She sat looking out the shuttle window, remembering what she was not supposed to remember. There was a sound and she turned to see the old woman standing in the door way.

"Why is it that you have come?" she asked it as if she already knew the answer,

"I told you, I want to save my home."

"Jedi do not have homes,"

"Yeah, and like I said, I'm not a Jedi." She was starting to get annoyed, what did the old bag want?

"You fear your past, yet you chase it as you follow the exile." Ellsia stiffened, "I know your mind jedi and I know what you run from."

Ellsia did not look at her, she was too afraid of what she would see, instead she gazed out the window until she heard Kreia leave.

Suddenly the ship rocked, she fell off her chair then ran to the cockpit,

"What the frack was that?" she asked as an exasperated Atton tried to keep the ship under control, "It looks like we've been hit by some AD towers!"

"AD towers?" Caitlyn was confused,

"What would a bunch of scientists need Air Defence towers for?"

"Maybe to keep out unwanted guests," replied Ellsia, "This is Czerka we're talking about after all."

"Everyone hang onto something, looks like we're going to have a rough landing!"

Just as Atton said this Ellsia was thrown sideways into the door, the air knocked out of her, the ship span around her and it was all she could do to keep from throwing up. She crawled on her hands and knees through the door towards the back of the shuttle but was once again thrown into a wall, she felt something in her shoulder give way and she whimpered in shock as she felt it dislocate. She tried to stand but collapsed and closed her eyes, it felt like an age before the ship landed creating a crater in the ground and jolting them about once more. Her consciousness was slipping away...was that a voice saying her name?...

"Captain Trilaut," the voice snapped her out of her thinking, it was only Bao-Dur, he smiled and winked at her, "Congratulations on your promotion Ell, no one deserves it more."

They were approaching the end of a campaign, the mandalorians had been driven back beyond the Outer Rim but were still holding a couple of small planets. Ellsia's superior, Captain Agast had been killed only days before and she had replaced him, taking over his duties and small company.

"Thank you Bao-Dur but I don't think there is really much to celebrate at the moment."

She sighed, she was sick of war, sick of fighting...sick of death.

At night she had dreams she was suffocating, blood caked her hands and filth clogged her pores, she was drowning.The Iridonian frowned slightly, his remote hovered about their heads beeping and whistling softly.

She did not like to think of it but she had come to depend on her friend, he was always there with a kind word, a smile, an encouraging nod. She did not feel like the leader she was supposed to be.

Someone burst into her tent, a young jedi by the name of Arun, he was panting and looked extremely worried.

"Captain, I think you should come quick!"

The friends looked at each other startled before following him out, Basilisks were dropping from the sky. "Sith's blood!" she cried in frustration, "Those damn Mandalorians, don't they ever let up?" People were looking to her for direction and she began to panic.She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, "There is no emotion..."

Reciting the jedi code in her head calmed her and her eyes snapped open, she was ready for this.

An agonising pain woke her and she couldn't help a little scream as she came too, her left shoulder was numb and her face was wet, she must have been crying while she was unconscious. She closed her eyes and gritted her teeth,

"Hold still, let me help you." The voice calmed her a little, her body went rigid as the person helping her forced her shoulder back into place.

Her face drained of colour but she managed to keep back the scream that was threatening to engulf her.

"Will she be alright?" It was Caitlyn, "She was bumped around a bit more then the rest of us."

The young woman just lay there breathing deeply, she was no longer in the ship as she felt grass beneath her and the sun on her face.

"She has been through worse General."

That voice!

Slowly she opened her eyes and sat up it took all of her strength just to look up, sure enough he was standing there, not three feet from her.

"Bao-Dur?"

"Hello Ell, it's been a while."