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Bold+Italics+UnderlineFlashback

The next day before anyone was awake I rushed out the door. I got into the blue viper Tommy had left for me and instantly began to cry. The car smelled like him. I drove to G Major that reminded me of him even more and I cried harder.

"Jude you're not supposed to be here" Georgia said.

"Georgia I want to be here I really do" I cried.

"Jude I'm going to call Sadie and have her come get you, you shouldn't drive like this. You can come pick up your car when you're feeling better" she said.

"I'm not sick Georgia I feel fine" I tried to sound ok.

"Jude home now" she said.

"Jude sing now" I cried harder.

"No" she yelled.

"Just let me go to the roof" I said.

"Why" she asked.

"Just let me go" I sobbed.

"Ok come on" she said.

She walked me through the studio. She didn't let me stop or let anyone talk to me. When we got the roof I fell. I was sobbing uncontrollably. Georgia tried to comfort me without much luck. I heard her call Sadie and I knew I didn't have much time.

"WHY!" I yelled "why did you leave me here all alone."

"Jude come on" Georgia tried.

"You were supposed to be there for me" I yelled again "if we would have forgotten it if we would have stuck to our promise if we had let it go let us go you'd still be here.

It's my fault it's all my fault I'm sorry Tommy."

"Jude no one blames you" Georgia said.

"You should he was coming to see me" I yelled

"If we would have forgotten about everything like we had promised we wouldn't be together and he wouldn't have been late for our date and he wouldn't have been on the road and he wouldn't have gotten into a wreck and he'd still be here."

"Jude its ok" Sadie said "no one will ever blame you."

"I blame me" I said weakly.

"You shouldn't" She pulled me into her arms.

I calmed down a little and spoke to her "This is where we had our first kiss you know."

"No I didn't when was that" she asked.

"My sixteenth" I told her "ever since then this has kind of been my hide out."

"Really" she said.

"Yea" I said simply "he used to come out here with me a lot."

"Hey Jude" Tommy said.

"Oh hey Tommy what's up" I smiled.

"Nothing" he pulled a bouquet of flowers from behind his back "happy 17th girl."

"Thank you Tommy they're beautiful I love them" I told him happily.

"And I love you" he whispered I barely heard it but I did."

"I lo" he cut me off.

"Jude I'm sorry I didn't mean… to say that just forget it."

"Well it's definitely my birthday" I said bitterly.

"Please Jude just forget I said…"

"That's Tommy always forgetting the bad."

"And remembering the good."

"It's not all good Tommy."

"Wow I can't believe he did that to you" Sadie said.

"Yeah well it wasn't all bad" I said "We… promise not to get mad" Georgia nodded "On my 18th birthday we slept together here."

"Wow just wow that wow" Sadie said.

"He did the same thing for the third time he said it never happened" I cried "excuse me."

I ran into the studio and locked myself in the nearest bathroom. My life was over right when I had gotten it back. I dug through my purse to find a knife and I found a bottle of sleeping pills. I took about half the bottle and started cutting. I was going to see Tommy again. It was over. It was all over.

The End

It's over. I know kind of a bittersweet ending. It's kind of Titanic-ish. I saw our place now I can die.