She had reassembled her lightsaber.The single blue blade glowed brightly and it comforted her. She wondered if she should change the colour.Blue was the sign of a Jedi Guardian and she was certainly not one of those anymore. She remembered the Exile's old blade, the one that Atris had taken from her—it had been silver like the rushing waters of the fountains in the Coruscant Academy. Now she carried a normal green blade, that of a Jedi Consular.
"What am I now?" she asked herself frowning, "I carry the weapon of the Jedi but am I yet fit to wield it?"
She had always been told that a lightsaber should reflect its wielderand she felt that having a blue blade was giving a false impression.
"Why the long face?"
It was the new girl, Mira, she leant up against the wall of the cargo hold where Ellsia had been thinking privately.
"Just reflecting."
The fire haired woman lifted an eyebrow, "Hmm, looked to me as if you were doubting yourself. Never seen that in a Jedi."
Ellsia smiled, "I'm not an ordinary Jedi."
At least she was no longer denying it, though it was a grudging acceptance.
"I was just thinking of changing the colour of my blade."
"Oh? Why is that?"
Ellsia tried to explain, "A lightsaber is an extension of oneself and therefore reflects who you are. I just don't feel right wielding a blue lightsaber. Its not who I am anymore."
Mira watched her closely, her fingers drumming against her folded arms.
"I tell you what, I'll make you a deal. You give me the goss on everyone and I'llgive you a lightsaber crystal."
Ellsia looked at her skeptically, "Why are you asking me? And where would you get a crystal?"
Mira winked and approached her, "I'm asking you because no one else is talking and I have something you want. It's a fair trade."
The young Jedi thought about it for a moment then nodded.
"What colour is the crystal?"
Mira put a hand into one of her pockets and brought it out, "It's not blue exactly.The colour is called Cyan I think."
Ellsia took the crystal and turned it over in her hands.It was true that it wasn't the proper blue but a lighter, brighter colour. The girl looked at Mira, "What do you want to know?"
She placed the crystal into the lightsaber and ignited the blade, the soft cyan glow filtered the cargo hold and she smiled faintly. It was a unique crystal.Itsuited her perfectly.
"Interesting colour."
Ellsia turned and saw disciple regarding her.She turned back to the blade and did a few attack moves, watching as the light made a pattern in the air.
"Can I ask you a question?"
She did not answer him but nodded and retracted the blade, hanging the lightsaber on her belt.
"What happened to your other lightsaber?"
She turned and looked at him, her eyes fiery, "I threw it over a cliff."
"But why?"
"Because I was no longer worthy or capable of carrying it."
He raised and eyebrow, "Who told you this?"
"I did not need to be told, I knew."
She went to walk past him and he took hold of her arm gently, forcing her to stop.
"What is it in your past that you fear? To doubt yourself?"
She glared at him and shook of his hold, "Who are you to ask me about my life, I do not seek your help."
"I give it freely-"
"Well I don't want it!" She cut him off and raised a hand as if in defence. "The past should be forgotten.There is no point in dwelling on things you cannot change."
He looked at her kindly. "But it is not forgotten is it?"
Something in his eyes and voice almost made her speak but as his face changed her eyes hardened.
"Yes."
She stalked away, as far away from anyone as she could go. She went to the bedroom on the other side of the ship and lay on one of the bunks…butsomething moved in the shadows.
A woman stood not three feet away from her.She yelped and was not quick enough in igniting her blade.Her fingers were nearly cut off and she felt the heat from the red lightsaber causing her to drop her own.
"Who are you?"
But the woman did not reply, she used the Force and slammed the Jedi against the wall, knocking the breath out of her. There was a voice behind her, "Ell what-?" then an intake of breath and the whooshing sound of another blade being drawn. The Sith woman caused a whirlwind in the room but Caitlyn was too quick for her.She ran towards the woman and knocked the woman to the ground causing her to drop her lightsaber.She was out cold. Caitlyn checked her pulse then turned to Ellsia.
"Are you alright?"
"I'll live, barely," she replied smiling painfully.The past couple of days had seen her knocked about quite a bit but her powers were still too weak to gather much effect from healing.
Caitlyn nodded, "I'll take her to the medbay, I didn't mean to hurt her, are you sure you'll be ok?"
"I'll be fine already," the girl laughed. "I was taken by surprise, that's all."
The Exile smiled slightly and took the woman to Disciple.She was surprisingly strong for someone of her stature; even Ellsia was taller and she herself was not that tall.
Her fingers tingled slightly remembering the burn that almost happened.Her body was throbbing and if her muscles could talk, they'd be screaming at her. She sat down and faced the wall.It was time to do something about it.Time to tap into her connection with the Force.
Authors Note: Sorry for the delay guys, I know its a short one but hopefully the next two chapters should be up in a couple of days. Enjoy.