"It's funny" I started "I never wanted to die alone well guess it's going to happen."
"Don't talk like that Jude" Tommy said pulling into my driveway.
"Tommy" I said "I don't want to fight it I'd rather just die."
"Don't say that" he said again.
"I'm serious Tommy I might as well just live my life in the short amount of time I have instead of suffering for months then dying without doing anything I wanted to do" I said.
"Well what haven't you done" he asked.
"Um lets see get married have kids" I said.
"Well get married then get treatment" Tommy suggested.
"Oh yeah I'm just going to walk up to some random guy and say 'hey I'm dying wanna get married'" I said "get real Tommy. I don't want to get married to just anyone I want to be in love with my husband and the guy I love I don't think loves me back."
"Oh really who's this guy" Tommy asked.
"You're not that clueless" I said.
"Well apparently I am because I thought you loved me but I remember telling you I love you quite a few times" Tommy said.
"Did you mean it" I asked.
"Of course" he said.
"Then lets go" I said.
"Go go where" he asked clueless.
"Lets get married" I said
"OK" Tommy said.
"Really" I said.
"Why not" he said.
"You're serious" I said.
"Are you" he asked.
"Yeah" I said.
"Then so am I" I said "we're getting married."
"Yes but if we are going to get married you have to get permission" he said.
"From who" I asked.
"You're parents" he said.
"Why" I asked.
"It's the law" he said.
I don't know if that's a law in Canada but I know that here if you're under 18 you need parental permission also I know that it's like against the law for a minor to be with uh not a minor but that's only if they sleep together so technically getting married is not breaking any laws.
"Stupid mean law" I pouted.
"I'm amazed at how lighthearted you can be when you just found out have um uh" he said.
"Say it" I demanded.
"Say what" he asked.
"What I have say it" I said.
"I don't want to" he said.
"SAY IT!"
"Why."
"Oh forget it."
Tommy started the car again and drove off. He pulled up in front of Jamie's house.
"Why are we here" I asked.
"Forget the whole lets get married thing OK" he said.
"What no why" I asked.
"Just do it OK" he said sternly.
"OK" I said.
"Get out" he said.
"What?"
"GET OUT!"
I got out of the car and a tear fell down my cheek. Why is he doing this? He's weird. Why is he going to pretend we never wanted to get married? Again he's weird.
"Jude wait" he called I turned around "What's your favorite cut of diamond?"
"Princess" I said smiling like an idiot.
I ran to Jamie's door and knocked loudly. He came out and looked sad.
"Jude I just heard are you OK" he asked.
"Fine I'm getting married" I said excitedly.
"You're getting married...To who" he said.
"Tommy" I jumped up and down.
"Since when are you guys even dating" Jamie asked.
"Um a couple days" I replied starting to get a little mad that he wasn't happy for me.
"Jude you're sick you should concentrate on getting better" Jamie said.
"Jamie I need to live my life before it's over" I said.
"Well you have plenty of time" he said unconvincingly.
"No Jamie I don't and I love Tommy and he loves me and if you don't support us then I'm out" I said.
"No no I'm happy for you really congratulations" he said.
I smiled and we went in. I started to feel a little tired so I asked him if I could take a nap here because I didn't want to walk home. Of course he said yes and I went into his room and fell asleep almost immediately before I realized that I might not wake up and shot up and ran down stairs.
"What happened I thought you were going to take a nap" Jamie said getting up and walking to where I stood on the stairs.
"I might not wake up" I said honestly.