Sorry if it's not as good as it should be! My exams are next week and I wanted to finish one last chapter before I started again in the summer vacation...which is soon.

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My mind's own heart ache

Sheena's POV

"Eeeeeeerrrrrrrrpppppppp!"

"Ha! I can so beat that!" Genis jumped up and down on the spot.

We were all down at the beach for the final day of the summer festival and Lloyd and Genis were deeply engaged in a burping contest while swallowing bottles of soda frizz to enhance the volume of the air passing through their mouth. Disgusting.

"Eeeeeeerrrrpppppppp!" Genis banged his chest and howled, "Take that Lloyd!"

"Lies!" Yelped the one with a snorkel, "Colette?...Hey Colette?"

"Yes Lloyd?" The blond girl asked.

"Wasn't I louder?"

"Umm…" Colette hesitated for a moment, "louder in what Lloyd?"

Lloyd stood with a blank look and Genis yipped in the background.

Thankfully I was quite a distance from them sitting all by my lonesome on the hot sand. Well, I prefer to be alone it gives time to think.

Zelos would leave tomorrow and I'd have to make the decision whether or not I'd go with him. I hate to say I'm tempted to do so. But I am.

I sighed and leaned on my arms, it would feel awkward just coming out and saying I wanted to stay with him, for sure Zelos would have some sort of wrong picture in his grossly contaminated mind. So maybe whe- no, if he asks I'll just have to swallow my pride and except.

My it gets late fast. The moon was up before dark and it's really cold. I think it's just the wind.

"Hey…"

I turned to the side; it was Raine, "Something the matter?"

"No, not really." Raine smiled slightly, "Just been thinking when we'd met up again. Is that strange?"

"Not at all." propping myself up on my elbows I sighed once more, "I'm sure we'll meet again."

Raine nodded, "I wonder what little Presea's up too. Well, she not exactly little…"

"I don't know, although I do want to meet up sometime. She's probably at Ozette."

"Perhaps, anyways." Raine stretched and got up, "Just wanted to talk, but I can't remember what my original topic was."

"No matter, if you remember you tell me the next time we meet." I grinned and got up as well, the grains of sand were getting irritating.

"Now I'm sure we'll meet." Raine was about to leave but she turned around again, "Will you be in Mizuho?"

My slightly good mood dropped but I couldn't let it show, "Naw, I think I'll roam around for a bit."

"Travel the world while you can. Goodnight Sheena...or are you coming?"

I yawned and followed her, "I'm coming, but goodnight anyways if I fall asleep half the way."

I heard a light chuckle and rubbed my arms from the coolness of the night air.

It seemed I wasn't so tired since I went out the balcony with one of the fluffy white robes wrapped tightly around my body.

It was cold and it reminded me of strange things in my past, like the night the chief found me. Weird how my mind recalls such things only in the black of night. But that night is still so vivid in my memory, almost as if it was burned into my very conscience. I probably owe my life to this man, yet I almost took his.

I know it's wrong to run, and I'll have to go back to Mizuho soon. I can't stay away forever, besides where will I go? Even if I do stay with Zelos I can't burden him forever, he'd need to get on with his own life. Whatever that includes.

Speaking of which, I can't help but feel like there's something missing in my life. Of course there's so much, like the giant void in my past, or the bitter emptiness of my present. But there something that makes my heart ache with such incredible pain it feels as if I want to scream, let it all out…but then, there's nothing to let out in the first place.

Perhaps that's what hurts me most, knowing that there's nothing, and I so desperately want to make it something that my heart pounds with such dreadful fury attempting to make that certain something, just anything to hang onto.

Yet, there's never anything. Sometimes I think it may not be something, but someone. So strange, it's highly unusual for me to be pining for a person when all my life I was completely ignorant of them.

"I see you can't sleep either."

Still lost in a daze I refused to turn around but I answered anyways, "Yeah, what brings you here Zelos?"

"You looked lonely, taught you could use a little cheering up from the man who can do it best." Zelos grinned and I snorted.

"Sure."

"Now I know for certain there's something bugging you." He turned on his side so he had direct view of my face.

I remained unchanged, "How's that?"

"For one you normally snap at comments like that and you don't look so good." Zelos answered smartly.

"Great, thanks." I mumbled.

I heard him laugh softly and place a warm arm around my shoulders, "Why won't you let me know what's on your mind? I know it's none of my business but can't I even get an 'I'm not doing good' at least?"

"I don't know what's wrong." It was the truth, well partly anyways, "I want something but I don't know what it is…"

The carefully laid arm got a bit more comfortable around its place on my shoulders and I couldn't help but feel drawn in by the warmth of Zelos' body.

"I'd be lying to say I don't know what you mean." He let go of me and pressed his palms up against the cold stone railing, "So…are you coming or not?"

I guess now's a good a time as any to make my decision, "You sure it's ok?"

I had to ask, it was the polite thing to do.

Zelos grinned widely, "Would I ever say no to my favorite hunny?"

I choose to ignore that this time as I tried to answer I became lost and started fumbling, "I don't know, I think…I might-yeah."

Zelos looked confused as he scratched his head, "Is that a yes…or a no?"

"Yes." I said quietly as I turned to face the scenery in front.

"Great, we'll have breakfast and go." Zelos turned on his heal and began to leave.

"…thanks." It was barely a whisper but I was certain he heard it since his footsteps paused for a second and then continued to shuffle back inside.

Wow, I'd actually be living with the person I hate most. Although it's funny, I felt different, well my mood anyway changed, it was lighter somehow, but just for a while…and in a fleeting second it was gone as quick as it came.

I know it wasn't great, I was semi-rushing cause I didn't want anyone thinking I'd abandon this fic if I took to long to update. ;; sry. Anyways wish me luck…final exams start in seven days…I don't want to fail anything, especially math! My teacher is horrible!

Well, review please.

Thx…taataa till the next few weeks or so. I'll be back!