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PG-13-language, sorta-violence

A/N: yeah last chapter kinda sucked…but this one is wayyyy better. So enjoy. And if you don't wind up reading the bottom, I'M TAKING SUGGESTIONS FOR MY NEXT CHAPTER SO GIVE ME YOUR IDEA'S EVERYONE!((hope that caught your eye..))

Chap. 7-The real me, ne Yuki?

Shuichi's POV

It felt like Yuki had been holding me for hours, but really, it was probably only a matter of minutes.

"Yuki…."

"hm?"

He's been so caring lately, ever since that huge fight, it's going to be so hard to ask,

"What is it Shu?"

"…Is this…really right?"

"W-wha?"

"I mean, come on, me and you, that could possibly be the worst paring in the world, I mean I've pretty much given up caring about what people think awhile back, and I mean it's not that I even think it's cause we're guys, because you know I'd love you either way, right? And I-I just don't know anymore, Yuki, on if this is right of not, I mean I keep messing up your life, like me doing stupid things like this, and Tohma being my boss and all it's been pretty pissy, you know? And-"

"Shuichi just shut up"

"What?"

"Just calm down."

"But Yuki I-"

"Look, you don't have to explain anything, because I don't care,"

"heh, Yuki your such a bastard…"

I just spoke softly, or rather, just like a normal person, and not so Hyper and stupid. I was kind of surprised though because there was no harshness in Yuki's voice. It wasn't a blunt comment; it was, oh I don't know, nice.

"I don't mean it that way,"
"…."

"I mean I Don't care because no matter what the hell you do I'm going after you, I don't care if I'm chasing you cause you dumped me or chasing you to the states because of Tohma being a dick again. I swear to you right know I won't let you go even if it kills me, and I also swear that if you ever die, that I indeed will too because there is no life without my Shuichi"

He didn't just say that…

"Just, if your gonna die, wait until next month, cause my next book is due in 2 weeks"

He laughed, he was serious, I could tell, but he laughed, it was a good joke I admit, so I laughed a little too.

"You can be you, or can be the real you that nobody knows (1), and I'll love you either way."

The real me, ne Yuki? You sure you want to know him…

Yuki's POV

"I'm sorry to interrupt,"

I almost threw up at the sound of that voice, the only person that could ever really make me lose my grip,

"Gee, I should've known it was only a matter of time before you showed up, Tohma"

I could feel Shuichi wince at the sound of his name, and he grabbed on tighter to me, obviously not wanting me to get up and beat the shit out of him. Maybe he wanted to do it himself?

Tohma kept walking closer until he was only a foot away from us, Shuichi was still gripping onto me with his head hanging.

"Such a cute little scene I must say…"

"Tohma, Just get the hell away."

He walked over, closer to Shuichi then me.

"No. I figured what I had said would be enough, but no, you guilt yourself into going after this punk every time."

I held on to Shuichi tighter, afraid of what might happen if I let him go.

"No Tohma, I go because I care, and if you don't fucking leave me alone I'll get Mika on you too. I'm sure my sister would love to know that her husband is after her younger brothers ass."

Shuichi giggled a little. And I could see fear in Tohma's eyes, something I've never seen.

"Shuichi, get up"

I held on to him and Shuichi's grip tightened too.

"No."

"I said get up."

"No."

Shuichi can't see my face right now, but fear is written everywhere…

"You know Mr. Shindou, that your future lies in my hands. I could fire you just like that, and it would all be over. Now let go of Eiri, and get the hell up!"

Anger.

"No it's not. My future is not in your hands. And no, you can't fire me. I'm quitting. I'm quitting Bad Luck, I'm quitting N-G, I'm quitting looking up to Ryuichi, and I'm quitting being fucked around all the time by YOU!"

Shuichi screamed that last part as he let go of me and stood up, walking as close as he could to Tohma before hooking him with a right punch in the cheek.

I'd never seen that much power or anger in Shuichi. It was almost terrifying. You could even hear the crack of Tohma's cheekbone, which probably just shattered in his face.

Tohma fell over, his eyes dead, but he was still breathing.

Shuichi spun around to face me. He was horrified. He really looked like he could die. I stood up slowly.

"Shuichi…"

"Yuki I-I didn't mean to a swear! I just-it was an impulse! I-I just couldn't help myself! Yuki I-"

He collapsed to his knees crying. I could still see that terror in his eyes.

"Shuichi it's ok you-"

"No Yuki it's not ok! I could've killed him! Would if I did! Yuki it'll be all my fault! And I'll go to jail! And-"

"And then two lovers will have the same rap sheet as each other."

I kneeled down in front of him lifting up his chin to level his eyes with mine. He was shaking uncontrollably.

I sighed.

"I'd love to say that a kiss would make it all go away…but…would it at least make you smile again Shuichi?"

He pushed him self up a bit, and pressed his lips to mine. This wasn't the best time to kiss when Tohma was lying on the ground probably dying…but I want Shu to smile again. He needs to be in his right mind…well hey, if Shuichi didn't do it I would've so…yeah.

Shuichi's POV

I-I can't believe I did that…Tohma, I mean no…he had it coming! He shouldn't have done that! Any of that to me! Or Yuki! He had it coming, right! He had hit me written all over him! I had to do something, before he hurt me or Yuki again…Yuki…what he must be thinking of his little Shu right now…insane maybe? Over reacting? Not what he thought he knew…but…no- what's this? A kiss? We're kissing? And he said it'd be ok? and that if Tohma dies then we're the same…the same…well he said it. Yuki said he wanted the real me. I have so much anger in me, the real me has become a violent mess. Would if I where to lash out at Yuki one day? Would he understand? Would he dump me? Throw me out? I…I don't know…maybe the real me…isn't all that safe…\

TBC

uh if you didn't understand that, Yuki meant You-hyperactive bouncing off the walls Shu. Or real you-normal, common sense Shuichi that nobody really knows.

A/N: umm yeah…got a little violent…sorry, mood swinging again maybe? ((Me, that is)) whatever...it's good though, ne? review please. And……I'm taking suggestions for next chapter so if you want to give me some ideas, feel free!