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I pulled away and shook my head trying to clear it.
"Oh my god what am I doing Tommy you're a worse drug THAN ANYTHING KWEST COULD HAVE GOTTEN ME" I yelled.
"Jude" Tommy whispered.
"No Tommy I can't talk to you right now I don't know if I ever can."

I ran inside and looked around. No one was home and I knew where the alcohol was. I walked into the kitchen and picked the lock on the cabinet where my parents kept everything. I took out a bottle of vodka and took a sip. It tasted disgusting and burned my throat but in an odd way felt good. I continued drinking until it was empty. I took another one and finished it quickly. After my third or fourth bottle probably around 7:00am I passed out.

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The next morning I woke up and decided to try to talk to Jude again. I knew her mom and Sadie were gone. Her mom was at a spa and Sadie was staying at her friend's house for a week.

I got to her house and rang the bell. After a few minutes no one answered so I knocked. Still no answer. I looked through the window and saw Jude passed out on the floor with a bottle of rum in her hand.

I opened the door and ran over to Jude and picked her up. I put her on the couch. I took the empty bottle and walked into the kitchen. There were three more empty bottles there. I took them and put them in the recycle bin.

When I walked into the living room Jude was on the floor again. I picked her up and walked upstairs to her room. I put her in her bed and covered her up. I decided to restock her parents' cabinet so she wouldn't get in trouble. I was about to leave when she started to throw up into the bucket I put by her bed.

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"Tommy" I whispered. He turned around and walked over to me.
"Don't worry I'm leaving" he said and walked out the door.
I got out of bed and ran after him. He was already halfway down the stairs. I ran down the stairs but I tripped. Tommy heard me and turned around. I fell right into his arms. I turned around and kissed him. He started to pull away but then just got closer.

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I could taste the alcohol in her breath and realized she didn't know what she was doing. I pulled away and sat down on the step. Jude sat down next to me.
"I thought you said you loved me" Jude said looking hurt.
"I do" I said putting my arm around her.
"Then why'd you pull away?'
"Because I love you" I began "Jude you're drunk and I know some things I did..."
"I'm not you.'
"You're right you're not me but that doesn't change the fact that..."
"YOU KNOW TOMMY IF YOU DON'T WANT ME JUST SAY IT STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE WHEN YOU REALLY..."
I pulled her closer and kissed her not caring about the consequences. We stood up and Jude grabbed my arm and led me to her room. She smiled and I pulled my arm back realizing what she was thinking.
"QUINCEY MAKE UP YOUR MIND!"
"Jude I better go you need to sleep."
I whispered in her ear "I love you no matter what" then I left without another word.