Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or anythin' that goes with it- although sometimes I wish I did.

Author's note:I got this idea from reading a poem off this here webpage(actually,I had this planned a long time ago-the poem gave me motivation.Yeah.Thats it.) So thanks to whomever did that. It was a great poem!

Oh! and one more thing-the title is inspired by an Erasure song! It's a line from their Spiralling song. Yes,thats my secret. I listen to Erasure while I write. Gone, and blown it all...(Get it?)

Pairings:I (at least I try) don't do them! So if its dirty boy lovin' you want, go read a YAOI story with a high-ass rating! ;)

You Give Me the Courage to Die-Chapter 5-Diagnoses

Eiri had made it to the hospital, unsure of what to do next. He had called quite loudly for a doctor, but everyone in room just stared at him fearfully.

"I said now." Eiri said loudly but calmly.

"Yes sir right away!" A nurse behind the front desk picked up a phone and dialed a number. It rang for awhile, but as soon as she heard a doctor's 'hello?', she started yelling at him.

"Please Okawa-san, calm down. What is the problem?"

"A blonde man covered in water and blood holding a body just flew through the doors! And he yelled at us to bring him a doctor, so…"

"Alright. Send him to the emergency ward, and give him room 203. I'll be down there right away."

"Yes Watanabe-san. Goodbye." The nurse hung up the phone. "Follow me, um, your name?"

"Uesugi. Eiri Uesugi."

"Is that Eiri as in Eiri Yuki!" the nurse wondered if this man was the infamous novelist. " I love your books."

Yuki restrained his urge to slap her. "Yes, but I don't think this is a good time for autographs, is it?" he said in a rather angry voice.

"Y-Yes sir."

"Now weren't we going somewhere? I AM covered in blood aren't I" Despite the situation at hand, Eiri was extremely calm. But he was still angry.

"Yes, follow me." The nurse led Yuki to the emergency ward at a brisk pace. Here we are. Just lay…it on the bed over there."

"His name is Shuichi Shindou" the novelist said this as he laid Shuichi on the bed gently.

"What? Shu…ichi Shindou? Isn't he that singer" It only took a moment for the nurse to figure it out. "So its true…you guys are lovers."

"Look lady right now really isn't the time." The nurse stared blankly. "And I MEAN it lady." It had the desired impact.

At that moment, the doctor walked in. "Oh my, he IS covered in blood, isn't he?" The doctor walked over towards the table. "What happened?"

Yuki spoke" I think…I think he committed suicide."

"Oh." The doctor leaned over and took the boys pulse. "Why would you bring him here if he's dead?"

"I just…can't explain it. I felt some kind of hope out there in the rain. It was like there was a light through the darkness. All I had to do was find it." Yuki said. I never talk like this he thought. Only in novels. The doctor's voice broke him out of his concentration.

"Uesugi-san, this man isn't dead."

I hope you are enjoying the story...Thank you Quack says the Duck (sorry if that's not right) for ever'thing!

Thank you to all who reviewed. Your the reason i go on!

I read chapter 3(I mean I really READ it) and realized:Oh ma God. Thisis creepy.

But all in all, I really hope you enjoy.

Kanpai,

Cherushii