Chapter 6
Ben and Felicity had a great time swimming at the lakeside beach. The weather was warm and the water felt incredible. They spent many a moment just splashing water at each other, and Ben loved to duck Felicity's head under the water. She even showed him her special trick, doing a handstand under the water. He was very amused and chased her out of the lake to the spot where their towels lay, with Felicity giggling all the way.
"Oh, Ben, you make me laugh so much, that now my side hurts," Felicity laughed as she lay down on their towel.
"Oh really? Here let me fix that for you," he said as he started to caress her abdomen, enjoying the feel of her skin beneath his fingers. Then, he leaned down and brought his lips to hers, circling his tongue inside her mouth. Felicity brought his face closer down to hers and lost herself in his kiss. Before she knew what was happening, Ben took her breast in his hand and started to inch his fingers up inside her bikini top. "Ben, we can't do that here. People are watching."
"Where? I don't see anybody," Ben smirked. "All I see is you, and you look amazing," he said as he leaned down to kiss her neck.
Felicity giggled, settling back onto the towel, with her arms wrapped around his neck. "I love you so much," Ben whispered into her ear before licking it with his tongue. He then began to lick his way down to the top of her chest, before gazing up at her asking for silent permission. He took her breast in his mouth, right through the bikini top. Felicity moaned and held his head to her breast, not wanting him to ever stop. Finally, Ben looked back up at her and said, "Come on, we gotta get outta here," as he pulled her up to stand. "Let's go back to our room."
"No way, we have other plans. If we go back to our room, we will never leave again," Felicity replied as she adjusted her top, still blushing a little from the heat of their actions.
"And that's bad, how?" Ben said quietly, pulling her to him.
"Because we have plans for later tonight, plans that mean we have to be somewhere other than our hotel bed. Now come on, aren't you hungry? Let's go get some dinner."
"Hey, I am hungry, but not for food," Ben laughed, with a sly grin on his face.
"Ben! Come on, I am hungry. Let's go eat."
"Okay, okay. You win. But later I am going to have my way with you," he said wickedly.
"Well, if you must," she said with a giggle, as she grabbed their stuff and took him by his hand, leading him to their car.
They had dinner at a nice café, right up the road from the park. They sat outside on the patio of the café, enjoying the warm breeze and talking about their adventures at the lake.
"You know, they have canoes to rent here, I noticed that on a sign. We should go back tomorrow and try that out," Ben said as he finished his sandwhich.
"Yeah, that could be fun, but not tomorrow. We have other plans for the weekend," Felicity said secretively.
"Really? What are we doing?" Ben said eagerly.
"You are not going to find out until tomorrow, so don't even bother," she said teasingly.
"Man, we are going somewhere mysterious tonight and then tomorrow we are doing something else? Come on, no hints?" Ben said with a pout on his face.
"Nope, no hints. You will just have to wait and see. But I guarantee you, you will love it," she replied.
"I am sure I will, because I will be all alone with you, which is how I want to spend all of my days," he said sweetly, leaning across the table to kiss her softly on the lips.
"Ah, very sweet, but still no hints. So, are you done? We need to get going, or we are going to be late."
Felicity surprised him by taking him back to the park, to the outdoor theatre. They sat on the simple benches and watched "Before Sunrise," with Ben's arms wrapped around her. Every once in awhile, they would take a break from watching and make out for a bit, since they were one of a few couples at the theater and had some privacy. They giggled and laughed as they tickled each other and kissed. Once, Ben took hold of her so tightly she fell onto the bench beside her. She laughed and said, "you knocked the wind out of me!" He just laid her down and continued kissing her passionately, until they both fell off in a heap on the ground. Ben laughed and said, "you get me in so much trouble, look what a mess my shirt is now." To which she replied simply, "it doesn't matter, you won't need it much longer," with a smile on her face. He took her back into his arms and held her closely, kissing her on her temple.
As they sat there quietly, watching the movie, with Ben's arm wrapped around her shoulder, Felicity noticed that Ben suddenly took her hand in his and looked at her intently. "What? You don't like the movie?" she asked.
"No, it's not that. I..I just was thinking about something," he said haltingly.
"What?" she asked, and when he looked down at their clasped hands, she took his face in her hand and brought his eyes back to hers. "What? You can tell me. What were you thinking about?"
"I don't know, I guess being here reminds me of when, you know...when we were supposed to meet at Bryant Park. I still can't believe I left you there waiting and never showed up, I was such a dick."
"Ben, it's okay. I mean I know you said you were just scared, I know that. And I wanted to come here tonight, to this theater, so we could have another chance at that night together. It's been really nice, hasn't it?"
"Yes, it has. And I just...I just, I can't even tell you how much this means to me, that we are here now. I just, I guess I was just thinking about why I did that, why I didn't show up."
"Why didn't you?" she asked quietly.
"I don't know... I mean, yeah, I actually do know. I just, I mean I was just so worried, and scared. I don't know why now, I mean yes, I do. It just seems so silly now. Gosh, I can't even talk."
"It's okay, go ahead, I am listening," she said softly as she took his other hand in hers.
"When we kissed on the roof that night, you remember? You said that we could just take it slow and not have it be such a big deal, but when I kissed you then, you felt so amazing and I knew right away, I think I even knew before then, that I wanted more than that. I mean, you just amazed me. Your smile, your hair, the way you looked at me when I said something sweet to you, or when we were just sitting together. I was so happy, just being with you. I never wanted to be away from you. The thing is, I think I was falling in love with you then, or maybe I already was, but I was such an idiot that I didn't realize it..."
"Ben, you are not an idiot. I was scared, too."
"I know, I just feel so bad that I hurt you, that I made you think you had to compromise yourself that way, when that really wasn't what I even wanted. I mean, when I admitted to myself, when I really thought about it, I wanted you just the way you were. But I was so scared, I mean, I had never felt that way about anyone in my life, and I didn't know what to do," he said as he looked down an their hands again, rubbing his thumb over her fingers.
"So, I just didn't show up. I can't believe it, I mean I wanted to come, I wanted to see you, but I was afraid of what I would say, and what it would mean."
"What would you have said?" she asked quietly.
"That I wanted to be with you, really be with you. And that I was falling in love with you, but the thought of those words just scared me so much. I couldn't do it then, maybe because I thought you deserved better than me, I don't know. I know now that it was a horrible mistake. And that I really deserved you breaking up with me like you did. But you gotta know," he said seriously, looking at her intently. "When you did that, broke up with me, I have never been so hurt in my life. I couldn't even move for the longest time, I just stood there. When what I should have done is run after and tell you that you were right about me, because I did want more with you. I was just too much of a coward, just like you said. I'm sorry....I don't mean to upset you," he stopped, looking at her, noticing that her head hung down.
"No, no, you haven't upset me. I just hate to hear you talk so badly about yourself and I am sorry that I called you a coward. I shouldn't have said that."
"No, I deserved that. You were right," he said as he touched her face gently. "I think I didn't fight for you, or go after you, because it hurt me to think that I didn't even deserve you anyway, that you could do so much better. I thought you were better off without me. But, I was so miserable without you, you need to know that. I tried to not even think about you, because it hurt so badly. I'm...I'm just really sorry. That I hurt you, that we wasted so much time that we could have spent together, " he said as he looked at the ground.
"Ben, Ben, look at me. Look at me," she said as she took his face in her hands. "You don't need to be sorry. Yes, I was hurt, but I was okay. I think I knew in my heart, all that you just told me. And I knew, and I really hoped, that we would have another chance together, when we were both ready. I am sorry, too, that I hurt you. And I have to thank you for sharing all of this with me. It really means a lot to me, and I just love you so much."
"I love you, too," he said as he looked into her eyes.
"I know you do, I think I knew you loved me even then. And what is most important is that we made it through that rough spot and we are together now. And we are happy. Right?"
"Yes, happier than I have ever been in my life," he said with a smile, the first she had seen since he started talking. "Thank you, you are incredible. I can't even tell you how much I love you, I just do."
Felicity reached across and caressed his face lovingly, as he leaned into her touch. She took him into her embrace, and held him closely. He put his head on her shoulder and closed his eyes. "Well, it looks like the movie is over," she said as she kissed him on the cheek. "So why don't we go on back to the hotel and you can show me just how much you love me?" she said with a grin.
"Sounds like a plan to me," he said with a laugh. "I am sorry we missed the end of the movie, though."
"Not me, I am glad we talked about this. Okay, come on. Let's get going before I lose all of my energy," she giggled.
Later, Ben sat waiting on the bed, absentmindedly going through the channels on the remote as he waited for Felicity to come out of the bathroom. He smiled to himself as he thought about their conversation at the park. He felt better having talked to her about it, he always did whenever he told her what was in his heart. She had this way about her, this way that just calmed his soul and he felt better instantly. He was constantly mesmerized by her, and had been again tonight. She just accepted him, faults and all, and he could not believe how lucky he was. He was thinking to himself that he didn't know what he would do without her, when he heard her quietly exit the bathroom. When he turned to look at her, his breath was immediately caught in his throat. She stood before him in a beautiful, green silk gown that just came just above her knees, with thin spaghetti straps that hung loosely on her shoulders. She walked over to him and took his hand in hers, moving him up so he was in front of her. Ben was still speechless as he looked at her, and thought he had never seen a more beautiful sight. He was so overcome with his love for her that he forgot to breathe for a moment, until she touched him lightly on his chest, eliciting a sigh.
"God, you look incredible," he whispered as he reached out to touch her.
"Thank you, I hoped you would like it," she said as she smiled at him lovingly.
"Oh yes, I love it. You are so beautiful," he said as he reached and took her face in his hand, kissing her deeply. He wrapped his arms around her and led her over to the bed, but not quite laying her down. He had other things in mind. He leaned over and touched the strap of her nightgown, guiding it off her shoulder, then doing the same with the other strap. Then he kissed her lightly on the shoulder, causing her to moan his name.
"I want you, Felicity. I will always want you," he said before capturing her lips again. He used his hand to lightly guide the gown off her body, letting it fall to the floor. He smiled when he realized that the gown was all she had been wearing, and then pushed her down onto the bed with his body.
"You are wearing entirely too many clothes," she giggled.
"Yeah," he moaned, as he kissed her on her neck, and took her breast in his hand, circling her nipple with his thumb. She quickly shed him of his shirt and shorts, leaving him only in his boxers as she grabbed him tightly to her. He moaned as she kissed him lightly on his earlobe and then nuzzled his neck. As he moved his hand down to her hips, then to her inner thigh, he heard her moan yet again. He lightly skimmed the skin there and watched as her body completely succumbed to him. Unable to wait any longer, he reached down and slid his boxers off. When he moved his body over hers, he noticed her eyes were shut, and she was smiling that sweet smile that meant she was ready for him. But he decided to make her wait a bit longer, and reached down and kissed her breast, kneading the other with his fingers, just barely missing her nipple with his fingers. This caused her to cry out, "Ben, Ben, please." He entered her then, enjoying the way her body felt, as he moved slowly within her. She cried out his name and brought him closer to her. He smiled and kept his pace slow, wanting to give her pleasure. Her body began to quiver and he felt her release coming, until they both released a moan, as their passion reached the top.
Ben collapsed atop her, resting his head on her chest, and whispered, "I love you, Felicity Porter."
"I love you, too, Ben Covington. And I always will," she said softly.
They fell asleep quickly, happy and content after their lovemaking. Later, when he woke up to see her lying next to him, he realized he had not gotten any hints about their trip tomorrow. But he was not upset. Their night had been perfect, as it always was with her.
Ben and Felicity had a great time swimming at the lakeside beach. The weather was warm and the water felt incredible. They spent many a moment just splashing water at each other, and Ben loved to duck Felicity's head under the water. She even showed him her special trick, doing a handstand under the water. He was very amused and chased her out of the lake to the spot where their towels lay, with Felicity giggling all the way.
"Oh, Ben, you make me laugh so much, that now my side hurts," Felicity laughed as she lay down on their towel.
"Oh really? Here let me fix that for you," he said as he started to caress her abdomen, enjoying the feel of her skin beneath his fingers. Then, he leaned down and brought his lips to hers, circling his tongue inside her mouth. Felicity brought his face closer down to hers and lost herself in his kiss. Before she knew what was happening, Ben took her breast in his hand and started to inch his fingers up inside her bikini top. "Ben, we can't do that here. People are watching."
"Where? I don't see anybody," Ben smirked. "All I see is you, and you look amazing," he said as he leaned down to kiss her neck.
Felicity giggled, settling back onto the towel, with her arms wrapped around his neck. "I love you so much," Ben whispered into her ear before licking it with his tongue. He then began to lick his way down to the top of her chest, before gazing up at her asking for silent permission. He took her breast in his mouth, right through the bikini top. Felicity moaned and held his head to her breast, not wanting him to ever stop. Finally, Ben looked back up at her and said, "Come on, we gotta get outta here," as he pulled her up to stand. "Let's go back to our room."
"No way, we have other plans. If we go back to our room, we will never leave again," Felicity replied as she adjusted her top, still blushing a little from the heat of their actions.
"And that's bad, how?" Ben said quietly, pulling her to him.
"Because we have plans for later tonight, plans that mean we have to be somewhere other than our hotel bed. Now come on, aren't you hungry? Let's go get some dinner."
"Hey, I am hungry, but not for food," Ben laughed, with a sly grin on his face.
"Ben! Come on, I am hungry. Let's go eat."
"Okay, okay. You win. But later I am going to have my way with you," he said wickedly.
"Well, if you must," she said with a giggle, as she grabbed their stuff and took him by his hand, leading him to their car.
They had dinner at a nice café, right up the road from the park. They sat outside on the patio of the café, enjoying the warm breeze and talking about their adventures at the lake.
"You know, they have canoes to rent here, I noticed that on a sign. We should go back tomorrow and try that out," Ben said as he finished his sandwhich.
"Yeah, that could be fun, but not tomorrow. We have other plans for the weekend," Felicity said secretively.
"Really? What are we doing?" Ben said eagerly.
"You are not going to find out until tomorrow, so don't even bother," she said teasingly.
"Man, we are going somewhere mysterious tonight and then tomorrow we are doing something else? Come on, no hints?" Ben said with a pout on his face.
"Nope, no hints. You will just have to wait and see. But I guarantee you, you will love it," she replied.
"I am sure I will, because I will be all alone with you, which is how I want to spend all of my days," he said sweetly, leaning across the table to kiss her softly on the lips.
"Ah, very sweet, but still no hints. So, are you done? We need to get going, or we are going to be late."
Felicity surprised him by taking him back to the park, to the outdoor theatre. They sat on the simple benches and watched "Before Sunrise," with Ben's arms wrapped around her. Every once in awhile, they would take a break from watching and make out for a bit, since they were one of a few couples at the theater and had some privacy. They giggled and laughed as they tickled each other and kissed. Once, Ben took hold of her so tightly she fell onto the bench beside her. She laughed and said, "you knocked the wind out of me!" He just laid her down and continued kissing her passionately, until they both fell off in a heap on the ground. Ben laughed and said, "you get me in so much trouble, look what a mess my shirt is now." To which she replied simply, "it doesn't matter, you won't need it much longer," with a smile on her face. He took her back into his arms and held her closely, kissing her on her temple.
As they sat there quietly, watching the movie, with Ben's arm wrapped around her shoulder, Felicity noticed that Ben suddenly took her hand in his and looked at her intently. "What? You don't like the movie?" she asked.
"No, it's not that. I..I just was thinking about something," he said haltingly.
"What?" she asked, and when he looked down at their clasped hands, she took his face in her hand and brought his eyes back to hers. "What? You can tell me. What were you thinking about?"
"I don't know, I guess being here reminds me of when, you know...when we were supposed to meet at Bryant Park. I still can't believe I left you there waiting and never showed up, I was such a dick."
"Ben, it's okay. I mean I know you said you were just scared, I know that. And I wanted to come here tonight, to this theater, so we could have another chance at that night together. It's been really nice, hasn't it?"
"Yes, it has. And I just...I just, I can't even tell you how much this means to me, that we are here now. I just, I guess I was just thinking about why I did that, why I didn't show up."
"Why didn't you?" she asked quietly.
"I don't know... I mean, yeah, I actually do know. I just, I mean I was just so worried, and scared. I don't know why now, I mean yes, I do. It just seems so silly now. Gosh, I can't even talk."
"It's okay, go ahead, I am listening," she said softly as she took his other hand in hers.
"When we kissed on the roof that night, you remember? You said that we could just take it slow and not have it be such a big deal, but when I kissed you then, you felt so amazing and I knew right away, I think I even knew before then, that I wanted more than that. I mean, you just amazed me. Your smile, your hair, the way you looked at me when I said something sweet to you, or when we were just sitting together. I was so happy, just being with you. I never wanted to be away from you. The thing is, I think I was falling in love with you then, or maybe I already was, but I was such an idiot that I didn't realize it..."
"Ben, you are not an idiot. I was scared, too."
"I know, I just feel so bad that I hurt you, that I made you think you had to compromise yourself that way, when that really wasn't what I even wanted. I mean, when I admitted to myself, when I really thought about it, I wanted you just the way you were. But I was so scared, I mean, I had never felt that way about anyone in my life, and I didn't know what to do," he said as he looked down an their hands again, rubbing his thumb over her fingers.
"So, I just didn't show up. I can't believe it, I mean I wanted to come, I wanted to see you, but I was afraid of what I would say, and what it would mean."
"What would you have said?" she asked quietly.
"That I wanted to be with you, really be with you. And that I was falling in love with you, but the thought of those words just scared me so much. I couldn't do it then, maybe because I thought you deserved better than me, I don't know. I know now that it was a horrible mistake. And that I really deserved you breaking up with me like you did. But you gotta know," he said seriously, looking at her intently. "When you did that, broke up with me, I have never been so hurt in my life. I couldn't even move for the longest time, I just stood there. When what I should have done is run after and tell you that you were right about me, because I did want more with you. I was just too much of a coward, just like you said. I'm sorry....I don't mean to upset you," he stopped, looking at her, noticing that her head hung down.
"No, no, you haven't upset me. I just hate to hear you talk so badly about yourself and I am sorry that I called you a coward. I shouldn't have said that."
"No, I deserved that. You were right," he said as he touched her face gently. "I think I didn't fight for you, or go after you, because it hurt me to think that I didn't even deserve you anyway, that you could do so much better. I thought you were better off without me. But, I was so miserable without you, you need to know that. I tried to not even think about you, because it hurt so badly. I'm...I'm just really sorry. That I hurt you, that we wasted so much time that we could have spent together, " he said as he looked at the ground.
"Ben, Ben, look at me. Look at me," she said as she took his face in her hands. "You don't need to be sorry. Yes, I was hurt, but I was okay. I think I knew in my heart, all that you just told me. And I knew, and I really hoped, that we would have another chance together, when we were both ready. I am sorry, too, that I hurt you. And I have to thank you for sharing all of this with me. It really means a lot to me, and I just love you so much."
"I love you, too," he said as he looked into her eyes.
"I know you do, I think I knew you loved me even then. And what is most important is that we made it through that rough spot and we are together now. And we are happy. Right?"
"Yes, happier than I have ever been in my life," he said with a smile, the first she had seen since he started talking. "Thank you, you are incredible. I can't even tell you how much I love you, I just do."
Felicity reached across and caressed his face lovingly, as he leaned into her touch. She took him into her embrace, and held him closely. He put his head on her shoulder and closed his eyes. "Well, it looks like the movie is over," she said as she kissed him on the cheek. "So why don't we go on back to the hotel and you can show me just how much you love me?" she said with a grin.
"Sounds like a plan to me," he said with a laugh. "I am sorry we missed the end of the movie, though."
"Not me, I am glad we talked about this. Okay, come on. Let's get going before I lose all of my energy," she giggled.
Later, Ben sat waiting on the bed, absentmindedly going through the channels on the remote as he waited for Felicity to come out of the bathroom. He smiled to himself as he thought about their conversation at the park. He felt better having talked to her about it, he always did whenever he told her what was in his heart. She had this way about her, this way that just calmed his soul and he felt better instantly. He was constantly mesmerized by her, and had been again tonight. She just accepted him, faults and all, and he could not believe how lucky he was. He was thinking to himself that he didn't know what he would do without her, when he heard her quietly exit the bathroom. When he turned to look at her, his breath was immediately caught in his throat. She stood before him in a beautiful, green silk gown that just came just above her knees, with thin spaghetti straps that hung loosely on her shoulders. She walked over to him and took his hand in hers, moving him up so he was in front of her. Ben was still speechless as he looked at her, and thought he had never seen a more beautiful sight. He was so overcome with his love for her that he forgot to breathe for a moment, until she touched him lightly on his chest, eliciting a sigh.
"God, you look incredible," he whispered as he reached out to touch her.
"Thank you, I hoped you would like it," she said as she smiled at him lovingly.
"Oh yes, I love it. You are so beautiful," he said as he reached and took her face in his hand, kissing her deeply. He wrapped his arms around her and led her over to the bed, but not quite laying her down. He had other things in mind. He leaned over and touched the strap of her nightgown, guiding it off her shoulder, then doing the same with the other strap. Then he kissed her lightly on the shoulder, causing her to moan his name.
"I want you, Felicity. I will always want you," he said before capturing her lips again. He used his hand to lightly guide the gown off her body, letting it fall to the floor. He smiled when he realized that the gown was all she had been wearing, and then pushed her down onto the bed with his body.
"You are wearing entirely too many clothes," she giggled.
"Yeah," he moaned, as he kissed her on her neck, and took her breast in his hand, circling her nipple with his thumb. She quickly shed him of his shirt and shorts, leaving him only in his boxers as she grabbed him tightly to her. He moaned as she kissed him lightly on his earlobe and then nuzzled his neck. As he moved his hand down to her hips, then to her inner thigh, he heard her moan yet again. He lightly skimmed the skin there and watched as her body completely succumbed to him. Unable to wait any longer, he reached down and slid his boxers off. When he moved his body over hers, he noticed her eyes were shut, and she was smiling that sweet smile that meant she was ready for him. But he decided to make her wait a bit longer, and reached down and kissed her breast, kneading the other with his fingers, just barely missing her nipple with his fingers. This caused her to cry out, "Ben, Ben, please." He entered her then, enjoying the way her body felt, as he moved slowly within her. She cried out his name and brought him closer to her. He smiled and kept his pace slow, wanting to give her pleasure. Her body began to quiver and he felt her release coming, until they both released a moan, as their passion reached the top.
Ben collapsed atop her, resting his head on her chest, and whispered, "I love you, Felicity Porter."
"I love you, too, Ben Covington. And I always will," she said softly.
They fell asleep quickly, happy and content after their lovemaking. Later, when he woke up to see her lying next to him, he realized he had not gotten any hints about their trip tomorrow. But he was not upset. Their night had been perfect, as it always was with her.