A/n; ok I know it has been ages since I last updated. But there is a valid reason. I fractured my wrist while ice-skating and found it impossible to type I swear I am not lying. Ok from the last chapter I promised this one would be huge so it's gone be! Also to Chelle692 it's a good and for a while I was going to do something similar! But I changed my idea! But thanks for reviewing and also everyone else who reviewed the last chapter!

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Lily was looking around her new apartment; well it was only temporary until the baby was born. But at the moment it was the closest thing to home. As she was unpacking her things and dusting, she heard a creek behind her. She grabbed her wand and went to investigate the noise.

"Show your self!" lily shouted

"Christ lily! Did you want to kill me?" cried Ashley, her hand on heart, from fright.

"Sorry Ashley I thought you were an intruder! Forgive me?"

"Not now I won't! Lily you shouldn't be moving around heavy things especially lifting, you don't want to drop that kid early do you?" Ashley said

"Wow you put it so nicely! Well I have to make the place look respectable! Adoption agency is coming over in two days for my interview!" Lily was in mood for a lecture on what she should be doing and what she shouldn't be.

"Lily-"

"No I don't want to hear I have made my mind up! This kid would be much safer with out me around!" lily also wasn't in the mood for one of those chats either.

"Don't you think you should at least tell the father what your doing? He has a right to know you know!" Ashley protested.

"I thought you came over to help me?"

"I have and I am going to after you have heard what I have said and taken to into account! You need to tell the father, like it or not he needs to know! Lily, you turned up on my doorstep dripping in blood and pregnant. I didn't judge, I didn't ask questions! But giving up this baby, it's not only your decision. What will happen when it starts to develop powers and what not. Its adoptive parent won't be wizards and witches. They will be normal! Lily you need to raise this baby! You need to be a mother!" Ashley finished with tears in her eyes, with a pleading look on her face.

Lily couldn't stand to look at her; she turned and faced the window with tears in her eyes. "I'm giving this baby because it's not safe with me. Ok? Not because I can't be bothered to give a home, stability. But because it will be in danger! I know that the death eaters want to kill it! That why I was attacked that night I turned up and your house! It because of it's dad he has made too many enemies! How they know what happened is beyond me. But me looking after this baby will result in it death. As its mother I need to protect it. By giving it up they won't know where to find it! Like you said it will a be wizard or witch, so it won't miss out on it's heritage. I need you to help me, not argue with me. After I have had this baby, I want you to take I mean the minute it is born! I don't want to know anything about it. Take it to adoptive services; tell them I died in child birth. Then hand it over. Then neither one of us can be traced by the death eaters, it's the only way! Please Ashley I'm begging you help me!"

"Are you sure? If you change your mind at any point tell me! Ok?" Ashley asked

Lily nodded.

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James sat in his kitchen with a bottle of fire whisky, even though he had made a promise to his friends. It was just too difficult. He had a really bad day, some of Aggie friends had come over to see her, and well they patronised James at every moment possibly cause they all liked her last boy friend even if he had treated her completely shit. They couldn't stop singing his praises, and not only that Mad eye was giving him a hard time comparing him to his father that's just all he needed, bad enough his mother did it, now with Mad eye on his case it was as though he couldn't escape.

He heard a little pop, please let it not be Remus or Sirius, please he thought to himself. He then heard Aggies voice:

"James sweety? You here? Oh there you are!"

James took a deep breath, "hey how was the club? Did Sarah and Jackie enjoy themselves?"

"Yeh they loved it, they said it was a shame you didn't come."

James knew she was lying, "Just didn't feel well" he got up and put away the fire whisky.

"Feeling well enough to drink though." She replied

"Not you as well" James moaned

"Sarah and Jackie think you don't like them, is it true?" she asked.

"Look I had a rough day and I didn't need your mates rabbiting on about how great your ex is ok?" James was in no mood for this.

"Oh its ok that I have to go out with your mates and listen to them, but when its my friends it is totally out of the question? Is that what you're saying?" She snapped, James could see from the glare in her eyes, that she was ready for a fight.

"Look we are both tired, I don't want to get into a fight with you, lets go to bed, please?"

Her gaze softened, "ok"

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"CRUCIO!" screamed a voice

James was hanging from chains connected to the ceiling he let out a blood curdling scream. He felt his wrists going numb from the chains; he felt blood trickling down his chest. He could barely see anything as he didn't have his glasses. He suddenly felt a tug against his torso he felt something rip into him, he couldn't help but scream again.

"Naughty naughty Potter"

He spat the blood within his mouth at the person and mustered his voice, "fuck off!"

"You don't play nicely do you? How long it been? 6 weeks? And still no cavalry! I bet they are glad you have gone!"

"Go screw Voldemort!"

"Crucio! What have I told you about using the Lord's name in vain! You jus won't learn will you?"

"He is your Lord not mine!"

"You won't be saying that when your are begging for your life from him! You'll be desperate to sign up! I'll be back, but until then!" Bellatrix waved her wand and as if it was nothing some metal came to wards James. It was his cage it wrapped around his face and was white hot. He could feel it been his cheeks he tried to scream but he couldn't open his mouth. He put his hands to the cage but like his face it was scolded too. He could feel blisters now on his face then bursting from the heat he knew in a few hours he would strung up on the ceiling again and his face would be healed. But this time it was different.

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"James? James!" Aggie shook James to try and get him to wake up and if was if he having some sort of shock. He was shaking and screaming, but nothing she did would wake him up!

"JAMES!" she screamed now with tears in her eyes from fear

He jumped up right, but still was screaming, when he stopped he was in sweat and was breathing heavily. He ran into his bathroom and looked in the mirror. He put his hands to face and waited for the burning but nothing. He sat on the edge of the bath and laughed.

"You're laughing! You scared me half to death and you're laughing? What was that? It seemed as though you were dying!" cried a scared Aggie

James gave out a smile and said "nothing, absolutely nothing!" he got up and look in the mirror again then sprinkled water on his face to cool himself down.

"Don't tell me it was nothing! When it seems to be something!" Aggie was almost outraged he wouldn't tell her.

"Do you really want to know?" James asked

"Yes I think I have the right actually!"

"Ok so here your right! It was a nightmare actually more of a memory of when the Death Eaters tortured me! Ok?"

"Oh my god!"

"Look its fine! I'm ok!"

Aggie suddenly burst into tears, James walked over to her and took her into his embrace. "I'm Sorry I scared you! But it scared me too!" he kissed her fore head.

"It must have been terrible, from the way that you were screaming." She looked at him with her eyes glistening from tears.

"It was but I'm here now and I'm with you, I'm safe!" he kissed her passionately then picked her up and led her to the bed room and closed the door behind them.

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"Miss Evans?" said a balding man of around late forties

"Yes! Nice to meet you –"lily was waiting for an introduction but he did give one.

"Can I come in then?" said the balding man.

"Um yes of course, come in." lily stood sideways

"Have you just moved in?" said the man looking at the boxes disapprovingly.

"Yes just a few days ago, would you like to take a seat?" lily tried to give a smile but the man just looked at her as if she was some dirt.

"So let's get on with this shall we? Why do you want to give up this baby for adoption?"

"Well, umm I think it would be better" lily really wasn't ready for this, even a simple question she needed to know the answer for and yet she found it difficult.

"Can you explain in further detail?" he said impatiently

"Errrrr – well I, um, well I'm not ready for child, too much responsibility!" why couldn't she answer his stupid questions.

"Responsibility? Don't you think if you had then maybe I wouldn't be sitting here today? Look Miss Evans I can see that you don't want to give up this baby!"

"No, no of I course do!"

He looked at her astonished

"Look I see hundreds possibly thousands of women every year and most of them wouldn't care if their baby ended up in a bin, but you. I don't know! There is just something about you! That's why I am refusing your application. Please, don't do anything rash, I know you want this baby, and I know you know you want it too!" he got up to leave.

"But wait! You can't do that! If I choose to give up my baby, then I can!" lily was desperate she needed her baby to be safe.

He walked over to the door and opened It." yes I can good day!" he closed it behind him.

Lily just stood there in amazement of what had just happened. What was she going to do now?

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2 weeks later

It was late July and James had never felt better, Aggie's annoying friends had gone to back to Australia. The other reason was basically because it was such a nice day! As he walked down the streets he couldn't help but smile.

"Peter?" James thought he had seen him; it had been months since he had seen him!

He looked again and realised it was him. Could this day get any better? As walked across the road he saw someone else with him.

"Snape!" the day had taken a sudden change of direction.

James thought he would wait and hide till he actually saw Snape do something, and then he would creep up on him unprepared.

Snape grabbed Peter by the throat and threw him against the wall.

"We warned you, if you didn't do it, we would and you would die! More fool you!" spat Snape

He raised his wand

At that moment in time James got out his wand, luckily he was that little bit faster then Snape.

"Expellarmous!" (Sp) shouted James.

Snape fell forwards and Peter dropped to the ground massaging his neck. Snape quickly got up, he spat form his mouth to the ground and held his wand high!

"Bastard! You have no idea what you have done!" Snape screamed.

"James, no leave it. Please!" Peter pleaded.

"Too late"

Snape waved his wand directly to James heart.

James laughed "was that meant to scare me? You're a weak path-"James suddenly dropped to the ground in agony it felt as though his blood was boiling, he felt his heart beat decrease and his breathing become more and more restricted. He looked up at Snape and Peter looked as though he was going to vomit. Snape had that same old sneer that he had also had, he looked intently into James's eyes and there didn't seem to be an ounce of guilt or regret. He closed his eyes.

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Lily was thrashing in her she just couldn't get comfortable, he kicked and shuved her duvet off her. She was so hot; she decided to have a glass of water. As she got out of her bed she felt a sharp pain hit her abdomen, she feel to the ground clutching her stomach. She drew a large breath and decided it was just brackten's hic. She got up went towards her kitchen. She was still shaken and she stood over her sink, the pain hit her again she let out and scream and held on her to stomach. This time it was stronger, she took deep breathes.

"Having Trouble Miss Evan?" came the voice that sent shivers down her spine.

She turned around to see the face of Lord Voldemort and other deatheaters in her living room.

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A/n ok I know it has been like forever since I have updated, but if you read the first paragraph at the top of the page there was a valid excuse, so plz plz plz plz review! I'm begging u! and if I get like loads and loads I swear I will update more and more often! REVIEW! PLEASE!