Here's another chappy for ya! This twist is going to be a little odd-but don't worry-the results of it will definately be good & in favor of inu/kag.Believe me-definate FLUFF in this chappy!!!! So thanks again Jelly-bean(julie) for the great inspiration...so ENJOY!
a/n: Another couple songs that I think fits really well in the mood- Sarah Mclachlan "Fumbling towards Ecstacy" & the one in the flashback Sarah Mclachlan "Stupid"
Chapter 25
Kagome woke up-some several hours had passed since she fell asleep, but morning's light wasn't nearing anytime soon. She felt it-it had roused her from her restless sleep as clearly as if it had called her name. It was lingering-watching her from the outskirts of the village-it's horrible aura drifting to her bedside & calling her to it. She got up- going to the door & pulling back the beaded doorway, peering into the forest shadows just beyond the village.
A confident & tired smile passed Kagome's lips as she steadily watched the shadows. "I won't let you frighten me anymore...do what you will, because in the end-you will fall at my hands...." Her words escaped her lips in a small whisper. She let her cold gaze faulter-only to glance back in the hut toward a sleeping Inuyasha outside her window in a tree. "I don't want to lose this...I won't let you take everything good away from me again...not when I just got it back..."
All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
It's my mouth that pushes out this breath
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
They will dance and we will play
With chairs candles and clothes
Making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
Upstream or down
Without a thought
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle to find peace
Comfort on the way to comfort
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
Kagome sighed heavily. Today was the first time in a year she had truly fell apart-losing herself and everything in fear & uncertainty, but this time Inuyasha was near her, and that was all that mattered-he was asleep in a tree out her window, but he was near & alive-unlike the last time she broke down. He thoughts raced back to the memories she had stored away long ago.
Flashback
Kagome was sitting in Kaede's hut-minutes, hours...she wasn't sure how long she had been sitting there by Inuyasha's lifeless body. People came and went from time to time, comforting her-but it was all the same...she felt alone now-no matter who entered or left-she was empty without him, yet she refused to leave his side. She overheard Sango saying something about leaving her alone with Inuyasha that night before the burial-so she could say good-bye.
"I don't want to say good-bye...that will mean...you really did leave me..." Kagome mechanically began to bandage his wounds as though it would help, cleaning & dressing each one & wiping the dirt smudges & caked blood from his hands & face. Tenderly caressing his cheeks, letting her hands linger & push his bangs aside. "Baka...how could you do this to me-How could you leave me alone like this...WHO SAID YOU COULD DIE ON ME!" Her tears ran down in steady streams once again-only stopping when she had no more tears to give.
Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady me now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
Her uniform was stained with blood, both Inuyasha's and her own, but she really hadn't noticed. She sat there by his side all night-sleep never passing over her as she watched him, never able to convince herself that this was a dream-a horrible nightmare brought on by her fears. The very next day she was a different person-she traded in her school uniform for a demon slayers outfit. Dropping her uniform to the bottom of the well, then closing it off.
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A watery smile covered her lips as Kagome shook away the thoughts in her memory. "Somehow...without me even noticing it, Inuyasha made me love him all over again...Stupid baka-how is it that I can't stay mad at you for too long when you're around..." Kagome's voice trailed off into the night as she grabbed her quiver & bow, strapping her Kinjai at her side. "Might as well practice as I use to do...."
Kagome wandered out into the outskirts of the village-her senses on edge about the lingering presence in the forest, but she continued to concentrate. She pulled back the arrow, letting it slide from her fingers with incredible form, hitting a spot on a nearby tree. Her hand delicately cocked another arrow-aiming steadily & releasing, hitting the tree just above the first arrow. She continued with another arrow-making a vertical row of 3, then walking to the tree & wedging them loose, placing them back in her quiver.
Kagome narrowed her eyes as she heard approaching footsteps-she notched an arrow & aimed, awaiting the figure's appearance, then lowering her guard with a sigh as Inuyasha's bright red kimono came clearly into view. She looked into his deep ember orbs with relief. "You startled me Inuyasha...What are you doing up?" Kagome casually paced back to her spot & began to notch the arrow, aiming carefully.
"Well I could ask you the same question! What do you think you are doing out here all alone in the middle of the night?! HUH?! You shouldn't be running off like this..." Kagome let the arrow fly from her fingers and hit the tree at a racing speed. Her eyes cast back to him. "Its dangerous...I know...Sango use to catch me out here almost every night I wasn't hunting demons...practicing something..." She sighed with a smile-returning her eyes to the tree, pulling another arrow gracefully from th quiver on her shoulder.
Inuyasha shook his head. "Idiot...you're going to get eaten by a demon one day...just because you decided to run off...." His hands were in his sleeves as he continued to ramble angrily-Kagome narrowing her eyes-swiftly switching direction toward Inuyasha & freeing the arrow, Inuyasha caught it just in time & moved away from the brightly glowing arrow as it made it's way into the forest shadows. "WHA- What do you think you are doing!" His voice wavered in disbelief & anger.
Kagome smiled sarcastically as she followed the arrow's trail. "If you weren't so bent on scolding me...you would hav realized there was a demon there..." Inuyasha raised an eyebrow as he peered into the darkness-just in time to see a rather large rat demon disintegrate along with the arrow in its head. Kagome laughed a little as she looked up at Inuyasha, who huffed a little sitting in his tree limb, objecting under his breath. "I knew it was there..." Kagome giggled. "Yeah right...Did you see the look on your face? You thought I was going to kill you or something!"
"DID NOT!" "DID TOO!" Inuyasha jumped down-standing to face Kagome, narrowing his eyes with a sarcastic tinge to his voice. "Ya know...you've gotten pretty good at that thing...at least you didn't hit me..." Kagome rolled her eyes playfully. "Ya well...at least you moved out of the way..." They both smiled softly-Kagome found herself getting lost in the mists of his golden orbs-Inuyasha not realizing what he was doing until it hit him. They were getting closer until finally they purged their begging hearts-indulging in their most wanted taste-the taste of the other's lips. Neither realized what was happening until it was long too late to turn back. Neither had the will to break away as they deepened their kiss- Kagome's bow falling from her hand limply as her body lost itself in Inuyasha's warm embrace.
They finally broke apart when it began to rain, feeling the cold drops on their skin. Inuyasha looking own into Kagome's deep brown hues watching as drops of cool liquid trailed down her face, dying on her smiling lips. Kagome dropped her arrows with her bow & took Inuyasha's hand as he led her back to her hut-the rain beginning to soak them both as it came down-hitting the ground in small splashes, making the only noise apparent in the dark.
As soon as they entered her hut, Inuyasha pulled Kagome back into his kiss with no objections, his hands tracing through her dripping raven strands as Kagome savored each moment-afraid it was too good to be true. They pulled away after several moments-watching each other in silence. Kagome's hand went up caressingly to push aside one of his silver bangs that continued to drip onto his face. Kagome put on a dry kimono top that reached down to where a short skirt would-Inuyasha removing his two kimono tops & wringing his hair dry.
Kagome looked back at him as the fire began to die down from the blaze it was when it began. "Those poor wet puppy ears..." She poked playfully. "I'm not a puppy..." Inuyasha poked back with a small smile as he stole a kiss from her in an instant. Both of them layed together in her bed-Inuyasha simply holding Kagome, his stronge arms wrapped around her as they listened to the rain pour on the roof.
Inuyasha finally broke the silence that they kept themselves so snuggly wrapped in, their voices barely a whisper over the sound of the rain. "Kagome..." His voice was soft from behind Kagome's ear-she could feel his hot breath tickle her neck with a smile. "Hai..." "Have I changed...since I died I mean..." Kagome's smile faultered as she thought. "I don't know...I hardly rememeber the days before you died now...since I have changed-it would be hard for me to tell if you have...but I don't think so-you're still the kind & caring baka you were then."
Inuyasha pulled her back closer into his chest, letting his chin rest next to her shoulder. "Kagome...tell me what you did while I was dead...you never told me what happened while I was gone..." Kagome curled up a little more, her hand clenching his as it wrapped over her body. "It was...like a dream...a nightmare that I thought would surely end everytime I fell asleep...I missed you and hated you all a once-I searched for the jewel shards because...I had no other purpose...no other reason to go on except my friends-Sango would tell me often that she was worried about me, & Miroku & Shippo would always try to get me to visit your grave with them...but I refused..." Kagome's voice trailed off as she could feel the rise & fall of Inuyasha's chest.
The silence simply fell over them as they layed there until morning-holding each other. Kagome fought off sleep-but it finally pulled her in. Inuyasha simply layed there, listening to the rythmic beating of her heart. 'This...this is what I've wanted...what I've dreamed of-even before death tore us apart...and I won't let you go...not now-or ever...'
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awww-welps, how did you like the fluffiness? Yes yes...I decided on the spur of the moment to make lots of fluff or this chappy! I hope you enjoyed it. R&R!
a/n: Another couple songs that I think fits really well in the mood- Sarah Mclachlan "Fumbling towards Ecstacy" & the one in the flashback Sarah Mclachlan "Stupid"
Chapter 25
Kagome woke up-some several hours had passed since she fell asleep, but morning's light wasn't nearing anytime soon. She felt it-it had roused her from her restless sleep as clearly as if it had called her name. It was lingering-watching her from the outskirts of the village-it's horrible aura drifting to her bedside & calling her to it. She got up- going to the door & pulling back the beaded doorway, peering into the forest shadows just beyond the village.
A confident & tired smile passed Kagome's lips as she steadily watched the shadows. "I won't let you frighten me anymore...do what you will, because in the end-you will fall at my hands...." Her words escaped her lips in a small whisper. She let her cold gaze faulter-only to glance back in the hut toward a sleeping Inuyasha outside her window in a tree. "I don't want to lose this...I won't let you take everything good away from me again...not when I just got it back..."
All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
It's my mouth that pushes out this breath
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
They will dance and we will play
With chairs candles and clothes
Making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
Upstream or down
Without a thought
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle to find peace
Comfort on the way to comfort
And if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
Kagome sighed heavily. Today was the first time in a year she had truly fell apart-losing herself and everything in fear & uncertainty, but this time Inuyasha was near her, and that was all that mattered-he was asleep in a tree out her window, but he was near & alive-unlike the last time she broke down. He thoughts raced back to the memories she had stored away long ago.
Flashback
Kagome was sitting in Kaede's hut-minutes, hours...she wasn't sure how long she had been sitting there by Inuyasha's lifeless body. People came and went from time to time, comforting her-but it was all the same...she felt alone now-no matter who entered or left-she was empty without him, yet she refused to leave his side. She overheard Sango saying something about leaving her alone with Inuyasha that night before the burial-so she could say good-bye.
"I don't want to say good-bye...that will mean...you really did leave me..." Kagome mechanically began to bandage his wounds as though it would help, cleaning & dressing each one & wiping the dirt smudges & caked blood from his hands & face. Tenderly caressing his cheeks, letting her hands linger & push his bangs aside. "Baka...how could you do this to me-How could you leave me alone like this...WHO SAID YOU COULD DIE ON ME!" Her tears ran down in steady streams once again-only stopping when she had no more tears to give.
Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady me now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see
Her uniform was stained with blood, both Inuyasha's and her own, but she really hadn't noticed. She sat there by his side all night-sleep never passing over her as she watched him, never able to convince herself that this was a dream-a horrible nightmare brought on by her fears. The very next day she was a different person-she traded in her school uniform for a demon slayers outfit. Dropping her uniform to the bottom of the well, then closing it off.
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A watery smile covered her lips as Kagome shook away the thoughts in her memory. "Somehow...without me even noticing it, Inuyasha made me love him all over again...Stupid baka-how is it that I can't stay mad at you for too long when you're around..." Kagome's voice trailed off into the night as she grabbed her quiver & bow, strapping her Kinjai at her side. "Might as well practice as I use to do...."
Kagome wandered out into the outskirts of the village-her senses on edge about the lingering presence in the forest, but she continued to concentrate. She pulled back the arrow, letting it slide from her fingers with incredible form, hitting a spot on a nearby tree. Her hand delicately cocked another arrow-aiming steadily & releasing, hitting the tree just above the first arrow. She continued with another arrow-making a vertical row of 3, then walking to the tree & wedging them loose, placing them back in her quiver.
Kagome narrowed her eyes as she heard approaching footsteps-she notched an arrow & aimed, awaiting the figure's appearance, then lowering her guard with a sigh as Inuyasha's bright red kimono came clearly into view. She looked into his deep ember orbs with relief. "You startled me Inuyasha...What are you doing up?" Kagome casually paced back to her spot & began to notch the arrow, aiming carefully.
"Well I could ask you the same question! What do you think you are doing out here all alone in the middle of the night?! HUH?! You shouldn't be running off like this..." Kagome let the arrow fly from her fingers and hit the tree at a racing speed. Her eyes cast back to him. "Its dangerous...I know...Sango use to catch me out here almost every night I wasn't hunting demons...practicing something..." She sighed with a smile-returning her eyes to the tree, pulling another arrow gracefully from th quiver on her shoulder.
Inuyasha shook his head. "Idiot...you're going to get eaten by a demon one day...just because you decided to run off...." His hands were in his sleeves as he continued to ramble angrily-Kagome narrowing her eyes-swiftly switching direction toward Inuyasha & freeing the arrow, Inuyasha caught it just in time & moved away from the brightly glowing arrow as it made it's way into the forest shadows. "WHA- What do you think you are doing!" His voice wavered in disbelief & anger.
Kagome smiled sarcastically as she followed the arrow's trail. "If you weren't so bent on scolding me...you would hav realized there was a demon there..." Inuyasha raised an eyebrow as he peered into the darkness-just in time to see a rather large rat demon disintegrate along with the arrow in its head. Kagome laughed a little as she looked up at Inuyasha, who huffed a little sitting in his tree limb, objecting under his breath. "I knew it was there..." Kagome giggled. "Yeah right...Did you see the look on your face? You thought I was going to kill you or something!"
"DID NOT!" "DID TOO!" Inuyasha jumped down-standing to face Kagome, narrowing his eyes with a sarcastic tinge to his voice. "Ya know...you've gotten pretty good at that thing...at least you didn't hit me..." Kagome rolled her eyes playfully. "Ya well...at least you moved out of the way..." They both smiled softly-Kagome found herself getting lost in the mists of his golden orbs-Inuyasha not realizing what he was doing until it hit him. They were getting closer until finally they purged their begging hearts-indulging in their most wanted taste-the taste of the other's lips. Neither realized what was happening until it was long too late to turn back. Neither had the will to break away as they deepened their kiss- Kagome's bow falling from her hand limply as her body lost itself in Inuyasha's warm embrace.
They finally broke apart when it began to rain, feeling the cold drops on their skin. Inuyasha looking own into Kagome's deep brown hues watching as drops of cool liquid trailed down her face, dying on her smiling lips. Kagome dropped her arrows with her bow & took Inuyasha's hand as he led her back to her hut-the rain beginning to soak them both as it came down-hitting the ground in small splashes, making the only noise apparent in the dark.
As soon as they entered her hut, Inuyasha pulled Kagome back into his kiss with no objections, his hands tracing through her dripping raven strands as Kagome savored each moment-afraid it was too good to be true. They pulled away after several moments-watching each other in silence. Kagome's hand went up caressingly to push aside one of his silver bangs that continued to drip onto his face. Kagome put on a dry kimono top that reached down to where a short skirt would-Inuyasha removing his two kimono tops & wringing his hair dry.
Kagome looked back at him as the fire began to die down from the blaze it was when it began. "Those poor wet puppy ears..." She poked playfully. "I'm not a puppy..." Inuyasha poked back with a small smile as he stole a kiss from her in an instant. Both of them layed together in her bed-Inuyasha simply holding Kagome, his stronge arms wrapped around her as they listened to the rain pour on the roof.
Inuyasha finally broke the silence that they kept themselves so snuggly wrapped in, their voices barely a whisper over the sound of the rain. "Kagome..." His voice was soft from behind Kagome's ear-she could feel his hot breath tickle her neck with a smile. "Hai..." "Have I changed...since I died I mean..." Kagome's smile faultered as she thought. "I don't know...I hardly rememeber the days before you died now...since I have changed-it would be hard for me to tell if you have...but I don't think so-you're still the kind & caring baka you were then."
Inuyasha pulled her back closer into his chest, letting his chin rest next to her shoulder. "Kagome...tell me what you did while I was dead...you never told me what happened while I was gone..." Kagome curled up a little more, her hand clenching his as it wrapped over her body. "It was...like a dream...a nightmare that I thought would surely end everytime I fell asleep...I missed you and hated you all a once-I searched for the jewel shards because...I had no other purpose...no other reason to go on except my friends-Sango would tell me often that she was worried about me, & Miroku & Shippo would always try to get me to visit your grave with them...but I refused..." Kagome's voice trailed off as she could feel the rise & fall of Inuyasha's chest.
The silence simply fell over them as they layed there until morning-holding each other. Kagome fought off sleep-but it finally pulled her in. Inuyasha simply layed there, listening to the rythmic beating of her heart. 'This...this is what I've wanted...what I've dreamed of-even before death tore us apart...and I won't let you go...not now-or ever...'
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awww-welps, how did you like the fluffiness? Yes yes...I decided on the spur of the moment to make lots of fluff or this chappy! I hope you enjoyed it. R&R!