Just a reminder: I have a fiction press account now (Pen name queeneternity)! Please visit it! I'm still working on it and such, but soon, I promise that I'll have better stories up on it! Right now, I have only about 5 stories. The first one, 'The Adventures of Uni-Brow and Clueless' is about two men who still live with their mother who get a very interesting gift for Christmas that turns them into superheroes. This story is meant to be stupid. The second story is 'Lin and GAP's Book' which is a story that continued off of a short story that someone I know (GAP) wrote. She was jealous that I had a writing partner and wanted to write with me too (I'm famous!) so she wrote a short story for a school thing and we continued from it. I mentioned Lysander earlier in a chapter of the first What If and he will make a quick appearance in the story. It's not that good and I've only gotten bad reviews, but there are some interesting points in it. The third story is 'Celeste'. It's a story that I dug off of my lap top that I never finished. It's about an Aasimar who's lost in the forest of nightmares and, basically, how he manages to survive with the help of a human. It's unfinished, but interesting. Another of the stories is 'The Ultimate Atheist'. This is based off an idea that my dad told me, but I changed it. The story is so short that I'll ruin it if I write about it, but I have gotten a good review on it. The last story I have up is 'Devilled Eggs', which stars Lysander (who was named earlier in this paragraph) and his twin brother Lucifer. This is a cute little story that I want to be published soon. This, too, has a positive review on it. I hope that you like my fictional works as well as my fan fictions! Oh! I remember one of my reviews mentioned something about finding my dreams interesting. If you really do, you'd like one of the new stories I'll be putting up there soon! 'Future in Space'. It's based on a dream I had. Moo! Now on with the story!

Chapter Four

Kazahaya awoke the next morning feeling worn out and had a headache. When he went downstairs, he saw that it was still early in the morning, so he returned to his bed to try to sleep. As he passed Rikuo's room, he noticed a note on the door.

"Just went out for a little bit," It read, "I'll be back by noon, don't worry." Kazahaya flinched, not liking at all the letter signed by Rikuo. He then realized that he could use the fact that Rikuo was out and that it was early to sneak through Rikuo's stuff and find out more about Tsukiko and Kyo. Kazahaya softly opened and closed Rikuo's door and, ignoring his throbbing head as well as he could, started to look through Rikuo's room. It took him nearly an hour before he found anything interesting and this was just Rikuo's diary, the only entry on Tsukiko being that she had returned. He sighed as he placed the diary back in its place and started to leave when he realized a place he hadn't looked.

He turned and looked at a pile of books in the corner of Rikuo's room and knelt by them, reading the spines to see if there was one that didn't really belong. The Care of Horses stood right out at Kazahaya and he carefully pulled it from the pile and flipped it open.

Kazahaya stopped and then looked back at the title as he remembered the dream Tsukiko's words. "You'll be mine as long as you don't care for horses." He muttered and then shrugged. "Looks like I'm taking care of horses now," He gave a chuckle as he flipped though the book. After a few worn pages of horse information, Kazahaya came to what he was looking for; a place were the pages had been carefully glued together and cut to make a secret hiding spot. Inside the hiding place was a small, old book. Kazahaya removed it from the horse book and studied it. In a messy, childlike style of writing, "Rikuo's Diary" was printed on the cover. Kazahaya gasped and flipped it open to a random page. The handwriting was sort of messy and the pages were worn from constant reading and some water damage, but Kazahaya could still make it out.

Dear Diary,

Today, I met Kyo, Tsukiko's twin brother. He's really nice and is 8, just like me! I hope we can be good friends! Today, we all went and had ice cream and Kyo chose the same flavor that I did, but he spilled his. Even though Kyo and Tsukiko are twins, they look nothing a like.

Kazahaya studied the page and found there was no other information of it that was useful. It wasn't even dated. He frowned as he started to flip to a page further in the diary, but jumped and panicked when he heard a door slam and Saiga welcoming back his son. Kazahaya shoved the horse book back in the pile and, snatching up the diary, ran out of Rikuo's room and back into his own.

Kazahaya looked down at the diary in his hands, gasping for breath, and then snuggled up in his bed to look at another entry.

I…I think I have a crush on Kyo. I'm not sure, though. I don't want to hurt him, so I'll wait until we're both older. However, I've started dating Tsukiko. This way, I can see more of Kyo since I am invited to their house before every date. However, Kyo seems tense around me. Maybe he likes me and is hurt by the fact that I'm dating his sister…? Or maybe I'm just hopeful that this is true.

Kazahaya reread the entry and then flipped forward several pages.

I have just asked Kyo out on a date. Our first date! I hope that Tsukiko doesn't find out.

Kazahaya couldn't get himself to continue reading and flipped forward to near the end of the pages.

I'm going out on another date with Kyo. What number is this? I forget; I've lost count. We're going to the movies and then out to dinner and maybe a little more. If there IS that little more in there, it won't be my first time with him.

Kazahaya shivered at the thought of Rikuo with another person and then realized something. He flipped back to the very first entry he had read. "He's really nice and is 8, just like me," Kazahaya reread out loud. He frowned as he remembered back to the conversation he had had with Rikuo. His boyfriend had told him that he first met Kyo a year before he first told him how he felt, which was when he was 14. That would mean that Rikuo had been 13. "He lied to me…" Kazahaya muttered as he reread the entry. He gave a frown as he flipped back to where he had been reading before this discovery and then turned the page.

This page was blurred more than others by wrinkled spots on the paper.

I killed him. Kyo is dead because of me. Kyo said he'd meet me at the theater and he got out of the car and another car…I could have warned him. I should have warned him. The car was going too fast, but I thought it would stop. There was a blur and then…Oh god, he was lying there in the street soaked in blood and I could do nothing but stare. A stranger made it to his side first and cried out for help. I couldn't even get the license plate of the car that hit him. All I could do was stand and stare.

Kazahaya put his hand to his mouth as he read the entry, tears welling up in his eyes. Rikuo must have felt helpless watching his loved one die right in front of him like that.

Kazahaya jumped again and shoved the book under his pillow as a knock came at his door. "Kaza-chan?" Came Rikuo's voice, "Are you up?"

"Yeah," Kazahaya muttered.

"Good. It's time for breakfast." Rikuo said. Kazahaya listened as Rikuo's footsteps faded away and then sighed as he removed the book from under his pillow.

"Must hide it…" He said softly as he looked around his room. He shoved the book at the bottom of one of his dresser drawers and then ran out of his room to eat.