Desires
Chapter Seven: Excerpted Interlude
Excerpt from the journal of one Harry Potter:
I thought of him today. Hermione asked me to take some parchments to him, and I instantly agreed. What else would I—could I—do? He is everything that I've ever wanted. He's sensuous, serious, witty, and extremely humorous. Hell, he's animalistic. I wonder, when he mates, will it be for life? And does love, for him, transcend all bounds? Would he ever love me? I often think about what his hands would feel like sliding over my skin, touching me in the heat of passion. I imagine them brushing across my chest, the palm and fingers calloused from working with them for so long, and I get erect.
Excerpt from the journal of one Draco Malfoy:
I am thoroughly disgusted with my godfather and best friend. They love each other, yet neither will admit it to the other. Severus just tells me it is not my business, glares at me, then stalks away. Harry looks so lost when I bring it up, like I'm shoving him into a dark room without his wand to light his way. Granger does what she can for him, I suppose. We spent the night there last time we were in Hogsmeade. My father would roll over in his grave if he knew I stayed at a muggle-born's house and enjoyed it. Oh yes, that would go over well. 'Draco. I am deeply disappointed in you. That is not how a Malfoy should act, especially the Malfoy Heir. Crucio!' Back to Harry and Sev. There is absolutely no reason for either of them to be miserable, yet they both are. Harry has nightmares of the final battle, and he sees Sev dead in all of them. Sev never says if he dreams of Harry, but I'm certain he does.
Excerpt from the journal of one Harry Potter:
Draco told me he read my journal today. I'm not surprised. He is a Slytherin, after all. I'm glad he's here, though, even if he is a pain in my arse. He's also the closest friend I've got here. Hermione's in Hogsmeade, of course, but she's so preoccupied with finding a cure for Ron that she can't help. Don't get me wrong; I'm all for her finding a cure. She could help so many. I just miss her. She's got Neville involved in a way that Severus never would have. He's experimenting in cross-breeding plants. Hermione gave him a list of properties she wants the plant to have, and Nev's gone out and got all the plants with those properties to try to breed. They're hoping to get a single plant with all the properties needed. Then, of course, Hermione would need Severus' help to figure out what ingredients and reagents that plant reacts with and how. Confusing and time consuming to me, but if it helps.
Severus still hasn't spoken more than a few words to me, and those are usually sarcastic and snarky. I'm beginning to think Draco was wrong when he said Severus liked me, too. I despair of him ever noticing me. On the plus side, Albus suggested—quite forcefully, too—that we combine the first ten weeks of lessons for the sixth and seventh years. He says Potions and Defense can go hand in hand, so now Severus and I have to spend time together working out our lesson plans. That damn twinkle in Albus' eye got me suspicious, and I just read back over what I wrote. 'Potions and Defense can go hand in hand.' Hmmm. Very suspicious, that. Barmy old codger, anyway. But I'm certain he knows. Hell, what doesn't the great Albus Dumbledore know?
Excerpt from the journal of one Severus Snape:
Barmy old coot! I can't believe Albus is forcing Potter and I to work together. Doesn't he know it would never work? Potter could never go 'hand in hand' with me. He's the Boy-Who-Lived! The one who defeated the Dark Lord! Hell, he's James Potter's son! He'd never see me that way. And yet, Draco keeps pushing for me to spend more time with Potter. Perhaps he knows something . . . he is, after all, Potter's closest friend. He and Granger, while Weasley is in St. Mungo's, anyway. But I can't see Potter abandoning Draco if Weasley were ever cured. He'd just force Weasley to accept Draco, or to not accept him but at least be civil. Perhaps I'll take Draco up on his offer of dinner, later this week. See exactly what he knows.
A/N: I know this is short, but I have plans that this is setting up for. So bear with me, please! And please, review. I'd like to thank everyone who reviewed, but that will have to be done later as I have to go to work now.
16 May 2005