Chapter 4
Ben stood there for a moment, too stunned to move. Then he said, "Felicity, what...how...how did you get, I mean what are...."
"I wanted to surprise you," Felicity replied, with a large smile on her face, happy that her plan had worked.
"Well, you did that..." Ben said, but was quickly interrupted when Felicity launched herself into his arms and began to kiss him passionately.
Her arms wrapped around him tightly and Ben had her head in his hands as their tongues began to caress each other. Their kiss continued getting stronger when suddenly Matt interrupted them to say, "Uh,,, I think I better get outta here so you guys can have some privacy."
"Oh, Matt, I am so sorry. This is...this is my girlfriend, Felicity," Ben said sheepishly.
"Yeah, I figured that. I'm Matt, Ben's roommate, though I guess you figured that out as well. Nice to meet you," he said as he reached to shake Felicity's hand.
"Yes, nice to meet you. Ben has said nothing but nice things about you," Felicity replied, with just a hint of shyness after her very public display of affection for her boyfriend.
"Man, where are you going to go? I mean, Felicity and I can get a place, or something, you don't need to leave."
"Nah, don't worry about it, you guys can do that tomorrow. I will go stay at a friend's house tonight, I am sure it won't be a problem. I will see you tomorrow, if we are still on for the game of one on one?"
"Yeah, I mean I guess, we may have other plans, I don't know, "Ben said as he looked at Felicity with a big grin on his face.
"Well, we can figure that out later. See you soon," Matt said as he left.
Ben turned around to see Felicity grinning at him and he took her in his arms and gave her a big hug, resting his chin on her shoulder and inhaling her scent.
"I can't believe you are really here. How, I mean when did you decide...."
"Shhh...we will have time for talking later. Right now, I have other things in mind," Felicity said as she began to kiss his earlobe.
"Oh, yeah, yeah, that could be good, "Ben replied as he began to feel the effects of her kisses.
"Come here," Felicity whispered as she pulled him closer to the bed. She began to slip her hands beneath his shirt and caressed his stomach lightly. He moaned and pulled her closer to him, kissing her intently, searching her mouth with his tongue. In very short order, his shirt was off and he was unbuttoning her blouse, exposing her firm breasts. He bent down and took one breast in his mouth, circling her nipple with his tongue, as she began to squirm above him. He took a look up at her and smiled, only to return his kisses to her chest, then moving lower to her stomach. He slowly unzipped her jeans and put his hands on either side of her hips, moving the pants down as he caressed her legs. Felicity sighed and brought her mouth to his neck, licking and kissing him all the way up to his ear, then moving her lips to his chest. She sat down on the bed and pulled him near her, unbuttoning his jeans and quickly shedding him of that layer. Suddenly, Ben grabbed her hard against him and pulled her up to his embrace, kissing her hard on the lips, then lowering her to the bed. He took his hand and caressed her breast, making her moan his name over and over. They continued to kiss languidly as they shed the last layer of clothing. Then Ben positioned himself above her, as he said, "I love you, Felicity." She looked at him with passion in her eyes and all she said was "Make love to me, Ben." And then he entered her, slowly at first, savoring the moment. They both let out a small moan at the pleasure they had missed for two months. Their movements sped up, as they felt the ending near. Felicity called out his name and pulled him closer to her, grasping his butt tightly in her hands. Ben let out a groan, as he felt himself getting close, then pulled her closer up to him by wrapping her legs around him. Their movements grew more intense and soon Ben collapsed atop her, whispering her name as he felt himself explode inside her. Felicity shivered with the intensity of what had just happened and said quietly, "I love you, Ben."
They lay there, still joined, not wanting the moment to end. Ben rested his head atop her chest, sighed and said, "I can't believe you are here. This is so amazing. Thank you for coming, I am so happy you're here."
"Me, too. I am so glad to be in your arms again, I missed you so much," she replied.
"I missed you too," Ben said as he lifted his head to look down upon her lovingly.
Felicity laughed lightly and replied, "Yeah, I could tell."
"Hey, I am sorry it was a bit fast, but I haven't seen you in two whole months," Ben said apologetically.
"No, Ben, it was perfect, just as I wanted. You felt so amazing, I can't even tell you how incredible you make me feel, you always have," she replied. "Good, that's the way I want it. And you have always made me feel incredible, too. And happier than I ever thought possible," he said as he rolled over onto his side to look at her.
"Well, then everything is perfect then isn't it?"
"Yes, it is. I love you so much," Ben said as he gently rubbed her cheek with his hand.
"I love you too, so much," she said as she moved to lay her head upon his chest. They laid there in silence for a time, just enjoying the closeness, with Ben rubbing his hands up and down her back. Soon, they had both fallen asleep, happy and content in each other's arms.
Ben woke up awhile later and reached for Felicity, but her side of the bed was empty. He looked up and saw her seated at his desk, dressed in his shirt. She was curled over, with her head hung down a bit.
"Hey, you okay? Why are you over there? Come back here and get me warm again," Ben said with smile.
Felicity sniffled and said, "Yeah, I will, just a minute. I am sorry if I woke you."
Ben had noticed the sound of her voice and could tell she had been crying. He sat up quickly and strode to her side, saying "Hey, babe, what's wrong? Hey, what is it?" He was by her side, seated on the floor beside her. He reached up to move her hand from her face. "Please, tell me what is wrong."
"Oh, Ben, how could I have been so wrong? How could I have been so stupid? I mean you tried to tell me, you did, and you were so sweet, you never even tried to prevent me from being friends with him, and all along you were right, you were right." she said all at once.
"Wait, slow down, what are you talking about? What were you wrong about?" he asked as he held her hands in his.
"I can't believe him, I mean I thought he was my friend, I mean it was so important to me that we be friends, and all along he had this plan, this idea that....that he could....oh, it was awful, it was awful," she said as she buried her face into his neck.
"Shh...shh....Are you talking about Noel? What happened?" he asked as he turned her face back to his, looking into her eyes. "He...he...I can't believe it, I mean I was so upset. He..he..made us this meal and there were candles everywhere and I was so hesitant but he was so excited and I just ate and then we had cake, and, and I got up and then suddenly he touched my face, to, to, to get the icing off or....and, and, then he grabbed me and, and, and he ...god, he tried to kiss me. I pushed him off me and told him to get out, I couldn't, I just couldn't believe it, I mean, he tried to kiss me....Ben, it was awful," she cried as she put her head in her hands.
"He did what? I can't believe that ...that dick, where does he get off? I mean, what the hell is his problem?" Ben said, getting angrier by the minute.
"Oh, Ben, please don't get upset, I know you are right, he is a jerk, but can you just hold me?"
"Yeah, of course," he said as he took her in his arms, "but he had no right to do that, I mean he took advantage of you, I should go home and kick his ass for this," Ben said as he tried to calm down some, but wasn't entirely successful.
"Ben, no, no, don't go home. Just stay here with me, I want to enjoy some time with you. It's okay, let's just try to forget it, okay. I am sorry that I mentioned it, please don't get so upset," Felicity replied, trying to pull herself together for his sake.
"No, no, we are not going to forget about it. I'm sorry, forgive me for getting so pissed off. But, I mean, I can forget about Noel for now, but you are crying, babe. This was hard on you, don't you need to talk about it?"
"I don't know Ben, I just, I feel like I have been a complete idiot, I thought he was my friend. And now I don't know, I feel so confused. How could this happen? I mean all I have ever done is try to be his friend since we got back from our road trip. I thought we were doing okay, but he was just waiting for his chance I guess, I can't believe how stupid I have been."
Ben took her in his arms and said "Hey, you haven't been stupid, you were just trying to be his friend, you didn't know that he was such a jerk. You were just being the sweet person you always are, it's not your fault. It's his fault."
"I know, I know. How could I be so wrong about him, Ben? How?"
"I don't know, hon. I think you just have this warm, caring heart, and you always think the best of everyone. I mean that is part of why I love you so much. Look, I am sorry that you went through this, and I hate him for doing this to you, but you have to know that you have nothing to feel bad about. This is his issue, not yours. You will be all right, I am here, right here," he said as he lovingly ran his fingers through her hair.
"Oh, Ben, thank you, I am so grateful for you. I can't believe I didn't just listen to you about him, I am sorry that I didn't, "she said as she wiped her eyes.
"Hey, you have nothing to be sorry for. I mean, I must admit I am kinda glad you see the truth now. I mean, not that I wanted anything like this to happen, but I wondered if Noel was up to something, and I really gotta admit I hated him being there with you at the loft. I just didn't trust the guy, and now I know why. I am so sorry, hon. I know this is hard for you, and that he really meant a lot to you. But it'll get easier, you just have to give yourself time," he looked at her as she glanced downward. He lifted her chin up so he could look into her eyes. "Hey, we will make it through this, together, you and me. We can talk about it more or I can just hold you for awhile, okay?"
"Yes, just hold me. Just hold me, I feel so safe in your arms," she said as she reached for him.
"That's good, that's the way it should be. You never have to worry, I will take care of you. Everything's going to be okay," he said as he held her tightly.
She stood up and took his hand, leading him back over to the bed. They laid down and Ben quickly took her into his arms, and she laid her head across his chest. She listened to his breathing and it began to calm her. She always loved the way his heart beat, in such a calming rhythm, it seemed to instantly relax her. Ben rubbed his hand up and down her back, as he caressed her head with his other hand. "I love you," he whispered.
"I love you, too, "she answered. Before long, he heard her breathing calm and he could tell that she had fallen asleep. He laid there awake for awhile, thinking about what she had gone through and cursing Noel for what he had done to her. But soon, he just shook his head and rid his mind of his anger, focusing instead on the wonderful creature he held in his arms, thinking about how much he loved her and that he never wanted to see her in pain. He would spend the rest of his life ensuring she never felt this way again.
Ben stood there for a moment, too stunned to move. Then he said, "Felicity, what...how...how did you get, I mean what are...."
"I wanted to surprise you," Felicity replied, with a large smile on her face, happy that her plan had worked.
"Well, you did that..." Ben said, but was quickly interrupted when Felicity launched herself into his arms and began to kiss him passionately.
Her arms wrapped around him tightly and Ben had her head in his hands as their tongues began to caress each other. Their kiss continued getting stronger when suddenly Matt interrupted them to say, "Uh,,, I think I better get outta here so you guys can have some privacy."
"Oh, Matt, I am so sorry. This is...this is my girlfriend, Felicity," Ben said sheepishly.
"Yeah, I figured that. I'm Matt, Ben's roommate, though I guess you figured that out as well. Nice to meet you," he said as he reached to shake Felicity's hand.
"Yes, nice to meet you. Ben has said nothing but nice things about you," Felicity replied, with just a hint of shyness after her very public display of affection for her boyfriend.
"Man, where are you going to go? I mean, Felicity and I can get a place, or something, you don't need to leave."
"Nah, don't worry about it, you guys can do that tomorrow. I will go stay at a friend's house tonight, I am sure it won't be a problem. I will see you tomorrow, if we are still on for the game of one on one?"
"Yeah, I mean I guess, we may have other plans, I don't know, "Ben said as he looked at Felicity with a big grin on his face.
"Well, we can figure that out later. See you soon," Matt said as he left.
Ben turned around to see Felicity grinning at him and he took her in his arms and gave her a big hug, resting his chin on her shoulder and inhaling her scent.
"I can't believe you are really here. How, I mean when did you decide...."
"Shhh...we will have time for talking later. Right now, I have other things in mind," Felicity said as she began to kiss his earlobe.
"Oh, yeah, yeah, that could be good, "Ben replied as he began to feel the effects of her kisses.
"Come here," Felicity whispered as she pulled him closer to the bed. She began to slip her hands beneath his shirt and caressed his stomach lightly. He moaned and pulled her closer to him, kissing her intently, searching her mouth with his tongue. In very short order, his shirt was off and he was unbuttoning her blouse, exposing her firm breasts. He bent down and took one breast in his mouth, circling her nipple with his tongue, as she began to squirm above him. He took a look up at her and smiled, only to return his kisses to her chest, then moving lower to her stomach. He slowly unzipped her jeans and put his hands on either side of her hips, moving the pants down as he caressed her legs. Felicity sighed and brought her mouth to his neck, licking and kissing him all the way up to his ear, then moving her lips to his chest. She sat down on the bed and pulled him near her, unbuttoning his jeans and quickly shedding him of that layer. Suddenly, Ben grabbed her hard against him and pulled her up to his embrace, kissing her hard on the lips, then lowering her to the bed. He took his hand and caressed her breast, making her moan his name over and over. They continued to kiss languidly as they shed the last layer of clothing. Then Ben positioned himself above her, as he said, "I love you, Felicity." She looked at him with passion in her eyes and all she said was "Make love to me, Ben." And then he entered her, slowly at first, savoring the moment. They both let out a small moan at the pleasure they had missed for two months. Their movements sped up, as they felt the ending near. Felicity called out his name and pulled him closer to her, grasping his butt tightly in her hands. Ben let out a groan, as he felt himself getting close, then pulled her closer up to him by wrapping her legs around him. Their movements grew more intense and soon Ben collapsed atop her, whispering her name as he felt himself explode inside her. Felicity shivered with the intensity of what had just happened and said quietly, "I love you, Ben."
They lay there, still joined, not wanting the moment to end. Ben rested his head atop her chest, sighed and said, "I can't believe you are here. This is so amazing. Thank you for coming, I am so happy you're here."
"Me, too. I am so glad to be in your arms again, I missed you so much," she replied.
"I missed you too," Ben said as he lifted his head to look down upon her lovingly.
Felicity laughed lightly and replied, "Yeah, I could tell."
"Hey, I am sorry it was a bit fast, but I haven't seen you in two whole months," Ben said apologetically.
"No, Ben, it was perfect, just as I wanted. You felt so amazing, I can't even tell you how incredible you make me feel, you always have," she replied. "Good, that's the way I want it. And you have always made me feel incredible, too. And happier than I ever thought possible," he said as he rolled over onto his side to look at her.
"Well, then everything is perfect then isn't it?"
"Yes, it is. I love you so much," Ben said as he gently rubbed her cheek with his hand.
"I love you too, so much," she said as she moved to lay her head upon his chest. They laid there in silence for a time, just enjoying the closeness, with Ben rubbing his hands up and down her back. Soon, they had both fallen asleep, happy and content in each other's arms.
Ben woke up awhile later and reached for Felicity, but her side of the bed was empty. He looked up and saw her seated at his desk, dressed in his shirt. She was curled over, with her head hung down a bit.
"Hey, you okay? Why are you over there? Come back here and get me warm again," Ben said with smile.
Felicity sniffled and said, "Yeah, I will, just a minute. I am sorry if I woke you."
Ben had noticed the sound of her voice and could tell she had been crying. He sat up quickly and strode to her side, saying "Hey, babe, what's wrong? Hey, what is it?" He was by her side, seated on the floor beside her. He reached up to move her hand from her face. "Please, tell me what is wrong."
"Oh, Ben, how could I have been so wrong? How could I have been so stupid? I mean you tried to tell me, you did, and you were so sweet, you never even tried to prevent me from being friends with him, and all along you were right, you were right." she said all at once.
"Wait, slow down, what are you talking about? What were you wrong about?" he asked as he held her hands in his.
"I can't believe him, I mean I thought he was my friend, I mean it was so important to me that we be friends, and all along he had this plan, this idea that....that he could....oh, it was awful, it was awful," she said as she buried her face into his neck.
"Shh...shh....Are you talking about Noel? What happened?" he asked as he turned her face back to his, looking into her eyes. "He...he...I can't believe it, I mean I was so upset. He..he..made us this meal and there were candles everywhere and I was so hesitant but he was so excited and I just ate and then we had cake, and, and I got up and then suddenly he touched my face, to, to, to get the icing off or....and, and, then he grabbed me and, and, and he ...god, he tried to kiss me. I pushed him off me and told him to get out, I couldn't, I just couldn't believe it, I mean, he tried to kiss me....Ben, it was awful," she cried as she put her head in her hands.
"He did what? I can't believe that ...that dick, where does he get off? I mean, what the hell is his problem?" Ben said, getting angrier by the minute.
"Oh, Ben, please don't get upset, I know you are right, he is a jerk, but can you just hold me?"
"Yeah, of course," he said as he took her in his arms, "but he had no right to do that, I mean he took advantage of you, I should go home and kick his ass for this," Ben said as he tried to calm down some, but wasn't entirely successful.
"Ben, no, no, don't go home. Just stay here with me, I want to enjoy some time with you. It's okay, let's just try to forget it, okay. I am sorry that I mentioned it, please don't get so upset," Felicity replied, trying to pull herself together for his sake.
"No, no, we are not going to forget about it. I'm sorry, forgive me for getting so pissed off. But, I mean, I can forget about Noel for now, but you are crying, babe. This was hard on you, don't you need to talk about it?"
"I don't know Ben, I just, I feel like I have been a complete idiot, I thought he was my friend. And now I don't know, I feel so confused. How could this happen? I mean all I have ever done is try to be his friend since we got back from our road trip. I thought we were doing okay, but he was just waiting for his chance I guess, I can't believe how stupid I have been."
Ben took her in his arms and said "Hey, you haven't been stupid, you were just trying to be his friend, you didn't know that he was such a jerk. You were just being the sweet person you always are, it's not your fault. It's his fault."
"I know, I know. How could I be so wrong about him, Ben? How?"
"I don't know, hon. I think you just have this warm, caring heart, and you always think the best of everyone. I mean that is part of why I love you so much. Look, I am sorry that you went through this, and I hate him for doing this to you, but you have to know that you have nothing to feel bad about. This is his issue, not yours. You will be all right, I am here, right here," he said as he lovingly ran his fingers through her hair.
"Oh, Ben, thank you, I am so grateful for you. I can't believe I didn't just listen to you about him, I am sorry that I didn't, "she said as she wiped her eyes.
"Hey, you have nothing to be sorry for. I mean, I must admit I am kinda glad you see the truth now. I mean, not that I wanted anything like this to happen, but I wondered if Noel was up to something, and I really gotta admit I hated him being there with you at the loft. I just didn't trust the guy, and now I know why. I am so sorry, hon. I know this is hard for you, and that he really meant a lot to you. But it'll get easier, you just have to give yourself time," he looked at her as she glanced downward. He lifted her chin up so he could look into her eyes. "Hey, we will make it through this, together, you and me. We can talk about it more or I can just hold you for awhile, okay?"
"Yes, just hold me. Just hold me, I feel so safe in your arms," she said as she reached for him.
"That's good, that's the way it should be. You never have to worry, I will take care of you. Everything's going to be okay," he said as he held her tightly.
She stood up and took his hand, leading him back over to the bed. They laid down and Ben quickly took her into his arms, and she laid her head across his chest. She listened to his breathing and it began to calm her. She always loved the way his heart beat, in such a calming rhythm, it seemed to instantly relax her. Ben rubbed his hand up and down her back, as he caressed her head with his other hand. "I love you," he whispered.
"I love you, too, "she answered. Before long, he heard her breathing calm and he could tell that she had fallen asleep. He laid there awake for awhile, thinking about what she had gone through and cursing Noel for what he had done to her. But soon, he just shook his head and rid his mind of his anger, focusing instead on the wonderful creature he held in his arms, thinking about how much he loved her and that he never wanted to see her in pain. He would spend the rest of his life ensuring she never felt this way again.