Disclaimer:Sucky. I still don't own any of Maki Murakami's hella funny masterpiece...

Author's Note:This idea of Shuichi being tricked just hit me when I sat down to write. I'm actually quite pleased with this chapter.

I hope to god you didn't give up on me. I'm sorry I havent updated for forever. Screw the chapter a day promise. Just PLEASE don't give up! (on knees begging...)

Of no interest:I just got into Depeche Mode like, four days ago. Pathetic, isn't it. I've pretty much just been listening to Some Great Reward, because its the only C.D. my dad has. oo.


You Give Me the Courage to Die-Chapter 11-Boy

Shuichi awoke again. It took him awhile again to gather any memory again. He slowly and painfully sat up, hand on his forehead. He didn't know where he was, or why. At the moment he couldn't even remember his name. He still had his eyes closed, and saw only black. He heard a string of broken words going through his mind over and over again. They were said by a deep voice he didn't recognize. He could tell that they were laced with sorrow. Shuichi…why…I can't…

He opened his eyes and surveyed the room slowly. A hospital? What… He turned his head to find a tall boy sitting in the chair beside his bed. The boy's hair and eyes were black, and his sleeveless top was strewn carelessly around him. He had a devilish grin on his face.

"Shuichi…welcome back from the dead." The boy said slowly. It sounded almost like the one that had uttered the words in his head.

"What…who…are you?" Shuichi said groggily. He wiped away the sleep in his eyes. He saw some very alarming sights, and the great pain in his body made itself clear once again. His eyes grew wide as he looked from one wrist to the next. His arms were dark scarlet all the way from his fingers to his elbows. It cracked and fell on to the sheets, while some of it remained sticky. He looked over to the boy again, only to find that his grin had grown wider. Why are you smiling?

"You don't remember me?" the boy said. Shuichi swore he could hear a sort of laugh in his voice.

"No…"

To Shuichi's surprise the boy leaned over and kissed him. Not lightly, but quite hard. The boy reached over and hugged him, still leaning into the kiss.

"Oww!" Shuichi cried as the boy seized him.

The boy drew back into the chair. "Sorry…" He looked towards the wall and pulled his hand through his hair. "I can't believe you don't remember me."

"Why should I have?" Shuichi drew himself up a little straighter. "Were you my brother? 'Cause you sure don't look like it. My friend? Sports partner? What…"

"Your lover." The black-haired boy said.

Shuichi stared blankly into the deep eyes.

"Tatsuha Uesugi. You are Shuichi Shindou. We were together."

Shuichi swore he could feel his heart move. He felt he recognized the boy in some way. "What happened to me?"

Tatsuha looked away and said quietly, "I don't want to talk about that. All that matters is that you are here on earth, and that you are alive."

Shuichi didn't understand, but he tried his best. He felt sorry for the boy. "Come here…" he said quietly. Tatsuha leaned closer to Shuichi. The nineteen-year-old took Tatsuha completely off guard by leaning into another passionate kiss.

Although this surprised Tatsuha very much, he figured out what was going on immediately. He kissed back. He managed to find a moment of air, and said to Shuichi, "I love you…". Shuichi said the same thing back to him and pulled the black-haired boy's face against his once again.

But why were you smiling… Shuichi couldn't focus long enough to remember to ask Tatsuha this question.


Thanks to all who reviewed! I hope you like my story! And this thing with Tats is awesome! I was originally going to make it Ryuichi, but he was SO unstable...and besides, having Tats do it is going to make it sooo fun! Hurrah! Go Tats! Eiri is NEVER going to put up with thisss...

Oh,and I just thought I should spread the word if you didn't know. Gravi isn't over at Vol.12! There are new tracks being distributed by online comic Genzo for 200-something Yen. But here's the good part: its free if you got to: gallery. Here's the EVEN BETTER part! MOST OF IT'S IN ENGLISH!