Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or anythin' that goes with it- although sometimes I wish I did.
Author's note:I got this idea from reading a poem off this here webpage(actually,I had this planned a long time ago-the poem gave me motivation.Yeah.Thats it.) So thanks to whomever did that. It was a great poem!
Oh! and one more thing-the title is inspired by an Erasure song! It's a line from their Spiralling song. Yes,thats my secret. I listen to Erasure while I write...oooh,sometimes...(Get it?)
Pairings:Since this is pretty much all a tragedy story, I don't think there will be any. Also I'm flaky towards that sort of thing. So-sorry!If you consider sort of a love connection a pairing, then it's Yuki X Shuichi.
You Give Me the Courage to Die-Chapter 7-The Note
As Yuki drew back from his and Shuichi's embrace, he felt a crinkle in the young man's pocket."What…?" Yuki whispered to himself. He stuck his hand in the pocket to retrieve whatever was the cause. He pulled out an eight-point five by eleven-inch piece of paper. It wasn't folded neatly; it had been hurriedly squashed up. Eiri unfolded it, guessing at what it was. A suicide note.
"What do you have there, Uesugi-san?" the doctor asked.
Yuki ignored the annoying physician. He read the note silently to himself. Yuki, I love you more than anything else in the world. Never make a mistake about that. But our love was dying in a way. You know that, don't you. I'm sorry I cried so much. It's just…I was afraid of what you'd think. For the past two weeks, I've been waiting to ask you a question. The biggest question I could ever ask. I wanted to ask you to marry me.
Where the letter stated the question of marriage, the writing seemed more untidy. Yuki noted this, and kept on reading. As I write this, I remember the day we met. And all of the days after that. I want you to know that no matter what you said, my love never faltered. Not for a second. I want you to understand that to end a hurtful relationship, one must die. It's the only way…Oh my Yuki…this was not to hurt you. Sometimes, the truth is harder than the pain inside. Sometimes, It's the broken heart that decides. Love me forever, Your Shuichi Shindou.
While Yuki read the last few words, he saw a tear drip onto the page. He was crying harder than he ever remembered. Even more than when the incident with Kitazawa happened.
He grabbed a chair and placed it beside Shuichi's bed. He leaned over the young man in a half embrace and whispered to him. "I'll marry you Shuichi. If we can't do it here, we'll go somewhere else. But It'll only happen if you live."
The doctor asked the same question again, only sounding a little more aggravated.
"It was the suicide note…I'm sorry doctor-san, but I don't think anyone except me has rights to read this. With all respects."
"I understand Uesugi-san…"
"Thank you doctor-san."
"I have to go get some blood and the equipment. Hurry nurse! Come with me!" the doctor flung back into action.
"Yes sir Watanabe-san!" the nurse chased him out of the door.
The two hospital staff left Yuki to cry over Shuichi.
First off, If you haven't figured it out, I know nothing about hospitals or equipment. Let alone Japanese hospitals. So please bear with it...
Thank you to EVERYONE who reviewed, keep em' comin'!
I need to know if Shuichi should live or die...Everyone said live,so...I'm letting him live for now...But I could still...cut him off...tears
I shopuld REALLY be doing my homework right now.
Kanpai,
Cherushii