Title: A New Beginning
Email: buffsummers@hotmail.com
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The song is "White Flag" by Dido.
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Chapter Five: I'll Never Forget (part two)
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"Buffy?"
"Angel?" The two ex lovers looked at each other in shock. They had both thought that they had seen each other, but they both tried to ignore it. They just looked at each other in silence, neither of them knowing what to say.
"Um." Buffy started,
"What are you.? How.? Wait." they said in unison. They looked at each other for a moment, then burst into laughter. After they had managed to control their laughter, Angel said,
"So how are you?" Buffy smiled warmly at him and answered,
"I'm good. And you?" Angel looked at her and shrugged,
"I'm okay too," There was silence after Angel's reply. They had fallen into an uncomfortable silence once again. This time Angel broke the silence,
"So are Willow and Xander around?" he asked lamely. Buffy looked at him with a strange look on her face,
"Uh, yeah. Cordy around?"
"Yeah"
"Cool"
"Cool"
Once again they couldn't think of a single thing to say. Well to be completely honest, Buffy did have something to say to Angel. She just couldn't summon the courage to say it. Funny. She spent her life fighting demons and monsters, and saving the world, but she couldn't talk to her ex- boyfriend, who she still happened to be in love with.
It was a similar thing with Angel. He was known for being strong and courageous, but he couldn't talk to Buffy about this one little thing. Well, to him it wasn't really a little thing. It was very important to him. He knew he should say something before he lost the chance.
'What is wrong with me?' They thought together.
"Y'know what? I have to go. The gang are waiting for me. They'll probably be wondering what happened to me," Buffy said, making up an excuse. Any excuse, just to get away. She lost her nerve. She just couldn't say it. She started backing away from Angel, making it clear she was leaving. Angel looked a little bit disappointed, but he shook it off,
"Oh. Yeah. Okay. I guess I'll see you around," Buffy and Angel smiled uneasily at each other, until Buffy finally turned and left. Angel stood rooted to the spot watching Buffy's hasty retreat, mentally berating himself for not saying anything.
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"Buffy, are you feeling alright? Giles asked. Buffy looked up at Giles from her punch. The many ice cubes she had tossed in had long melted, and her glass was still almost full to the brim. She smiled uneasily at him and answered innocently,
"Of course. Why wouldn't I be?" Giles gave her a once-over over the top of his glasses,
"You just seem.preoccupied. Are you sure you're all right?"
"Sure I'm sure," Buffy assured him, "I'm fine." Giles looked at her dubiously. Buffy stared him down for a moment before giving in with a resigned sigh,
"Okay, okay. So maybe I AM a little preoccupied. But really, it's nothing." Giles looked at her as if that explained everything,
"Oh. So it has absolutely NOTHING to do with the fact that Angel is right over there on the other side of the room with Cordelia hanging all over him?"
"NO! I mean.what? Angel's here? Is Angel here?" Buffy tried to cover. But it became obvious that it wasn't working. Giles wasn't fooled; he was too smart for that.
"Am I really that obvious?" Buffy sighed. Giles smiled warmly and nodded sympathetically,
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked her
"I can't. There really isn't that much to talk about. I can't be with Angel and he can't be with me. He's a Vampire and I'm a Slayer. Nothing's changed." Giles looked at Buffy thoughtfully,
"That didn't stop you before."
"Before we didn't know about the curse! And even then it didn't work! It JUST.WON'T.WORK!" Buffy yelled, then immediately looked apologetic,
"I'm sorry. It's just.It's not like I have a choice. Every time I have a boyfriend, not just Angel, they leave. Angel, Riley."
"Spike?" Giles added. Buffy looked Giles in the eye,
"Spike was never my boyfriend. I loved him.but I wasn't IN love with him. I DID care about him though." Giles watched Buffy carefully,
"Do you miss him?"
"It was a long time ago. It's over. He died saving the world, like he wanted to, and I moved on." She answered honestly, "Excuse me, Giles. I'm gonna go dance with Willow and Xander." Buffy got up and moved towards the dance floor where Xander and Willow were dancing crazily.
"Hey are you okay?" said a voice from behind her. She turned around and found Scott looking worriedly at her, "you left in a hurry and looked really upset. Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah, yeah. It was nothing. I'm fine," she assured him. Scott looked relieved,
"Okay. Cool. So.do you wanna dance again? This time, really?" Buffy thought about it for a moment.
'Do you really want to dance with Scott Hope? Why not? It's not like Angel has time for you or still loves you. I mean it's obvious he's "with" Cordelia. Okay. I'll accept'
"Okay. Let's go," she answered, taking Scott's outstretched hand. When they reached the dance floor the crazy dance song came to an end and another slow song came over the speakers. Buffy just relaxed in Scott's arms and listened to the words.
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I know you think that I shouldn't still love you I'll tell you that But if I didn't say it, well I'll still have felt it Where's the sense in that? I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder I will turn to where we were
But I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
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'this song makes sense. It's almost as if it was written for me.' Buffy thought while swaying in time with the music.
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I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules and it's over Then I'm sure that that makes sense
And I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, Which I'm sure we will, All that was there will be there still. I'll let it pass and hold my tongue, And you will think I've moved on
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'Does this singer know me and Angel, or something? I guess I HAVE been fooling myself and everyone else that I've moved on. What am I doing? I shouldn't hold my tongue. Or let it pass. I still love him, I know it. I'll talk to him. But later. I can't walk out of another dance with Scott. He'll think I'm rejecting him or something, which I am, but I can't let HIM know that. After this dance.'
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I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
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The song had finally come to an end, and Buffy gently rebuffed Scott's proposal of another dance. Apparently, unknown to Buffy, Scott had been married for three years. His wife had caught him begging the beautiful, blonde Buffy for another dance, and oh boy was he going to feel like hell in the morning, or as soon as he woke up anyway.
After a few minutes of scouting the room, Buffy finally found Angel leaning against the wall, looking lonely and bored. She started over to him and was almost there until Cordelia crossed her path and gripped Angel's arm. Buffy stared daggers at her from her position not far away. Cordelia started saying something to Angel, but Buffy couldn't hear anything from where she was. Swiftly and silently, Buffy made her way over to the couple until she was within earshot. Sometimes being a Slayer had its perks.
"But Angel.I want to go home now! Why don't we just leave the others here and we could go and.you know.." Cordelia asked suggestively, fluttering her eyelashes, while Angel just looked at her a little bit confused. Cordelia moved her face closer to Angel's, making it look like she was kissing him. Buffy saw this, let out a small cry, and ran off. Cordelia looked off to the side just in time to see this and let on a little smile. Cordelia wasn't the only one who noticed this.
Xander had just stepped off the dance floor, and saw Buffy looking a little upset. When he looked to see what she was looking at he saw Cordelia and Angel 'together'. After seeing Buffy run outside Xander got mad and stalked across the room over to where Angel and Cordelia were standing. On seeing Xander, Cordelia let go of Angel and smiled at him.
"Xander! Hi!" Xander ignored her, turned to Angel, and grabbed hold of his arm.
"I need to talk to you. Over HERE," Xander said dragging Angel over into a corner, "What the hell do you think you are doing?!!" Xander yelled. Angel looked confused. He honestly had no idea what was wrong,
"What did I do NOW, Xander?" If possible, Xander looked even madder.
"You hurt Buffy! Again! Didn't you see her?? Oh wait that's right! You were too busy making out with the drama queen over there!!"
"I hurt Buffy? Wait a minute! I NEVER made out with Cordelia!" Xander didn't look comforted by this.
"Yes you did! Buffy and I both saw you. Cordy brought her face right up close, remember??" Xander asked.
"Yes, but we never made out! I swear." Then what Xander said registered with him, "Wait a minute! Buffy thinks I kissed Cordelia?" Angel asked.
"Yes. If you really didn't kiss Cordy, then you better go explain to Buff. I think she wanted to talk to you. She looked really upset." Angel looked worried at this statement,
"Oh God. Where did she go?" Xander pointed out the way to the balcony, "Thanks," Angel replied and moved off to where Buffy sat crying.
'Oh god. I just hope she can forgive me. I don't know what I'll do if she won't.'
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To Be Continued.
Please review! Tell me what you think of this chapter!
Email: buffsummers@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: I think it's obvious I don't own any of these characters
Thank you for all of your reviews. I love reading them. Sorry I haven't updated for ages. I'll try to post more often. Please keep the reviews coming!
The song is "White Flag" by Dido.
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Chapter Five: I'll Never Forget (part two)
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"Buffy?"
"Angel?" The two ex lovers looked at each other in shock. They had both thought that they had seen each other, but they both tried to ignore it. They just looked at each other in silence, neither of them knowing what to say.
"Um." Buffy started,
"What are you.? How.? Wait." they said in unison. They looked at each other for a moment, then burst into laughter. After they had managed to control their laughter, Angel said,
"So how are you?" Buffy smiled warmly at him and answered,
"I'm good. And you?" Angel looked at her and shrugged,
"I'm okay too," There was silence after Angel's reply. They had fallen into an uncomfortable silence once again. This time Angel broke the silence,
"So are Willow and Xander around?" he asked lamely. Buffy looked at him with a strange look on her face,
"Uh, yeah. Cordy around?"
"Yeah"
"Cool"
"Cool"
Once again they couldn't think of a single thing to say. Well to be completely honest, Buffy did have something to say to Angel. She just couldn't summon the courage to say it. Funny. She spent her life fighting demons and monsters, and saving the world, but she couldn't talk to her ex- boyfriend, who she still happened to be in love with.
It was a similar thing with Angel. He was known for being strong and courageous, but he couldn't talk to Buffy about this one little thing. Well, to him it wasn't really a little thing. It was very important to him. He knew he should say something before he lost the chance.
'What is wrong with me?' They thought together.
"Y'know what? I have to go. The gang are waiting for me. They'll probably be wondering what happened to me," Buffy said, making up an excuse. Any excuse, just to get away. She lost her nerve. She just couldn't say it. She started backing away from Angel, making it clear she was leaving. Angel looked a little bit disappointed, but he shook it off,
"Oh. Yeah. Okay. I guess I'll see you around," Buffy and Angel smiled uneasily at each other, until Buffy finally turned and left. Angel stood rooted to the spot watching Buffy's hasty retreat, mentally berating himself for not saying anything.
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"Buffy, are you feeling alright? Giles asked. Buffy looked up at Giles from her punch. The many ice cubes she had tossed in had long melted, and her glass was still almost full to the brim. She smiled uneasily at him and answered innocently,
"Of course. Why wouldn't I be?" Giles gave her a once-over over the top of his glasses,
"You just seem.preoccupied. Are you sure you're all right?"
"Sure I'm sure," Buffy assured him, "I'm fine." Giles looked at her dubiously. Buffy stared him down for a moment before giving in with a resigned sigh,
"Okay, okay. So maybe I AM a little preoccupied. But really, it's nothing." Giles looked at her as if that explained everything,
"Oh. So it has absolutely NOTHING to do with the fact that Angel is right over there on the other side of the room with Cordelia hanging all over him?"
"NO! I mean.what? Angel's here? Is Angel here?" Buffy tried to cover. But it became obvious that it wasn't working. Giles wasn't fooled; he was too smart for that.
"Am I really that obvious?" Buffy sighed. Giles smiled warmly and nodded sympathetically,
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked her
"I can't. There really isn't that much to talk about. I can't be with Angel and he can't be with me. He's a Vampire and I'm a Slayer. Nothing's changed." Giles looked at Buffy thoughtfully,
"That didn't stop you before."
"Before we didn't know about the curse! And even then it didn't work! It JUST.WON'T.WORK!" Buffy yelled, then immediately looked apologetic,
"I'm sorry. It's just.It's not like I have a choice. Every time I have a boyfriend, not just Angel, they leave. Angel, Riley."
"Spike?" Giles added. Buffy looked Giles in the eye,
"Spike was never my boyfriend. I loved him.but I wasn't IN love with him. I DID care about him though." Giles watched Buffy carefully,
"Do you miss him?"
"It was a long time ago. It's over. He died saving the world, like he wanted to, and I moved on." She answered honestly, "Excuse me, Giles. I'm gonna go dance with Willow and Xander." Buffy got up and moved towards the dance floor where Xander and Willow were dancing crazily.
"Hey are you okay?" said a voice from behind her. She turned around and found Scott looking worriedly at her, "you left in a hurry and looked really upset. Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah, yeah. It was nothing. I'm fine," she assured him. Scott looked relieved,
"Okay. Cool. So.do you wanna dance again? This time, really?" Buffy thought about it for a moment.
'Do you really want to dance with Scott Hope? Why not? It's not like Angel has time for you or still loves you. I mean it's obvious he's "with" Cordelia. Okay. I'll accept'
"Okay. Let's go," she answered, taking Scott's outstretched hand. When they reached the dance floor the crazy dance song came to an end and another slow song came over the speakers. Buffy just relaxed in Scott's arms and listened to the words.
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I know you think that I shouldn't still love you I'll tell you that But if I didn't say it, well I'll still have felt it Where's the sense in that? I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder I will turn to where we were
But I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
**
'this song makes sense. It's almost as if it was written for me.' Buffy thought while swaying in time with the music.
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I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules and it's over Then I'm sure that that makes sense
And I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, Which I'm sure we will, All that was there will be there still. I'll let it pass and hold my tongue, And you will think I've moved on
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'Does this singer know me and Angel, or something? I guess I HAVE been fooling myself and everyone else that I've moved on. What am I doing? I shouldn't hold my tongue. Or let it pass. I still love him, I know it. I'll talk to him. But later. I can't walk out of another dance with Scott. He'll think I'm rejecting him or something, which I am, but I can't let HIM know that. After this dance.'
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I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with the ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
**
The song had finally come to an end, and Buffy gently rebuffed Scott's proposal of another dance. Apparently, unknown to Buffy, Scott had been married for three years. His wife had caught him begging the beautiful, blonde Buffy for another dance, and oh boy was he going to feel like hell in the morning, or as soon as he woke up anyway.
After a few minutes of scouting the room, Buffy finally found Angel leaning against the wall, looking lonely and bored. She started over to him and was almost there until Cordelia crossed her path and gripped Angel's arm. Buffy stared daggers at her from her position not far away. Cordelia started saying something to Angel, but Buffy couldn't hear anything from where she was. Swiftly and silently, Buffy made her way over to the couple until she was within earshot. Sometimes being a Slayer had its perks.
"But Angel.I want to go home now! Why don't we just leave the others here and we could go and.you know.." Cordelia asked suggestively, fluttering her eyelashes, while Angel just looked at her a little bit confused. Cordelia moved her face closer to Angel's, making it look like she was kissing him. Buffy saw this, let out a small cry, and ran off. Cordelia looked off to the side just in time to see this and let on a little smile. Cordelia wasn't the only one who noticed this.
Xander had just stepped off the dance floor, and saw Buffy looking a little upset. When he looked to see what she was looking at he saw Cordelia and Angel 'together'. After seeing Buffy run outside Xander got mad and stalked across the room over to where Angel and Cordelia were standing. On seeing Xander, Cordelia let go of Angel and smiled at him.
"Xander! Hi!" Xander ignored her, turned to Angel, and grabbed hold of his arm.
"I need to talk to you. Over HERE," Xander said dragging Angel over into a corner, "What the hell do you think you are doing?!!" Xander yelled. Angel looked confused. He honestly had no idea what was wrong,
"What did I do NOW, Xander?" If possible, Xander looked even madder.
"You hurt Buffy! Again! Didn't you see her?? Oh wait that's right! You were too busy making out with the drama queen over there!!"
"I hurt Buffy? Wait a minute! I NEVER made out with Cordelia!" Xander didn't look comforted by this.
"Yes you did! Buffy and I both saw you. Cordy brought her face right up close, remember??" Xander asked.
"Yes, but we never made out! I swear." Then what Xander said registered with him, "Wait a minute! Buffy thinks I kissed Cordelia?" Angel asked.
"Yes. If you really didn't kiss Cordy, then you better go explain to Buff. I think she wanted to talk to you. She looked really upset." Angel looked worried at this statement,
"Oh God. Where did she go?" Xander pointed out the way to the balcony, "Thanks," Angel replied and moved off to where Buffy sat crying.
'Oh god. I just hope she can forgive me. I don't know what I'll do if she won't.'
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To Be Continued.
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