My Heart Bleeds for You Chapter 4: Abuse and newfound freindship, an inuyasha fanfic

Kagome fell asleep late that night, taking care of her wounded wrist and making sure that she would wake up in the morning. When she did, she picked out a cute pink tank top and hip hugger jeans with a wrist band so that nobody could see her still partly opened wound. Silently, she crept down the stairs as to not wake her father and walked out the front door and sat on the lawn, waiting for her bus. When it came she jumped onto it and took the seat opposite the biggest jerk in the world...InuYasha.

"Hey sweat thing, come sit here" InuYasha said, pushing Miroku off the seat and patting it, motioning for her to sit there. Kagome felt a blush coming on and moved her stuff to the seat next to her, stepping over Miroku and seating herself beside InuYasha who quickly put his arm around her shoulders. Kagome pushed his hand off of her and got up from her seat, resuming herself to her old one. "Augh! The nerve of that guy!" Kagome muttered under her breath having no clue that he could still hear her. He chuckled and helped Miroku back up, giving him a quick 'sorry man' and grinning foolishly at Kagome until she refused to look at him anymore.

The bus stopped at their school and Kagome jumped off the bus and went to her first class. InuYasha and Miroku walked slowly, as to stay behind from the rest of the students and make their way slowly to their first period which, surprise, was with Kagome...as were all of their classes. They walked in about five minutes after the bell earning both of them another detention. They groaned and took their steas, beside and behind Kagome, writing notes back and forth. The bell rang and it was time for gym class so they gathered their stuff. When they had finished packing their bags, they both put their arms around Kagome and began to walk to the gym. "Babe, talk to me" Miroku ordered her.

"Give me one good reason why I should?" she said to him. "After those little stunts yesterday I don't think so" she said though she didn't seem to mind being this close to InuYasha...

"Oh come on, I would hardly call pulling your hair a stunt" Miroku said to her. "As for InuYasha though...yes that would be considered a stunt. Congratulations my good man" Miroku said, patting him on the back and shaking his hand. "No problem at all, but Kagome I just wanted to make sure we were cool after yesterday" InuYasha said to her, he couldn't help but fall for her, though he truely didn't know her at all. "No!" she said. "Please? Friends?" InuYasha asked her, pulling the kiddie stunt. "No way. Flat out no" InuYasha told her. InuYasha then got a said look in his eyes, looked towards the ground and lowered his ears so that they drooped in a sad position. Kagome looked over at him and just cound't say no to this.

"Alright" she said, walking in the gym door and then peaking her head out again. "Friends."

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Outside in the schoolyard Kagome had already made tons of new friends which included Jakotsu, Koga, Shippo, Sango, Ayame, Kagura, Ayume, Kaguya, Kikyo, Yani, Yanuri, and Gumonu. They had been playing basket ball for quite some time and Kagome was having a break while watching the others shoot some hoops when she noticed InuYasha sitting alone on a bench, his head rested on his hand. He looked quite lonely, though Kagome couldn't see why. He had made the impression earlier that he was a popular boy, perhaps the most popular in the school. She walked over to sit next to him, forgetting that her break was almost up. "What's up?" she asked him, wondering why he was sitting by himself. "Nuthin" was his simple reply.

"Ok...uhm...well...I'll be right back" she said, running over and asked the team to allow him to play with them. "No" they said, flat out. "But why not?" she wondered. Why did they leave him out like this? "He's a freak of nature" Gumonu said. "Yeah he can't hang out with us" piped up Ayame. "He's just a half demon"said Yani. "Do you have any idea of what that would do to our social status?" asked Kaguya. "He's just a stupid half breed. He can hang out by himself...he should be used to it anyway, not like it bugs him" she shrugged and then continued with the basket ball game. "Hey Kagome! Catch!" she said, throwing the ball towards Kagome, who dropped it and went to sit next to InuYasha.

"Why did you come back?" InuYasha asked her. This was the first time anyone ever told him that they would be right back and actually meant it. "Because you're my friend. And those guys are jerks anyway!...why didn't you tell me you were a half demon?" she wondered allowed. "Because, I knew that you would be just like the others" he spat. "Why? Does it somehow matter to you now?" he asked bitterly. "No...just wondering that's all. So what do you say we go start our own basket ball game?" she asked him, pulling on his wrist and walking off towards the basket ball nets. InuYasha grinned and walked with her. Finally a true friend.

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Kagome was getting changed in the changing room and then walked out, not noticing that in the process of pulling off her shirt, her wrist band had come off. She went out to the gym floor where the kids were already playing volley ball and she joined in. She hit the ball once and the pressure on her wrist opened the cut again, sparying blood all over the ball which landed on the person across from her who she was hitting it to. Noticing the sharp pain in her wrist she ran from the gym in tears, fearing that someone had found out thats he had slit her wrist the previous night.

She stayed in the boys locker room which wasn't going to be in use until the end of the day and just cried, hot tears running down her cheeks. She hadn't noticed how long it had been since the last bell until InuYasha got back from his detention to get the stuff from his locker. He saw her sitting there and came over, smelling salt and knowing that she was crying. "Why are you in the boys locker room?" he asked curiously.

"What does it look like?" she sobbed, not noticing that her wrist was in plain view. InuYasha smiled and said, "Looked whatever it is i'm sure I can help you out" he said, taking her hand and looking down at it as he pet it. "No you can't" she said. "It's just my stupidity showing" she cried. InuYasha noticed the cut and was dumbfounded. "K...Kagome...why did you cut yourself?" he asked her. "You wouldn't understand!" she sobbed into her hands and she wipped her wrist away. "Try me. I bed I would understand a lot more then you think." he told her.

"No. I don't want anyone to know, and I just don't want to talk about it" she said loudly. "Look Kagome you either need to talk about this or i'm getting you professional help." he said concerned. "Why do you care?" she asked him wonderingly. "You're my friend" he answered her. "Of course I care. Now tell me" he demanded, forgetting the nice crap. "I told you, you wouldn't understand!" she yelled, almost slapping him in the face but then thinking better of it. "I told you, you'd be surprised at what I would understand! I've tried to do all that suicide crap before but then I decided I was worth better no matter how many people thought differently. Kagome, you're worth so much more then this! Now tell me why you did this and then i'll shut up about it I promise" he said to her, grabbing her wrist. "Fine" she sighed, and told him the entire story about what had happened at her house with her dad and step mother.

"Wow" he whistled. "I'm really sorry Kagome." he said, pulling her into a hug which she greatfully accepted. He then looked at his watch. "I'm really sorry Kagome. Please, call me if ever you feel like that again and i'll help you. I promise. Just don't EVER hurt yourself again!...understand?" seeing her nod he smiled and got to his feet. "I have to go or my brother'll kill me" he said, bending down to wipe away her tears with his hand. "Why would your brother kill you if you got home late?" she asked, stressing the word brother. "Oh...I live with my brother. He's 27 tomorrow and I gotta pick him up a present. anyway...gotta go. Bye" he said, zooming out the door.

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To InuYasha's demise, he was 55 minutes later then was allowed. He attempted to sneak his way upstairs without Sesshomaru noticing but thanks to his youkai hearing he whirled around on the spot and saw his half brother crawling up the stairs. "InuYasha stand up" he ordered, watching his brother do so. "You're late. I TOLD YOU NOT TO BE LATE! Can't you respect my rules? Something could have happened to you! I was worried!...kind of...well not really but still!" he yelled. "Give it a rest Sesshomaru, I meen I was only about an hour late, no biggie." he said in attempted compermise. "No! It is a biggie!" he said, wipping out his claws and slashing InuYasha's arms, causing deep cuts to apear and draw blood. "You're just reminding me of why I hate you so much you worthless half breed!" he yelled, wipping him with his claws and drawing more and more blood in between every word. Then he got his fists out and started throwing the punches, and as hard as InuYasha tried to fight back, his brother was just to strong for him. It was useless.

Sesshomaru suddenly retired from the painful abuse and sat in his chair. "Get upstairs. I don't want your hideous being in this room. It ruins the aura" he said. Yes, Sesshomaru was...weird. He didn't have good insults but it still put darts through InuYasha's heart. He layed on his bed and rested his wounded body.

InuYasha layed in one position all night because it hurt to move. He supposed that he should stay home from school tomorrow but then what were the chances that Sesshomaru would allow him to do that? He lifted his sore body and walked to the bathroom to take care of his cuts and bruises. Carefully he poured poroxide on all of the ones that were still bleeding, wincing as it hit the wound and a stinging feeling went through his body.

After doing this repeatedly to his other cuts he walked back over to his bed and layed himself down, easing the pain. As hard as he tried, he couldn't get to sleep. The pain kept him awake.

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The alarm clock rang at 6:00 in the morning, startling InuYasha. He jumped up landing in a sitting position and then decided to get changed. He got dressed quickly into a grey shirt and baggy black jeans and then hurried downstairs for a quick bite to eat and then school.

He grabbed a piece of toast and then walked out the door, not noticing how late he was until he arrived at school and took his seat beside Kagome.

"Why are you so late?" she asked him, poking him in the shoulder to catch his attention. He winced at the sharp pain in his shoulder and then using the first excuse that came to mind whispered "I lost track of time". Then Kagome noticed all of the cuts and bruises on his face and arms. "Are you ok...what happened?" she asked, her face wore a concerned expression. InuYasha shot her an expression that clearly said 'shut up while you're ahead' but she didn't care. "You didn't have all those cuts and bruises yesterday" she observed.

"Mrs. Higurashi! Please! Be quiet!" the teacher commanded. When the bell rang InuYasha was the first to pack up and leave but Kagome was close on his tail. "Please InuYasha! Tell me! I told you what was happening yesterday!" she pleaded. "Look! It was a fight and that's all there is to it!" he said, turning around to face her and showing her just how angry he was with her. Smoke was practically coming out of his kawaii puppy ears. His face was almost as red as the deep gashes in his face that were outlined in blood.

For sure he wasn't the cute boy she had seen yesterday. He wasn't the funny prankster that she had come to know as cute, sensitive and caring. No. He was hideous, meen and kind of...scary. Yes. He was definately scaring her. And those cuts looked more like knife wounds...not any fight to fight with another average kid. It couldn't have been. "Who was the fight with?" Kagome asked him curiously. "Just another kid" he answered, partially recovering from the anger. "No. It couldn't have been! Those cuts look like knife wounds not just some ordinary fight to fight wounds with another kid!" she anounced. "How do you know we weren't trying to kill each other with knives?" he questioned, obviously proving a good point but Kagome could see past it.

"You would never try to kill anyone!" she yelled. "How do you know? You've only known me for one day! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!" he yelled at her, making her eyes shine with tears but none fell. "Yes I do! You showed me a side of you yesterday! You showed me that you care for others when you wouldn't leave or let me leave without knowing that I would be alright! And then you made sure that I would call you and talk about it if I felt that way again! You care about people too much to kill them!" she yelled.

"You're right ok? I didn't use no friggen knife! I was in a fight but I didn't use a knife! There were no fights involved!" he shouted. "OK and who were you in the fight with?" she wondered aloud. "NOBODY YOU NEED TO KNOW!" he yelled and ran down to the street to the recreational center where they had a studio where he used the equipment and microphones when he needed to blow off some steam. Without him knowing it, Kagome followed him and hid in the doorway which was pitch black because there were no lights in that certain area.

InuYasha sat down and got out his electric guitar and microphone and began to sing:

Today I don't feel pretty
And I'm tired of trying to fit right in
Don't think they're just so great
'Cause being great must suck

We don't always see the bright side
We all need ego suicide
You hung my id today
But I have licked my wounds and carried on

Everybody needs some sympathy
Santa seemed to miss my chimney
Reality is truly scaring me
So set 'em straight and firmly say

What you say is what you get (don't you know)
Fishing for the answer with a line and sinker
Look at me and don't forget (don't you know)
Hard to get a grip with all these broken fingers
What you say is what you get (don't you know)
Fishing for the answer with a line and sinker
Look at me and don't forget (don't you know)
Hard to get a grip with all these broken fingers

My heart is in the right place
So wipe that smirk right off your face
Don't make me feel like that
Cause that's just plain not nice

We don't always see the bright side
And I lied when I said I was fine
You slammed my face today
But I have licked my wounds and carried on

Everybody needs some sympathy
Santa seemed to miss my chimney
Reality is truly scaring me
So set 'em straight and firmly say

Everybody needs some sympathy
Santa seemed to miss my chimney
You stole my luck from me
And now my fortune cookie's empty
Cause you came and you stole it all from me
So set 'em straight and finally say

He finished the song with a long solo with the guitar and was about to start another song when Kagome came out of the door way. "Did you write that?" she asked him, sitting beside him and looking him staight in the face. InuYasha nodded and hen started flipping through his song book which he wrote and picked out another one of his favorites and began to play.

Rejected...since day one
My name is...bastard son
I've been damned...so many times I've lost count!
Blue collar...working man
Devises...masterplan
Bi-polar...with a mental side arm

I'm sick and I'm twisted
I'm broken you can't fix it
Don't make me, cause I'll do it
Red botton and we'll all go

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...
They'll think I'm insane but y'all all know my name!
Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...
I'll take all the blame, the front page and the fame!

Contraption...made up of
Nuts and bolts...creates the
New monster...to burn your family tree down!
Tick-tocking...times up now
Split second...the world frowns
Lonely heart...never had nobody!

I'm sick and I'm twisted
I'm broken you can't fix it
Don't make me, cause I'll do it
Red button and we'll all go

I'll take all the blame
The front page and the fame
Into the river below
Into the river below
Into the river below
Into the river below

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...
They'll think I'm insane but you'll all know my name!
Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...
I'll take all the blame, the front page and the fame!

Yeah I'll take all the blame
The front page and the fame
But you'll all know my name
And they'll think I'm insane
But you'll all know my name
But you'll think I'm insane

Again he ended the song with a guitar solo and then packed up his stuff and was about to leave when Kagome stopped him. "Wait." she said, running over and grabbing his shoulder. "Why did you write those?" she asked him. "I like to write" he answered as if it was obvious. "But why songs like...like that...all depressing and stuff?" she wondered. "No reason! Most teenagers do!" he pointed out, again trying to walked away but once again being stopped by Kagome. "But most teenagers can't write like that unless they're depressed. You weren't like this yesterday! Why are you so depressed?" she asked him, not bothering to go slow and let him come clean anymore. It would take too long.

"I'm not depressed!" he shouted. "Yes you are! And if you won't admit that you're depressed at least tell me who you were in a fight with!" she reasoned. InuYasha sighed and walked over to the stage and sat down., taking Kagome's arm so that she sat down with him. He opened his mouth but then shut it again. "Does your father hurt you?" Kagome asked, putting a hand on his shoulder but taking it off as she noticed him wince.

"How can he? I don't have a father." he said, shrugging. "What about your mother?" she wondered. "I don't have a mother either" he said slowly. "Then who does this to you?" "My older brother. I live with him and...He doesn't have much tolerance. I got home late so I was punished...that's all. Not a big deal." he told her simply. "InuYasha! Did he use a knife?" she asked shocked. "No!" "Then what did he use to cut you like that?".

InuYasha knew that there was no way of explaining it and she would assume worse if he didn't come clean so he told her everything that had happened. "InuYasha, that's horrible! Does he do this often?" she wondered. "About once or twice a week." he shrugged, attempting to walk out the door again but she tugged back on his arm. "InuYasha! That's...Insane! He's your brother! He shouldn't do things like that to you!" she yelled. "He hates me! And so what? I'm a half demon, I don't deserve any better" he sighed walking out the door.

Those last few words replayed in Kagome's head for a while, wondering how much teasing and abuse it could have taken to get those thoughts into his mind. She decided she couldn't let this go on any longer. "InuYasha! Come to my house! You can stay the night there tonight! It's Friday anyway so there's no school to worry about. You can call your brother and tell him what you're doing when we get there" she reasoned. "Fine" he soghed again (he does a lot of sighing doesn't he?) and walked off with Kagome to go to her house.

I PROMISE THIS IS NOT THE LAST CHAPTER! i'll try to make the next chapter interesting!