A/N – thank you again to everyone who reviewed. Your comments and thoughts on this fic is greatly appreciated!

So the good news is that I've finally worked out how the fic will end but the bad news (and the hard part) is working out how to get to the end!

Portman had decided against pouring his heart out on paper and looking like a dumbass. Instead he decided he would tell Julie face to face how he felt and that meant everything he felt.

In the end his note to Julie looked like this……..

Jules,

Words can't begin to describe how sorry I am for what I've done. I know that I've broken the trust between us but I need to see you in person to explain everything.

Please meet me at the mall after practice tomorrow afternoon. The reason I picked the mall is because I know you're afraid of me and I don't blame you. If we're in a public place it might make you feel a little safer to be near me. Your feelings mean everything to me.

I really hope you'll meet me Julie, I really want to work this out.

Portman.

He had thought about signing it as Dean but he didn't want to push his luck. It would take a miracle for her to meet up with him but he was holding onto the hope that he would.

He folded the note carefully and tucked it inside an envelope he found on Fulton's desk. He had thought about getting someone else to deliver it but he'd always despised the woosies who made their friends to the dirty work for them so here he was making his way towards Julie and Connie's dorm. If he was lucky, Julie would be friendly to him. If he was even luckier, Connie would be friendly to him. Facing Connie's wrath could be worse than facing death itself if Guy's stories were anything to go by.

He knocked on their door. Quietly at first but slowly getting louder when there was no answer. He stopped knocking and pressed his ear to the door to listen for any sounds of movement. There were none.

Sighing he placed the envelope in the message basket by the door and walked away. Why he didn't just put the note in the basket in the first place was beyond him, but maybe he was really hoping just to catch a glimpse of Julie. Inside he was aching to see her smile again.

Unfortunately for Portman someone else had seen him place the envelope in the basket. Someone who wanted revenge for what Portman did. Someone who would stop at nothing to see Portman suffer the way he and his friends already had.

…………………………………………..

"Hey Jules, where've you been?" Connie asked glancing up at her roommate as she walked through the door.

Julie yawned "Studying with Ken. Who'd have thought Chemistry would be so damn hard!" she declared placing her books on her desk.

Connie stifled a laugh "Yeah, who'd have thought" she sarcastically agreed smiling at Julie.

"Oh shut up" Julie replied grinning knowing exactly what Connie was thinking.

"Oh before I forget, letter for you. Have no idea who its from" Connie walked over to her desk and picked up the envelope addressed to Julie.

Julie frowned taking the envelope from Connie's outstretched hand. She carefully studied it. She didn't recognise the handwriting and there was no stamp or postmark indicating that it had been hand delivered.

"Do you think I should open it? I mean what if it's a nasty letter from Riley or someone?" Julie asked Connie feeling the paranoia setting in. She hated being like this but the events of late really had her on edge.

"Do you want me to open it?" Connie asked worried for her friend. This wasn't the Julie Gaffney she knew and loved like a sister.

Julie shook her head. "No, I think I'll just open it later" she decided placing the unopened envelope on her desk.