Title: A New Beginning
Email: buffsummershotmail.com
Disclaimer: I think it's obvious I don't own any of these characters, because if they were mine they would never be in this mess in the first place.
Timeline: Future fic. Angel season five NEVER happened. AI didn't take over W&H.
Thank you for all of your reviews. I love reading them. Sorry I haven't updated for ages.
The song is "Everytime" by Britney Spears.
Previously on A New Beginning:
"Buffy?"
"Angel?"
"...He's a Vampire and I'm a Slayer. Nothing's changed."
Cordelia moved her face closer to Angel's, making it look like she was kissing him. Buffy saw this, let out a small cry, and ran off.
"You hurt Buffy! Again!"
"...Buffy thinks I kissed Cordelia?"
"...Thanks," Angel replied and moved off to where Buffy sat crying.
'Oh god. I just hope she can forgive me. I don't know what I'll do if she won't...'
Chapter Six: I Need You
Buffy's heart was breaking, but nobody seemed to notice. 'How could he do that to me? Come on Buffy what were you expecting? He's moved on'. Somehow knowing that didn't dull the pain of seeing Angel in the embrace of Queen C.
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
"Please look at me. Please?" he begged. She recognised the desperate tone in his voice and finally relented, and raised her head to look at him.
"Thank you," he breathed, relieved. However, her face was nothing to be relieved at. Tears were streaming down her cheeks; the picture of a broken woman.
"What do you want, Angel?" she asked brokenly. He was with Cordelia now. Not with her.
"I need to explain. What you saw with Cordelia-"
"-is none of my business," she finished, "if you want to be with her and not...well it's got nothing to do with me," she stated, her eyes betraying her sorrow of giving him to Cordelia.
"Buffy, listen to me. What you saw in there...I'm not with Cordelia. She just came on to me. Next thing I know Xander Harris is yelling at me for something I didn't do. I'm confused, Buffy. I could never love Cordelia like that. I thought I did but...someone was stopping me, and you..." Angel considered telling her everything, but he decided against it. She was upset enough already.
"Y-you mean...you're not with Cordelia?" she asked hopefully.
"No. I'm not with Cordelia," he said affectionately. Buffy sniffled and dabbed at her eyes, seemingly more consoled by this information.
"Angel...can we talk?" Buffy asked hesitantly.
"Sure. What about?" he asked sitting next to her.
"No. No...not here. Is there somewhere else a bit more...private?"
"Yeah. I know just the place," he answered, offering his hand. She took it and he led her out of the garden through the back exit.
"So?" Angel asked questioningly. Buffy just looked at him blankly. "What did you want to talk about?"
"Oh. Well, us," she mumbled.
"What about us?" Angel asked her, hopefully.
"Do you ever wish that...that maybe you never left?"
"Sometimes," Angel answered honestly.
"Just sometimes?" Buffy asked curiously. Angel looked her straight in the eye.
"More than once. But more than once I've also agreed that I did the right thing. I left you so you could have a normal life. That's what I wanted for you. A life in the light, a life away from the demons. Then I come back and find you've hooked up with captain peroxide. Look I'm gonna be honest here, and I know I'm probably going to regret it, but you really need to know this," Angel took a deep breath,
"I love you," he said, "I love you, I never stopped loving you, I never will, and I...I want another chance." Buffy looked taken aback. She had never expected this.
"Angel..." she began
"Buffy please. I love you and I want to be with you," he begged.
"I-I don't know. I don't think I can," Buffy said uncertainly. This was what she wanted wasn't it? How long had she dreamed that Angel would want to take her back? Now suddenly she had the chance, but she couldn't take it.
"Buffy, I'm human now. We can be together. The curse is gone!" Angel reasoned. Buffy was quite obviously shocked at his statement. How could he be human? He was a vampire. Vampires don't just change. Even though she didn't understand, Buffy didn't have time to question it,
"It's not the curse, Angel," she explained. Angel looked confused,
"Then what is it? Do you just not trust me? Is that it?!" he asked starting to get hysterical.
"No! Angel, no! I trust you, I do! But how do I know you mean it this time?" Buffy stopped to catch her breath to stop the tears that threatened to fall from falling, "I trust you with my life. But...can I trust you with my heart? How am I supposed to know that you won't break it again?" At this Buffy lost control and the tears began to fall, "You left me so many times!" Buffy sank to the floor, trembling and sobbing.
"Buffy. I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never do. I'm sorry, but this will be different I promise. Just give me a chance," he asked, while she calmed down and the tears began to subside.
"No, Angel. No. I've had enough. I can't go through that again. I'm sorry." At her words, Buffy got up and left, out of his life. Forever.
To be continued...
Sorry this chapter is so short. I've had loads of exams so I haven't had time to write a lot. Most of the big scary exams are over so I'll try to post more.
To those of you who are major B/A fans, I'm sorry about all the angst, but I like angst and it makes the ending all worthwhile.