the week before."
"Oh god Lils I'm so sorry."
"Thanks. I wouldn't go to your memorial I couldn't, there would be people you didn't know talking about how good and brave you were and they didn't even know you. I decided I would sleep through the day so I went for the cupboard to get some sleeping potion. Dorcas had been cooking the night before and I knocked over the cutting board I tried to catch it and the kitchen knife I had missed it slit my wrist as it fell to the ground. At first I panicked but then the pain disappeared so I cut my other wrist then I overdosed myself on sleeping potion. Dorcas came home early and found me apparently just in time. I felt so ugly and worthless" Lily was in tears, she looked at James he was very close to her face; extremely close in fact close enough to kiss her.
His lips at first lightly brushed against hers then it turned into a much stronger kiss. He stopped put his hands on either side of her head looked her squarely in the eyes and said
"Lily Bridget Evans to me I will always love you, you will never be worthless or ugly to me and you should not believe that of yourself."
"James I love you too"
"Congratulations on your engagement. I hope you and Simon will be happy together. He'll get to do the thing I never got to do." James left her in the room on her own.
Lily put her hand on her heart and began to cry. He had just walked out on her again and this time she had let him.
a/n ok for this chapter I need you review seriously cos im getting bord of simon so you have a choice simon can either:
let james and lily have an affair and to simon to find out and take his life from being so heart broken
simon to become an deatheater
simon can die a tragic death
simon to have an affair and him and james have a massive fight
lily to dump simon and to be written out like dat !
so your decision if no one reviews then I write it on my own and probably make the story shit. So please I need your help review and tell me what you want!