Disclaimer: I would love to say that I own Nathan, however I don't. I would love to own Keith, just because I absolutely love him, but I don't. I would love to say that I'm exactly like Brooke minus that entire whole entire slut thing, but I'm not. I utterly wish that they'd boot Haley off the show, but I'm pretty sure they won't.
In a nutshell, what I'm trying to say is; I got nothing.
Please do not sue. I'm not in the mood for a court hearing.
Summary: Brooke Davis hated a lot of things. But most of all she hated her reflection
The Shattered Reflection of Brooke Davis.
Chapter 3: Heaven Holds A Sense Of Wonder.
Passion chokes the flower
'til she cries no more
possessing all the beauty
hungry still for more
Heaven holds a sense of wonder...
I can't help this longing
comfort me
I can't hold it all in
if you won't let me.
Silence (Delirium)- Sarah McLachlan
Sometimes Brooke wondered if there really was a Heaven. Her aunt Eden believed that there was. Then again her aunt Eden was dying from breast cancer and she had to believe in something that brought comfort to her.
Brooke wondered if she was going to Heaven.
She choked up a laugh. She wasn't going anywhere near Heaven if everyone kept damning her to Hell.
Walking up the steps to Tree Hill High she looked around. She noticed the stares and glares from most people. When had it begun to seem that everyone was against her?
Then again maybe everyone had always been against her but they didn't have the guts to voice it.
The funny thing was that this time, Brooke was the victim.
I will stare at the sun until its light doesn't blind me
I will walk into the fire 'til its heat doesn't burn me
And I will feed the fire
Most times she loved staring into the sun and bathing in it. Now she looked at the sun to see if she still felt anything. She wanted to feel the rays burn her eyes. She wanted to feel the heat radiate from the glass window onto her body.
She didn't feel anything.
Her eyes didn't burn.
She sighed and turned away from the sun. The one thing she hated most about Advanced American History. Lucas, Peyton, Haley and Nathan were all in it.
'The whole gang is together.' Brooke thought bitterly.
What gang were they? The sort of gang that backstabs one another in the back? She felt sick just looking at them. She felt sick seeing Haley through dirty looks her.
Wasn't Haley supposed to be the nice one?
"Your assignment will be to take an event from America's history and write a seven page report on it." The class groaned. Brooke stayed silent. Groaning took to much effort. "Oh stop with the groaning and moaning." Mrs. Soledad ordered.
"I bet Brooke Davis favorite pastime is moaning and groaning." A voice rang out.
Brooke felt like dying. Usually she'd have a good insult for the person, but she just didn't feel like making more enemies then she already had.
"Yeah and I bet your favorite pastime is wishing you'd get some." Brooke's head snapped towards Nathan Scott. Apparently she wasn't the only one that was shocked from his outburst. The three amigos also turned a complete 180 to look at him.
Brooke was internally grateful for him.
"Settle down or I'm sending a majority of you to the office." Mrs. Soledad snapped. "You're allowed to work in partners if you wish. However since there is an odd number of people one person will have to work alone. Any volunteers?" Brooke raised her hand. She didn't feel like working with anyone else. Mrs. Soledad nodded slowly. "Alright Ms. Davis is working alone. The rest of you get into partners and start picking a topic."
Lucas and Peyton were partners. They brought their desks together and started flirting like there was nothing wrong in the world.
Never mind that her heart was breaking.
Brooke grabbed her backpack and stood up. "Mrs. Soledad." She said. "I'm not feeling too well. May I go home?" It wasn't a lie. She felt sick.
"Ms. Davis you need a topic."
She thought about it for a moment. Her aunt Eden always had a fascination with the Salem Witch Trials. "The Salem Witch Trials." Brooke responded.
"It fits perfectly doesn't it?" Brooke looked at Haley.
Whoever said that Haley James was a nice person obviously wasn't on her I-Wish-You'd-Burn-In-The-Deepest-Pit-Of-Hell list.
"You'd think that wouldn't you?" With that Brooke ducked her head and walked out the classroom.
Never mind that the tears were steaming down her face.
She didn't go home.
Instead she went tothis place thatshe found when she was ten. It was a half-hour from her house. It was isolated and hardly anyone went there. There was a small waterfall and the grass was greener than it normally was. There was a little garden with more flowers than the Public Gardens. If there really was a Heaven, Brooke really hoped that this is what it looked like.
Not that she would ever know.
She looked at the sky. It went from sunny and wonderful to cloudy and ugly. It looked like it was going to rain any minute.
Brooke didn't mind. It fit her mood perfectly.
She laid down on the ground and watched the clouds mingle together.
She liked it better when it was just her and Nature. When the clouds seemed minutes away from her. All she had to do was reach out her hand to feel the sky. She liked feeling little when it came to the sky. That was the only time that she liked feeling little. When it was the sky compared to her. She thought better that way.
She could think about everything that she couldn't think about when she was around people. She could let her mind wander. She could wonder about the comfort that she wanted to feel again. She wanted to know if she could ever feel again. She wanted to know if she'd ever get her life back.
She looked at the garden. So many flowers and colors. They seemed brighter than they had before. It seemed that the color that was sucked from her life went into the flowers to make them more beautiful than they already were.
At least her beauty went to something good.
She looked up at the sky as the raindrops fell on her face, one by one. She stayed on the ground when the rain came all at once. She didn't even register the footsteps until she saw out of her peripheral vision a body lay down next to hers. She turned her head and came in contact with the brown eyes of Nathan Scott. They sat in silence just listening as the rain came pounding on them. She didn't care how he knew about this place. And she didn't care that they were getting wet. "Do you believe in Heaven?" Brooke asked.
She saw him shrug. "I don't know. Do you?"
Brooke looked up at the sky again and waited a moment before answering. "I actually think I do. It's a place of many wonders."
Everyone had to start believing in something at sometime in their lives.
The three phrases that are in italics is part of the song Into The Fire by: Sarah McLachlan. She's one of my favorite female singers. Anyways so it belongs to her.
Okay so every story I have has one really weak chapter and I don't know about you guys but I think that this was it. So you have to give me feedback. Even if it's just to totally bash me.
Onto my reviewers:
Ohsnapers: Thank you very much.
Clemsontigerchic: Thank you very much and hopefully you enjoyed this chapter!
Tutorwife:I didn't want to make you cry! I'm glad that you're enjoying this though. I can picture myself in Brooke's shoes too! That's why I started to write this. I think (and I can be wrong) that everyone can see themselves in Brooke's shoes. I like what she said to Lucas too. I love Brooke period! Thank you. No Books isn't my real name actually it's just a nickname that I got and it stuck. My real name is Rebecca.Which is funny because in my last story a person reviewed and there name was Rebecca and I was just like. "Hey she has the same name as me. And it's not me!" So when my sister looked at the reviews she asked. "Did you review your own story?" I laughed so hard. Anyways sorry if I bored you! Thanks for the review!
Brucas744: Yes I agree!
Heavenleigh88: Another chapter. Hopefully you liked it.
Brathanforever07: I'm glad that you like this story. I'm not sure if it is going to be a Brathan but their my favorite ship too!
ForeverBrucas: Is it sad? It's sort of meant to be an angst sort of drama story and I don't know if it's all balancing out okay. I don't know about the ending. I might have a little surprise!
RoryNDean4ever: She's my favorite character too! I like stories based on her too! You can write so many things about her and it all turns out good.
Imaslacker: I was thinking of leaving it as a one-shot but I had so many ideas that I couldn't just leave it. I was waiting for her to crack but she didn't. All that much anyways. If she did at all. Thank you for the review.
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