A/N: first fic ever... be nice? plz? >
disclaimer: if u havn't figured out by now tht no1 on fanfic owns ne of the categories, i feel for you.. i relli do
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I've had this… dirty little secret since I was 9 years old, but no one ever thought that I could possibly think about it anymore…Everyone
thought I had moved on… but the truth was I hadn't. Everyday all I could think about was "that day." All the people said that I didn't
really lose them, because they lived on in my heart. So, I didn't need to remember everyday, I could… forget. Forget them, for my
own sanity. I was scared. I was scared, that if I forgot, then they'd really be gone. And once they were gone, they could never come
back again. Never come back… And no matter what I say, and what I do, I will never see them again. Sure, they all thought I forgot and
chased down my brother because I had to from a… sense of duty you could say, but I really hadn't forgotten. I can't even walk into the
house anymore without smelling blood. blood. blood. blood. Burning in to my soul, tearing me apart. Screams that echoed in my head,
endlessly, never stopping. They say that stone remembers death because once blood is shed on the stone, you can never really get it
off. It's true, no matter how many times we've washed those stones; they are permanently stained with blood. Their blood. Sometimes I
think, I died that day. Maybe I did, because I've been waiting a long time for Forever to end. Forever isn't really what everyone thinks it
is. It could change constantly. It depends how you look at it. Forever could be a million years, one month, an hour, 3 seconds, 2 weeks.
Forever's when…life was amazing. The dreams you've always wanted coming true, because you make them. My mother said we'll be
together forever so I've been waiting all these years, for Forever to finally end. Life is short, I found out. When you can see The End so
clearly you only need to take one step and you've reached it. But life is long too. So long, that when I look down the road, The End
seems so distant so much that I can't even see it, only look beyond the horizon to the hidden mysteries that lay ahead. And I know what
it feels like to cry because time is moving to fast. Because all you ever wanted, was in the past and you never want to leave it. But you'll
always smile. laugh. dance under the stars. Because every 60 seconds you waste crying and reminiscing, is 1 minute of happiness you'll
never get back. I'm tired. So very tired. All I want, is for Fate to grant my wish. I want to see, Forever end. Because I've lived years at a
months time. I've seen things, children should probably never see. I've seen beginnings, and I've seen ends. And the one fact I know
about Forever, is that it's happening. Now. This moment. Now. Now. Now. And no matter what, you can never take it back… because
life is meant to be lived to its fullest. So what if I died "that day", I'll never forget because life is meant to be remembered, and life is a
continuing series of beginnings and endings, losses and gains, all folding into one long stretch, one lifetime, and one forever.
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A/N: so it kinda suked.. heyy im 13! gimme a break! > plz?