Truly Dark
It feels like today could be my last
And I don't give a damn
I don't even know my past
From year to year, day to day
My life is changing
Slipping away
The time has no meaning or reason to me
It's just a measure
But you can't measure what you can't see
And you can't see who I really am
So how do you take
The measure of a man?
If they could just see my inside my soul
They would see all the pressure
Is taking its toll
Damnit it all I just want to die
I know too little yet I know too much
And God forbid someone asks why
I have scars on my arm and I always look down
Why I don't say anything
Why I won't make a sound
I can't speak because if I speak I might say
What I've always tried
To keep locked away
They would try to help me with all my fears
Try to wipe away
All of my tears
I lay down by myself there is nobody here
I have privacy
To whisper my greatest fear
That one day I will totally break
Be trapped in my mind
With no escape
I know that I need to live, need to stay
Because I live as his friend and protector
Keeping him safe from the dangers of everyday
When I duel I appear courageous and strong
But it's just an act
Appearances are usually wrong
If looks could kill I might be dead
From opponents glaring at me
And playing games with my head
If you could look inside my heart
You'd see the effects and know
That I am becoming truly dark.