This one is probly one of my longer chappy-spanning over a couple days to help keep everything flowing smoothly and leaving out the boring junk inbetween...hope you like! ENJOY!
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a/n: Hai, I love a good song-and this is a long chappy that I've been workin on so it deserves two! Britney Spears 'Everytime' & Anastasia 'Left Outside Alone'
Chapter 22
Kagome lay unconscience in a firelit hut. Inuyasha left her side and went out into a tree just as the sunset, laying in it's branches as his human form overcame him. His hair went black as the skies and his violet eyes were saddened by all his emotions. He knew he would have to set out with Kagome as soon as the sun rose. She would need to be taken back to Kaede's village for care. He hated seeing her like this-afraid he might never hear her voice, never see her brown hues come back to life. 'NO! She will wake up...it is just going to be a couple days...' He looked down as Rinsei came under the tree in an understanding disposition.
"Get down here Inuyasha...You don't need to hide in that tree..." Inuyasha raised on eyebrow. "I am NOT HIDING." Inuyasha gave a frustrated and rough tone. "HUH...Sure...I already know about the human thing...I was told a long time ago by Kouga...Now come down here and tend to Kagome-me and my men must get back to our home-the villagers here don't care for us...but I will be visiting your village soon to check on her..." Rinsei began to walk away, a couple groups of wolves and youkai joining him as they headed back to their den.
Inuyasha rolled his eyes, jumping from the tree and entering the dark hut. He sat by Kagome, quietly tracing her facial features as flames licked at the air, flickering and dancing off her face. "I shouldn't have let this happen..." Inuyasha took off his fire rat kimono and layed it over Kagome as a blanket, praying she would wake before morning.
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Kagome was lost and confused, though she knew exactly what was happening. 'My soul...it's...' "Disconnected?" A cold voice finished her thought exactly. A chuckle sent chills down Kagome's spine. "Don't be afraid Kagome...you are going to return soon enough..." Lights seemed to begin to illuminate the room slowly. She found herself in a room, black walls and one large window. She saw a four-posted bed & a mirror. "What ...what is this..." Kagome made her way to the bed, crawling onto it and curling her knees into her chest. She sat, waiting like this. Suddenly-she saw the window light up, looking out the glass-she saw something familiar. Her eyes went wide-tears burning behind her orbs as she got up and pushed off the bed, placing her fingertips to the glass.
"No..." Kagome watched-a memory from her mind playing upon the window. It was a flashback from when she saw Inuyasha and Kikyo together. "This is...This can't be...STOP THIS!" No voice ever came to Kagome except the ones from the people in the pictures. Kagome collasped back to the bed, hiding from the memory as she curled back into a corner. Soon, something else took over the glass, the day Inuyasha died...then a few days after she woke up. "STOP IT! SHUT UP!" She screamed through a shaky and tear-filled voice. "Now Kagome...watch closely-see how similiar these two people are." Kagome didn't understand at first-finally realizing what she saw.
First an image of Kikyo's return played-the hatred and malice playing across her lips and face as naturally as it was on the next image. This, this second image of Kagome was what broke open barriers she never wanted-opening old wounds which she had tried to forget. It was Kagome-at Inuyasha's grave-she heard her own words, the same anger and bitterness in her own voice, on her own face. She could hardly whisper. "no..this isn't..." But it played on, her mind filling with her own words.
"Sorry? You were sorry for breaking a promise that you never intended to keep? It was empty-You never wanted to choose me-you always wanted Kikyo..." Her mouth spat out the name like it was something horribly disgusting. "I will forget you Inuyasha...but I will never forgive you..."
"STOP IT! SHUT UP!" Kagome ran toward the window, forcing her hands on the glass, beating her fists against the memories. Her tears finally breaking free, with the first one streaking down her face-she felt something strange...rain...it began to rain all around her as she sank down, her voice quieting into sobs as she sat against the now dark window, her body becoming drenched and her hair sticking to her face in the wet humid moisture. "How does it feel...to know you were your incarnation this whole time-nothing but a copy..." Kagome got up, wiping her tears and sitting on the bed dispondently. 'I am not Kikyo...I hurt like Kikyo-I hurt Inuyasha like Kikyo...but I am not her...' She tried convincing herself, but she was soon tired and simply layed her head in on her arms atop her knees. 'Please...Inuyasha....save me-help me escape myself...' The cool rain continued to trickle down, a reflection of Kagome's emotions.
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The sun was rising, and Inuyasha was already beginning his journey home. He awaited the moment his demonic powers would return. As soon as the sun had peeked over the horizon, his hair was streaked with silver and his claws and fangs came back as well. He felt his weak human body retreating as his demon took over again. "Well then...time to go..." He had wiped Kagome's face clean of the blood that smeared the side of her mouth and the dirt that clung to her cheeks. He picked her up in his strong arms and walked outside. Yurusu walked faithfully beside Inuyasha as they left the village, keeping a steady pace as they entered the forest and began back to Kaede's village.
He walked all day-thinking about Kagome and letting different things play with his mind. He stopped only to let the horse get water when they crossed a river. By nightfall he set up camp consisting of a small fire in a clearing by a stream. He layed Kagome out on her sleeping bag, then watched her carefully as he took Yurusu to the riverside. He was lonely, and so he began talking to the horse-just as he had seen Kagome doing. "Ya know...Your probly not so bad for a horse...You took care of Kagome, didn't you-kept her company?" The horse raised its head to Inuyasha a moment before walking back into the camp and nudging Kagome with it's nose. "Don't worry...she'll wake up..." Inuyasha, saying this more to convince himself than anyone. Yurusu then walked away to graze in the field. Inuyasha sat by Kagome for the rest of the night-talking to her gently about the past and future.
The next morning Inuyasha was out before the sun. He walked at the same hurried pace toward his home village. Before they new it they were at the edge of Inuyasha's forest, then passing the well and then at the edge of Kaede's village. When he entered the village-many concerned looks were tossed his way as he held the unconcious Kagome curled closely to his body in his strong arms. He pulled her tighter and began to run toward Kaede's hut, there within seconds he burst in the door where Miroku, Sango, and Kaede were all talking about how they were worrying because Kagome was later than usual.
Inuyasha stood there a moment, letting his figure sink into everyone's thought. "Inuyasha...what happened..." Miroku first spoke, noting Kagome's figure in his arms." She was attacked, by a demon called Suruka. "No...Rinsei wasn't suppose to..." Sango looked over Kagome's figure. "Lie her here Inuyasha...Kaede got up, gesturing to a mat layed out. "Rinsei took her soul, did he not?" Inuyasha seemed a bit taken back as he layed her out. "Hai-but how did you know about him?" Miroku sighed. "We were with Kagome when she made the pact with Rinsei...we advised her against it but...she refused to let Naraku's incarnation destroy her villages and friends..." Sango sat by her friend's side. "She...she is trapped in their...that stupid baka-Suruka must be holding her there..."
Inuyasha looked back at Sango. "What do you mean by trapped?" Miroku nodded. "Hai-Sango means that Suruka took hold of the weakness in her heart, pulling himself into Kagome just as Naraku did...but since her soul is still disconnected in the body...she cannot awaken...and I fear since Kagome is weakened she will be much too vulnerable..." Inuyasha let his concern play off his face, before gathering himself and looking at Kaede who was preparing medication for Kagome. "Kaede...what can we do for her? Tell me there is a way to help her..." Kaede shook her head in dismay. "The only way to help the poor child now would be to transfer someone's soul into her body..." "FINE...how do I do that?" Inuyasha looked down determined. Kaede looked up in concern. "Child...ye cannot do such a thing...it would be risking your human soul..." "I will take the chance-I can't lose Kagome!" He argued back.
Kaede sighed. "Very well...in the morning we will give you an herb that will allow me to transfer your soul into Kagome's body temporarily. But Inuyasha-you must be careful...Suruka won't even hesitate to destroy Kagome from the inside out...and since this is your human soul-he may be able to destroy you as well..." Inuyasha nodded. Later that night, Sango was tending to Kagome while Miroku and Inuyasha talked with Kaede about the next morning's preperations. "So...Shippo is asleep...we mustn't let him worry-especially tonight..." Miroku nodded.
Sango ran a wet cloth across Kagome's forehead. Kagome flinched, turning her head as her eyes slowly lifted apart and spotted Sango. She breathed heavily and simply looked into the young girl's eyes. Sango was overcome with such emotion and shock as she backed off, it was all she could do to call the others. "INUYASHA! MIROKU!" All three burst into the room as Kagome began to rise.
--Kagome watched through the window as something new an unfamiliar was displayed. "What...what is going on...this isn't one of my memories...what is this?! What are you doing!?" Kagome looked frantically over the clear glass, seeing Sango's face at first, then the others burst through the door. "YOU BAKA! What are you doing with my body!?!"--
Inuyasha took to Kagome's side, looking into her eyes as she smiled. He was overjoyed a moment, until his faith was betrayed by a knife in her hand. She pulled the dagger from her belt so quickly he almost didn't have time to knock it away. He grabbed her wrists as she tried to go after him with it. "Kagome! What are you doing!?!" He looked deeply into her eyes, clearly seeing it wasn't at all Kagome. "You aren't Kagome..." Inuyasha's tone turned violently angry.
--Kagome got up, seeing herself trying to slay Inuyasha was too much, she put her hands up gently, touching the window and phasing through it, putting herself back into her body and forcing Suruka back down with all her energy.--
The struggle stopped as the life returned to Kagome's eyes, along with a frantic and pained look of despair. She forced her hands away from Inuyasha, dropping the knife and crawling back in fear. "Kagome..." Inuyasha began toward her. "NO! Stop...I can't control him..." She spoke in true fear, her eyes streaming with tears as she breathed heavily-trying her best to keep control of what was hers. "Kagome...let me help you..." Inuyasha moved slightly toward her in a careful motion. She put both hands to her head, trying to regain her own thoughts-trying to clear her mind from the lies that constantly spilled over.
Kagome felt the youkai's thoughts. "I WON'T LET YOU HURT THEM!" She screamed in panic-then in a desperate attempt to free her friends from herself, she got up and ran out the hut door. Inuyasha followed quickly behind with the others as they chased Kagome. Tears stremaed down her face as her thoughts raced. 'I have to get away...you won't hurt them...I'll die first...' She kept running blindly into the forest, though she began to become unsure of herself. Her legs were faltering under her weakness-her vision was blurring and she could no longer see clearly in the darkness.
Inuyasha cursed himself-he couldn't believe he let her get away so fast...he was following her scent with underlying traces of fear and uncertainty as fast as he could. "That idiot-where does she think she is running off to..." He finally came closer to her. Kagome collapsed under the pressure and pain of her human body. She breathed heavily-trying to clear her head as she held her hands firmly against the ground on all fours-finally she began to rise as she heard Inuyasha's calls. She got to her feet just as she came into his view, her legs unfaithfully giving way-but Inuyasha quickly caught her limp body before she hit the ground.
Everyone returned to the hut, Inuyasha holding Kagome protectively in his arms, staring into her glossy eyes that seemed to be blinded. She stared off aimlessly-only barely making out Inuyasha's figure in her blurred and dimming vision, tears began running down her face. Everyone gathered round the fire quietly-no one speaking of anything as they all held their own thoughts within their hearts. Kagome flinched every few moments in pain from the battle within. Sango took hold of Miroku in fear for her friend, neither could bear to watch Kagome in such pain. Kagome smiled knowingly a moment, putting her hand to Inuyasha cheek with a caressing motion hesitantly-in fear of what her hand might do to betray her. "Inu..yasha...I'm losing-I can't hold on....you have to stop him-you have to stop me..." Her voice was barely a whisper as her eyes began to reveal the battle that grew stronger. She fidgeted around, pushing herself from Inuyasha's grasp and backing off. Finally she let out gasps of pain, followed by cries as she twisted and jerked, seeming to struggle within herself-forgetting the world that remained around her.
Sango looked away, burying her face in Miroku's chest as he looked on with fearfully wide eyes. Inuyasha came closer, picking Kagome up in his arms and holding her closely again-trying to calm her. "You must stop me Inuyasha-I can't hurt you...you have to-" She opened her eyes momentarily in a slow motion. "Inuyasha...please..." Inuyasha held her tighter, kissing the top of her head as his eyes glassed over with tears that he held back-knowing what she was saying. "I won't...don't ask me to do such things Kagome...I will save you...I refuse to see you destroyed..."
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Kagome buried her head in his chest, sighing as she left her body again-returning to the same dark room her capture held her in. "LET ME OUT! I will kill you for this-you won't hurt my friends..." She screamed. The same voice came to her, surrounding her until a figure came into view-a familiar and kind figure. "Inu...yasha..." Kagome ran into his form with open arms, closing tightly around him happily. Just as she felt safe-she felt a sharp pain in her back. She cried out in pain and lifted her face to meet his hues. "...but...why..." Her eyes searched for an answer, until the cold voice came from his lips. "Fool...you are too trusting...no one will come for you here...you are mine here-I shall do as I please..." Suruka threw her back onto the bed. She blinked in disbelief and anger.
'How dare...how dare he decieve me...' Suruka motioned a hand, dark chains appearing from each of the bottom bed posts and forcing themselves on Kagome's wrists and neck tightly. Kagome moved slightly away, looking them over in confusion-hearing the rattle of them drag along the floor. "So you won't escape me again...I can't have you controlling this boy when I need it so desperately...you might just do something stupid..." He laughed, disappearing and leaving Kagome alone with fearful thoughts. She was suffocating-he left her no space...he was all around her, seeping from each corner of the room and filling her lungs with unbreathable toxin. She couldn't continue this way, she hurt her friends...Inuyasha was hurting-she couldn't bear it. She thrust the chains around, hearing the noisy clatter echo in the darkness, finally collapsing back on the bed in frustration. She fell asleep in tears and painful regrets, wondering if she could truly ever leave.
Inuyasha layed Kagome back down gently. He dare not look away. "Kaede...how soon can you put my soul in there..." Kaede sighed. "I can be ready just before the sun rises." "Good...I want to start as soon as possible..." Inuyasha brushed a piece of hair from Kagome's face. Kaede & Sango made the preparations, Miroku said a silent pray over Kagome's body for Inuyasha and Kagome's safe return. Soon, Inuyasha layed himself by Kagome's side, taking her hand in his. Kaede had given him a drink, now she was sitting above his head. "Ready Inuyasha..." "Hai...do it..." Kaede put her hands together in a pray formation, chanting something then placing a seal on Inuyasha's forehead. Inuyasha's eyes went wide, then his body fell limp as he found himself somewhere new.
Inuyasha looked around, he was in a dark void, he couldn't see a thing. "Is this it? Suruka! Kagome!" He looked around, finally making out a figure up ahead. "SURUKA! I will destroy you for what you did!" Inuyasha hadn't noticed until this moment that he was in his human form. 'Oh right...this is my human soul...' He rolled his eyes at the set back. "Kawaii sou-you are an insect to me!" "BAKA! Shut up and fight!" Inuyasha charged at Suruka, punching him in the face, sending him back with great force. "HA! You must be weakened by Kagome's miko energy in her body! You are slowly dying off youkai! So I will just help you along!" He raced toward Suruka who raised both feet and hit Inuyasha in the chest, flipping him over his head as he got to his feet.
Inuyasha put down a hand before he hit, doing a single-handed back-spring to his feet and facing Suruka again. Suruka wiped a trickle of blood from his mouth. Inuyasha didn't hesitate to come after him again. This time they were entangled in a brawl for sometime, Suruka ending up on the floor. "You haven't even noticed yet have you youkai...you are quickly fading in this place-Kagome is ridding herself of you easily." Suruka breathed heavily, knowing Inuyasha's words were true. He leaped up after Inuyasha, pinning him to the ground, almost ready to break his neck when he began to disapate in a miko aura. "NO! This can't be! I am stronger than Naraku himself!" Inuyasha watched silently as the demon was defeated.
Inuyasha breathed, getting to his feet as his surroundings began to change. He found himself in the same room as Kagome. Kagome was chained to the bed by the same long shackles that stretched from the bottom post all the way to her neck and hands where she was sitting-which was in the dark corner of the bed opposite the window. Inuyasha looked over Kagome's figure in confusion and worry. "Ka-Kagome..." He reached for her as he stepped forward, but the window caught his attention at that same moment. Memories began to flash across it. These were memories of Inuyasha and Kikyo, and Inuyasha and Kagome. Kagome looked at the floor dispondently.
Inuyasha looked over the window in disbelief, finally returning his gaze to Kagome when he heard her small voice. "I thought I told you...never to take such a form with me again..." Inuyasha began towards her. "But...Kagome-its me...Inuyasha-" "SHUT UP! LIAR! I won't believe anymore of your lies-such false hopes you give me...don't you dare hand me anymore lies..." Kagome shook her head frantically, as she sat broken on the floor.
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way
Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Heavenly father please save me.
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Inuyasha's brow furrowed. "What has that monster done to you..." His fists clenched tightly. Kagome got up, walking over to the mirror. "I think you were right...I have become just as Kikyo was..." Inuyasha's eyes went wide as he saw her reflection in the mirror, it was Kikyo's face staring back. "Don't say that! You are nothing like her Kagome!" He grabbed her shoulders and forced her back into the looking glass with such power it shattered. Kagome seemed to wake up. "InuYasha...you...came...its you...." She threw her arms around him desperately. "I thought...I mean...he was..."
"Everything is alright now..." Inuyasha brushed his hand over her hair gently. They both found themselves beginning to wake up. Inuyasha could feel his soul returning to his body as he left Kagome's side. In the next moment Inuyasha opened is eyes and sat up, looking down at Kagome. Sango desperately looked into his face. "WELL...is she alright?" Inuyasha nodded as he saw her eyes open and stare at him. Everyone sighed inwardly with relief. Inuyasha smiled as Kagome smiled tiredly, squeezing his clawed fingers intwined in her hand. "Get some rest Kagome..." He brushed a finger over her face, careful of the claws. Kagome pushed herself up with much strain and against everyone's wishes, putting her arms around Inuyasha. Inuyasha pulled her closely to him, taking in her sweet scent with relief.
Kagome was soon enough alseep in Inuyasha arms exhaustingly. The sun was rising and everyone had had a rough night. Miroku and Sango went back to their hut to rest, leaving Inuyasha and Kagome alone as Kaede went to get her rest in Kagome's hut after chores. Inuyasha held Kagome in his lap, kissing the top of her head every so often until he drifted into sleep himself.
Kagome found herself in the same room as she slept, looking around with a peaceful and unreadable expression. She made her way to the broken glass that lay in the puddles on the floor. She looked into the pieces to see Kikyo's face, but no reflection appeared-the puddles revealed nothing but ripples. No memories flashed the window, only drops of rain that wilted their way down the clear glass. "A look into my heart...thats all that was here..." Kagome breathed deeply the scent of wet clear rain, still pondering over the dark room.
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Welps...how was that? Definately one of my longer chappies...lol! Hope you enjoyed-and understood most of it! Welps after this, we are going to break into some definate fluff and drama stuff-hope you like! R&R! ^.^
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a/n: Hai, I love a good song-and this is a long chappy that I've been workin on so it deserves two! Britney Spears 'Everytime' & Anastasia 'Left Outside Alone'
Chapter 22
Kagome lay unconscience in a firelit hut. Inuyasha left her side and went out into a tree just as the sunset, laying in it's branches as his human form overcame him. His hair went black as the skies and his violet eyes were saddened by all his emotions. He knew he would have to set out with Kagome as soon as the sun rose. She would need to be taken back to Kaede's village for care. He hated seeing her like this-afraid he might never hear her voice, never see her brown hues come back to life. 'NO! She will wake up...it is just going to be a couple days...' He looked down as Rinsei came under the tree in an understanding disposition.
"Get down here Inuyasha...You don't need to hide in that tree..." Inuyasha raised on eyebrow. "I am NOT HIDING." Inuyasha gave a frustrated and rough tone. "HUH...Sure...I already know about the human thing...I was told a long time ago by Kouga...Now come down here and tend to Kagome-me and my men must get back to our home-the villagers here don't care for us...but I will be visiting your village soon to check on her..." Rinsei began to walk away, a couple groups of wolves and youkai joining him as they headed back to their den.
Inuyasha rolled his eyes, jumping from the tree and entering the dark hut. He sat by Kagome, quietly tracing her facial features as flames licked at the air, flickering and dancing off her face. "I shouldn't have let this happen..." Inuyasha took off his fire rat kimono and layed it over Kagome as a blanket, praying she would wake before morning.
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Kagome was lost and confused, though she knew exactly what was happening. 'My soul...it's...' "Disconnected?" A cold voice finished her thought exactly. A chuckle sent chills down Kagome's spine. "Don't be afraid Kagome...you are going to return soon enough..." Lights seemed to begin to illuminate the room slowly. She found herself in a room, black walls and one large window. She saw a four-posted bed & a mirror. "What ...what is this..." Kagome made her way to the bed, crawling onto it and curling her knees into her chest. She sat, waiting like this. Suddenly-she saw the window light up, looking out the glass-she saw something familiar. Her eyes went wide-tears burning behind her orbs as she got up and pushed off the bed, placing her fingertips to the glass.
"No..." Kagome watched-a memory from her mind playing upon the window. It was a flashback from when she saw Inuyasha and Kikyo together. "This is...This can't be...STOP THIS!" No voice ever came to Kagome except the ones from the people in the pictures. Kagome collasped back to the bed, hiding from the memory as she curled back into a corner. Soon, something else took over the glass, the day Inuyasha died...then a few days after she woke up. "STOP IT! SHUT UP!" She screamed through a shaky and tear-filled voice. "Now Kagome...watch closely-see how similiar these two people are." Kagome didn't understand at first-finally realizing what she saw.
First an image of Kikyo's return played-the hatred and malice playing across her lips and face as naturally as it was on the next image. This, this second image of Kagome was what broke open barriers she never wanted-opening old wounds which she had tried to forget. It was Kagome-at Inuyasha's grave-she heard her own words, the same anger and bitterness in her own voice, on her own face. She could hardly whisper. "no..this isn't..." But it played on, her mind filling with her own words.
"Sorry? You were sorry for breaking a promise that you never intended to keep? It was empty-You never wanted to choose me-you always wanted Kikyo..." Her mouth spat out the name like it was something horribly disgusting. "I will forget you Inuyasha...but I will never forgive you..."
"STOP IT! SHUT UP!" Kagome ran toward the window, forcing her hands on the glass, beating her fists against the memories. Her tears finally breaking free, with the first one streaking down her face-she felt something strange...rain...it began to rain all around her as she sank down, her voice quieting into sobs as she sat against the now dark window, her body becoming drenched and her hair sticking to her face in the wet humid moisture. "How does it feel...to know you were your incarnation this whole time-nothing but a copy..." Kagome got up, wiping her tears and sitting on the bed dispondently. 'I am not Kikyo...I hurt like Kikyo-I hurt Inuyasha like Kikyo...but I am not her...' She tried convincing herself, but she was soon tired and simply layed her head in on her arms atop her knees. 'Please...Inuyasha....save me-help me escape myself...' The cool rain continued to trickle down, a reflection of Kagome's emotions.
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The sun was rising, and Inuyasha was already beginning his journey home. He awaited the moment his demonic powers would return. As soon as the sun had peeked over the horizon, his hair was streaked with silver and his claws and fangs came back as well. He felt his weak human body retreating as his demon took over again. "Well then...time to go..." He had wiped Kagome's face clean of the blood that smeared the side of her mouth and the dirt that clung to her cheeks. He picked her up in his strong arms and walked outside. Yurusu walked faithfully beside Inuyasha as they left the village, keeping a steady pace as they entered the forest and began back to Kaede's village.
He walked all day-thinking about Kagome and letting different things play with his mind. He stopped only to let the horse get water when they crossed a river. By nightfall he set up camp consisting of a small fire in a clearing by a stream. He layed Kagome out on her sleeping bag, then watched her carefully as he took Yurusu to the riverside. He was lonely, and so he began talking to the horse-just as he had seen Kagome doing. "Ya know...Your probly not so bad for a horse...You took care of Kagome, didn't you-kept her company?" The horse raised its head to Inuyasha a moment before walking back into the camp and nudging Kagome with it's nose. "Don't worry...she'll wake up..." Inuyasha, saying this more to convince himself than anyone. Yurusu then walked away to graze in the field. Inuyasha sat by Kagome for the rest of the night-talking to her gently about the past and future.
The next morning Inuyasha was out before the sun. He walked at the same hurried pace toward his home village. Before they new it they were at the edge of Inuyasha's forest, then passing the well and then at the edge of Kaede's village. When he entered the village-many concerned looks were tossed his way as he held the unconcious Kagome curled closely to his body in his strong arms. He pulled her tighter and began to run toward Kaede's hut, there within seconds he burst in the door where Miroku, Sango, and Kaede were all talking about how they were worrying because Kagome was later than usual.
Inuyasha stood there a moment, letting his figure sink into everyone's thought. "Inuyasha...what happened..." Miroku first spoke, noting Kagome's figure in his arms." She was attacked, by a demon called Suruka. "No...Rinsei wasn't suppose to..." Sango looked over Kagome's figure. "Lie her here Inuyasha...Kaede got up, gesturing to a mat layed out. "Rinsei took her soul, did he not?" Inuyasha seemed a bit taken back as he layed her out. "Hai-but how did you know about him?" Miroku sighed. "We were with Kagome when she made the pact with Rinsei...we advised her against it but...she refused to let Naraku's incarnation destroy her villages and friends..." Sango sat by her friend's side. "She...she is trapped in their...that stupid baka-Suruka must be holding her there..."
Inuyasha looked back at Sango. "What do you mean by trapped?" Miroku nodded. "Hai-Sango means that Suruka took hold of the weakness in her heart, pulling himself into Kagome just as Naraku did...but since her soul is still disconnected in the body...she cannot awaken...and I fear since Kagome is weakened she will be much too vulnerable..." Inuyasha let his concern play off his face, before gathering himself and looking at Kaede who was preparing medication for Kagome. "Kaede...what can we do for her? Tell me there is a way to help her..." Kaede shook her head in dismay. "The only way to help the poor child now would be to transfer someone's soul into her body..." "FINE...how do I do that?" Inuyasha looked down determined. Kaede looked up in concern. "Child...ye cannot do such a thing...it would be risking your human soul..." "I will take the chance-I can't lose Kagome!" He argued back.
Kaede sighed. "Very well...in the morning we will give you an herb that will allow me to transfer your soul into Kagome's body temporarily. But Inuyasha-you must be careful...Suruka won't even hesitate to destroy Kagome from the inside out...and since this is your human soul-he may be able to destroy you as well..." Inuyasha nodded. Later that night, Sango was tending to Kagome while Miroku and Inuyasha talked with Kaede about the next morning's preperations. "So...Shippo is asleep...we mustn't let him worry-especially tonight..." Miroku nodded.
Sango ran a wet cloth across Kagome's forehead. Kagome flinched, turning her head as her eyes slowly lifted apart and spotted Sango. She breathed heavily and simply looked into the young girl's eyes. Sango was overcome with such emotion and shock as she backed off, it was all she could do to call the others. "INUYASHA! MIROKU!" All three burst into the room as Kagome began to rise.
--Kagome watched through the window as something new an unfamiliar was displayed. "What...what is going on...this isn't one of my memories...what is this?! What are you doing!?" Kagome looked frantically over the clear glass, seeing Sango's face at first, then the others burst through the door. "YOU BAKA! What are you doing with my body!?!"--
Inuyasha took to Kagome's side, looking into her eyes as she smiled. He was overjoyed a moment, until his faith was betrayed by a knife in her hand. She pulled the dagger from her belt so quickly he almost didn't have time to knock it away. He grabbed her wrists as she tried to go after him with it. "Kagome! What are you doing!?!" He looked deeply into her eyes, clearly seeing it wasn't at all Kagome. "You aren't Kagome..." Inuyasha's tone turned violently angry.
--Kagome got up, seeing herself trying to slay Inuyasha was too much, she put her hands up gently, touching the window and phasing through it, putting herself back into her body and forcing Suruka back down with all her energy.--
The struggle stopped as the life returned to Kagome's eyes, along with a frantic and pained look of despair. She forced her hands away from Inuyasha, dropping the knife and crawling back in fear. "Kagome..." Inuyasha began toward her. "NO! Stop...I can't control him..." She spoke in true fear, her eyes streaming with tears as she breathed heavily-trying her best to keep control of what was hers. "Kagome...let me help you..." Inuyasha moved slightly toward her in a careful motion. She put both hands to her head, trying to regain her own thoughts-trying to clear her mind from the lies that constantly spilled over.
Kagome felt the youkai's thoughts. "I WON'T LET YOU HURT THEM!" She screamed in panic-then in a desperate attempt to free her friends from herself, she got up and ran out the hut door. Inuyasha followed quickly behind with the others as they chased Kagome. Tears stremaed down her face as her thoughts raced. 'I have to get away...you won't hurt them...I'll die first...' She kept running blindly into the forest, though she began to become unsure of herself. Her legs were faltering under her weakness-her vision was blurring and she could no longer see clearly in the darkness.
Inuyasha cursed himself-he couldn't believe he let her get away so fast...he was following her scent with underlying traces of fear and uncertainty as fast as he could. "That idiot-where does she think she is running off to..." He finally came closer to her. Kagome collapsed under the pressure and pain of her human body. She breathed heavily-trying to clear her head as she held her hands firmly against the ground on all fours-finally she began to rise as she heard Inuyasha's calls. She got to her feet just as she came into his view, her legs unfaithfully giving way-but Inuyasha quickly caught her limp body before she hit the ground.
Everyone returned to the hut, Inuyasha holding Kagome protectively in his arms, staring into her glossy eyes that seemed to be blinded. She stared off aimlessly-only barely making out Inuyasha's figure in her blurred and dimming vision, tears began running down her face. Everyone gathered round the fire quietly-no one speaking of anything as they all held their own thoughts within their hearts. Kagome flinched every few moments in pain from the battle within. Sango took hold of Miroku in fear for her friend, neither could bear to watch Kagome in such pain. Kagome smiled knowingly a moment, putting her hand to Inuyasha cheek with a caressing motion hesitantly-in fear of what her hand might do to betray her. "Inu..yasha...I'm losing-I can't hold on....you have to stop him-you have to stop me..." Her voice was barely a whisper as her eyes began to reveal the battle that grew stronger. She fidgeted around, pushing herself from Inuyasha's grasp and backing off. Finally she let out gasps of pain, followed by cries as she twisted and jerked, seeming to struggle within herself-forgetting the world that remained around her.
Sango looked away, burying her face in Miroku's chest as he looked on with fearfully wide eyes. Inuyasha came closer, picking Kagome up in his arms and holding her closely again-trying to calm her. "You must stop me Inuyasha-I can't hurt you...you have to-" She opened her eyes momentarily in a slow motion. "Inuyasha...please..." Inuyasha held her tighter, kissing the top of her head as his eyes glassed over with tears that he held back-knowing what she was saying. "I won't...don't ask me to do such things Kagome...I will save you...I refuse to see you destroyed..."
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Kagome buried her head in his chest, sighing as she left her body again-returning to the same dark room her capture held her in. "LET ME OUT! I will kill you for this-you won't hurt my friends..." She screamed. The same voice came to her, surrounding her until a figure came into view-a familiar and kind figure. "Inu...yasha..." Kagome ran into his form with open arms, closing tightly around him happily. Just as she felt safe-she felt a sharp pain in her back. She cried out in pain and lifted her face to meet his hues. "...but...why..." Her eyes searched for an answer, until the cold voice came from his lips. "Fool...you are too trusting...no one will come for you here...you are mine here-I shall do as I please..." Suruka threw her back onto the bed. She blinked in disbelief and anger.
'How dare...how dare he decieve me...' Suruka motioned a hand, dark chains appearing from each of the bottom bed posts and forcing themselves on Kagome's wrists and neck tightly. Kagome moved slightly away, looking them over in confusion-hearing the rattle of them drag along the floor. "So you won't escape me again...I can't have you controlling this boy when I need it so desperately...you might just do something stupid..." He laughed, disappearing and leaving Kagome alone with fearful thoughts. She was suffocating-he left her no space...he was all around her, seeping from each corner of the room and filling her lungs with unbreathable toxin. She couldn't continue this way, she hurt her friends...Inuyasha was hurting-she couldn't bear it. She thrust the chains around, hearing the noisy clatter echo in the darkness, finally collapsing back on the bed in frustration. She fell asleep in tears and painful regrets, wondering if she could truly ever leave.
Inuyasha layed Kagome back down gently. He dare not look away. "Kaede...how soon can you put my soul in there..." Kaede sighed. "I can be ready just before the sun rises." "Good...I want to start as soon as possible..." Inuyasha brushed a piece of hair from Kagome's face. Kaede & Sango made the preparations, Miroku said a silent pray over Kagome's body for Inuyasha and Kagome's safe return. Soon, Inuyasha layed himself by Kagome's side, taking her hand in his. Kaede had given him a drink, now she was sitting above his head. "Ready Inuyasha..." "Hai...do it..." Kaede put her hands together in a pray formation, chanting something then placing a seal on Inuyasha's forehead. Inuyasha's eyes went wide, then his body fell limp as he found himself somewhere new.
Inuyasha looked around, he was in a dark void, he couldn't see a thing. "Is this it? Suruka! Kagome!" He looked around, finally making out a figure up ahead. "SURUKA! I will destroy you for what you did!" Inuyasha hadn't noticed until this moment that he was in his human form. 'Oh right...this is my human soul...' He rolled his eyes at the set back. "Kawaii sou-you are an insect to me!" "BAKA! Shut up and fight!" Inuyasha charged at Suruka, punching him in the face, sending him back with great force. "HA! You must be weakened by Kagome's miko energy in her body! You are slowly dying off youkai! So I will just help you along!" He raced toward Suruka who raised both feet and hit Inuyasha in the chest, flipping him over his head as he got to his feet.
Inuyasha put down a hand before he hit, doing a single-handed back-spring to his feet and facing Suruka again. Suruka wiped a trickle of blood from his mouth. Inuyasha didn't hesitate to come after him again. This time they were entangled in a brawl for sometime, Suruka ending up on the floor. "You haven't even noticed yet have you youkai...you are quickly fading in this place-Kagome is ridding herself of you easily." Suruka breathed heavily, knowing Inuyasha's words were true. He leaped up after Inuyasha, pinning him to the ground, almost ready to break his neck when he began to disapate in a miko aura. "NO! This can't be! I am stronger than Naraku himself!" Inuyasha watched silently as the demon was defeated.
Inuyasha breathed, getting to his feet as his surroundings began to change. He found himself in the same room as Kagome. Kagome was chained to the bed by the same long shackles that stretched from the bottom post all the way to her neck and hands where she was sitting-which was in the dark corner of the bed opposite the window. Inuyasha looked over Kagome's figure in confusion and worry. "Ka-Kagome..." He reached for her as he stepped forward, but the window caught his attention at that same moment. Memories began to flash across it. These were memories of Inuyasha and Kikyo, and Inuyasha and Kagome. Kagome looked at the floor dispondently.
Inuyasha looked over the window in disbelief, finally returning his gaze to Kagome when he heard her small voice. "I thought I told you...never to take such a form with me again..." Inuyasha began towards her. "But...Kagome-its me...Inuyasha-" "SHUT UP! LIAR! I won't believe anymore of your lies-such false hopes you give me...don't you dare hand me anymore lies..." Kagome shook her head frantically, as she sat broken on the floor.
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairy tale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
Left broken empty in despair
Wanna breath can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way
Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
I'll tell you
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Heavenly father please save me.
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay I don't feel safe
I need to pray
Inuyasha's brow furrowed. "What has that monster done to you..." His fists clenched tightly. Kagome got up, walking over to the mirror. "I think you were right...I have become just as Kikyo was..." Inuyasha's eyes went wide as he saw her reflection in the mirror, it was Kikyo's face staring back. "Don't say that! You are nothing like her Kagome!" He grabbed her shoulders and forced her back into the looking glass with such power it shattered. Kagome seemed to wake up. "InuYasha...you...came...its you...." She threw her arms around him desperately. "I thought...I mean...he was..."
"Everything is alright now..." Inuyasha brushed his hand over her hair gently. They both found themselves beginning to wake up. Inuyasha could feel his soul returning to his body as he left Kagome's side. In the next moment Inuyasha opened is eyes and sat up, looking down at Kagome. Sango desperately looked into his face. "WELL...is she alright?" Inuyasha nodded as he saw her eyes open and stare at him. Everyone sighed inwardly with relief. Inuyasha smiled as Kagome smiled tiredly, squeezing his clawed fingers intwined in her hand. "Get some rest Kagome..." He brushed a finger over her face, careful of the claws. Kagome pushed herself up with much strain and against everyone's wishes, putting her arms around Inuyasha. Inuyasha pulled her closely to him, taking in her sweet scent with relief.
Kagome was soon enough alseep in Inuyasha arms exhaustingly. The sun was rising and everyone had had a rough night. Miroku and Sango went back to their hut to rest, leaving Inuyasha and Kagome alone as Kaede went to get her rest in Kagome's hut after chores. Inuyasha held Kagome in his lap, kissing the top of her head every so often until he drifted into sleep himself.
Kagome found herself in the same room as she slept, looking around with a peaceful and unreadable expression. She made her way to the broken glass that lay in the puddles on the floor. She looked into the pieces to see Kikyo's face, but no reflection appeared-the puddles revealed nothing but ripples. No memories flashed the window, only drops of rain that wilted their way down the clear glass. "A look into my heart...thats all that was here..." Kagome breathed deeply the scent of wet clear rain, still pondering over the dark room.
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Welps...how was that? Definately one of my longer chappies...lol! Hope you enjoyed-and understood most of it! Welps after this, we are going to break into some definate fluff and drama stuff-hope you like! R&R! ^.^